|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| No one must read this not-so "full profile" before contacting or responding to me. However, doesn't it make sense to somewhat comprehend a being's viewpoint before engaging in "live communication" with them?? From that, you can also safely guess that I have read yours if I have contacted you.
Inherently lacking an objective viewpoint of myself, it might be condensed to one word others most commonly use to describe me: "Intense." Whether it be about my gaze, my look, my walk, or my work, that's the word I most often hear about me. From my subjective view, I cannot speak to what they're describing, but I do seek to be professional, and am relentless, at every true endeavor. Whether it be toward slave or sub, I love the D/s dynamic and pursue it similarly. Fortunate to have never been abused, I am not "broken." My dominance and sadism comes by my choice, not by compulsion, to those who truly have use for it and are intellectually and emotionally deserving of it. [Only a real dom/sadist or sub/slave will truly understand that.] There is no real "win," or use, to owning or dominating stupidity or emotional "brokenness." Along with it's spiritual overtones, I use domination for my emotional, practical, and physical fulfillment.
I am not searching for romance - that position I consider to be unalterably filled by my wife, who is also a bi Dominant. I am here for the D/s dynamic and potentially have availability for a female sub or slave - separate and special relationships all their own. I may consider a bottom, for the extra practice, or a baby-girl (daddy/daughter) but I have no experience with baby-girls and will not support with finances or have gifts expected. In short, without at least some D/s, it's really not the same. I am seeking someone to serve me (or perhaps even my wife) - not someone who needs service. If it's a sub, the relationship will be negotiated. If its a slave, I will tend to my property, giving it what it needs to serve and serious training to do so properly. However, any prospective slave must first show that it can fully submit before it may truly serve. Any agreements will be given in writing, with a probationary period.
I am very "real" - I rescue insects and animals, I cry, smile at babies, and I laugh both with and at myself. And, within D/s agreements, I will punish a sub/slave severely if they belie, by any means, that such realness connotes "weakness." In fact, as a crucial component to personal integrity, being "so real" provides some of my greatest strengths. For one, even many "shielded" individuals often detect that I may know their feelings, thoughts, or intentions, without their expression - or that I "transmit" my wishes or intentions without words. Empathic abilities come from true empathy - from without being emotionally fractionalized. Most in society would argue that being a dominant, or engaging in sadistic acts, requires a lack of empathy resulting from emotional fractionalization - and, too often, for many, that IS what is behind their dominance. Yet, without a higher viewpoint, unable to see the bigger picture, it all looks the same.
Physically, so far, I look and interact much younger than my age (I laugh when I first joke that I'm 42 and I'm told, "You look young for your age"). Spiritually, I'm aware of being much older - others may consider that to be only a belief - and for them, it is.
I take any new relationship on a gradient, always within limits and safe/sane/consensual. Online D/s is an acceptable beginning - afterall, the mind must be collared before the body may be collared. Hard limits are fully respected. Soft limits may gradually be "stretched" (pun intended). An actual slave would soon learn that I will be the provider of its limits - I value my property and and will maintain it in safety. Drugs or STD's are not permissible under any circumstances - in other words, if you are breaking your toys, you will not be allowed to play with them.
I am not here for just the sex, I could more easily get that elsewhere. So, if I were to tell you that you look fuckable, don't believe that I necessarily have any intentions of doing so. Also, I do try to make compliments truly complimentary.
I deplore pretenses, online or in person, and literally leave them where they lie (pun intended). Some insecurities are natural, and anonymity fully understandable - but deceitful game-playing or self-aggrandizement is unconscionable.
All posted photos are of me - unless obvious that it's not! My cover pic is of a bust that I own, illustrating a facet of me that few ever get to see. No "stolen" pics are used here (see paragraph above). No, I do not put a full face pic on my profile due to others' narrow viewpoints. Yes, if you are someone I would sincerely add as a friend, I will soon send you a fairly current full-face pic if you ask.
|
|
|
|
|
Learned something new about myself: After a brief minor foray into online D/s, I find that "Dom-drop" is just as strong for me online as it is after in-person D/s. Could it be that I CREATE my own feelings??.... Novel concept! :-) The experience just serves to re-emphasize that fact for me. A personally fascinating and puzzling drop, nonetheless. |
|
|
|
|
To the others who may also ask, no, I do not do hypnosis to make a woman cum, such as mentioned in my last journal entry. Although it's enjoyable, personally I still prefer the hands-on approach. |
|
|
|
|
Back from Camp Komratto - what a ride & weekend! It was incredible watching "The Maestro" artfully bind and suspend one of his naked subs in 4-point suspension within 6 minutes, then forcing her to cum via two fingers into her spread, wet cunt while having her shout to the crowd what she is: "An exhibitionist slut!" They were exquisitely beautiful together. Even my House Lord, well accomplished himself, was taking pointers from watching The Maestro's work. Later, my House Lord hypnotized a sub to cum upon a verbal command from a few of us, including my wife and I. We really enjoyed making the gal spasm & squirm repeatedly & unexpectedly throughout the evening! Just a couple of highlights of the good clean fun that was had by all over the weekend. ;-) Many thanks to the Doms whose subs & slaves helped make it a great time - and those who volunteered their own bodies, both for demonstration and our enjoyment. The friend-requests will be sent from another site. |
|
|
|
|
A few quick searches on CM explain much of my perplexity with responses I've received, or not received, on this site: It's simple demographics! I searched for users within 100 miles of my home (which includes the majority of the population of Northern California) that had accessed the site within a day. In my sample, those who purport to be male doms outnumbered the female subs by more than 5-to-1! However, the ratio of male doms to male subs was almost 1-to-1. Being bisexual, that explains why the vast majority of my views and messages come from male subs - although I'm currently seeking a female sub. Also, given that a disproportionate number of the messages in a female sub's inbox are from dom-posers indiscriminately seeking only their next "piece of ass," an honest message of interest is readily trashed by the wary female sub. And, even if it's read, she likely has too many decent messages to respond to!
Conversely, I also found that female dommes were outnumbered by male subs by over 4-to-1. Therefore, using only the stats, my wife (a bi domme) is about 20-times more likely to find a sub male on CM than I am to find a sub female here! However, making matters even worse, although most male subs seem at least somewhat sincere (if perhaps flaky), some female posers are only here to advertise their websites. Thus, the real pool of female subs on CM is even smaller than it appears.
So, with that knowledge, a change of method is in order.... ;-) |
|
|
|
|
Back home from my business trip to San Francisco - although I thought I wanted activity, I greatly appreciated the quiet-time. And I'll gladly make the hour-and-a-half drive again tomorrow to see Robert Plant in Berkeley! |
|
|
|
|
If you hadn't noticed already, people on a free online website are the same ones you'd meet on public transit - only everyone thinks out loud!
So, too many guys are all-too crass and too many gals speak their fantasies, then shy-away when approached about them. And both may be utterly fake. Personally, I'd be willing to pay a monthly fee if it would help clean this place up and discourage the riff-raff, fakers, and scaredy-cats from joining. But let's be honest: This is the way it is - let's suck it up. We are each looking for something that only another can provide. So let's all try to get along - and keep trying. |
|
|
|
|
After taking some time to promote the South Bay Kink Ride, it was too bad I couldn't make it myself yesterday. But I'm totally into promoting Safe-Sane-Consensual to the vanilla-world, so it was all worthwhile. Here's to a successful North Bay Kink Ride in September! |
|
|
|
|
While I'm still away on business, my wife surprisingly joined me at my hotel last night. We tore-up-the-sheets & she grinned when I told her that it was too bad I hadn't found a little subbie here that we could both enjoy! Sometimes it's the thought that counts. :-) |
|
|
|
|
Okay, so I've updated my location to Oakland CA since I'll be here for the next week. Hopefully that will make for less confusion. |
|
|
|
|
My business trip to the East Bay is now underway, the hotel room is well appointed with furniture suitable for a scene, and I have a dresser drawer full of pleasurably sadistic tools. Now, an appropriate subbie bottom simply needs to ask nicely................................... Soon. |
|
|
|
|
So endearing: When I left for this week's business trip, my wife said, "Drive safe," adding with a knowing grin, "Safe, sane, consensual, and covered!" Being a Domme herself, she understands sooo well! |
|
|
|
|
"Argue for your limitations, and sure enough they're yours."
"You are led through your lifetime by the inner learning creature, the playful spiritual being that is your real self. Don't turn away from possible futures before you're certain you don't have anything to learn from them."
-Richard Bach |
|
|
|
|
Ahhh, Saturday night my wife & I were at The Citadel in San Fran, enjoying the sight of our House Lord dual-flogging his new sub against the cross with mesmerizing rhythms - a beautiful, spine-chilling art. Only might have been better if either, or both, of us could have brought a sub - yet we would have missed the amazing sights: The incredible alternating rhythms of multiple sets of floggers, her large tits quivering as her knees tried not to buckle - the apt description "Fuck-toy" beautifully emblazoned on her tiny abdomen with the violet wand. Also amazing that, for being so young, she can suck so well - it just shows that being a true cock-worshiper makes a huge difference in technique. Then, Sunday, I found designer boots on sale that are truly fit for The Upper Floor - looking forward to leaving imprints with those! |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
|
|
| |
| Age: 29 |
| Orlando,
Florida |
|
|
|
| |
