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Surrender is the first step - voluntarily submitting to the control to another man. What happens after that determines whether my act of submission is roleplay or reality. Roleplay is a waste of time.
I am looking to evolve to a state of control where my free will is gradually eroded to the point of unquestioning obedience. Where my fulfilment comes from the attention of a man I both fear and respect. A man who I will serve because I crave his attention. A man for whom I will endure more, because he wants me to endure more. A man whom I will push myself for because I can not imagine disappointing him. A man who controls me by his presence. A man with the mental and physical power to carve himself so deep into my psyche that his thoughts are my thoughts, his needs are my sole focus.
Ideally you are naturally dominant. You are a man who must be in control and will do what it takes to seize and maintain that control. You will impose your will and eventually eliminate any options I might have to leave or resist. You may be a sadist. If so you prefer purposeful pain and a subject who is not a masochist.
What is in it for you? The potential of a loyal subject who craves your attention and is dependent upon your satisfaction. The challenge of imposing your will on another and having it stick. The opportunity to micro-manage, to see how much control you can truly achieve.
My commitments to you:
1. I will always be honest with you. Always.
2. I will honor any commitment I make to you.
3. I will never disrespect you. My respect is yours to command/earn.
4. I will pay my own way.
A few things I am not looking for: Role play, social SM/BD in groups, costume play, connecting with someone who is partnered or married, financial domination beyond paying my way, cyber or cam. What I crave - imposed submission resulting in absolute control... Reality.
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There is role play control and there is true control.
Role play control is shallow. I allow you to control me, but know that I have the ultimate control. I am cooperating to get what I want.
True control is all-consuming. It takes weeks or months to develop true control. Baby steps, gradually whittling away at my independence, gradually building my submission to a Master. Micromanagement. Rules, punishment and rewards. Building an ever growing dependence. Conditioning my mind.
The desire is there. I am naturally submissive. I crave control. But I am also independent and tend to resent authority. Odd combination, I know. Probably not for you unless you are skilled a building control and prefer a challenge over a ready-made doormat. |
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I learned two new phrases recently - Consensual Non-Consent and Internal Enslavement. Both come from a site "Ownership Wiki"
Consensual Non-Consent: " Consensual Nonconsent (CNC) refers to an agreement between a dominant and a submissive, in which some or all authority over the submissive is transferred to the dominant, either permanently or temporarily, on the understanding that the submissive may not withdraw consent for the duration of the agreement.... A CNC agreement is the polar opposite of giving the submissive a safeword as a veto."
Internal Enslavement: " Internal Enslavement is both a process and a set of practical techniques which use detailed examination of a slave's thoughts, emotions and past experiences to establish and maintain a solid and inescapable state of ownership. This is achieved through control of the slave's psychological states, in contrast to External Enslavement."
Now we're getting somewhere on this quest of mine. Consentual Non-Consent is what I must offer a man if he is going to attempt control of me. Internal Enslavement is what that man must achieve if the control is going to evolve to reality and not just cooperation / role play on my part.
Internal Enslavement is the most essential. The challenge will be finding a man sufficiently skilled at behavior modification and mind control to achieve my Internal Enslavement.
The obvious question - pipe dream or is there a man with the skill and determination to seize such control over me? |
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I am not sure how to put this more clearly. I am not a financial slave. I will not send money. I will not support you. I will not give you control over my assets. Yes I seek to evolve into a TPE relationship, and I understand that some believe TPE includes financial domination, I do not.
It is my responsibility to cover any costs associated with me. In a live-in situation it is my responsibility to cover my share of household expenses. I can see how eventually, as control and trust builds, I would need a Master's permission to spend any disposable income and that as part of his control over me I would not have immediate access to cash so I could not simply get up and walk out the door if I wanted to move on. No wallet, no credit cards, no cell phone, only controlled computer access to run my business. Almost as effective as chain and padlock to keep me under control. Now that is interesting. |
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Many Masters look for cooperation rather than control. I seek a situation where the need for cooperation is minimal.
There has to be some cooperation on my part. I have to show up, surrender, initially cooperate. Then it is up to the Master. A Master highly skilled at imposing his will and control will be able to evolve me to the point where cooperation is not required. It will take some time and effort on both our parts. But until then, a Master's control depends on my cooperation and that is role play.
Obedience and cooperation are not the same. Cooperation is one form of obedience. It is "considered obedience." There is a request or an order and I decide to comply. Cooperation, Considered obedience.
The other form of obedience is unquestioning obedience. That is something I can not offer. It is up to the Master to impose unquestioning obedience. Unquestioned obedience is born through breaking or training and ongoing reinforcement. It is very personal. It is one on one. It is true control.
Best example is a military recruit trained to unquestioning obedience. He doesn't enlist with that mindset. His drill instructor takes him there. Trains him, conditions him, molds him. It is a relationship built on fear and trust and it works. (Note: this is just an example. I don't have a military fetish. I am not looking to role play boot camp.)
I am a project, a bit of a challenge. I share a Master's goal. I crave a man's control. But I suck at role play and find it boring. I need to serve a Master who craves control as much as I crave being control and who understands the difference between cooperation and control. |
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I am meant to submit to another man's control. Always have been. It is where I do best. It is where I am fulfilled. I obey, I suffer, I push myself because he wants me to. I am driven to meet his expectations. I need him to accept me, to be pleased by my performance. This gives you tremendous power over me if you know how to wield it.
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The master I seek has natural command presence. He isn't playing a role. He doesn't switch on and off. His control is just always there. It is his natural demeanor.
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| Age: 29 |
| Algood,
Tennessee |
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