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People don't realise how fat I am. They stare at my breasts and don't notice the enormous belly underneath. Is it my fault? Sorry guys, if you want me, you'll have to take all of me. And please don't judge me just by a photo (whether that is positive or negative judgement). There is a lot more in me than my looks. When my body goes or gravity takes severe hold of it, there will still be my brain and spirit to entice you. (Besides there is nothing that a bit of dieting and some plastic surgery can't fix! LOL)
On a lighter note, I am going through a polyamorous phase right now. That does not mean to say when I find the right man I will not be faithful to him. Quite the contrary. A woman who has sampled the love of many men is better able to appreciate the love of one man. Besides, it is fun for the Master to give his sub to other men, to 'test her obedience and resilience' LOL (OK I am a dirty slut at heart, what can I say!)
I am wild and hard to control but I yearn for control, I yearn to give myself to a man out of sheer love and admiration for him, not out of fear or need. Problem is I am too experienced in the lifestyle and able to spot the fakes a mile away :( And some men who may have excellent Dom potential are afraid to approach me or approach me the wrong way. *sigh*
It is not easy, is it? We are all asking a lot from life and have no patience to get to know a person and explore the possibilities. I blame the internet for that. Access to too many things, too easily. Just a click of the mouse, that is how long we have to draw attention or how long our attention span is...
All I can say is if you like me, persevere. I may drop off line for various reasons but unless I tell you clearly that I am not interested in you, do not give up. Friendships are cultivated slowly. Plants that are forced to bloom before their time are usually weak and end up in the dustbin after you change their living conditions.
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