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| "Tell me who you love and i'll tell you who you are..." i'm looking for someone who understands that i'm not a doormat. i'm a real person with real ambitions and real feelings. i'm looking for a friendship that can develop into something much deeper and meaningful than average friendships. i was once asked "Why are you submissive?" I am submissive for many reasons,but chief among them is that it makes me happy, safe, secure, loved, and desired in one fell swoop. I also have the opportunity to serve, love, cherish, and hide behind another person when life gets big. There are many benefits to my being submissive. The weight of the world being lifted off of my shoulders when I enter Daddys house. In that haven all that matters is pleasing him. His rule is law. No one elses opinion matters and he is all I see. It gives me an immense joy to be told Good Girl and so I achieve that as often as possible. All in all Im very much a pleaser. I will please everyone as often as possible because I hate to have people disappointed/angry with me. Thats not to say I cant hold my own in confrontation, but its not my first choice by any means. I am reasonable, logical, and rational most of the time. It turns me on to be told things like Bend over my knee and Be good for Daddy, as well as a great many other things. I need discipline in my life. Im a free-wheeling bohemian gypsy hippie and I need a buffer between me and complete freedom. I wont be contained in a gilded cage by my master, but I will be much less likely to randomly change cities, seek out adrenaline junkies, quit school because "it's not fun anymore", or any other unhealthy choice if I know my well being is important to him. I use physical pain to release emotional pain. This is a healthy way to do that. I realized that early on in life. I took that broken piece of me and found people who were broken in the same wayjust complimentary to my own defect rather than parallel. i crave pain. i need that release. i need to feel the kiss of a crop stinging into tender flesh. i need it over and over. Pain is my addiction, my vice. Im afraid of the paddle even as it makes me wet. Thats probably the most succinct way I can put why Im submissive. Im submissive because its who I am. I feel less than whole when I choose a vanilla path. i'm not one dimensional by any means though. i'm a full time college student and work full time as well. i tend to read more than watch movies and have a love affair with caffeine that is legendary. i spend way too much time on the internet learning how to fold origami and finding new recipes and, of course, perusing smut. i value friendship more than gold any day of the week and am always looking for new people to call friend. Please feel free to message me for any reason. "Live as if each moment will be your last. have your own death ever in your heart so that you may fear nothing and act with sincerity."
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