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	In my last profile having cancer was fairly new to me. Since then alot has changed. The cancer is spreading and all my Dr. can do is keep me stable. In other words he's buying me time. I've had sixteen chemo treatments so far. There is one thing i would love to do. I would like to be strong enough to play with someone. Sensual play...some bondage and spanking. Right now i'm just not strong enough. I want to thank all the people who have emailed me wishing me well. For someone who is homebound getting emails really lift my spirits. CANCER SUCKS! My hair is coming in good. Just waiting for it to get long enough to take some pictures.

6/30/2008 2:49:52 PM

I wish i had something else to talk about besides having cancer. I've been on my own since 2001 and was looking forward to a new life. Thought i would get back into the munches and meet some people. I have made some good friends. But i was hoping to be in a relationship. Going through cancer alone has been hard. My husband passed away in 2001. I have a good support system but it's not the same.

I've moved back home. Never saw that coming. My dad wanted me to move in with him so i wouldn't be alone. He's 80 now but doesn't look it. I never really had a good relationship with him. It makes me sad that it takes me dying to finally get close to him.

6/28/2008 3:04:57 PM

Got up terribly sick this morning. I apsolutely hate mornings. So much pain!