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8/17/2006 11:11:15 PM

I read recently about someone who is in search for the perfect one, someone who can help them to completion.

Do we all have another half?

Can one feel complete and still be single?

Is it that a Dom/me needs to complete a submissive to feel fulfilled?

I have begun a journey into the world of switch with emphasis on Domme.
This is a true learning experience for me. I felt my Domme awakening about a year ago, but I ignored it.
I spent years trying to define and understand my submissiveness.
I can't say i have found an understanding. But I came to the conclusion that this is who I am, and it is up to me to embrace it or run from it.

The part of me that is emerging; Domme is a part of me that I had difficulty recognising and accepting.

Now, although I haven't actually Dominated anyone yet, I feel something happening that I never felt with submission.
Growth in so many aspects of my life, that I am excited to move forward.

This side is equally as scary. Not because someone is going to tie me down and take control of me, but someone will be trusting me to do just that.
I am afraid of making mistakes that can be detrimental in important ways.
BUT! I don't plan on letting fear guide me or stunt me.

I like to do to myself what I want to do to submissives. Make them face their fears, especially what they fear most.

So I may fear expressing myself in a Dommely way, I may make mistakes, and I may triumph.
Mostly I hope to learn and grow from each experience, and have alot of fun in he process.

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