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I have ever been the shy and quiet lad.
- I tend to avoid parties or places with scads of people.
- I listen rather than speak.
- I am thoughtful, mindful, polite and considerate, sometimes overly so.
Junior high had me reading books in hallways in order to be left alone and apart from the noise that was the lunch room.
High school was not too much different, though I survived through a small circle of close friends.
Since then, I have kept my circle small, though I have forayed out of my comfort zone now and then to try something new... and usually grown as a result.
Ultimately, I am an Introvert.
I have spent a majority of my life thus far with a kinky mind and a vanilla mouth.
That is changing, one layer at a time. I have worried about labels and their importance, being unable to choose.
Of course I couldn't, because I was too fearful to sample anything.
Why?
To commit to a path and worrying it would be the wrong one was a difficult notion to bear.
Since becoming more aware of this delightfully shadowy community...
- I have learned to admit my fetishes and desires to myself.
- I am learning how to communicate them to others.
- I am also learning how to ask for what I want. (the toughest of the three)
I have been in relationships where a dominant role has been desired and/or expected of me. I have not been able to deliver. When I have tried, it has felt phony, fake and phoned in.
A submissive role frightens me...
...but I still seek to delve its depths for now until I have found my place or discovered that this is not quite for me.
I seek...
- some time to play and experience that which I denied myself.
- guidance upon my now-chosen path of submission.
- chances to speak one-on-one with Dommes and submissives alike.
- wisdom from minds who have been traveling longer and further than I.
- an eventual relationship with a Domme whom I might serve and give her pleasure.
The final bullet point, of course, being only true if this path I chose to tread upon fits the ground beneath my toes in a fashion that suits my truth.
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