Yuk..... It's that awful time of month again where I just feel so overwhelmed and over run with hormones. I feel emotional, I feel unattractive, I feel yuk... Just generally yuk, I feel apathy, I feel longing, I feel needy, I feel tired, I feel drained and listless.
So why am I writing this. It's not for any sort of sympathy. This is something I have lived with for years and have years more to come.
But in a moment of clarity if makes me appreciate the co dependence of the d/s relationship. What I wouldn't do now to have that special one in my life where I can feel pampered and adored and cherished. To have someone just here at my feet. It gives me understanding that being a Domme is not about aggression and anger and taking these awful emotions I feel right now on someone. It's far more more than anything like that. It's that I have nurtured and developed someone to be the best they can be to serve me even when I do not feel my strongest or my best.
Fortunately... It only lasts a few days...... So back to smiley me again very soon! |