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Just got back from the Gym a few hours ago had an insane work out! |
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Well tonight was a very intense laser tag game I had a lot of fun and I will really miss it here when I leave to new jersery for two months:( |
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So I decided to move my one splurge/rest day to Monday's seeing how I enjoy laser tagging every Monday. I still get my cardio and what not and I get to enjoy the day:D |
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It has been a long time since I entered this life style, my first Domme I never expected to grow close to and when no one would take me or touch me especially with my PTSD as she was very strict and hard infact all I did was smart off to her when we met I was really Disrespectful to her yet she still took me under her wing and trained me.
She was an attorney here in Dallas and we grew very close however our happiness was bound to end when she had to move back home over seas, she offered me to come with her but I could not do such a thing as I had my friends who are my brothers I had to make sure were taken care of. Though I have regrets and I miss her dearly to me she was a real Mistress a true Domme.
I look and read peoples profiles and journals and start to think that they do not know what this life style is about or what it means and it disgust me however I try not to think poorly of them as I was once no different plus who am I to judge I am just a humble submissive male living day by day the best I can.
Welp thats all folks I must be heading off to my laster tag night:D |
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Happy Easter Peeps:
Today is our traditional flag football easter Game! |
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So I recently took this silly Yin/Yang test for laughs and I thought I would post the results on here:D
In Chinese philosophy, yin and yang describes how apparently opposite or contrary forces are actually complementary, interconnected, and interdependent in the natural world, and how they give rise to each other as they interrelate to one another.
You are balanced - a kind individual who can fight when you need to. A patience soul who knows when to rush. You're a sweet person who has just the right amount of spice! You have not be taken over by Yin or Yang, you've created the perfect blend!
If Yin is fire, Yang is water. If Yin is the pull, Yang is the push. If Yin is the paper, Yang is most definite the pen - and that makes YOU the story! |
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So my neighbor a couple days ago hung himself after a big fight with his gf....My deepest prayers go out to him:) |
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Oh boy my training last night i can barley move my body lol haha its been a long time since I pushed myself so hard! |
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YES MY WAIVER CAME BACK in about 5 months I will most likely be moving to Porto Rico! |
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Going to go over to meh best friends tonight when he gets off work and might hit the gym with him and our buddy! |
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And thus my Search for the Domme for me continues! I am half tempted to start singing some motivational song:D RAWR |
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So this week I shall get 4-5 new videos uploaded and hope everyone enjoys them:D
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Two New videos as promised
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HiI_4CNVJyw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j6UA7tFcZ8k |
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I think after my very long long time searching and countless let downs I have found the Mistress that is right for me as she is amazing and incredible in every way, shape, and form, and I didn't find her through Collarspace o.o |
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Ok so my plans for today...
1) Take myself out for a birthday lunch...STEAK!!!!
2) Finish this video and hope its as funny as some people say it is
3) Go tutor a kid in English
LETS DO IT RAWR!!!! |
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Just did two video shoots will have them up tomorrow hopefully ill have them up tomorrow but I think they arnt that good but good enough for a first timer:D
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so Last two days I had a sparing match with a random guy in a fight to test our skills....however I chose to lose on purpose because his girlfriend and his girlfriends son who looks up to him were spectating, I felt fighting him he would be far inferior then myself in combat as he lacked the speed to touch me so I allowed him to hit me a few times and must I say it was awfully painful! I rather the child and girl see him victorious everyone needs their hero after all:D
Last Night I went laser Tagging and didn't get home till 2:30 AM in the morning it was a blast and I am glad I got to hang out with my best friend<3 GO FLUFFY GO RAWR!:D |
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Ok so my next youtube video I will be interviewing a couple about love and their relationship o.o interesting subject |
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im hungry D: what to eat what to eat!
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my video is done and hopefully by this weekend it will be posted and I do hope you all enjoy it though this first video might be a bit boring as we discuss politics:) |
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Holy crapeolla, it has been a long time since i worked out like that haha:D god it feels great! |
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Another poem for you amazing people:)
Deep In Thought
It's a pretty picture we paint of happiness.
How can happiness be achieved is satisfaction is unreachable.
Living in a world of Judgmental liars .
In a corrupted world where your crazy to think different.
Crazy to think any other way then the pre-determined image of normal.
Then who determines normal
Who plays the role of God and dictates normality
Normal is based on average occurrence.
However everything changes everyday.
In a way normality should be individually based.
Meaning only one person should be able to constitute normality.
One is normal based on one's personal definition of normal.
You have not lived life until you have set your mindset free
What is happiness?
A pre-determined image in which we have no control or input
If this is true then why do we chase somebody else's false hopes
Hope is the eternal life of society
Just something to think about:) |
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I read peoples profiles...and they seem to get the idea being a submissive makes you weak....that is quite the opposite but who am I to say that is wrong I just do not understand the logic. I always felt it made you strong but that is just my own opinion |
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I might have a slight RAWR fetish o.o I can't help it:( |
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Welp I have added a ton of new pictures:D haha about time too but they arn't really knew their all like 3 years old but I was going down memory lane and feeling all weird:D |
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welp 8 more days till I head to Chicago which I just got back from AZ and then in feb going to NJ for 8 weeks.....life is fun but omg all the time I'm spending! |
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So I just had an interesting conversation with a Domme where we were both able to be civil and I truly enjoyed it...though it was two nights ago I should have posted sooner. She asked me what I considered power and i considered power....she said it was money....but as i debated she said i was very wise...
Power is not money....it is not mere strength....its not the ability to kill someone...or to strike vengeance upon those who have harmed you...
True power is wisdom and understanding....it is truth...and knowing what to use this power for is half the battle the other half is knowing why you use it....
I wonder if any of that made sense to you:) |
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So yesterday I started my old martial art training routine and scratched my arms up pretty bad and made no progress...TODAY SHALL BE DIFF! I will conquer the training :D |
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If I view your profile it is mainly because I enjoy reading profiles:) I find some peoples profiles fun to read and then others just makes me wonder about their sanity haha but either way I do enjoy them indeed I do:) |
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Alright so with my youtube channel I am now taking request as part of the talk show for people to put in subjects they want me to talk about rather it be politics or whatever make a request and I'll send you the link:)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMkbag8dSLI
Was a request by a minor fan based people who saw my very first video:) don't be shy now |
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Well it seems like I had a few messages in regards to my poem so I have another too share. This one was written after my discharged and when I was in a very dark place at the time.
I hope you all enjoy it:)
Reality
Life is an endless road.
Why does it have to be so cold
God knows I will always follow him.
But why does the light of happiness always dim.
I watch people in total awe,
if the only knew what I saw.
The waste the gift of life.
Society, victims of an ignorant knife.
Listen to what I saw.
It's all the wrong way.
Whom we judge murder and steal.
The words of impurity never heal.
We destroy ourselves day by day.
With every negative word we say.
Instead of wishing a mile long.
Live before your forever gone.
Written by Jonah Geders |
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This is a poem I wrote many years ago when I was in the army and in med quarters waiting to be discharged....I was in a major depression and after I was discharged is when I was introduced to the life style I hope you all Enjoy:
The Soldier
I've been in Hell, looked the Devil straight in the eyes.
I think to myself, what an awful job to pick who lives, and who dies.
I stand here with fear in my heart, in the darkest of night.
My brothers among me die in every brutal fight.
When I try to sleep all I can hear are screams.
One last breath, one last heart beat, and sudden eternal dreams.
One of my brothers will die today, and the other tomorrow.
My heart aches with the deepest amount of sorrow.
This is my life a soldier of war.
Another bullet hits me I can't take much more.
I take my last breath, and say my goodbyes.
Another hero's gone....another soldier dies
Written by Jonah Geders |
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I was just sitting here and thinking to myself....I wonder if Dom/me's have just as hard as a time finding the right sub as the sub does.
I know for a sub the hardest part is just getting a Dom/me to reply back and I wonder if its because I am doing something wrong with my messages....or if its just all the mail they receive from other subbies and slaves....if anyone has any advice on how I can stick out more please feel free to message me and let me know:D |
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Welps next week I'm hitting up AZ to visit an old army buddy and then I will go to Chicago on the 31st....FINALLY ALL THESE TRIPS WILL BE DONE WITH!!!!! |
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RAWR and good morning to you all welp today I have more finals I SHALL CONQUER THE BEAST! |
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I like how people think that money can buy martial arts...lol people now days don't know nothing about honor and respect and it seems its a lost trait "SMH" |
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So an old sparing buddy saw my video today a video I made awhile back...and he asked me a question that my teacher asked me when I was younger...which was funny cause back then I did not know how to answer.
Why do you fight? The answer is for understanding and truth, for wisdom and to better connect to my opponent...and for honor find my virtue to know no greed and to understand that I have something far more valuable then most people could possibly understand that is the secret to having no weakness in my body and being able to serve with a strong resolve and to protect those I care about, to pass my wisdom and peace to the people I meet rather they be strangers on the street or a friend in my home.
This is the video he saw:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMkbag8dSLI |
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Welp time to hit the books and study for my last week of finals YAY then I will be hitting the beach by next weekend:D
P.S totally in the market for a Jeep Wrangler and I MIGHT have found me one of those Jeep Rubicons!
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Sure wish I had like minded people I could talk too and get to know:D rawr rawr |
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I DID IT!!! over the weekend I went to visit my dad...and after all these years I FINALLY DEFEATED HIM AT CHESS....oh how the mighty has fallen bwahahaha |
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Happy belated Halloween all:) |
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Alright today is a new day need to get my paper done...I am hoping to hear back from the fire department on the fire fighter exam I took...I think I did well and will get on if not I can always go back to the military lol
on a second note I am starting my company this week and hopefully turn it into an empire if I don't succeed I will just keep trying because one never fails until they truly give up:D
RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR |
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I read a lot of peoples journals and people seem to be having a lot of bad luck:) I sure wish I could help everyone indeed I do
RAWR! |
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SO far I have found a new Domme its been a week since I seen her for the first time...I wonder how it will go...she said we would set something up to meet again this week but I am unsure if she is the right Domina for me. |
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o.o so someone asked if I had a web cam and when I said I don't do cam unless I get to know that person first...they call me a fake lol some people:) |
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I don't suppose anyone male or female has a lawn around me they want me to mow its free service i just likes to mow!!!
no funny business -.- i only ask for you to provide the lawn mower and gas to get it running ill do the rest:D |
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So in about 15 more days the begining of my new web series series starts...if anyone is interested in participating please message meh! make sure you have a pic so I know if we have a good spot for you
The based of the story will be built around the Pandora's box greek Mythology!!! So excited!!!! |
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It is hard when you find someone you truly care for but they don't feel the same nor will give you the chance to prove yourself...they just lie to you and toss you aside like a rag doll....and it does hurt indeed it does but one must overcome such things and was even willing to change his life for this person he cares so much for...it is a sad thing indeed it is but one much keep an upper chin and smile so that he can continue having hope:)
Hm I help people a lot but helping myself is the hard thing to do indeed it is:) |
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My newest video which was a special request by a friend of mine whom is a Master indeed it is:) he wanted the song and the blind fold indeed he did.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMkbag8dSLI |
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A Domme comes to me and ask what it was that I seek, I immediately change the conversation and ask her what she seeks. We have been friends for a few months and she was explaining how she had to let her subbie go so I find her another sub.
I made a match for someone! and they gave me a hug as a reward I love meh huggles!
RAWR RAWR RAWR:D |
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I was asked yesterday what my goals were in life and my response was simple with out a ounce of doubt, I dedicated my life to helping those in the world for which reason who ever I come across no matter if they are good or bad I will help them.
P.S my roommate is about to end his second week on the work out program I gave him 2 weeks in and hes already lost 20 pounds! |
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i wonder if ill ever find what im looking for hm |
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Today is my first day of Tennis lessons YAY wish me luck...should have picked a warmer day
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1 or 2 weeks from now my new company will be official YAY FOR GREAT IDEAS! RAWR RAWR RAWR |
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