i fallen time just trickles of tears at hellos and goodbyes and the rush
in a future fated to be your flesh in these hands your lust being carved and shaped by this mind
wash away everyday and whatever direction the mind roams the body can follow
memories glimpses traumatic at vanilla
stand and walk within it shadows cardboard shades
i hunt dreamers.. like me.. absolutes who do not brun out.. btu burn away more of their connectiosn to playing by the rules
and crave to know every day they becoem their own dreams.. regardless of what is goign on with the world
they return to themselves
more each day
they hunt.. like me.. the chance to .. in reality.. go down that path.. explore thazt immersion in their own mental idealism.. manifested with the fesh and formand mind and soul and will of another.. capable toof taking the patyh they themselves desired most
we are all here for that on some level.. in some way.. i look back almost 2 decades of living and longer of studying.. at that door waning..m knowing you are there right this second.. knowing that hunger types these words alive in this world.
lust behind every moment every whisper word thought
why not
furnace engine always running raving decades long forgotten dive into magick
knowledge
a vampire thirst without end deep black hole
at the center a light neverending shiva beam
with whispers and words and actions.. stumbles and steps
from street corner shootouts to boardrooms i pushed
carried forward by focus and hunger to manifest your lust my flesh and a burn
humanity it came away in dark dens and bright boardrooms and commuter flights
vanilla break from family at 19
vanished from the world the person i was before
pro dom apprentice and teacher yoga student and teacher always intense experience hunter.. washign away my humanity in the drums fo knowledge
dancing poundign travelling walking studying
every day art mixed with history mmixed with science
and the hunt.. not for causal sex (only once) but life.. and each one changed me as much as i changed them.. over years experience shared experience being in that zone and in the world at the same time
drinking and giving the kundalini up the social circles chains to energy
more
hunting and hunted and taking twisting shaping using hurting loving
all at the same time or separately
devoured every dream gave of myself a little each time
became more the monster your dreams made me to be
fueled by will intellect hunger and energy each one limitless
fueled by a hunger
to serve my own light
dark and deep and rich
orgasms and the ecstasy of subspace in public in private here and abroad
never finding that secret that shadow that beast never finding a way to bring life to this feast
of life experiences knowledge and jobs.. to be gained moved beyond devoured.. be shaped by
and impact deep change them each one with a force of focus..
idealism
experience
at hunting a creature that does not exist except at every level of life
and hunt still for the ones that crave to be immersed in those singular hands
that singular heart that singular hunger that doesnt end.. to rip p away slowly your humanity in a deep dark pool of your own dreams desires and lusts
for the mind for the flesh for your own transformation
into that thing that lives and breaths at the center of you
nameless spirit
from ages ago or just here
a hunger to simply dissolve in that beating heart of life and all surrounding warm glow deep at the heart of the void the hunger within
hide there in that space that isnt even a space
a singular infinitesimally small tiny spark in the air
and just become that more each day
life and dream and memory with time and focus all become one
you exist
alive
in the center of that bright
deep inside the endless dark that hides behind your flesh
inside me your jailer and the one who frees
hunting for very specific locks that hide what i crave within
true ownership holding that spark of life in my hands
years from now moments or decades
ready
hungry
to never let it go but dive deeper push deeper
and see more of that intense hunger along the way
my flaws are your lusts your flaws are my fetishes
im here to be hunted.. a unique flavor like many