So i found the Dom of my dreams. And He was under my nose this whole time, He has been a good friend of mine for 10 years. And now He is training me and i am so proud of my progress. I love the learning process. He is amazing to me, I am His queen. We are already planning a wedding that suits our way of life and our faiths. I love him, and i got everything i asked for. 

So, I have several Dominants that i am talking to, and i am still not finding what i am looking for. I am starting to lose hope. I had the perfect guy in my grasp and my heart was stuck on someone else and i have lost my chance. Silly little girl dreams. What to do What to do. i am so tired of looking and tired of being alone. This nympho needs someone who can keep up. 

so i keep getting men that are in their early forties to their late 60s is there really no one my own age that finds me attractive? do i not tempt anyone in their 20s or 30s? I can't take a man in his 50s or 60s to my mom, that would be awkward, and don't give me the whole "well don't introduce me to your mom" my mom is my best friend, the only thing i keep from her is the details. I don't think that i am going to have much in common with someone who is old enough to be a parent or grandparent. Yes i like the Daddy Dom types but that doesn't mean that i expect you to be old enough to be my Daddy, i'm not sure i'm OK with that, it seems kind of creepy to me. I want to get to know all of you gentlemen, i want to know what kinds of people are out there. but i can't take you home to mom, i'm not going to take you home at all, or go home with you.  early 40s doesn't bother me, but any older than that and we are getting into the creepy side. I know what my mom would say and i kind of agree with her. but that's neither here nor there, these are just my thoughts. I am also having issues with giving up my country boy lover dream. i like to go mudding fishing camping, all that stuff and i don't want to worry about your blood pressure heart attack or what ever in the process. again just the thoughts going through my head, i want to enjoy at least some of the same kinds of music. i want to go dancing, i want to go drinking watch a silly kids movie. is that too much to ask? are all you young guys so spoiled on your super model dreams that a girl with some curves intimidates you and makes you uncomfortable???

so i am still looking around, i'm getting a lot of those messages where they are immediately asking to join my circle of friends....that is kind of annoying. I am also getting a lot of people either across the country or not in it at all. and then i think i have gotten a total of two people in their 20s, i'm not knocking the older guys, but i am looking for something that will last a lifetime and someone i can take home to mom. I am a very open person with my mom, no she won't know about the lifestyle, i've tried that, she doesn't agree with it. But i want someone who is going to respect my mother and me as far as being extremely vanilla around my mom, i don't want to make her uncomfortable. She is the only parent i have left and i am very close with her. Mom doesn't care how old they are but at the same time, i don't want to dedicate my heart mind and body to someone who is likely to die 20 years before me. I don't want to go through this search again. it's hard enough doing it once.