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Howdy.
I want to believe in fairy tales.
To laugh, to learn and to love.
Unconditionally. Irrevocably. ? ? I try to always expect the unexpected and live in wonder and amazement. Let me share my joy with you. ? I believe there are no ordinary moments and that to dance on shifting sands can be a powerful way to move. Lets dance in the isles of the grocery store. ? I like interesting people. I don't care what you do to make a living, I care what you do that you love. Be passionate. ? I love to sing.(often off key) I'm that girl at the stoplight unabashedly rocking out with the stereo turn up loud... ? I would love to learn to dance, but I'm highly awkward in my own body sometimes. Would love someone to teach me. Please!!!! Teach me to dance with my body and not just with my soul!!! ? I like a very wide variety of music from country and bluegrass to doom metal and hard rock. I love independent singer/songwriters. I'm a big fan of anything acoustic and world music. Love blues and jazz. I collect chopsticks. :D (and dust) My favorite color is purple. I love smells. (rain, leather, motor oil, sandalwood ect..) ? I play the didgeridoo. I am not a musician by any means, it's good for meditation and connecting to inner vibrations... also makes a great alternative to botox. ? I'm really fun in bed. No, seriously. ? I have been alone enough to know who I am and what I want from life. I have been through my share of challenges and I have a very strong sense of self and self worth. I am ever growing, changing, recreating and self exploring. I would love to find a stable healthy person to share my journey with. Someone ready to make it a lifetime walkabout. (with kids, and I don't mind if you already have some, lets make more someday) ? I am much too excited about life to spend much time cleaning...
Dirt doesn't bug me, but I'm not a complete slob. I can admit my faults and sometimes I don't feel like changing them. ? PS - Warning to all you people looking for, "someone real" - sorry to disappoint. I am only a figment of your imagination. !!!!!Wake up!!!! (and dream with me) ? What I?m doing with my life -
I am the head therapist for a massage clinic on the north end of town. I love my work. I am certified (not certifiable,well maybe) in swedish,deep tissue, NMT, sports, pregnancy, infant and reiki. I specialize in making you drool on the floor and turning you into a pile of mush. Message me if you like mush. ? I?m really good at -
Facing adversity.
Being a smart ass.
Putting my foot in my mouth.
Putting your foot in my mouth.
Putting my foot in your mouth.
Giggling.
Sleeping in.
Being random.
My job. I'm not always a good communicator but I'm working on that.
I'm terrible at math. Also hand -eye coordination... I suck at that too... I like video games, but didnt grow up on them, so I get your addiction to xbox - but probably wont know what you are talking about when you start some geek rant about WOW. I will nod and smile though honey, I love your thumbs of lightning skillz. The first things people usually notice about me -
The bindi. This dot in the middle of my forehead, is not a piercing. It's a point of focus, i wear them on occasion. Doesn't have to be a special occasion. Every day is special.
Also, it's interestingly, quirky jewelry.
Shiny. ? ? Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food -
I love the Conversations with God series.
I love Steven King and Anne Rice. Fantasy, SciFi stuff. I don't read as much as I'd like. I used to enjoy writing role play fan fiction. I don't LARP but have been told I should. Groups of people sometimes make me nervous and insecure. ? I love music. Music is therapy.
Rock, blues, country, contemporary folk
Lady Gaga is my guilty pleasure. Movies and TV... again, fantasy, scifi, fiction.... Not much comedy drama, or "chick flicks" I have enough of the real world in the real world. I watch movies to suspend my reality. Muppet's and and things that blow up big with flying body parts. I can dig that. ? ? ? I spend a lot of time thinking about -
Nothing. No really... that quiet contemplative look n my face when I'm staring into space.... and you ask what I'm thinking about? (I hate it when ppl ask what I'm thinking about for this very reason) Yeah... not so much. Really, I'm probably just blankly staring into space. I do that. And really its ok. But I was also told once that I think too much. I contemplate around in circles about the way things work. I think about football and what it feels like to be a millionaire and what I would do if I won the lottery. I like to think about that one a lot. ? On a typical Friday night I am -
Working.
Saturdays are a more likely social night.
I get off early on sat and sundays.
I like a bottle of wine and a pizza outside on my picnic table with candles. ?
The most private thing I?m willing to admit- I'm diabetic and I hate it. It really, really sucks. ? Also, I love men dressed as women... or women dressed as men...I think its hot. Really. Really hot. I love rubber and latex outfits. I want to tie you up and flog you. I want to kneel at your feet and worship you like my God. Don't tell me you have no limits. I assure you, I can be very creative when properly motivated. ? Whew, good to get THAT off my chest... thanks. ? ? You should message me if -
If you like pleasure.
If you understand pain.
If you like wine or beer or a good fatty every so often.
If you like to play dress up... or undress up....
If you like feta cheese.
If you have long hair. (purs)
And or a motorcycle.
Tattoos, or if you are a tattoo artist... an artist of any sort really...
If you really believe you are a vampire.
Or that I am one. Because I am. No, really. Let me bite you.
If you laughed so hard at this profile you spewed milk out your nostrils.
Cause that might make me think you are alright.
Or just do. Come on... you have nothing to lose and a friend at the very least to gain.

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6/2/2011 10:02:02 AM

Spring is still happening in the high country, but its beginning to feel

like summer on the plains. On a snow-banked stream full of roaring

snow melt I wondered about the trout, and felt the answer that they

have their spots to shelter when their world gets crazy. May you

find your spiritual shelter from all the storms (ask the trout).  

 

 

 

Rituals and Mastery

 

The natural world we live in is a mixture of order and chaos, the predictable, and the unpredictable. We know that the seasons will cycle, but every year they are also different. We know that the Spring brings rain and snow melt, but the level of flooding is unpredictable. In the midst of a variable world, we are wired by evolution to seek out the orderly, the predictable, the stable, that which is consistent so that we can have some certainty of surviving tomorrow as well as today. 

 

Our need for regularity and predictability leads to rituals of all types. They both embody these qualities and serve to help create them. In this sense any regularly performed series of actions is a ritual. Some are small and personal; how we wake up in the morning and brush our teeth, have a cup of coffee or tea. Some are large and collective; the schedule for irrigation waters in the spring or the nine to five job which results in a paycheck on a regular basis. Some are spiritual or religious; the blessing of a new building, dances for rain, a collective service of worship, or a personal meditation.

 

All of these activities serve to create or embody stability, regularize our relationship with the world around us, natural and human; to promote survival and a sense of safety. Humans are nothing but inventive and we all have our rituals, large and small.  

 

The interesting question about rituals is when do they serve our spiritual needs and are they sometimes a limitation, something done for their own sake, powered by the deep need for safety and survival but unconscious, habitual, perhaps even counter-productive? The 2 martini lunch was once seen as a normal social/business ritual, but now it is more often the sign of the dependancy of the alcoholic. 

 

Do you work the job because it allows you to live the life you choose, or because you feel you have to have a job and can't live without one? Do you wash your hands because it centers you and prepares you to eat a healthy meal, or because some unconscious belief won't allow you not to? Do your rituals help you find an appropriate state of mind before performing artistically, or in sports, or are they compulsions that you can't choose to skip? 

 

In short; are your rituals an expression of, and an aid to, your mastery of your life, or have they mastered you? This discernment can be as uncertain and variable as the spring weather. Some are socially sanctioned and some are not, but this is not the same as which ones are healthy and productive, and which ones are controlling and destructive. 

 

Take some time this Spring to consider your rituals, especially that ones that you haven't thought of in those terms before. Give yourself permission to be conscious about them; to drop or alter old ones that limit or control you; to create or adopt new ones that empower, inspire or connect you. Notice which ones are based in fear and are mastering you and open to ones that are based in gratitude and love, supporting your mastery and joy. 

 


4/14/2011 4:22:32 PM
Nothing is lost, nothing is created, everything is transformed.

4/2/2011 6:00:36 PM

I was told many years ago that there is no time and space in Spirit. This means that working on the level of spirit things can be done easily and swiftly. Being able to step out of the physical beliefs and limitations and work energetically can therefore be powerful and effective. The body, living in the 3-D world, obeys somewhat different rules. It takes longer to process, integrate, and manifest. 

 

As with most things in life there are both benefits and cautions in working between these two levels. In history, and for most of us, our awareness of them is kept separate. We have experiences of stepping back and forth, which can be practiced and enhanced, but we are usually aware of one at a time and transition between them more or less gracefully.

 

It seems that this is all changing. The much discussed "End of Time" is not about the "End of the World" in a cataclysmic sense, or even just the rolling over of a calendar from one age to the next. It is a reference to changes in our experience of what we call time, or the lack of it. 

 

As we pass Equinox and head into Spring, I realize I am still bracing for a winter that is already over. And yet the Solstice was a "long" time ago. Holding these both at the same time is the "end of time": the timeless state that we know as spirits, where yesterday and last year are all present right now.

 

Our changing experience of time parallels the widespread experience so many of us are having that we are both Spirit and Human simultaneously. As we move more into this dual awareness of both levels of our being, part of the global transition, the timelessness of Spirit is overlapping our accustomed linear egoic sense of time. 

 

The sun still rises and sets, the Earth moves around the sun. The calendar and clock are still there if we choose to use them. Our personal human aspect still moves through linear time. But we are also aware of the timeless, of all times. The "moment" is no longer a single moment in linear time, but open to the presence of all moments at once. 

 

While disorienting to the ego, this is that way your spirit has always existed and relaxing into Spirit you know how to be this way. Just as we are learning to integrate our awareness of our spiritual Selves with that of our egoic self, and walk that spiritual awareness in the world, we are also learning to integrate a different relationship to what we have know as time and space. 

 

So if you are having strange experiences of time, or even space, know that this is not a problem, but an effect of the growth and expanding awareness that we are all going through on the planet. Keep breathing, remember to "notice what you notice", be a bit amused, and perhaps wonder what interesting effects will show up next. Trusting Spirit and your spiritual Self to guide you into a new way of being in the world. Receiving these new experiences with the joy and wonder of the soul inside you, you step forward in your evolutionary transformation. 

 

 

 


3/25/2011 10:52:48 AM

Changes. 

 

Sometimes, we have to find out who we are not  to find who we are. 

 

Single and healing. 

 

Oh the process of becoming human. 

 


2/17/2011 1:56:58 AM

In Aikido there is a practice called rondori, in which multiple attackers come at you from all directions, over and over. Some days life feels like that. Whether the things that show up are opportunities, challenges, or just there, it can feel a bit overwhelming, and once you get behind its hard to catch up. In rondori part of the practice is to select your opponents in an order that works for you, taking enough initiative to control the flow rather than simply reacting. Sometimes we can also do this in life, until that one thing shows up from your blind spot and throws you on your ear. 
The egoic mind in its sense of isolation feels like this, that it must be always watching, anticipating, controlling, or it will get rolled under. This is a pretty tiring way to live your life. Between being alert and not getting down time we get worn out. You want to take a break, but the mind worries that when you take your eye off things something will pop up and bite you, or things might just fall apart when left on their own. 
Spiritually we know that we live not as isolated egos creating and maintaining our world for our safety and survival, but as souls that are part of the web of life. No man is an island. We are a part of a larger whole. If we take a nap, the world is still there. If we take a vacation the world carries on. Our family and co-workers can usually be trusted to keep things going until we get back. Not everything has to be done right now, but will often keep until tomorrow. In fact letting things wait often allows time for them to resolve on their own, or for someone else to step up to handle them, or for the perfect piece of information to show up that shifts the whole matter. 
Remembering that we are not alone, but part of an organic sentient web of life we can cultivate trust; trust the universe, trust spirit, trust our dance partners that we can step out for a bit and not have the whole world come down around our ears. Feeling the force we stop thinking and know what we need to do and the flow of the rondori is effortless. Trust that your higher self can see which things you really need to work with, and in what order, and know that if you miss one piece someone else will pick it up.
Allowing yourself to let go of the swirling world around you, you can find yourself; not as a reflection of all the things on your to do lists, but shining out from your own interior. Dropping into yourself you refresh, retune and learn how to express your soul in your piece of the weaving. Living from spirit you avoid being overwhelmed; breathing in and out, into Self and out into the world, you are centered and the rondori flows. May you find the grace to trust the rest of the universe enough to let go and find yourself.
Blessings,


1/28/2011 11:58:41 AM

"You are what you experience. You experience what you express. You express what you have to express. You have what you grant yourself." - Neale Donald Walsch

 

 


1/15/2011 12:55:23 AM

Honestly right now, I could use some non complicated tenderness right now. 

At the very least. 


7/24/2010 7:39:55 PM
Be careful with each each other.... these fragile flames....

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 Age: 39
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