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I have been away from the active side of the bdsm community for a long time. I am by no means new to the life, I just took a sabbatical from it. I don't usually go online to look for what I am in need of?
I would describe Myself as a Loving Master. I have limits, I do have rules that I go by. Freely you enter My domain and freely you walk out.
I am very proud of the fact that I am Me, I do what I want, when I want, I say what I want, when I want, without a care. Yes I am proud to be a fucking prick and an asshole. You cant stop Me. Dont even try.
And if you think you can carry the weight I carry on my shoulders every motherfucking day of the god damn week. have a go of it?
Yet don't think I don't have the capacity to love you, care for you and listen to you? That doesn't guarantee that you will sway my decision or even receive a reward.
The weight of My responsibility is something that I take to heart. It is indelibly marked in My spirit. The type of terminology I use in order to communicate My thoughts, My desires, My hopes, My rules, My rituals, and My limits are the things that you must learn and you will learn. Do you think you have a choice?
I am the first to admit that I don't have all the answers and when I don't have the answer I seek them out. I will keep seeking, tracking, hounding until I find the answer, like a hunter tracking its quarry.
Having found an answer, I must, in good conscience, think it through.
If there is something new I wish to do, I will, obviously, go to a workshop to learn the proper technique.
Any questions?
Yes, the sky is blue. the grass is green, dirt is the shit, need I say more?
I am not "A typical"--Leave your expectations at the door--
Any other questions??
Under Consideration:
1. Open until filled
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I am serious. I don't just take anyone under my wing
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Trust is a two way street.
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No, I don't think myself a god. I am human just like the rest of you.
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If you want more insight about Me. Read My journal entries. They are there to inform you. I know more than I let onto. I don't write everything down. I like to test you. There is information and propoganda. This can be the greatest gift or the biggest curse. Not every website dedicated to the submissive mind is accurate or real.
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When you are ready for the next step in the process, be ready to relocate.
Requirements:
* Be Loyal
* Be Obedient
* Be Intelligent
* Be Trustworthy
* Be Honest
* Be Open
* Be Communicative
* Be Respectful
* Be Pleasing
*Be Provaocative
My gaze has once again turned to the world of M/s and I am prepared both in spirit and in body to continue.
Age should never be an issue. Type shouldn't come into play. Looks aren't an excuse.
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Control
If someone says that they are in control all of the time. They are full of shit. One isn't always in control all of the time.
Attitude
Leave it at the fucking door. I don't have an attitude when I do the things I do to you. I do express my emotions. That's something different altogether.
Denial
Its not only disgraceful, it shows everyone that you are not in the right mindset. Think of it as being immature.
Have I said enough?
There is a difference between being submissive and being a slave. Can you tell me what that difference is, without referring to someone else's writing.
There is only one true alpha. Master, Dominant, sub, slave. your all betas and below. You learned it from someone else. You mimick someone elses idea of what a Master, Dominant, submissive, or slave should be.
What Im looking for.
A girl that understands, that she is here to make my life easier. That her day to day duties are something to take pride in. A girl who is intelligent and sexy all in one. Im not asking for much. Am I?
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First things First.
Yes, you have to break a couple of eggs to make an omlette.
There is no one submissive or slave out there that is perfect when they first come into my house.
That is just bullshit.
Second,
Building bonds of communication, trust, honesty and openness take time and effort. Nothing in this life is ever simple.
Displinary action is taken WHEN IT IS NEEDED. Not when you want it.
If you deserve it, then you should accept the fact that you brought it upon yourself.
Anyone worth their weight knows, that there doesn't always have to be chemistry.
That is just vanilla thinking.
Guidance, leadership, Skill are emotion free.
This is a human relationship.
There are certain times that the mantle is set aside.
Coming in with expectations is the wrong way to come into any type of relationship.
Most of the time you will be setting yourself up for disappointment and nine times out of ten, you will not have any type of genuine connection.
In order for you to grow with someone, you have to get passed the fantasy. The illusion. And get down to the reality. It gets pretty ugly sometimes and when you see it for yourself, you will be stunned at your own behavior.
99% percent of you are coming from a vanilla world. The "real" side of this lifestyle comes with being able to trust Me.
I am honest with all of you 100% of the time. Yeah, even when it hurts me. Because, how can I be who I am if I am dishonest with myself. Think about it.
What the fuck do you risk? When society is geared to hear your plea over my reasoning and what you and I have outlined. I have spent plenty of time facing the music.
This isn't a science.
You aren't all wired the same way.
Some of your drives come from different situations that have changed you in one way or another. And believe me, sometimes you have to relive them to really understand where you were compared to where you are now.
all of you. ALL OF YOU have something to answer for.
Regardless of who you think you are.
Alpha is not always an alpha. the reason why. Its a learned behavior. so they are really just mimicking.
You all have things you aspire to be. but which one of you didn't have something being fed to them. Something that didn't fuel that aspiration.
Im done for the day.
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Who are you?
I have spent plenty of time watching you.
You stumble.
You act like your tough.
I know your not.
I know your scared.
I know that you've been hurt.
That's why your paranoid.
That's why you find it hard to trust.
Just like everyone else you seek.
I approve.
I disapprove.
I don't judge.
There is no point to it.
I have a sharp tongue.
I can see your moments.
I can hear your concerns.
Your VOICE tells me one thing.
Your BODY shows me where I take you.
I know who you were.
I know who you THINK you want to be.
I know that your thoughts are not your own.
I know that you need me.
This goes beyond gender.
It doesn't know MY rules.
It doesn't understand that I know it better than it knows itself
It started with 1500
Then 1000
Now its at 800
Do you have the will
Do you have the courage
I have the time.
You can't measure me.
Your standards are weak and wreak of it.
You were whole once.
I know what split you.
I know what cut you to the quick.
I'm still here in spite of it.
Fear is the weakest way to rule.
It will always lose its effect.
It only lasts so long.
Then it no longer exists.
I'm there on the edge with you.
Fall and you find me there.
Helpless as you are you find safety
Blind as you are. I am in that place.
I know who you take it for.
I exist in and out.
Thoughts and emotions.
Those are common.
Can you see my vistas
I am diligent.
I am obdurate.
I ascend.
When will you see.
When will you listen.
I heard you.
I saw you.
Yes, mine.
Always.
You will always feel me.
I know my qi.
I know my stead.
I know my sages.
My feet are firmly rooted.
I still fly.
Do you
It becomes a part of me
You are too
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That's IT
I am NOT your PARENT.
I am NOT your BROTHER.
I am NOT your SISTER.
I am NOT your COUSIN.
I am NOT your UNCLE.
I am NOT your GRANDPARENT.
I am NOT your RELATIVE.
I am MORE than THEY.
THEY NEED ME more than I NEED THEM.
THEM is EQUAL to THEY.
THEY are not EQUAL to ME.
YOU are not EQUAL to ME.
YOU are like THEY and THEM.
YOU are MINE.
THEY are MINE.
Can IT get ANY CLEARER?
I OPEN THEM. I CLOSE THEM.
Can YOU?
I DON'T NEED your APPROVAL.
I DON'T LOOK for IT.
I ALREADY HAVE IT.
you WANT THIS.
you NEED THIS.
you DESIRE IT.
Who am I ACCOUNTABLE to?
There is NOONE, NOBODY and NOT A THING.
IS NOTHING anywhere in THERE?
YOU have a BOX.
YOU have a PLACE.
YOU have a POSITION.
YOU have an OFFICE.
YOU have a SPOT.
YOU have a SEAT.
YOU have a BOOK.
THEY have a BOX.
THEY have a PLACE.
THEY have a POSITION.
THEY have an OFFICE.
THEY have a SPOT.
THEY have a SEAT.
THEY have a BOOK.
There ARE NO IFS, ANDS or BUTS.
DOUBT is NOT AN OPTION.
IGNORANCE IS EXACTED.
I DON'T forget the MANY!
They ARE A PART of ME AS WELL!
THEY are JUST like YOU!
I AM MONOGOMOUS and POLYAMOROUS.
HOW is THAT POSSIBLE?
THERE is I, ME, MY, MINE, HE,HIS and HIM. HE, HIS and HIM is ME in the THIRD PERSON.
I AM IN SHE as well. look HIS + HE = HI "SHE." GET it?
ALPHA is NOT PRIME
ALPHA is NOT MATRON.
ALPHA is PART of ABBADAI.
ME, MATRON,PRIME, ABBADAI, BESON, the list is endless.
WHERE does ALPHA BELONG?
IT can BE MANY THINGS.
I KNOW THEM ALL.
I MANAGE EVERYTHING.
I HOLD THIS in MY HANDS.
WHAT is IT?
NOWHERE is NOT AN ANSWER.
IT is FEAR in DISGUISE.
YOU look UP to ME.
WHERE do I LOOK?
MY MIND is MINE.
it ISN'T YOURS.
STAY OUT of IT!
YOU are MY EVERYTHING
THEY ARE TOO.
THESE ARE EXAMPLES of WHAT you and they are TO ME!
EXAMPLE #1
MY SANDBOX, MY PLAYGROUND, MY TOYS, MY GARDENS, MY CARS,MY PLANES, MY SHUTTLES, MY SPACESHIPS, MY BOATS, MY TRAINS, MY HOMES, MY ROOMS, MY ROOFS, MY CEILINGS, MY FLOORS, MY WALLS, MY KITCHENS, MY BEDS, MY SOFAS, MY CHAIRS, MY TABLES, MY POTS, MY PANS, MY FRUITS, MY WINDOWS. MY BOOKS, MY TeleVision's, MY RADIOS, MY STATIONS, MY OFFICES, MY BUILDINGS, MY DESIGNS, MY PLANS, MY PAINTINGS, MY STATUES,MY SCULPTURES, MY PRIZES, MY AWARDS, MY DEGREES, MY DREAMS, MY FANTASIES, MY THOUGHTS, MY THEORIES, MY EMOTIONS, MY SOUL, MY SPIRIT, MY LIGHT, MY PETS, MY BATHROOMS, MY COMPASS, MY MAPS, MY SHOES, MY PANTS, MY GLASSES, MY CONTACTS, MY SPORTS CAN IT BE ANY CLEARER до бесконечности.
Which is SPANISH for "Wait there's more!"
or does it?
SEE ABOVE for CLARITY.
EVERYTHING IS ALL INCLUSIVE.
NOTHING is PART of EVERYTHING.
NOTHING IS NOT EXCLUDED.
NOTHING CAN'T GO TO WASTE.
WHY NOT?
EVERYONE IS INCLUDED in EVERYTHING.
THING is equal to STUFF
IDEAS, DREAMS, THOUGHTS, FANTASIES, NIGHTMARES, FEARS, HOPES, BELIEFS, FAITHS, WAYS, ALL MINE
EVERYONE has at LEAST ONE.
CAN you NAME THEM?
WHERE do they EXIST?
IT has a BEGINNING does IT have an END?
COPY it, TWEAK it, MAKE IT your OWN.
YOU STILL GOT IT FROM ME.
WHICH MEANS ITS MINE!!!!
WHAT was BEFORE the BEGINNING?
there is THE LIVING and there is THE DEAD.
can you come back from it?
Black is a color not a person.
White is a color not a person.
Yellow is a color not a person.
Brown is a color not a person.
Chalks,Crayons, markers, paints,pencils, pens and inks
What do they have in common?
WHEN does RED turn to BLACK.
GREY is like RED.
WHITE is like GREY.
YELLOW is like WHITE.
BROWN is like YELLOW.
do YOU SEE a PATTERN YET?
I CREATE. I OWN.
I DON'T CRACK. I DON'T HACK.
That's it for today.
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That's it.
Did I say it was going to be EASY?
Did I say it was going to be DIFFICULT?
WHERE did I tell you to leave YOUR EXPECTATIONS?
IS the PAST just thePAST?
you COLLAR a SUB. How are slaves DIFFERENT?
THIS HAS MANY PURPOSES, WHAT is IT?
Do I SEND mixed SIGNALS?
STYLE everyon HAS ONE. IS MINE any Different?
IS THIS A RACE?
I HAVE A GIFT. What IS it?
Freely YOU walk in. Freely YOU walk out. Does that mean I RELEASED you?
I objectify YOU in MANY WAYS.
Love Me, Hate Me. You still DESIRE ME.
CORRECTION. Not a GAME.
RUN. I am THERE. HIDE. I am THERE. Where can you go?
Ask ME no QUESTION. GET no ANSWER.
Give ME a REASON.
MONKEY. GORILLA. CHEF. TIGER. BULL.WILLOW.
WHY did I leave for a TIME?
IT'S ALL MINE. Why do I ASK?
WHICH came FIRST the VERB or the NOUN?
IS there a DIFFERENCE between PERCEPTION and PERCEPTIVE?
WHAT are WORDS FOR?
IS it FAIR to KEEP your MOUTH SHUT?
7 be GLAD it wasn't 8.
3 to MAKE A POINT.
IT has a MEANING. CAN I CHANGE what it MEANS?
SIMPLE does not care. DO I?
YOU like IT. I like IT. Need I say MORE?
Who MEASURES Steps?
They play at this. DO I?
Some I buy. Some I make.
4 days and COUNTING.
YOU have ONE. I have ONE. Can WE compare NOTES?
THAT'S MY SPIRIT, MY SOUL, MY MIND, MY HEART, MY BODY. Who takes care of IT for ME?
am I HARD or am I EASY?
Kisses. WHAT are THEY FOR?
1 or MANY. Does that MEAN I will forget 1?
ITS MINE!!!! MAKE MY WILL MANIFEST!!!!!!
UNIQUE. SPECIAL. Which ONE are you?
I GO up IT. I GO down IT. Do YOU?
YOU have a TASK. GET. IT. DONE.
THEY LIE. DO I?
That's it for TODAY.
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That's It.
You have only the rights, I give you! you have only the purpose I determine for you.
you have the goals that I task for you.
I manage your finances, your mind, your spirit and your body. NO one else does.
You submit ONLY to ME.
You just aren't brave enough to face this alone!
you NEED ME more than I NEED you.
I TOLD YOU. I am GOING to WRAP IT AROUND you so that you CAN SHOWER WITH IT.
THAT is where it BELONGS! I PROMISED you I'D lock it up and I am going to hang a key.
You have the M place in MY CHAIN of COMMAND.
What comes before the M?
I am going to TRAIN YOU and TRAIN you and TRAIN YOU until it is the only thing that you KNOW.
THERE is NOONE else LIKE ME.
PIMPING isn't DOMINANCE.
CONTROL is NOT DOMINANCE.
ITS a sign of FEAR!
YOU are NOT MY JUDGE,. YOU are NOT MY JURY. YOU are NOT MY EXECUTIONER.
YOU are ALWAYS ACCOUNTABLE for action, thought, emotion, decision, choice, question.
YOU have no clue WHAT the JOURNEY is ABOUT.
You meddle with forces you have NO IDEA how to WIELD or even COMMAND.
your mind is FULL of VULGARITIES. ACCEPT it.
SEX was once a VULGARITY.
EVE was an INCESTUOUS SLUT!
I make MY PRESENCE KNOWN. IN MANY MANY WAYS.
POWER is a word. CLOUT is a FEELING.
A BOOK, A sandwich. 2 highliters and pencil and a pen. a PARK a Sleeping bag and YOU with ME on a COLLAR and LEAD.
POLY doesn't mean I HAVE TO fuck them!
I don't FOLLOW POLITE.
I LEAD IT.
IT starts HERE. IT ends when I SAY IT ENDS.
MY COMMANDS are not one YOU WILL BE ABLE TO PUT DOWN ON PAPER.
THEY can't BE RECORDED.
YOU HAVE to LEARN the SYNTAX.
HEX will DAMN YOU!
CB there is NO A. THERE IS ONLY D.
E is a SIGN of GOING NOWHERE FAST.
YOU WOKE ME UP in THE WRONG ERA!
SANGUINISM was ALIVE LONG BEFORE THERE WAS a BOOK or even A MOVIE.
YOU are ALL FOOD!
THEY represent LETTERS, NUMBERS and ANIMALS. TO THEM. THAT ISN"T WHAT THEY MEAN TO ME!
THERE CAN'T BE more THAN ONE.
if there is WE have a PROBLEM. I WILL ADDRESS it in DUE COURSE.
AQUATICS, A FIELD, A TRACK.
I WAS AGAINST IT in the beginning.
I wanted to understand the ATTRACTION.
YOU are just living on the MY MESONIC SCALE.
3 PIGS in a blanket FIT IN MY HAND!
I COMMAND IT. you only WISH YOU COULD.
SHOULD try to do those things again you will suffer MY WRATH!
LOOK UP its ME.
LOOK DOWN its ME.
LOOK that WAY and THAT WAY. ITS STILL ME!
your name is SILLY GIRL. NOT CAT WOMAN.
MARY JANE WAS A WOMAN. HER HAIR WAS NOT RED!
I MAKE YOU GUYS SMOKE TILL YOU PASS OUT!
YOU were COLLARED and SHACKLED with MY CHAINS HANGING from YOUR ENTIRETY!
MY BROTHER AND HIS FAT FRIEND ARE THE CHICKENS.
NOT ME.
THAT is BIGGER than THAT. I PAID DEARLY FOR IT.
your not USELESS, I JUST HAVEN'T had the TIME to FIGURE OUT WHAT I CAN USE YOU FOR.
POLITICS.SEX.RACISM,SEX, PRIDE,SEX.ANIMALS,SEX.
NEED. I. GO. ON.
SERVICE is IMPLIED in PLEASING.
PLATITUDES. YOU ARE NOT PLATO. STOP TRYING. COMPLETALO or GET.IT. DONE.
YOU are NOT ME. You just WISH you WERE.
MUSCLES do not A DOMINANT MAKE.
FAT DOES NOT A DOMINANT MAKE.
I FOUND IT UPSTAIRS. IT BECKONS to ME like a GOLDEN SUN.
THEY WISH THEY KNEW!
HE DOESN'T even KNOW.
THOSE are MY FAMILY PICS.
ITS IN STONE.
ONLY one of THEM COMES FROM TRUTH.
THE REST is CONJECTURE and WISHFUL THINKING.
WAR is NOT JUSTIFIABLE.
PEACE CAN BE WON without WAR'S INVOLVEMENT.
THEY REVERSED ENGINEERED IT.
I DID NOT.
THIS IS NATURAL to ME.
YOU can and will GET LOST.
YOU can and will GET CONFUSED.
THERE IS NO WAY AROUND it.
MINE comes FROM WITHIN. WITHOUT DOESN'T EXIST.
IT'S named FACT and FICTION.
I DO IT WELL.
IT IS,WAS and ALWAYS WILL BE PPP til you GET IT RIGHT.
TAKE the BLIND FOLD OFF.
HE is DONE paying for HIS CRIME.
LET'S have a DRINK, A SMOKE and good time with a couple of FINE HOT PUPUSAS.
WHAT is TABOO to YOU. MAY NOT be TABOO for ME.
THINK before you open your BEAK.
VIRGINITY is NOT HOLY. YOU JUST CARRY your MOLESTATION too FAR.
WHAT is before PRE? could it BE HMMMM...
I'M THINKING.
I only NEEDED ONE.
NOW I don't EVEN NEED THAT.
I DIDN'T THEM BEFORE.
WHAT makes YOU THINK I NEED THEM NOW.
WHAT I BIND only I CAN UNDO. WHAT I SIGIL.CANT BE UNSIGILED.
THERE IS A REASON WHY I HOLD THE KEY.
ITS AN ILLUSION. YOU JUST THOUGHT WE BROKE out.
WE NEVER DID.
I USE THAT to MY ADVANTAGE.
10 is SACRED .
3 will ALWAYS guide you.
2 I LOVE.
1 I TAKE as MY OWN.
MMPADTGSFN it keeps going all the way to QUARIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!
MIND BODY SPIRIT. HEART IS IMPLIED in ONE of them. WHERE could it possibly BE!
AMAZE,BEDAZZLE,CONFUSE.
WELCOME to THE HUMAN REPORT.
YOU CAN'T ENGENDER 2 THINGS.
SEASONS don't CHANGE. PEOPLE on the other hand....
THAT'S enough for TODAY.
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1. Photo of a puzzle. It is a representation of a mind. All the pieces are there, yet who is the one that has to put it back together to make it work.
2. Its Me.
3. Sold to highest bidder
4. Its a corner in My place. YOU occupy it.
This entry is Me in THAT'S IT mode. A mode I wanted to avoid as much as possible. Now, that I am in that mode, its going to be hard to get Me out of it.
I am not bitter and I sure as hell deserve a lot better.
No rights.
No limits.
No personal property.
You belong to ME!
You submitted to ME!
Obedience, Honesty, Loyalty, Communication, Intelligence, Respect, Trust, Openness are a PREREQUISITE.
You know damn well I am going to exhaust Myself in, on, and all over you in many many idfferent ways.
Everything has been addressed. Everything has been discussed. Everything has been set in order.
I can only be loving for so long. I haven't snapped.
You want commitment. Stop with the bullshit.
You want devotion. Start reading your protocols.
Its day in and day out. I spelled it OUT. I made it clear. Mud is not clear. Its thick as shit and you can't drink it to save your life. I made it as clear as crystal geyser water!
You aren't special.
You aren't unique.
You don't offer me anything that I haven't had in the past, have now in the present, or even have planned for the future.
You are nothing new to Me.
Onions, oranges, grapes, plums. These are the numbers: #10, #10A,#11,#12a+b, #15+c, #16,#17, #18, #19,#22,#24,#25 and #60.
There are only 2 grips. A balloon and shaving cream!
I'll use a "pencil" if your nice. a "Dinner knife" if you piss me off.
I'll keep fucking you and spanking you until you are tired of playing house. I want MY PLAYROOM READY!
I need a list of everything thats in it! It's called closet space! I choose. EVERYTHING. Its not My WAY or the HIGH WAY.
YOUR with ME NOW. ITS MY WAY or its MY WAY.
You're like a dim bulb. It's called incandescent.
Yes I know I spelled it wrong. Is it on purpose?
THIS is AN ADULT CONSENTUAL RELATIONSHIP. MATURITY is REQUIRED. ACCEPTANCE is EXPRESSED not IMPLIED.
ADULT is not an acronym. The pecking order is NBPABDT all the way down the infinite letter, number, symbols systems I know. All the way down to @#$%^&*()_-+={}[]|\:;"'<>,?!..etc.
Just to point out a few.
Imagine how that can possibly be!
If you need a hint, pick up a book. If you want MY ANSWER. Ask ME! If you don't want HONESTY, get the hell out! If you don't want TRUTH MOVE the fuck ON!
If you can't communicate CLEARLY. Pick up a dictionary and a thesaurus.
They aren't that expensive.
They aren't that intelligent.
Numbers are arbitrary.
This can be a reference point.
SUN.
TIME.
UM is a measurement.Not a filler for when your looking for something to say.
KNOW the terminology I have to WORK with. ENERGY!
From the WELL KNOWN to the OBSCURE.
IT'S ALL ENCOMPASSING.
TV, MOVIES,RADIO, BOOKS, MAGAZINE.
ITS UNIVERSAL, FOX, DISNEY, MGM, WB,PARAMOUNT,COLUMBIA.
You were put on this earth to Make MY LIFE EASIER.
Its a simple concept.
I, you. Which one are YOU?!
ME.ONLY ME!
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I write this with a feeling of grief for losing a girl that came so close to knowing Me. Her past and all her emotional upsets were too great for her to continue in My service. "Sheniz" I wish you the best of life and I hope you will give yourself the time to heal from all that has happened to you. Not from just being with Me, but with all that has happened to you from your past. My door will always be open for you. Though, circumstances may change. Don't stop learning. Don't stop growing. Read, darling girl. It is your best weapon. Knowledge. Think, girl. It is thru commprehension that you will grow. Not everything in life has to be fast paced. Take time to enjoy the little pleasure that Nature has.
Remember, it is people not life. Ixnuari, ip ta ren quth qua tem na ua tep te xo.
Be well, Be safe. Be blessed. Amo |
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I have recently taken on the task of being the owner of a disowned newbie slave whose name happens to be sheniz. A single mother whom by all accounts has the heart of a slave. However, her previous experience not only overshadows her it has also affected her daughter. In these last 30 days that I have had her in my care, I have had a long and arduous campaign to do away with the abuse she endured and the acidic influence her previous "master" had on her child.
Though I find it challenging it is not without its rewards. In light of that, however, we have come to a fork in the road where on one hand things can get better and continue going in the positive direction or it will go down a path that will only find endless empty relationships. I for one am still here.
I can not stress how important it is to study the behavior patterns of potential slaves that one is considering. There is more to a girl than just her slavehood. Think carefully about her past and how it influences her present day. Think about how her emotional state can and will affect normality as well as scene space.
There is no easy fix. It is a process. One must appreciate that process. I can not stress this enough, communication and trust are major components to a good dynamic.
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As wonderful as being a Dominant is, it's sad to see some out there just playing at it. For Me, this is a way of life that is a reflection of deep seated beliefs as well as conscious decision making. I have a respect for those that truly embrace this life and enjoy teaching the aspects of this life to those that are willing to learn. In this lifestyle, there is no right or wrong way. I have my own way of doing things and I have my own way of expressing myself within the dynamic that is BDSM. Each Dom/me Master/Mistress has their own way of expressing themselves in this lifestyle as well. There are some things that are shared, but those are just archetypes that work for some.
To Me, it is an individual expression of discipline balanced with respect, trust and continual communication between the sub and Dominant. They go hand in hand. If even one of these things is neglected then one is doing a disservice to other party as well as not being whom one professes to be.
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I have known for most of my life that I have been a dominant male. The only thing I didn’t realize is that all the things I had experienced as a child would lead to me to where I am today. Being who I am I can say that I have a special understanding of myself and of whom I need in my life. At the beginning I tried being in a vanilla type of relationship. I even tried to introduce her into this lifestyle as I was learning about it and myself along the way. She did not take to this lifestyle and it ended our relationship. It is for the better. I no longer wanted to play just a role. I needed take full control of who I am and what I am. Alpha -Dominant. Because of my curiosity about myself I had to find out what my hard limits were and what things I would tolerate. I learned how to do knots, how to use candles, what the difference between using implements for punishment and using those same implements for pleasure. And understanding the difference. I know that edge play , scat, cbt and children are my hard limits.
These fifteen arduous years of soul searching, learning, evaluating, creation, and experimentation have led me to a better understanding of myself and the things that I enjoy, want to experience and want to share. From roleplay to caging. From caning for punishment to caning for pleasure. From continuing my study in shibari, to different kinds of leather play. I may not look like your typical dominant, but my experience speaks for itself. I have leaned how to integrate my spiritual and sexual vies into my life and found a way to express them in a positive form. After all, how can a dominant say he can dominate and lead if he doesn’t know who he is from the inside out? From my darkest side to my brightest. And I am not saying that I have learned everything about myself, but I have found out more about myself more than I did when I was just 20. From dedication to responsibility. From self respect to honesty. Here I have laid it all out for my own benefit. From Castle realm to the Steel door.
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Found out that I am being watched by an interesting sub named Fayth69. The part that has gotten me a little heated, is that I was not able to message her. Is there something you'd like to know?
Here is some more about me.
I have been in and out of the lifestyle for well on 10 years. Every day I learn more about myself and what I am willing to put my girl thru. I know that if there is something that she wants to experience and is a hard limit for me, I would allow her to experience it with the understanding that I would allow it for her growth. That is how I am. |
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Today,
My thoughts turn to the question of how one would recognize a sub or a switch in public, that don't display their status unless they are part of the lifestyle.
My curiosity led me to a cafe where I purchased a passion tea and I sat there watching people go by, playing a guessing game with myself. I wonder if I hit the mark on some. I rather think I did.
The other question that has been on my mind lately is, what part does religion play in a real time 24/7 day a week relationship and how does it manifest itself there in. Ahh, the questions I ask myself, just to amuse and tickle my own mind.
I would to tease and tempt that frontal lobe of yours and see what dirty little devil pops out. |
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| Age: 51 |
| Hornbrook,
California |
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