Somedays it seems i dont have what it takes to be the good girl submissive love that i want to be to my Master... it isnt always easy for me to give up everything i trained myself to be... but i feel very strongly that i had become a monster in my own way... i feel like the slave girl he loves in my heart but somedays i find myself sheilding that heart from him for fear that i will not be good enough to make him happy... i need to remember that what i do in order to hide that fear is what makes him unhappy.... silly silly girl.... |