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My name is Nova, you may start with that. Titles are to be earned. It is a priviledge to address me by anything other than my name. I do not wish to be addressed as Mistress, although MaDamn works nicely. So, for those of you who have enough manners to feel uncomfortable addressing a Woman by her first name, blanket permission is given to address me as MaDamn Nova.

I adore control. It comes in many forms. From something as simple as fetching my drink, to complete withholding of whatever I wish. I may choose to reward you simply for being at my feet. I may choose to cane you simply to watch the marks bloom on your skin. I will be in control, and you will beg for what I give.

I am a poly woman, but that also comes in many forms. If you are interested in what that means, ask. Maybe I will tell you about our leather House, House Infernus. Or, we may discuss other aspects of our poly life. The only stupid question is the one you don't ask.

You must also be able to understand what a special family we have. MPD is a fact of my life, and we love every moment. Ask, I will answer your questions.











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 Dominant Female

 San Antonio 


 5' 6"

 240 lbs






Actively Seeking:

Dominant Female

Submissive Female

Submissive Male

Switch Women

Switch Men

Friends Only

A Poly Household

 Lives For:


 Hair Pulling

 Orgasm Control

 Lifestyle BDSM


 Ice Hockey


 Antique Shows

 Art Galleries

 Fine Dining



 Musical Theater

 Renaissance Faires


 Horseback Riding


 Cane / Crop Discipline



 Electrical Play

 Local BDSM Community

 Being Massaged


 Knife Play


 Mental Bondage

 Needle Play

 Obedience Training

 Plastic Wrap Bondage






 Genital Punishment

 Public Play


 Amusement Parks


 Curious About:

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9/10/2012 11:39:31 AM

All Hail the Newst Master In Austin!


Master Lily Luminous


Hail Hail Master Ma'am!!!!


8/1/2012 5:38:23 PM

Leather FOlk are moving onto SAN ANtonio!  I can hardly believe it!!!  THere is even a leather group working on bringing the community new understanding and wisdom.... greater cohesiveness within our corrporate ranks...


I am so excited about the prospects for our future!

7/23/2012 5:43:45 PM

Well folks, here we go again... another shark looms on the horizen, trying to bite one of my friends.  It makes me so angry that there are so many predators on this and other sites like it, vying for the attention of the new and uneducated.... 

So, along those veins, here is some info for all the good boys and girls out there ot chew on for a few days.... 


Written by Barton and delivered to LLC8. 

Internet Red Flags and Dating Tips for Kinky People

"Red flag" is a term to describe a personal trait or behavior that is common
in people who are harmful to their partners. When getting to know someone
online it is very important that you look for these red flags. When you see
these red flags slow down or stop the relationship. Understand that none of
these red flags alone are definitely a sign of a bad person. They only tend
to be an indicator of a problem situation. The more you see these red flags,
the more you are at risk. Many of these red flags can apply to both
unhealthy Doms and subs.

These recommendations are to help you avoid getting into an abusive
relationship. If you think you or someone you know is in an abusive
relationship please visit NLA's Domestic Violence Project web page at:

Red Flags:
* Tries to separate you from your friends, family or BDSM community

* Avoids talking about personal details. Gets mad when you ask or quickly
ends the conversation or answers questions with questions.

* Has no BDSM references or friends you can talk to. Gets angry when you ask
for references or ask around about them.

* Is inconsistent with details about themselves. Does not give you their
home and work phone number at the appropriate time.

* Only communicates with you at strange hours and gets mad if you try to
contact them at other times.

* Criticizes the BDSM community and refuses to participate, especially if
they never were part of it.

* Consistently breaks promises. Always finds excuses for not meeting.

* Always puts blame on others for things going wrong. Does not take personal

* Has bad relationships with most or all of their family members.

* Pressures you into doing things you do not want to do. Does not respect
your limits, negotiations or contracts.

* Pushes you into a D/s relationship too fast.

* Falls in love with you way too fast and swears undying love before even
meeting you.

* Hides behind their D/s authority and says that their authority should not
be questioned.

* Tries to make you feel guilty for not being good enough. Says that you are
not a "True" sub.

* Loses control of their emotions in arguments and regresses to yelling,
name-calling and blame.

* Puts you down in front of other people.

* Turns instantly on their friends, going from best friend to arch enemy at
the drop of a hat.

* Treats you lovingly and respectfully one day and then harshly and
accusingly the next.

* Goes to great lengths to get revenge on people.

* Lies or withholds information.

* Cheats on you or is overly jealous.

* Will not discuss what your possible future relationship could be like.
Tries to keep you in the dark about what might happen next in the

* Does not respect your feelings, rights, or opinions. Belittles your ideas.
Blames you for your hurt feelings.

* Abuses alcohol or other drugs.

* Is constantly asking for large amounts of money from you or others.

* Threatens suicide or other forms of self-harm.

* Deliberately saying or doing things that result in getting themselves
seriously hurt.

* Monitors your communications (emails, phone calls, chats) with others.

* Only interacts with you in a kinky or sexual manner as if role-playing.
Will not have normal everyday vanilla conversations.

* Never shows you their human side. Is emotionless. Hides their
vulnerability behind their D/s role.

* Has multiple online identities for interacting with the same communities.

* Disappears from communication for days or weeks at a time without

* Is rude to public servants such as waitresses, cashiers and janitors.

* Never says thank you, excuse me or I am sorry to anyone.

Safe Dating and Correspondence Tips

Before meeting:
* Do not give out personal information to strangers. This includes your
name, phone number, address, place of work or email addresses you use for
other purposes. Get a P.O. Box if you need to get mail from them.

* Do not send money to your online interest. There are online users that
earn a living by faking love and pretending to run into hard times.

* When you do make telephone calls, make sure your phone blocks caller ID or
call from a public phone. Do not call collect. Your number will appear on
their bill.

* Exchange multiple recent nonsexual photographs to avoid embarrassment and
hurt feelings.

* Get a background check before meeting. There are several services that
will do this through the Internet.

* Make it clear you are not going to engage in any BDSM activity on the
initial dates.

During the meeting:

* Meet in public places, preferably with a friend. Do not let your date
pressure you into going somewhere else even if the date is going fine.

* Try to make your first date a daytime event.

* Drive yourself to and from the meeting place. Relying on them for
transportation can put you in an unsafe position.

* Establish a safety net complete with safe calls and details on your date.
Tell your safety net your date's information, where you went and what to do
in case you do not make your safe calls. Make sure your date knows you have
a safety net set up. It is a great deterrent.

* Bring along a cell phone on your date and do not become separated from it.

* Do not drink alcohol on your date or leave your drink unattended.

* Never engage in bondage during your initial BDSM sessions.

* Do not leave your wallet or purse unattended. Your date may dig through
them to find out information you do not want them to know.

* If you are traveling to the meeting, do not let them meet you at the
airport or bus station. Use cabs or rental cars for going to and from the
public meeting place. Do not stay with them or let them make arrangements
for you. Do not let them know where you are staying.

Be aware that safe words, safe calls, contracts, negotiations or gut
instincts will NOT fully protect you from a real criminal. Take your time
and be sure what you are getting into.
Criminals have less patience for difficult targets.

7/7/2012 2:07:34 PM

Ironhide came to my home this weekend!  color me freaking exstatic!!!!!

I even posted pics on my facebook page!


thank you boy!  it was a pleasure as always!

6/8/2012 10:02:34 AM


-Put this in your profile if you know someone who has survived or died of cancer-



Sir Jim,

The Silver Backed Gorilla


I miss You my brother!


Never forgotten!


5/24/2012 6:38:44 PM

I was given flowers [hand picked ones at that!] by a complete stranger today.

Why? you ask....

Because I smiled at him as he stood on a street corner.

NEVER underestimate the power of a smile!

5/23/2012 1:39:13 PM

Recieved a wonderfull note today!

This boy wrote a well thought out application presenting himself with good manners and articulate speech!!!

I was very impressed with this man,

he is polite, educated, well mannered, understands HOW to write a presentation letter, and how to address both the issue of what his qualifications are as well as being able to list his needs, wants, and desires!  [that means he isn't a doormat like so many I have seen!!  YAY!!!!]


This  ONE HAS true potential!

we shall see....

5/12/2012 12:04:20 PM

OK, confirmed torn rotator cuff...possible more damage than that.  Yeah for me!

Have baffled the docs becuase I still have almost 100% mobility in that shoulder and arm, which is apparrently abnormal...


WOW, I am 'doing it different/wrong' again!  HAAHAHAHAH!!!!

Apparently I don't even do injured the way other folks do, lol...


THe Dragon says it's cuz I'm just too damn stubborn to stop moving, even if

it hurts....


Well, yeah!  Ok so it hurts, I'm alive!  I can still fling a flogger,

bring up lovely welts on someone's backside, or take a boy to his

knees for my own pleasure... isn't that what we work for ayway?


Now, if I could just find a boy around here to play with!


[waves to Mistress Starlight and Dizzy]


That last session just left me wanting more!

3/28/2012 1:11:22 PM

Prowling again.....

the hunger is on me hard today.

3/25/2012 8:14:28 PM

this weekend...

Broken phone, possible torn rotator cuff in the R shoulder, and bad news from 2 different fronts in the family.


Ready for a vacation, but need to take care of way too much to have it!


I need a boy to beat so I will feel better!!!


Any volunteers?

3/22/2012 10:08:42 AM

House Infernus has a new Pet!!


Welcome to my lovely pet, we are all so very proud and happy to have you join our Tribe.


Now, if I can just snag that sweet boy I have been talking to... P~)



1/20/2012 11:56:26 AM



Ette James dies this morning.

We have lost one of the great song birds of history!!!


Sing again with the angels, lovely Lady!!!

1/9/2012 10:47:00 PM

a beautiful gift as an end to my absolutely wonderful day!!!!


thank you darlin....

you know who you are



1/9/2012 8:36:00 PM

This is what kitty wrote in her journal today... I can add nothing more ...


we went to Cocoa Beach!! I stood in the surf and watch the full moon rise over the horison!! What a powerful experience to have! God is so amazing to me, He gives me such good things in my life... what a wonderful gift!! THe power of the ocean in all Her glory, Manni the moon coming into His own as he rises full and powerful over the earth! I just don't have words!!

Wife says its like stepping back into the womb of the earth, and she is right, so much power, feeling the very heartbeat of the world as the tide rushes around your feet!!! I wish I could live in that place all the time! such a gift to those who do, and most never even know!!


There is power in what we do, and i have felt that emmence power in miLord's will and ways, been over-powered with it at times, but this was something else entirely!! Feeling the great and huge power of the Earth washing over me... standing in that most basic cradle of life... knowing that i am a part of THAT!!!


these words pale in retrospect... there aren't enough adjectives in the human language for what i experienced today...

1/8/2012 6:11:51 PM

what is sensuality?


this questionn was put to me recently as a way of getting to know who I am...

It's a good question...


Watching my Kitten walk across the room

the feel of the warm sun on a crisp morning on my skin

hot water as it slides down my cold body in the shower

the crunch of leaves under my bare feet

the way The Dragon wraps His arm around me in His sleep

the way Georgia's hands roam in Her sleep

brushing my hair

having my hair brushed by someone I trust

breaking the water in a dive on a hot summer day, feeling that shiver!

dancing to good music in my living room with Wife

standing naked on the dock as I wallow in the sunshine

a cool breeze up my sarong

stretching in the morning



How's that for a starter list?

1/1/2012 10:12:57 AM

OMG! What a night!  My Lady played me hard, in public, which is a first.... then He got involved in things, and it really got heated up!! lol!!!


I never thought I would desire to be played myself, but She is amazing... Georgia and Draco are the only people on this earth I could surrender to, if you could call how we play 'surrender'. He and I went after each other with the rattails, and even though he always wins, and He ALWAYS wins lol, we have such a grand time playing. 


Draco calls watching Georgia and I play ... "Watching pittbulls playing".  That;s a pretty good discription of what happens...and I have the teeth marks to prove it!!  LOL


God, I love You miLord and miLady!!

Thanks for last night!


Draco's appalling Pet Bitch

Georgia's Baby Girl 

12/20/2011 4:51:15 PM

We lit the candle, making wishes for good fortune, love, peace in our home and lives... without our family being whole.  She is there, but it is required, she needs to be with the youngen....they sent a text pic of the Yule tree they decorated!  I am so glad she is having a good time with her daughter.


We celebrate Yule festivities without her though, and it leaves such a hole in me to have her gone.  I miss my wife!  I am fixing to go do the last of the Christmas shopping  [ shopping for miLord] , but I am doing it without HER! She MUST be with the child, and I rejoice in her time with youngen, but hate that we must go thru this aweful separation each time... hate watching what it does to her!  She is so strong, and just smiles, and keeps going!!  Makes me so very very proud of her!  My wife is incredible!!!


may Tier bring justice and peace to this whole damned thing!!

11/10/2011 11:11:08 AM

Being left with myoclonic seisures after being broken by a stupid radialogist sucks! 

HAving family that make life worth living by how they help you deal with said seisures....

    That is where the rubber meets the road!! 

Last nights entertainment for the evening.... 

 was twitchy really bad all night with mini seisures, had 2 major ones before dinner yesterday. Bless my kids, they have no memory of me NOT being broken, so for them, it's status quo... Cricket sat on my thigh to hold it down, and Spawn [yeah, I know, by he chose that nickname himself!] is beside her trying to keep my foot from twisting sideways.... and he says " hey Mom, your becoming contagious! MY Thigh is cramping too! Same side even!!" as he holds me down thru the seisure!! We are all dieing laughing thru it!! Was just hilairious!!!! GOD! I love my kids!!! When it was over, Cricket just slides over and snuggles back up with me, and Spawn walks off, after he leans down and kisses me on the forehead..."Ya ok now, Mom? Want some water?"... No big deal.... making jokes all the way thru it as they hold me down so I don;t end up getting hurt.... 

The meds work, I only have seisures when I overdues too much, and can usually stop them if I catch it soon enough, and can stop whatere activity is pushing me over the edge....  Or I can choose to recognise that, eventually, I'm gonna seise, and push thru so I can have a life....  pay the piper so to speak...

Well, I tell yeah, I hate that damned piper, but I hate this sitting around even more!! I would rather have a life, and deal with the seisures, than be a bump on a log!  Piss on that! 

Friday says maybe I need to up the meds again, but that just makes me foggy-brained... not worth it...  I have too much left to do....

9/12/2011 9:16:05 PM



Why is it that son men think it acceptable to send a friend request to a Woman they have never spoken to , even in email, in the slightest fashion?


Got another one today, have never even received a 'hello Ma'am" from him, but he sends a friend request...and adds himself to my 'admirers' list....


Now, some might think, that in and of itself, and flattery... and sometimes it can be.  But if you have looked at my profile once, and decide you want to say hello, GREAT!  Shoot me a line, say hello!  Be respectful!  


Yeah, I'm a bit stuck on protocol. Read my profile, instead of just looking at the pics, and you can tell that!  I address most polite hello's, with very few acceptions, and don't have issues with most of the folks in my admirers list.... but let me get to know you!  I LIKE getting to know people, even online!  Otherwise, it's just rude!



OK-  rant off



8/21/2011 7:38:38 PM

California is amazing!!  Pics to follow.... Missing my home and family though...


Love You miLord!

8/1/2011 9:30:32 AM

Met a new cub last night...

What a lovely time!  Coffee after a movie, interesting conversation, and he has very sweet manners!  So refreshing! I do enjoy a polite cub who is well mannered!


I see a possible playmate on the horison!  Yeah me!!! 

7/30/2011 2:52:11 PM

Two weeks till Wife and I leave for California!  I cna't wait !  We are so excited about this trip!!  Can't wait to break out that lovely camera that milord bought us for a gift and make a video record of the trip across this amazing country!!  We are coming back thru the Yosemite National Forest!!  Sequoias- here we come!!  Just the idea of standing amid those trees gives me the shivvers!!


Two weeks is WAY TO LONG!!!

7/21/2011 2:35:46 PM"s official!  Watching friends break-up is just fuggin awefull!!!

It sux for them, and the whole community that loves them!


Try to keep perspective folks, I know it's hard, but try not to choose sides... and don't mud sling! there's enough hurt already, let's not add to it!


And no, it's not in my family, or even House Infernus, for those who might be concerned.... 

6/16/2011 9:18:18 PM

THings are popping around here lately!

Found some truely AWESOME people!

Leather folk in San Antonio, who woulda thunk!??


Now, if I could just find that 'friend with benefits'

set up with a hunky gentleman....


Damn that picky streak I have!

Any of you sweet boys wanna apply for the

position? P)



MaDamn Nova 

5/17/2011 5:33:41 PM

The new place is fantastic!  So much room!!

Room to move, to breathe, to play , if we can find the time, LOL!


The library still needs a set of shelves built, but things are coming along really nicely....


On a different note, I am evolving....  many things have changed for me in the last year...

I have become quite facinated with men on a whole new level....

I am concidering looking for a fuck buddy, or a very special boy who might earn the priviledge of becoming my lover as well as my toy.


Stagnation is death... growth , even now, is a good thing....

1/27/2011 1:17:09 PM

Moving day looms close now... we start this weekend.   I feel trapped by time in so many ways!...


So many things have changed...


Beloved rui is MIA...

J and S are no more...




I take action, make things happen...and I must sit on my hands and wait...


And all the while that damned nawing in my soul!  I need a plaything to beat... skin to carve in... to let loose and feel the power of the flight as we soar !


I need a boy to beat....



Any hands?


9/17/2010 4:42:18 PM
She lays beside me, wrapped in loveliness.  Dark chocolate silk spreads across the pillows
as the curve of her hip tantalises me.  I ache for her.  I can smell the clean scent of her womanness... I want her.

She sighs softly, and moves to be more comfortable.  I could reach out and touch that silk, run my fingers thru it...soft pink lips smile at me in her sleep.  I trace the line of the tattoo on her back, and she smiles more, waking to move to me.Cuddling up against my breast, she looks up at me.  Her mouth is waiting, warm and inviting.  the kiss is slow, languid.  Her fingers brush softly across my thigh, reaching...  she knows me so well!  One move of the hand, and those silkened tresses are wrapped in my fingers, and she sucks in air as I take control...

So beutifull in the soft light.  Her eyes glow with hunger...need to be touched.  I will fill that need, slowly, in my own time.  I love making it grow before I satisfy it!  Watching the need on her face fascinates me!

She is altogether beautifull, this woman who is my wife!

I am blessed...and take what I want...

8/25/2010 8:44:19 PM
My hands itch...

I want to hear the raging of a man tied and tormented by my own hands!  To feel that power, to roll in the emotions of the Exchange!

ANd , to quote the Dragon....
"My knives itch!"

2/19/2010 10:57:59 AM
a bad night, now the pc is acting up, and won't type in anything but bold....

Need to beat on my new play partner, but concerned that won't happen for a long while... his SO is in a bad way, needs him desperately, I get that, and must bide my time. I hate being patient!  But, they are both worth the effort, and he especially is...

My hands itch...I have the tell tell nawing inside that won't leave, it's been there for months...need to really let go and play HARD! I haven't played hard in almost 4 years, not the way I want, or how I want...haven't had a boy to beat on in tht long...didn't realize how much that was effecting me till now...

Can't seem to get away from that horrid ache inside that naws at I said, my hands other way to describe it....

time if the enemy now

2/3/2010 4:09:59 PM
new issues

I can't see inside the garden, no contact with kitty or any of the others...even my beloved Kitten, who is truely the Joy of my Life is MIA... the meds have me shut down.

singletons cannot appreciate what this does..
I am alone..disconnected..aggitated...Bitchy, LOL.

we will try a half dose tonight, and see if that helps, or maybe its just another in a long list of things I can't take....

we shall see....

11/25/2009 10:54:32 AM
Wen the day before Thanksgiving:

Pt again today, hopefully it won't give me a migraine again.  The PT guy is very very pleased with how much progress I am making, but I wonder if i will ever throw a flogger again/  I need to beat someone SO DAMN BAD I ACHE...That Bitch inside screams to see the weels come up on the skin, feel the flesh wiggle as I run my nails across soft hide , see eyes grow wide from the sight of my blades!!!

I will keep doing the exercises, keep getting my strength back, but I am so ready for this to be done!!  And I have 20 more visits to PT!!

[growling as I sign off!!!]

9/29/2009 3:45:20 PM
I've hit the half way mark, and time is dragging by very very slowly!!  I feel good enough some days to feel almost normal, till I try to BE normal, do normal things.  Then I find out how NOT up to speed I really's very frustrating!!!

I can at least ride for short distances inthe car, but no partying, no play with the Spice, no much of anything....

I miss my friends, my life!  I miss being cuddled and laughinf w/o hurting...


So not good at following someone else's orders!


9/15/2009 1:35:41 PM
Surgery went well, I am down for some time now.  No riding in a car till released by the surgeon, I see him on Friday.  That can't come soon enough, I have a life to get back to.

MiLord and the Spice are most worried about me, I must follow Doctor's orders very very carefully, and that is not always easy for me, especially when it involves a long haul like this will.

I will be most glad when this is finally behind me and I can play again....

9/6/2009 9:25:12 AM
Well, I will be off line for a while folks...

I am having some fairly major [but vey needed] surgery on 09/09/09.  I am told this is a very interesting day, numeralogicaly.


Catch you on the flip side

8/16/2009 1:27:32 PM
MAe MAe just isn't doing everything Wife needs, so ....
We are at it, again!

Mae Mae goes to the Wizard's friend, who has a place inHer life for a SD, her girl needs one for college this year... and the hunt began last week for Wife a new dog...
SO, this time we look for a PUPPY, something to train from the beginning, like I have with The Beast.  It will make a better working team, and I can help Wife mold it into watever She wants and needs....

SO we go today to a spot in the country outside our fair city, and look at guess what?  ENGLISH MASTIFFS.  4  1/2 months, she is red and black brindle, and Oh my, is she big!  AS big as Hardy dog, and sweet as apple pie!

Yeah, brought her home, Mae Mae goes to her new home this week [brobably tomorrow ] , and we start this process all over again!

8/3/2009 2:40:33 PM
Have found a new source of pleasure in my life....

A new playtoy to write stories for me and send me pictures of the assignments I give!! This boy  found a WONDERFUL game online, and we are having such fun with it!!  I am so very pleased with him for bringing it to me, and doing such a fabulous job of working to please me!!!   I just itch to meet him in person, make my own marks come up on him...

Those of you who know me know how very much I LOVE to watch to cane marks bloom, see the whip lashes sweel on the skin, play with them as I play with my toys.....

Damnit!  Now I have to take a shower, again!!  Just love daydreaming....

ANd then there is the other eboy who is coming, i may play with him, and he MAY even buy me a pair of new shopes>>>!!!!!   OOOO< The daydreams I have entertained lately would make a porn star blush.....

7/13/2009 7:15:02 PM
Had lunch with an intelligent, well mannered, articulate gentleman today!!

How refreshing!!

He made my hands itch!!

I haven't felt this way about a male submissive in a very long time.  It is lovely to think of him as furniture for the next party, and I am making plans for his attire accordingly! (those of you who know me, bet you can just almost hear the low chuckle that [apparently] is my signature for wicked thoughts).  Men look so lovely in short barely-there sarongs..... maybe I will add a white collar and black bow tie to start with, instead of the collar and leash? I can always put the collar and leash on him later in the evening.....

7/8/2009 11:18:16 AM
You can meet some of the nicest people here... Patience is a must, but they are out there.

Went to the Gay Pride Parade with the Wife and some close friends.. Had such a good time!  So nice to openly kiss her in public and not be looked at funny!  I want the t-ehirt I saw...

"I can't even think straight'

Its so us!!

6/15/2009 9:18:42 PM
wow. been a while since I wrote, didn't realise it had been this long...

Today was my birthday, and my sheepy girl called to say happy b-day!! It was so amazingly good to hear her voice!  Thanks, sis, i so needed that call, you just don't know!!!  It made my day so much better!!!

Wife took me and the crew to L Park for swimming, damn we had a good time!  I hurt so bad tonight it is unreal, but gods it was worth it!!  Thanks, Charlie for such a great day!

3/19/2009 3:47:59 PM
Up date:

stretching is finished!!  Have my 8g rings in!!

Got my Pheonix tat done yesterday! reds, oranges, and yellows!  She is on my R thigh, ascending in flight!  Thank you, duck boy!!  She is everything I ever wanted!

pics to follow....

2/18/2009 6:51:07 PM
My stretching tapers are here!!!

I am stretching my lower ear wholes up to an 8g, so we bought steel stretching tapers and they are finally in!! Got the 12g sticks in tonight, the right slid in like butter, the left needed 4 hours of on again , off again playing with it!  Both feel like I have been wearing clothes pins for a hour!! Should feel better in the morning, though. I can't wait till I can wear the 'Alien mermaids' that Hubby Thomas gave me, they so rock!!!!

Gos, I love my life!!

2/6/2009 10:59:51 AM

still no cigs!!!

The Dragon is re-habing our room for kitty, new paint and shelves and a new closet and even the most amazing captin's bed ever!! He measured for height and is painting it her colors and making the room her haven!!

Our Dragon is so amazingly in love with His little kitten!!

1/10/2009 10:28:26 AM
So much has happened.....

My life has changed so greatly.  Mine belongs to herself now, her own choice.  I keep tabs, speak with her as I can, miss her more than words....

My life spins in high gear now....His Lordship The Dragon, My Lovely Wife, My Lover The Wizard, schooling The Horde!!  ANd those beasties of ours!!  Now, The Gods Themselves are sending people to us to learn how to use dogs...another one today, just out of the crowd at the Yoten's swim meet.

Yule was AMAZING!! We shared in the Asatru Blot, then a sumbool (I feel certain I have mis-spelled this, my humble apologies to any I offend) , which felt to very !right! to me.... down to taking the oath ring in my hand and making the oath not to smoke, then sealing it with thee meade.  (Yes, I am free of the cigarettes, for the curious!)

It is like coming home when I didn't know I was lost.

9/8/2008 5:28:10 PM

Comfort calls me to come and rest.  I am making plans to take mine let her stand in the cool water, feel the soft breath of the breeze on her face, and stand in the cool grass.
Saturday can't get here fast enough.

7/21/2008 4:47:06 PM
Leather Camp grows closer, and I yearn for my Kansas friends and Family!  It calls to me like a sweet song, pulling the spirit....

I hear you....

7/11/2008 1:45:41 PM
Rest and quiet at the river so restores the spirit! 

As dusk falls, and the fireflies twinkle in the trees, children laughing in the the background is sweet, not abrasive.  Good friends laugh as well, and the world wraps itself around us softly, allowing us to breathe, and grow.  We all need this.

Kitty stands in the running water, and in green grass, and stress runs off her like rain on a tin roof....

The birds sing songs of peace, and the air is just sweeter here.....I want to bring mine here!

6/8/2008 11:33:28 AM

Leather Camp is not going to get here soon enough!!!

If you follow my journal, or just want info on Leather Camp, please ask...

6/8/2008 11:29:28 AM
Home again, and I already miss Kansas.  We went to the local munch last night.  It is so different here.  I miss my family and friends in Wichita....

Met a really nice guy last night, sorta of...kitty met him, actually.  Very sweet, nice to kitty, they talked boots all night.  Was very cute. 

Nice to be home with good friends and see real family again, though.  Love you guys here just as much.  Wish I could pick up those I love in KS and transplant them here, or vice versa.  HAte being split!  HATE mine being so far away!!  Wish she was here, hate this ldr thing!! Can't wait till she can move back home again, that will so fuggin rock !!!  Like kitty says, her place at the table is set, and waiting for her....

miss you , mine....

Kisses to yer Daddy and His girl for me...

5/31/2008 1:53:42 PM
It is amazing being back in Kansas again!  Spent last night with close friends celebrating mine's birthday. The Dragon, The Evil Bastard and I ganged up on her for her birthday,what a scene that must have been! Cups, knives, paddles, canes, fur, and her telling us all thank You and fugg off, alternately!!  It was great! We had such fun, and Draco FINALLY got to meet my friends here. Very kool.

I can't wait till Leather Camp in August!!

So, still will be off and may not answer messages, but I am watching, boys and girls, just like always.  Thanks for the messages, yes, I know how much you love me, I love you too.  But, mine comes first, and this is Her Birthday week, after all!!!

Kisses to the Gladiators.

5/28/2008 9:48:46 AM
think back to when you spent time with me:

the soft smile, the low, sultry voice, the crackle in those deep green eyes you know means someone has made me the kind of angry that goes way beyond a little pissed...

" I took the title THE BITCH for a reason. I EARNED THAT TITLE! Hope you never have that much energy focused on you."

the head tilts forward, eyes that are hard and glitter with fire pierce you inside....

"now you know why I say that really is a warning....most never listen...YOU SHOULD HAVE!"

5/7/2008 1:53:52 PM
Interesting, whose been looking at me.... We're watching that front as well.....

Yes, I know who you are, and I am NOT impressed! 

4/25/2008 7:07:26 PM
Welcome home Duck boy, its about time.  We are happy to have you, and the duckling as well, as part of House Infernus!

o doce sonha meu animal de estimação

4/22/2008 4:27:44 PM
tasks for today:

email, lunch(Imissed it, again), and bathing 4 dogs...
1 60 lb mutt that has issues with shaking
1 60 lb mutt that will surely have hairballs for
      all the hair he has and all the licking he did
1 80 lb anatolian who tried twice to go thru   
1 35 lb puppy, who was easiest of all, and watched as I did the others as if he was very confused by the whole thing!

Aided by 2 kids, both of whom were soaked to the bones by the end, as was I!  The porch was white with suds, and we all laughed thru it and had a grand time! 

I wonder how many more of these moments I have left?

4/6/2008 9:36:13 PM
I am so very very tired of stupid people telling me how they know more than I do!
I went to the Sprint store today, taking Beast with me for working practice.  Now, I have a copy of what the Disability Act says that I carry all the time just for these occasions, so when this guy tells me I have to take my dog outside, I explain that he is a service dog, and therefore exempt from the "no pets" laws.  He wants to see his 'certificate of registration', so I show him what the Fed law says about services animals, which he brushes off and tells me, "My dad was a cop and he says you need proof the dog is registered."  Ok, moron, here we go again.  I hate teaching stupid people what the law REALLY says!  They don't want to learn, they just want to be right, which makes no sense to me at all.

So, MiLord The Dragon ends up dealing with this guy, I just walk away.  Beast, who mind you is 3 months old, falls in step like the pro he is, sits on command, lays down at my feet while I discuss my phone issues with the counter help, and while I am standing there, this other woman comes in with a chihuahua, in her purse!!!! I just was dumbstruck!!!!  And here is my puppy, he hasn't made a sound the whole 30 minutes we've ben in the store, her PURSE is barking, constantly, so much so that she has to go back outside!!!!  I know that was part of the problem, but my Beast is flagging his patches on his neckerchief, it plainly says, Service Dog, Do Not Distract. and  In Training  where it can be scene.  Then at that point, in comes smart lady blondie with the barking purse!!!  I'm thinking, Oh great!!  Just what I needed , kerosene for that moron!!

ANd Beast, he never makes a sound, never moves, just lays there quiet at my feet watching the people walk around us like he is a pro!!   Such a big boy, my Beastie!!!!!

Gawd, was I ever glad miLord was there today!!!!!!

3/24/2008 5:23:39 PM
Well, folks, the party was to die for!! Folks from all over, south, North, East and West!  ANd best of all, MY GIRL!  My sweet girl was at the SAADE party, her first one!  What a night, good friends, GREAT presentation, fabulous demo, and excellent food!  Sexy folk in sexier clothes doing the sexiest of all things to each other right out in the open for all to watch!  What more can one ask for in a party?  All with miLord and my girl at my side.  Color me a very very Happy woman, even if I did have a fever when I got home.  Gawd, I hate living with this much pain!! I hate it that it causes that symptom, like I am sick or something....

Thanks to all who were worried, I really am ok..just my life when I push too far....

love to all...

3/14/2008 12:24:46 PM
My girl is coming!!!!!!!!!!
She will be here in just a few short days, and I am so very fuggin excited I can't wait!! We get  so little time, and she will be here for a party, EXOTIC EASTER, (yes , local folks, that IS indeed a blatant plug , if you haven't been, ASK ME!) , AND Easter proper!!

Sometimes, Life is just nice to me!

3/1/2008 12:04:32 PM
An interesting question today...
Do you enjoy when a sub relinquishes control to you?.....
Ask my girl, she will tell of giving in, of falling into me, giving me all she is.  She is MINE, it is what I call her, her name, Mine.  That is what she is, my girl, my toy, my friend, my pet, my co-hort!

I love to watch as her eyes fade into that place of power and strength as she fights the pain and pleasure and watches as I whip her.  As we play, giving in to what I want, taking what I choose to give. I listen to her, waiting, allowing her to process, waiting for the next strike.  She breathes in, tasting the pain, watching my face.  I smile, and she gives more.  I tell her she is mine, and still more is given.....

She flies so lovely for me...taking me with her.  We soar, as the tail flies harder and harder.  She growls, and I know she is giving even then, but the pain make she fight!  I love that fight!!!  It works into a frenzy, and she fights with words I have taught her...lashing out to tease me...beautiful in her submission!!!  No one can give me this but her.....

As she floats back to the earth, I hold her and rock her and tell her I am proud of her.  She gives me so much, all of herself!!

I am truely the most blessed of Women.
Does this answer the question?

2/20/2008 4:16:34 PM
Happy Graduation Day, Silverback Gorilla!
They found Him last week, His grad day of a Lifetime finally here! We were not notified as we should have been, so the things that we were to do for Him have been left to others with less knowing hands. Forgive us, please.

We are still Your family, having chosen to love and be faithful.  You are still in our hearts , our minds, our souls. This will NEVER ever change. You will always be The Gorilla who took us into the group, forever changing our lives with Your laughter, Your love, and that gruff voice.  A voice always quick to discipline, but just as quick to praise those You love. You taught much, and learned some too. 

You will be sorely and greatly missed, my great Friend!

Look at us and smile from up there, see us waving?  Happy Grad Day, Gorilla!

2/10/2008 12:30:13 AM
gave my girl her vest tonight.  OMG! was she ever suprised!!  L and His girl, N and S  helped, and  N and S even bought her a cake and everything!! I was so grateful...

MiLord made it a conference call so He could do it Himself, even if He couldn't be there in person.  S told me later it looked like we had practiced the timing and everything it was so well choreographed! That was funny, since mine didn't even know what was going on, and we have been planning this for 3 months!   Draco had written eveyone and had everyone online with this before I ever left San Antonio last week, so we knew what would be happening. 

It went off without a glitch.  We even had the chance to teach the others in the group about the protocol involved, since there were several who asked N about what was happening.  He asked us, L and I, to explain to the group about earning your Leathers, what that is and what it means.  It was a wonderful chance to teach about tradition, and the locals asked many questions, and were very interested in what it meant, what mine had done to earn her vest, and how she had grown.  It was so very AWSOME!!!!!  It was also so different than SA in how it was recieved!! These people respected what was happening, and wanted to know more.  Little sponges for information!! I was amazed!

In this, SA sucks!

2/6/2008 3:35:07 PM

(excuse me while I remove the Dom hat for a few ticks....)

OMG!!!  I have never seen snow like this in my whole life!! We drove thru it in AZ, but this is different.  I mean, it sticks here! Its on everything!!!!! Its all WHITE!!! EVERYTHING IS WHITE!!  SOFT, FLUFFY, COLD WHITE STUFF THAT MELTS WHEN I HOLD IT AND CRUNCHES AND I LEFT BOOTPRINTS IN IT AND I THREW IT AT MINE AND WE DROVE THRU IT IN THE DARK BLOWING SIDEWAYS AND I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD SEE THIS IN MY WHOLE LIFE!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS SO FUGGIN ROCKING ASS KOOOOOLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you, mine, for getting me here for this!You rock bestest of all!!!!

MiLord,yes You were right. THis pet likes it after all, so long as I can get warm right away. (wink, You know how I HATE to be cold!)

we now return you to our normal Bitch settings.....

12/3/2007 10:14:10 AM
I got to set my girl on fire!!! Oh my GAWD!! HAve you ever played with lfash cotton? IT is the best stuff!!! We put it everywhere!! Her eyes got so big!!  She made to best squeals and gasps in a long time, and it burns so fast, she never got hurt!!


I love control like that!!  TO light that stuff, watch it go up so fast, look at her face as she feels the heat and giggles from the flames, it was so very cool!!!  We so needed that time together!!

It has been very hard this visit, since all that has happened has left me feeling off kilter, unable to feel emotionally able to play.  Two days ago I turned a corner, and we were able to have a little time to play a bit, even if it wasn't a rok-roll time like we both want and need.  Damnit, I hate that other people can effect how I feel to that point!!  I wanted this visit to be special for her, and the actions of others have interfered to such a large extent that I have been unable to overcome what has been done.  I can take pain killers and play anyway, but this was beyond what I could get past.  That means we both loose.  Her more than me, and I fail her in being there for her.

12/1/2007 5:36:26 AM
My duck has resurfaced!! I am so very glad!!!  ANd he brings a duckling with him, and she is a delightful beaty to beheld, to be sure.

Welcome home littleduck!

10/11/2007 1:42:31 AM
UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  OH, GAWD!!!!!!  I NEED A HOUSE SLAVE!!!!!!!! 

I hate housework.  I am so sore.  Cleaning up this house makes my back ache so bad.  I need a well-trained RMT who can very gently work out all the kinks in my back and make me feel all better.  (pouting)  Why can't I find some self-sufficient rich, young, beautiful slave who wants to support me and my family in a big, fancy house, pay all my bills so that I never have to work and do all my housework, so that I never have to worry?  It seems like such a nice fantasy!

Ah, well, I guess fantasy will just have to stay fantasy.

10/6/2007 8:38:39 PM

Ok, nobody loves me this weekend!  :(

Did I do something terrible?

Oh, yeah!  I'm good at doing terrible things, and people love me for it!  Oh well!

C'est la vie!

10/2/2007 6:20:14 PM
The Universe has brought me a new baby.  I have a 4 week old kitten, mostly white with orange markings.  He is named Puck, after the poor misguided fairy from "A Mid-Summer Night's Dream".  It just fit.  Not that I really wanted this baby, but J brought him to us while we were asleep, which means that when she pulled it out of her shirt and said 'Mommy look what I found, its a baby!" kitten came out right a way and cuddled it into her neck, lay back down on D's chest and went right back to sleep!  An hour or so later, we wake back up, she looks up and D and smiles, what could He do, He says, "yes, kitten, you can have it!" kitten gets anything she wants!  She smiles and goes back to sleep again!  What can I do, but find it a name, LOL!  SO, Puck it is.  He needs care every three hours, like I want that, and must be crated when not in my lap.  He hissed at everything that moved for the first 24 hours, except kitty and therefore me.  He seems to have decided I/we are mommy.  Not the first time I have dealt with kitten being Earth Mother, that's for sure!! For those of you who know us, remember the vulture?...

 And that girl of mine, she says, well, Ma'am, You must have needed it!
    SO, thats how Puck came to live at the Menagerie de Dragon!  And kitty becomes the Mother  defacto to another critter.  Pics coming soon, stay tuned....

9/27/2007 7:10:26 PM
Well, I finally figured out how to put on more than one damn picture!  Yeah me!  Got shots of my tats, and my girl and I at Leather Camp too!  Damn that was an awesome weekend!! Have more pics coming, thank you mine!  Will post them as I get them downloaded.

9/14/2007 4:07:02 AM
My new outfit came today!  Got a quick shot, but will take some better ones, with warpaint on (LOL) later.  Had to send this one to my girl, thanks baby girl, it fits great!  ANd you should see HIM!  His fits better than mine does!  Won't me be a smash at the party this weekend?

8/30/2007 5:58:50 PM
Leather Camp was awesome!! Being with real Leather People is so wonderfull, so different.  I love Kansas, and WOOLF is just the bomb!
   Watched my girl do her step down, boy did she do my House proud!!  My only wish is that Draco could have been there too.  He will be there next time maybe, Leather Camp is that kool! Standing for the National Anthem, presentation of House Colors, Introduction of Title Holders.... What a weekend.
   For those who don't get what Leather is, there is no real explaination what it means to stand with those Folks. They are truely a set of people apart from all others. I am very proud to be counted as a member with them. 
   Thank You, Evil Bastard, for all Your encouragment! And for the smoking lesson!

8/7/2007 7:38:27 PM
Aren't Gladiators just the very best in men!!!  The one I am playing with is turning out to be more than I could possibly have hoped for!  The way he rages when we play amazes me, inciting me to play harder and more viscious than ever before.  I adore that in him. It pleases me to no end!

 Perhaps if I am a very blessed Lady, I will have the opportunity to temporarily, if not on a more permanent basis have this Gladiator fight for me. One can only hope for such a privledge.

7/12/2007 5:58:59 PM
Wow, I never thought when I created this profile I would find what I have!  I did this so my girl in Ks could find me, and I would be here for her.  What a boon I have found it to be!

There are many interesting people here, and some I will get to know better in the future.  I look forward with anticipation to what Life is bringing me. It amazes me that I have desires I had as yet not discovered, that are being fulfilled! Such lovely toys to play with! <winks to SMS>

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