MY WHOLE FOCUS IN BEING HERE WAS TO FIND SOMEONE TO LOVE AND BE LOVED BY...IT WAS SOMEWHAT CLOUDED BY ALL THE ATTENTION I HAVE BEEN GETTING EVEN IF JUST BY WORDS ALONE.

I DON'T REALLY SEE MYSELF IN THE LIFESTYLE WITHOUT SEEING ME OPEN UP AND COMMIT/DEVOTE TO ONE SPECIAL MASTER, MY MASTERRIGHT :) THAT IS WHAT I WANT AND I PRAY THAT I WILL FIND HIM OR HE WILL FIND ME SOON...IF HE ALREADY HASN'T!

GOD BLESS AND BE SAFE AND CAREFUL OUT THERE EVERYONE.

ALSO ENJOY YOUR PASSIONS , DESIRES & KINKS.

:) hugsss

Cindy

Aroused every sense on alert finding it hard to focus on anything but pure deep pleasure...it's now taken hold of me as if I a slave to that alone...collared by all consuming dark growling wicked energy that won't let me out of it's grasp...

MMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!

Sometimes you have to take a step back on your life and recycle some of the junk that has been adding up...

I enjoy this site have made some awesome friends and so amazing lovers...online offline we are all adults here and I like exploring myself this way pushing my "LIMITS" and setting up roleplay with sexy men!

I want a MASTERRIGHT :) in my life 24/7 that is my dream/GOAL! 

But right now when I think I am about there and made a wonderful connection...everything seems to fizzle out !

I know that when MY Master/dom comes along there will be nothing but extasy! All the average,norm.,and VANILLA is NOT for me and I will never give up on Wanting everything I deserve in life ESPECIALLY when it comes to the BEDROOM,..

Good Morning...son's first day back to school YIPPY I survived the Summer...lol

Today I am doing some research on the life style...

Finally got some sleep last night

Later...

Had a busy day today. But a good day.

I actually would like to comment about some of the hate mail I have been getting...It is fine.  

Someone told me once that everyone has an opinion just like an asshole. For some reason mine got reamed and "NOT IN A GOOD WAY"! lol

well last I knew this is my journey entry and my account, if someone doesn't like what I have to share or say then they can move on!

I am okay with people bashing me I can take it ...been through a lot worse.

What really burns my ass is the fact that they are so extremely rude about it and don't have decent manners.

Well all that are kind and caring ty for your lovely words and wisdom. :)

I am learning so much here. 

Wonderful pleasures everyone! ...yes EVERYONE! even my haters. :)

I START TO FADE AWAY INTO MY FORMER SELF...BOTHERS ME DEEPLY WHEN I HURT SOMEONE!  I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET AWAY FROM THE HAUNTING PAST WHEN EVERYTHING OF TODAY'S REALITY HAS TRIGGERED ME BACK TO THOSE MEMORIES.

I AM IN  FIGHT OR FLIGHT MODE...

DISRESPECTING ANY MASTER IS NOT EVER MY INTENTIONS!

I NEED TO GROW UP AND TAKE RESPONSABILITY FOR MY ACTIONS.

I MAY NOT EVER BE READY...

TO GIVE UP CONTROL!

Going skinny dippin...:)

Had a pretty stressful day~First son ran away(home safe now) , mufflier almost fell off my car...lol and ran out of hot water when I was taking my bath!

But then again I can thank GOD for my many Blessings too! ;)

Life it is all how you look at things and how you REACT!

LIFE IS ALWAYS MOVING ,SPINNING ,TRYING AND BUSY ...and if it isn't then you are not LIVING! You just exist!

FIND WHATEVER MAKES YOU HAPPY EVEN IF ONLY FOR A MOMENT! :) hugsss

GOOD MORNING FRIENDS,FELLOW MEMBERS AND THOSE OF YOU THAT MEAN MORE!

I AM REALIZING JUST HOW MUCH YOUR MIND PLAYS A PART IN YOUR SEXUAL PLEASURE... I AM EXPERIENCING PLEASURE IN ME FAR BEYOND ANYTHING I COULD EVER IMAGIN. THAT IS WHAT I AM LEARNING SO FAR. :)

STEPPING OUT FOR AWHILE BE BACK LATER.

PLAY SAFE AND ENJOY~ EVERYONE!!!

First real experience of being MISTRESS...lol LOVE the Power! hummmmm there is something very much to this will have to continue my research! :)

Loving my sexuality right now! With or without a man/Master/or lover I am attaining what I want and NEED!

Seeing cm in new eyes!  Always good to learn from your mistakes!  Had a very interesting evening smiled ,laughed,tormented,teased and chatted with a sweet guy. All on MY TERMS! hugsss