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I have done some thinking. I have decided to throw caution to the wind and not go by any parameters anymore. Seems I do a lot of thinking. Anyway, I can't be fit into a "box" of this and that, so I am not going to try to fit someone else into that. If I am compatible with someone, I am compatible with someone. The stuff below is old. Really. I just had a birthday. Don't tell me happy birthday please. Spring is here, summer is close. Winter was long. A fresh start is certainly needed. Email me. Lets get together.
I have done some thinking about things. I am not actively looking for anyone though, if the situation were to present itself, I won't say no. = ).
I do have some parameters:
1. Please be over the age of 40. I am 35. I have been divorced twice and widowed all before the age of 30. Yes, ,that is 3 marriages. I am not looking to remarry though I won't object to a long term relationship. Speaking and based on experience, I really am not interested in men younger than myself. Thank you. Subject to change.
2. Be honest.
3. If you are married or in a relationship, does your spouse know? I am not looking to break up any marriages or relationships. Don't get involved with me if you are married or in a relationship. Be single.
4. Please be in or near the Rockford Illinois area. I really am not interested in a long distance relationship or a one night stand. Not my thing.
5. Have a job or an income. I have an income and I am not interested in financially supporting someone again. Been there done that. Pissed me off.
Those really shouldn't be too difficult. I am very open minded and love conversing with people of any age really. The age thing is for relationships only. Friendships are always welcome.
I love music. My interests in music range from country, jazz, classical, techno, rap, hip-hop and even a few oldies in there. = ).
I know some of you may not want to read this, but please take a few minutes and read it. It will answer some questions you may have and will also let you know a little something about me.
Blah blah blah. I know, I feel that same way = )
I am 38 years old I have been married 3 times all before I was 30. My first marriage resulted in two children and a divorce. I was 16 when I married him so it isn't really a surprise that marriage failed. He was very vanilla and when I told him about my interest in D/s, he said "your sick and twisted". He was someone I loved very much but his mind was too closed.
My second marriage happened when I was 24. I was a single mom with two young boys. I met a wonderful man courtesy of the internet in 1999. We married on valentine's day in 2001. When I say wonderful, he truly was. He was an excellent father to my kids that he didn't have to be. They knew him as dad. In fact, He was the only dad my youngest son ever knew. He was also very Dominant. We were happy and content. In 2002, He was diagnosed with a brain tumor.
He passed away in June of 2004. The hardest thing I have ever gone through. I was devastated. He, along with my children were my life. I was dedicated and commited to the three of them. My sons were only 6 and 10 when he passed away. I was 28.
Douglas was my husband, my Master, my everything. He loved me unconditionally. He had the patience and understanding that I have seen in very few men. He didn't have to, but he loved me and my sons as if they were his own. He was free with his affection, and firm with his discipline. In a way, he spoiled me. I never had to cook a meal. Ever. He had gone to culinary school and was an outstanding chef. He was also a landscaper who loved to work outside. When I was in a down mood, he could always make me laugh and smile. Even when he was very sick. He was just a generous and loving man.
That is why it has been hard for me to find and acceptable companion. In 2005, I remarried. I was still 28. My third husband pressured me into marrying him. He and I had been internet friends for awhile. In February of 2005, I was bored and lonely I suppose. I invited him out for a cup of coffee. Spur of the moment thing. Never intended anything other than friendship with him. He was six years younger than myself. After six weeks of dating, he asked me to marry him. I was reluctant. I wanted to wait till the end of the year. He pressured and begged me to marry him. Six weeks after we had met eachother offline, we married.
That marriage didn't last long obviously. I filed for divorce after 11 months. I was too old and I wasn't into his games. The one thing I miss about him, he was into kink. He was willing to try damn near anything. His age showed in his maturity. Yes, I know some people are more mature than their age. It is hard to find though.
Since 2007, I have had a few relationships. All vanilla. they kind of got scared or freaked out when I told them that I was into D/s. It's just who I am. They couldn't accept it, and though I had fond feelings for them, those relationships ended. I thought I could live with a vanilla only relationship. I found myself feeling an emptiness. So I made some decisions.
I try to tell any man upfront that I am submissive. If he doesn't have an open mind, it ends there. He doesn't really have to extensive experience, but he needs to have an open mind that certain things could be explored.
I don't even want to say how many men I have talked to who have said, "well, I can spank you". I usually don't continue conversations with them for the simple fact that it is more than sex. If you are looking for only sex, move on.
Note: My deceased husband and I rarely had sex. We played quite often though. Seriously, I am 38. I don't have time or energy for someone who is looking just for a one night stand or only sex. I don't like to waste my time.
If you made it through all of that and you still want to message me, I am impressed and would be more than happy to chat with you. If you are outside of the Rockford area, understand that it will be strictly and internet friendship. If you are within the Rockford area, I would love to chat with you and maybe catch a cup of coffee with you. Understand though, currently I do not drive.
Anyway, if you are in the area or want to talk, send me a message
Thanks for taking the time to read this.
Stephanie
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I have done some evaluating of some aspects of my life. I decided I don't want to fall in love with anyone. I am not looking for that. Say what you want on that perspective but that is how I feel. What I guess I am looking for: someone to get together for D/s interactions including sadomasochism, bondage and discipline. |
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Good May 5th.
It has been awhile since I have been online or on Collarme.com. I don't keep a daily journal entry anymore. As far as I know, I have NO typing or grammatical errors in my profile. Yes, I am a hardass. |
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Ahh, I feel as though I must apologize for not answering my mail lately. I haven't had very good internet access lately. I am not sure I will be able to answer any of my mail tonight after I get this written and posted. I have not been ignoring any emails or anything like that. I have not been able to answer any emails. Sorry everyone.
Stephanie |
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It was suggested to me that I write and update and I of course am in agreement. = ). After and 3 year on and off again vanilla relationship, my boyfriend and I finally called it quits. Though I love him and care about him.... well...
We had an understanding through the course of our relationship that when I needed playtime, I would seek out my playtime I would have my playtime. No repercussions. The termination of our relationship just due to the fact of well.... it reached the end of its course.
A few things have occured this year for me. The ending of a romance. I have had to temporarily move. The building I was living in since april... well, in july, there were two fires in the building in july within two weeks of eachother. The city temporarily condemned the building until repairs were made on the building. The building was supposed to be closed for 30 to 60 days... September has come and gone and I am still not back in my apartment. <sigh>. I will hopefully be "back home" before Thanksgiving.
I am in a way actively seeking but not actively seeking someone. If I connect with someone I connect with someone. It is not something I am going to force. I have found in my journey through life that the greatest things happen naturally.
So I guess that is it for now..... It is almost Halloween... My most FAVORITE holiday of all time! |
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wow, had a great playdate this morning. Got the opportunity to play with my former Master. Oh how I have missed Him. I think I am actually glowing now lol. We have another date set for tomorrow. I can't wait!!! Whether it is going to lead to a long term Master/slave 24/7, probably not. But, I most certainly can and will enjoy the time I have with Him. |
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uploaded a new and current pic.... still have yet to meet or encounter anyone of real interest. Though, I did find out last night, that the man I gave my virginity to, is into kink. Quite a nice surprise. Though he is married, his wife is bi. Could quite possibly be the beginning of a wonderful journey |
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Sorry I haven't answered any emails lately. Computer and internet issues that will hopefully be resolved in the next couple of weeks. |
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Age: 24 |
Fort Wayne,
Indiana |
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