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For the sake of experimentation, I am going to deviate from kinster *what I really am*, to submissive for the time being. I feel this will prove as an enlightening experience; which I am all about. As such, I am now on the look out for potential Doms. If your interested in training/teaching me; do feel free to message me. Obviously, all others are welcome as well. :) Hello out there, my name is Oni... or that's what they call me. I'm currently studying to major in linguistics and humanities and have a strong need to travel, see and interact with the world around me. オレは日本語少し話し。も伝習を. I'm a hardcore gamer, watcher of anime and goer of conventions. I am very animated and very fashion conscious; not to say that I fallow trends... but rather, I tend to fallow a beat and style all my own. I want to go in to fashion... and than yet, there's so much more I wish to do; study massage and help to relax people. Or also, biotechnology and work toward a better future for all. I am as friendly as they come and am welcoming to almost anyone; save a certain few. I cannot tolerate ignorance or people that are happy for being ignorant, small mindedness, bigotry, insensitivity, ageism, racism, etc. And wouldn't stand for seeing it. If I see injustice, I do my best to fix it. That being said, education is a big part of my life, and human experience... "Life is study." My kinks are evolving. I don't feel experienced enough to say for sure what I am completely into, despite my level of actual sexual experience. You could say, sexually I am well versed, however kinkwise, I am less educated than I'd like to be. My list of kinks may give what I'm into, however I have little experience in actually doing what I like. When I am involved with someone, I am very focused on them and their needs; I know I'll get mine either way. I love getting others off, their moans, the way their bodies move. My sexual style I want to say, is "For Science" or the sake of experience... I enjoy exploration. I am only, as always, searching for friends. In my life, one path always leads to another two, my frienships are no different. "In the name of the flesh, name of debauchery; twisted majik in black laced tied all over me. Tonight’s menu covers a multitude of sin,don’t think I am an Angel, just because I have wings. Loving that organ baby and not you; watching your black lips turn pale blue. Paint on lacquer smooth glide feeling ambitious your body in my mouth... DEVILICIOUS!"
11/10/2010 4:14:36 PM

This is a compilation of answers from various questions i've been asked about myself:

*note: all information is from

 

Q: "For everyone in the thread, what are some of your hard limits as far as kinks and fetishes go?"

A: I can't really say my limits yet. I live under the pretense, "I'll try anything once.... maybe twice." I don't have enough experience to really say what I am into and am not... can only really speculate until otherwise.

 

Q: But there's nothing you absolutely KNOW you won't do? I mean, I've never fucked a dog but I absolutely know it wont happen :P

A: Well, I try not to close myself off. I look at it this way: Ya, scat sounds disgusting... I mean it's shit. But, I'll never know if I'll like something till I throw myself in there and try it. If I just dismiss it just cuz of aesthetics, I could be missing out on something really awesome. I am this way with most people and experiences. Besides, I only have to do it once, and if I don't like it than I can dismiss it. I guess you could say is, your mind is your first road block. Once you over come that, your free to try anything and thus know yourself for sure. :) *Keep in mind, while I think in this manner, I still work with in the confineshates being confined of the worlds rules around me. :(*

 

Q: What is your all time favorite song? And which song best describes you?

A: My favorite song right now?

MUCC - 25時の憂鬱 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d2zE736z7Pk

Translation: http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/26325/mucc/25ji-no-y

Song which best describes me: I hate to admit it.

Katie Perry - Fingerprints http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJNN_FhtKLM

 

Q:Fave food ever!

A: Sashimi hands down. :)

 

Q: Whats your favorite color?

A: Pink or pink and black together. 

 

Q: What is the one fantasy you have that you want to make come true, above all others?

A: The one fantasy above all else? hmm... My one fantasy, is to have those dear to me, or someone dear to me to travel, share and experience life with. To see the world with. :) *this want has since evolved into something grander*

 

Q; What is your favorite drink, non-alcoholic and alcoholic if you do drink.

A: My favorite drink is tea in general. I <3 tea. After that is Dr. Pepper though that is rare. That aside, I love water and my fave alcy drink is straight rum or Tokyo Ice Tea. ;)

 

Q: What is the career you had wanted to do and what was/is stopping you from doing it?

A: My aim originally was Biotechnology. I'd been into it ever since joining the program years back. I even got to work at Lawrence Berkeley National Labs, but I fell short.

  At that time in my life, I was less focused. As such, once I hit college, I just wasn't into it anymore. I attribute that to graduating high school Or more to say, I just wanted to take a break. So I did and went back to college, I sadly didn't manage to get into my science classes. However, I did pick up learning Japanese in the process.

  Present day: I was watching this movie called "the fourth kind." It they had made references to the Sumerians, I for some reason became interested and started researching them. Along the way I actually started to study the language. This is when I found that I was into linguistics and wished to be a linguist. Currently I am also studying Humanities. I'm not sure how far I'll be able to go with these, but their passion, so that's all that really matters to me. :)

 

Q: your profile says that you are a gamer at heart what games are you into?

A:  SMT: Persona series- Blaz Blue/ Guilty Gear- Chrono series- Final Fantasy series- Parasite Eve II- Mega Man/ X series- Sonic 1/2/3/ Adventure 2- Castlevania n64 ver./LoI/ PoR/ SotN- Legend of Zelda OoT/LttP- Lumines- SMT: Digital Devil Saga- Super Mario World/ 64/ Mario Bros.- Tetris/ Tetris Attack- Killer Instinct- Rule of Rose- Silent Hill series- Lufia II: Rise of the Sinistrals- Star Ocean: Till the End of Time- Advance Wars: Days of Ruin- Bomberman Hero- Gundam Battle Assualt series- Set Radio Future- Kirby series- Demon Souls- Perfect Dark- Hybrid Heaven- Quest 64- Star Fox 64... Just to name a few. >///<

 

Q: What super power would you most like to have?

A: Flight is like a dream for me... that or teleportation. :)

 

Q: At what age and how did you realise you were into the less conventional ways of enjoying both your body and your partners'?

A: That came to be I'd say around 18, around which I had my first actual sexual experiences consecutively. I already knew I was a sexual person since 11 but I'd no idea to what extent. Yaoi con opened up my eyes a lot. All the people I'd met, differing sexual preferences and such. I gained a lot of experience in '03.

 

Q: What is the one thing that you think needs to change in the world? Be it something we can change or something we can't because it's too late.

A: The one thing that needs to change?

The docile sheep like nature of humanity as a whole. I feel people need to start caring what happens to them and what's going on in this world... people should want to and be able to educate themselves at anytime... I think what needs to change is, we need a freer world, better educated individuals, and more faith in ourselves as individuals and as a species.

 

Q: What is the one place in the Universe you wish to travel to? And what would be your ideal way of getting there?

A:  I would love to sail the stars and see other worlds... to be honest, I'd just wonder. :) my ideal way of getting there would be on a ship that could work as a livin space and have a self sustaining fuel supply and some kind of means of having a sustainable food supply on bored also. I assume there would be others with me. :)

 

Q: I notice that you're into both gaming/clubbing and fashion. I think that is so badass and I'm the exact same way! What's your favorite video game and what's your favorite style of music to club to?

I also assume you're into Japanese culture, have you ever been to Japan? :3

A: *see list above for games* 

as for music I club to? I'll club to almost anything, so long as i can dance to it. Sadly goth music isn't one... least, not that I've heard so far. I went to a club out here called "Deth Guild", the music is good, the club is awesome... but the music for me was difficult to dance to slow I guess. If I had to choose though: Trance, House especially 90's, Industrial. Bonus: Bands I want to hear in clubs: Angelspit, Aural Vampire, Beatmania IIDX music, BAAL, etc. ;)

I am indeed very much into the culture, so much so I am studying the language... however, I sadly have yet to even leave the states, let alone go to Japan like I wish to. I will eventually though. School has to take priority. 

 

Q: So what brought you into the kinky lifestyle? What was the trigger?

A: To be honest, I'll never really know what got me into kink or even realizing my vary nature... all i can say is I am happy here. :)

The most recent memory I can recall, of knowing I was into kink the slightest hint was back in high school. When I'd become more sexually active, so to did my exposure in terms of others... I actually think it was because of all the people I knew and where I was from. I was pro-sex on my own, but my friends really opened up my eyes to the world around me. One's environment truly does shape them to a great degree.

 

Q: Now I want to ask everyone to list 5 of your all time favorite musical artists/groups. I love music and always want to find out what people like too.

A: My top 5 bands/ composers/ artists (in no particular order)

MUCC, Nobou Uematsu, Akira Yamaoka, Anglespit, Orgy, Etro Anime, (HED)PE... that was really hard btw, hence the extras lol. *my music tastes are so vast, it's almost hard to have a favorite. Where do your musical tastes lie?

 

Q: Have you ever been to a concert and what was your first one?

A: I've been to quite afew, my first was L'arc~En~Ciel at Otakon in Baltimore.

 

Q: what was the most spiritual experience you have all had?

A: my most spiritual experience, have been in places hat I've visited. Churches, etc. I'd always get intense feelings of other presences besides those that were physical, and I was seldom alone in those feelings. That or in the discussions that I've held with others.

 

Q: In your opinion who is the most influentual music artist/group of all time?

A: That's a hard one to answer. there's the influence on yourself, and than there's others. More than that, we have to consider in what ways... I could be over complicating it though. are we speaking on a worldly level or on a personal level? for me personally it's between Korn/ and MUCC. Korn was my youth, MUCC is my adult hood.

lizzyn
 
 Age: 20
 San diego, California