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*** Shy Curious BBW***
Just for starters, thanks for taking the time to read my profile.
I am a strong, silly, artistic, playful, open minded, quite, shy, skeptical, feisty, smart, caring, curious, inquisitive, affectionate, and passionate BBW.
It takes me a little while to warm up to a person and chill out a bit and drop my guard, but once it is down I think I am pretty much the roxors, I could be a wee bit biased though.
On to the good stuff
I don't have any fetishes per say, but I do like my sex with a bit of bite to it I am not looking for extreme pain, but biting, scratching, hair pulling a smack or two, being tied up and blindfolded... I am soo there.
I have also started learning about and getting involved in Leather. Leather culture is becoming a large and important part of my my life.
I am also interested in receiving service as a Top.
If that sounds like a good time to you please drop me a line. I am also a one on one kind of girl, sorry but right now group sex just doesn't appeal to me.
This is the kind of boring basic stuff
I love to learn new things; odds are I will be an eternal student. Over the past few years I have completed my Bachelors of Fine Arts in Metal Smithing & Jewelry Making. I am in school now focusing on gaining an Associates of Science and Radiologic Technologist Certification (break a bone and come visit me). My classes are currently intense and very demanding of my time so I don't get to go out as much as I would like. I also do part time work as an onsite and natural light photographer.
Other things I enjoy
Draw, read, photography, go to the movies, quiet time, movies, theaters, all kinds of music, exploring abandoned buildings, tattoos, and body piercings, I have a thing for train tracks right now too, cuddling, dancing (keep in mind that I am a white girl so I don't dance well), shopping, hanging out with friends, really I do a lot of stuff is where it is at just ask me about it.
People I am looking for
Tops, Doms, Masters:
In Tops I tend prefer men who are a bit older than me and aggressive. I am not looking to be anything more than a occasional bottom at this time. Leading to a more substancial relationship. When I say a bit older I mean between the ages of 30-50, but if you think we would be a good match drop me a line and we shall see, ehh?
bottoms, subs, slaves:
I am looking for a very service oriented person. This person should be a strong, capable, and complete person in their own right.
Everyone else:
Friends, basically as long as we don't harsh each other's mellows lets be friends.
In each instance a kinship and camaraderie is key, if we don't like each other how the hell will anything else work? I do feel that friendship and communication are key to having good and productive relationships.
I am NOT interested in any one who is married; if you don't answer the marriage question I am going to assume that you are married.
I will do my best to respond to every one in a timely manner
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Don't hold your breath, but the pretty things are going to hell... |
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back rub, I need one like whoa, or a full blown massage, I will take either |
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November 12th:
I took advantage of an amazing opportunity, Elayne Angel was in Dallas, and piercing while she was here, color me excited. I finally have the money to do so and here in Dallas was Mrs. Angel who is pretty much an internationally know piercer with a phenomenal reputation; God has ordained and the stars have aligned for this piercing to happen. I went I saw and I received a vertical clitoral hood piercing! Yay I have been looking forward to this piercing for years.
December 1st:
I discover that one of the balls on my piercing is embedded in my hood. I email Elayne who encourages me to go back to Obscurities to see if it can be saved. Lauren with Obscurities spent a good hour trying to save the piercing but we have reached my pain and energy limit and have to call it quits for the night.
December 2nd:
I make an apt with my OBGYN and have my new favoritest piercing cut out of me. I am fine there were no stitches... I am just one piercing that I liked alot down now.
In closing I just want to thank the amazing people who helped me through out the whole process, I pretty much would have been fucked with out you. |
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on a scale of "one" to "I don't fucking want to go to work"..... I'm at like "I really really don't want to fucking to got work" |
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I know I don't get to share my experiences as often as I would like but I stumbled across a picture that reminded me of this little fun time.
I was meeting a new Dom for a play session and he had a very specific request for black lacy underwear and bra, and at the time I did not own any such under things and let him know as much. To his credit he came up with a simple and fun idea, it was time to go shopping... with a camera. I tried on a bunch of different things took some pic and set them on so he could choose his favorites and I bought my favorite of his favorites. It was certainly a fun and sexy way to buy new lingerie...
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pop corn, and champagne
this is how to go to the movies.... it helps if there is an action preview happening so no one can hear you pop the cork in the theater
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So this is a legit current entry, the ones prior were carted over from an old account on a different site that I wanted to save.
So it is Fun’ and my’s two year anniversary. Well almost the first
munch we went to was the August munch in 2007. We have been each
other’s security blankets and friends for two years now, mistaken for
being each other’s significant other for quite some time now. I have to
kind of giggle re-reading our first date, and remembering some moments
we have experienced. But now that we are living apart I kind of miss
the bitch, ok I really miss my Fun.
Here’s to kinky interests bringing some awesome people in to my life
Shy&Fun two years of goofiness, tears, pondering the meaning of life, and running from bugs.
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SO WHAT DO YOU WANT?
Nov 29, 2007 10:30 pm
It
is easily asked... and one would hope they know what they want, but
alas I have no fucking clue. I kinda believe I will know it when I find
it, but I also know what I have been missing. To miss something you
have to have had it in the first place. Well what I had was a mostly
sexual relationship with a married fireman (I found out the married
thing after we stopped seeing each other). What I had with him was the
chemistry, from the first time we met he got that I needed him to take
the lead, and he took it. It was great only a bedroom situation but
that is all I want. Well that is all the dominance I want, I do want
some sort of relationship that is based on more than sex, but that is
what I am looking for the instant spark, that makes me smile smile I
can't swallow down or feel like I am fucking glowing for days, that
look that your get from some one when that screams they are truly enjoy
you for you, and that the want you. I know what I want is pretty damn
mild, but well it is kinda about me isn't it? I am not in to TPE, that
freaks me out more than most could imagine and as a people pleaser in
general I could really fuck myself over in a situation like that.
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RE-VISITING THE SCENE
Nov 9, 2007 8:52 pm
I
think a big reason as to why that scene struck me so is that the Sub's
commitment to her "Sir" for lack of better term was impressive and
terrifying. Impressive to me because I can't fathom that kind of
commitment and trust to be given to a person and trusting them not to
fuck you up, trusting them further to hand you off to another person to
be played. Humillation is way not my scene, I hate and humillate myself
often enough and take it to heart, having something like that verbally
and physically re-enforced by some one else would prolly set me 30steps
back in self administered therapy. But at the same time it was so
beautiful in the most fucked up ways possible and her strength and
determination simply unbelievable. On some level I want that I want to
trust some one not to destroy me, but on the flip side of the coin, I
am waiting for and expecting the day when I am broken, millions of
dusty little pieces that are scattered and beyond repair, when I say
beyond repair I mean I can't be fixed, I won't be fixed at that point I
will be done. Done in the way I most likely would be better off dead.
In a way that would all of my fears completely justified leaving me
completely fucked up. This makes me wonder what kind of person wants
something like that for themselves ever? Perhaps I am having an off day
and being overly dramatic. The core of it is I don't know or understand
how to trust, I know how to be hurt and feel the pain, and the guilt
and the deservedness of it, I don't know how to come back from it and
look at a person who hit me and be ok with them. It may be that taking
a hit isn't my thing.... I don't know I'm tired of thinking for now.
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THE MOST INTENSE SCENE I HAVE EVER SEEN
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Nov 4, 2007 12:38 pm
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know I am new to the game and in the scheme of things I haven't seen
much but DAYUM! I met the sub in the scene earlier in the evening,
sweet girl fun to talk to and she was a little bit nervous about doing
a scene for her Dom, and it was her first time being given to some one
else, I didn't think much of it went on with my night. I watched fun
get played, and of course that was fun, it was the end of the night
there weren't more than 10 people left in the place and Fun and I were
sposed to be on our way out but I lost fun, in my search for her I walk
by this scene that fucks with my head, it is a priest beating on some
one. I'm a former catholic and I am not sure why but, it unerved me
from the get go. I put on my blinders and kept looking for fun, around
my second trip across the space and past "that scene " I see Fun
sitting in the back corner of the room watching "that scene" I would
really fuck up the scene if I yelled across the room that I was ready
to go I walk over and sit next to her, and then it happens Train Wreck
System (a site you don't want to see, and know you can never unsee once
you have seen it, and despite knowing that you cannot look away). I sat
and watched maybe the last hour and 1/2 of this scene, I have no idea
what happened before I got there but there were bottles all over the
floor and shaving cream and a razor basicly a gentleman's shaving kit
was all over the place, a 5 gallon bucket of water. The part I walked
in on was the priest making the sub gag her self on his hand as deeply
as possible with out throwing up, I can't even explain the scene, I
know I almost started crying twice it was just un-fucking believable,
but at the same completely real, when he kicked her it was a kick, you
heard the hits and saw the marks the sub was damn near ready to go into
shock and wasn't quiting for anyone, the priest had informed her that
he wasn't going to until she "redded out" and he didn't he found a
sweet spot in her feet that made her call the red. the whole thing was
crazy. I'm still trying to process everything I saw it was crazy. |
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CLIT PIERCING OFFER
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Nov 3, 2007 2:04 am
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thing on my profile started out as a joke, and then it was more just to
see how many people read profiles and if some one would be willing, and
now that I have a few offers on the table I will pick the least scary
one and find a parlor with a good price and get all stabitied. the one
I want is a triangle piercing. A triangle is a horizontal piercing
behind the nerve bundle of the clitoris, at the base of the hood tissue
where it forms from the body. I'm kinda really fripping excited |
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MY FIRST DATE WITH FUN
Oct 7, 2007 11:55 am
For a school assignment Fun had to go see some live music
and invited me up to Denton to keep her company while she went out on the town
in search of live music. I got to her place around 7 45 just in time to catch
the tag end of the "Nekkid Fun Show" (she has been enjoying the fact
that her roommie is gone). After she finally got done teasing her viewers in
ALT land we took off for dinner at a little place just off the square, the food
was good and so was the company and we chatted about past conquests and the
challenges in the near future. We talked a little bit about the October Munch
and who all might be there and such. We didn't finish dinner till 9 45ish, and
the show we were sposed to see at the Rubber Glove. Yup thats what I said the
Rubber Glove we both thought it was wildly appropriate that we should see a
show there, the problem was we couldn't find the rubber glove but we knew it
was just off the square.... but there are a lot of things just of the square,
in our search for the rubber glove we rolled down the windows to my car and
turned down the music..... and what did we hear..... LIVE MUSIC!!! Yay! There
was some sort of shindig goin on in the square the whole time. Well damn and
blast. We took a moment to park and made our way to the musical sounds of
goodness, or at the very least not so badness. We get to the square in time to
hear "Thanks for coming out and drive safe!" Well fuck a duck! Wait what
is this little shop just across the square? Tastey, tastey home made ice cream,
hells yea we didn't do desert at Sweetwater and our other plans got a wee bit
botched, ice cream and a walk about the square, it is sooo on! We strolled
about the square hoping to stumble across some live music some where else....
no such luck. Plan the back up... Dallas New Fine Arts, both of us wanted new
toys, I don't know what happend to Fun's toys, but mine had to take a trip to
the dumpster when I moved back home. So the gist of it is, we need new toys!
Dallas field tripping for us, we were both worried that we wouldn't be able to
see the shop, silly us this is Dallas not BFE TX, we are proud of our prons
here! The sign was easy to spot yay! Last week we went to Condom Sense and the
selection there was a wee bit lacking and neither of us really found what we
were looking for there. So new fine arts, clean lit, non skeevy parking lot,
not out in the middle of BFE TX. I was a little pissed they didn't card us at
th door but if they want to invite legal troubles unto themselves thats their
drama. We start sorting our way through the "Straight" side of the
store, wait what there is a whole other side!?! In theory the gay side should
have a better variety of butt plugs... ok if you ever thought girls were size
whores I think gay men got us beat, fun and I looked at the average sized vibe
and dildo on the gay side and our thoughts were muchly along the lines of
"ouch". As for the butt plugs.... they had the but plug of doom death
and destruction, that thing was bigger than two fists just Jesus, and I am sure
it weighed a ton it was in a glass case so we couldn't pick it up, well at that
point I think I was the only one that wanted to poke at that thing, Fun was
mental blocking it as a paper weight. Their bondage section was a joke, fun and
I both looked at the toys and restraints, they were cheaply made and easy to
break and would rub a bears skin raw, no bueno but it did give us a good laugh.
We crossed back over to the strait side and Fun found an ass training kit we
hadn't noticed the first time.... and it was in cute colors, I had already
settled on getting a lucid dreams vibe, what can I say I am sucker for
cute/pretty/visually pleasing things. Fun gets her self some lube and we head
to the check out and pay for our shiney new toys, and head home.
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OCTOBER 5 2007
HOW THE SQUIRTING GOT STARTED
the gent I have been seeing lately decided I was a good enough girl a
few days ago to be fisted. I already know I enjoy fisting I like the
way it feels and the hint of pain that makes you want to have some one
ease off, but the second they do you feel empty. He started to play
with my ass too commanding me to push his fingers and hand out of me as
best that I could, before plunging back into me again, good times. He
was going at me so long his hand started to cramp up, that is besides
the point. So the last few times I tried to push him out.... I gushed
all over the damn place. The fun part, he wants to try it again
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OCTOBER 2, 2007
SQURTING
I thought when a girl squirted it was you know like a little stream, or
something akin to a squirt gun.... it felt like the friggin Gulf of
Mexico came out of me, I soaked his sheets, the down comforter, the
mattress cover, the mattress, just ohh my fucking hell all of me went all
over everywhere. and I am going to the sleeps now
-shy
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| Age: 32 |
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