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	Angel1919



	There are many sides to me. So, many I am still discovering them myself. I have been here before but never really committed to any relationships or even friendships, though I did have a few friends here and then left with dreams and fantasies swarming my brain and the illusion that I had found my One. IN the process I hurt some people too, though I did learn and grow from it all, It has been a few years and I have come to realize that what I search for is not a relationship so much as friendship and camaraderie with people who might be as twisted and deviant as I. I believe myself to be a spiritual man with permanent kink on the brain. I am a paradox and a contradiction. I believe domination and submission are different halves of the same coin depending on the people involved in the relationship. Submission is a gift and a privilege, as is dominance. Neither should be lightly given or taken. Love is not something I require in the way of sweep me off my feet or lasso you the moon. I had love and I lost it. But what is more important is I learned from the losses too. There is truly not many fantasies that I have left that have not been fulfilled. I believe fantasies develop and grow along with a relationship and vary depending on individuals involved. I call myself a switch in spite of the fact that in most of my personal relationships I was submissive. In my world I am dominant. Once I was told I was an alpha male slave and so I became one. Once I was called Master, and I grew to be one. Both experiences were real, intense, an me. The difference was in the ladies fantasies and desires, not mine. I have felt and exalted in everything from chastity devices to holding a whip. In short, there is little about sex and this lifestyle that does not excite me. I created this profile in order to see if I can find and reconnect with them old friends I have to make a few heartfelt apologies and thank yous. There is one on here who has helped me to grow and learn more than any other and I am hopeful She will be my friend forever. Thank you for looking at my profile and please feel free to write. I reply to all emails and no chat requests.

6/13/2011 9:53:12 PM

I believe that tributes put a value on a relationship that should be invaluable. It moves the focus from the dynamics of power to the power of money.

I believe in blindfolds & handcuffs and leather & lace.

I believe there is a difference between fantasy and reality, but in the end both are nothing but perceptions.

I believe the mind is the gateway to the heart and the heart is the gateway to the soul

6/13/2011 10:06:17 AM

Pygophillia. enough said.

6/8/2011 10:42:54 PM

It occurs to me that I am showing paradox here already. There is no need to point it out to me. Yes, I believe in God and Yes I believe in this lifestyle too. Yes I know that I said I have goals and dreams outside this lifestyle and then turned around and said this IS a lifestyle to me. I see no contradictions in the contradictions. I am not hiding who I am ever again. I will have friends and companions who understand this life because it is a part of who I am.

6/7/2011 12:32:06 PM

I am like everyone else and like no other. I am not searching for a quick night with whips, chains or pain. I am looking for friends first and foremost. Honest and open people who understand themselves and this lifestyle. This IS a lifestyle to me and always has been. My mistake has always been in trying to hide this part of myself. That one lie cost me as much as any other lie I ever dealt with, if not more.

I am me and I almost understand myself. I value honesty above most anything else and so here is some honesty;

I am alone but not usually lonely. There IS a major hole in my heart that needs to be filled and for all my talking and thinking I have to admit that I want to fill it. I will not compromise or settle just for the pleasure of pain and play. I need to have friends in my life who understand this lifestyle because I am human, and I do eventually need a companion for my future and I need her to be at least half as twisted as myself.

I am not actively looking for her today, but do know if she is to be found it will be here or someplace similar and so here I am. I am not a player looking for thrills and I do not share well either.

6/6/2011 1:54:19 PM

I have many goals and dreams not related to this lifestyle. I have children and family and do believe in God. I also believe in the pursuit of happiness and do not feel these are opposing factions in a battlefield. I believe God is a firm believer in freedom of choice and wants his people to have contentment.

I was made as I am and have no shame and God loves me just the same.

With this being said, it must be pointed out that I am a private play type of person, IF it ever was to come to play of any kind. I truly would welcome new friends anytime though.

I will not do cyber, or your man, but I have been known to do windows.