thoughts...

Today is but anew. As the new seconds tick by they are absorbed into the past as yesterday. Time passing as grains of sand in a time capsule. Sitting here just another sleepless night as my mind ponders new possibilities i have yet to grasp in my hand.  

sleep is eluding me... too much on mind and no outlet. The Outlet i wish to have is more prevalent than sleep. so the next best thing is to write yet my words are not flowing as my mind is elsewhere. somewhere. out there. smile 

nothing happens by mere chance as everything has a design. smile. what a fabulous design life can be with the right attitude and Individual.

when the mind ponders without a direct point it rambles per se .. simply as my mind is currently.

letters

words

sentences

paragraphs

chapters

books

one affects the other... How i would love to be affected... warm thoughts of His Domination

attentions focused on a singular thought... submission.

to be or not to be is the question.... but the answer is known. the initial is confirmed in my spirit...

Romance is what Romance Does... a mere dream... a hope... a wish... just a fictional dream... One day... i will have all i seek and so much more... until then a submissive can dream and await... smile

The Date

Master calls advising me of O/our plans for the evening. Indicates time, place and leaves much to the imagination. He merely states, “Be prepared, O/our first adventure begins.” I am both thrilled and enticed by the possibilities of O/our encounter. I prepare with Him in mind, having been provided a list of what He deems appropriate dress for the occasion, I begin to organize my outfit. As I want to ensure Master is pleased, I begin to search through my underwear for what is appropriate; lace, satin or a combination thereof. My heart begins to race as my anticipation begins to rage. I decide on set that compliments my skin that Master would be pleased to see as well. Beaming from the joy that is in my heart I jump into the shower, conducting the required grooming for both His and my pleasure. Upon exiting the shower I moisturize my body while my mind begins to wonder as to all the places Master will touch this evening. I exit the bathroom feeling a renewed little girl on her way to the candy shop. I enter my bedroom and slip on the outfit that provides Master a better view of my body. I begin to dress knowing my purpose is to indeed elicit a smile and arousal when Master sees me this evening. On my way to the car I remember all Master instructions. I begin to mentally perform a checklist of details to ensure nothing is missed. I slip into the car buckle up and think of the minutes until I see Master. Before, I realize it I am pulling into the parking lot. Eyes searching quickly and efficiently for Master’s vehicle that I know will be parked in a secluded area away from the wandering eyes of others. I see Master’s car and park nearby. As Master sees me park He exits the car and strolls ever so calmly over to my car. I do not unlock the door immediately but instead crack the window being a sassy little girl and merely smile at Master. I know I’m inviting something, knowing there will surely be a consequence; however, I am welcoming such a treat as it has been days since I have seen Master. He provides the intense look that clearly says He has had enough unlock the door. I immediately unlock the door. Master opens the door and I exit taking His hand. Master pulls me close and places a gentle kiss on my cheek then places His mouth about mine and kisses me hard as He tweaks my nipple expressing His displeasure in my not opening the door immediately. Master then pulls me closer into His body ever so gently and abruptly pulls my head so that He may nuzzle my neck then bites me as He has often done. I am overjoyed to receive Master’s attention as I have missed Him. Master begins to guide me gently towards the restaurant. Master does all the talking, as I know He will handle everything, as far as seating and such. Once He has provided the necessary information and W/we wait to be seated Master asks “Did I bring Him a surprise?” It would seem W/we are indeed in sync as I had thought of an interesting offering. I walk toward the restroom and upon returning Master is patiently awaiting the surprise. As inconspicuously as possible I try to hand him the items in my hand but Master can be funny and refuses to open His hand on my first attempt to hand Him the items. Master just smiles, while watching my expressions. The hostess signaled and Master simply nodded acknowledging her and proceeded to take my other hand as we walked to O/our table to be seated. Upon being seated Master asked that I provide Him with the offering I have for Him. I placed the items in Master’s hand and looked for His approval. When He looked over to me I saw the delight in His eyes and I was extremely happy and satisfied to have made his eyes light up. The server made his way to O/our table; however, before proper introduction could be made Master provided O/our drink order and asked him to come back momentarily. Master had other plans for the moment and they happen to be me.

Surrender

 the time has come

 it needs to be unleashed

you cant hold on

you crave it

sense it

love it

you dont need it you relish it

you surrender to the deep desires

that has been there for ages

sweet surrender of self for His pleasure

His purpose

His needs wants and whims

you surrender.....

whew... mind blowing

If He is the One

1. There is no task, no contemplation, no place you could be with Him and feel unsafe. you feel protected, secure and cocooned in His love and care.

2. You trust Him with your heart, your body, your mind, your time and your pleasure. And this gifting is not a burden, but a release... and with Him, you experience true freedom.

3. When you stand before Him... you are naked. I am not speaking of just physical nakedness, but emotional and spiritual as well. There is nothing between you and Him – and neither would you want there to be – as you feel like you can tell him anything. Anything that floats between your two consciousnesses feels like a heavy weight until it is shared. And He lifts this weight from you, so you are always “light”.

4. You feel loved. You feel totally accepted for who and what you are. you can be you, and it is right. And it is beautiful. And it feels good to be beautiful, cherished... and in love.

5. With His strength you are fearless. Nothing is impossible with Him by your side.

6. Your love for Him is without boundary or conditions. There is nothing you would not do for Him. And you have a faith and trust, that He knows what you are capable of, and He knows how to lead you to be capable of more..

7. You live with a certainty that comes from a defined future. You are inspired by the certainty of His love.

8. You are owned by Him – a part of His whole being. When He is away from you, you crave Him so much it feels like you are holding your breath until He returns. He is the "sun" in your universe.

9. When you are with Him, and when you think of Him... you are Home. Where you were always meant to be.

10. No matter who He is or His importance, who depends on Him, what His work or responsibilities are, or how He lives... The moment you need Him, He is always there. And always will be the moment you need Him. And He does this because you are His heart. It is no effort, no strain, no struggle. He is. He loves. And He is yours as much as you are His. True ownership.

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another posting i wanted to share... its beautiful at least true to my heart mind and spirit... i do so hope You/you all enjoy.

i came across this on a Dominants profile and thought it was something other Dominants/submissives may want to read...

the Dom came across this UK web site, Seekers,where He read the following article.

Please read, remembering they are not His words, but an article He found interesting and wanted to share..

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Mastery of One’s Self: A Dominant must always be in control of him/her self. As a Master/Mistress, the Dominant will take charge of a submissive. It is impossible to take on the responsibility of mastering another, if one can not master themselves.

Personal Standards: A Dominant must set and maintain high personal standards for themselves. They must be an example to others, including their submissive.

Self Respect: If not given to themselves, it can not be shown to others.

Self Control: Many things in life may challenge a Dominant. Control of one’s self is essential when those challenges present themselves.

Self Secure: A Dominant must know themselves, and feel comfortable within their own skin to project themselves in a true fashion. They will be challenged, and must be secure enough to tolerate differing opinions and views without considering them as condemnation.

Compassionate & Understanding: A Dominant must be sensitive to the needs of others. As Master/Mistress the Dominant will be responsible for the emotional well-being of a submissive that requires an open and accessible Dominant. They must be willing to share, and actively demonstrate that sharing in return is both safe and healthy.

Communicative: A Dominant must be able to communicate effectively in any situation, under any circumstances, in a variety of verbal and non-verbal ways.

Honest & Trustworthy: This is more than a concept, or a feeling. Honesty is expressed through actions. And only in demonstrating honesty, will it be seen by others.

Teacher/Guide: Dominants must meet the needs of a submissive for guidance. They are responsible for the personal and lifestyle growth of Their one. Their actions should be an example that teaches and guides everyone with whom they come in contact.

Well Rounded: We often forget that D/s is a lifestyle, and a Dominant must be full and complete. A Dominant must be romantic, happy, playful, have a sense of humor, have interests and pleasures, and all the things that make a complete human being.

Devoted: A Dominant must be someone that can be counted on to be there, and to be available. When there is a problem, or their submissive needs assistance, the Dominant must make every good faith effort to demonstrate that devotion.

Loving: There is no relationship without love. And although not every D/s relationship is built upon love, it is an essential part of any relationship for me.

Protective: A submissive must feel safe and secure, both physically and emotionally.

Accepting: No one is perfect, we are all human. A Dominant must accept and demonstrate that to their submissive; giving permission to be human. Accepting people for who and what they are, warts and all, does not preclude guidance towards growth.

Forgiving: Every human being will make mistakes. Dominants included. They must be able to forgive others, as well as themselves.

Reassuring: A submissive needs to be reassured frequently. To know that they are valued and treasured. To know that their efforts and submission are noticed and appreciated.

Firm and Consistent: A submissive needs that consistency of expectations. Once rules and acceptable behaviors are established and communicated, they must be firmly and consistently applied. Do not, however, confuse firm with “domineering”.

Patient: All things take time. Knowing and accepting that everyone moves at their own pace, within their individual capabilities, is essential.

Creative: There is always more than one way to skin a cat, and different people respond in unique ways. Being adaptable and creative will yield better results, and make for a more satisfying and less stagnant relationship.

My Service

My service is wholly based in my mind, body and spirit of servitude.  I serve to please Him in all aspects by submitting to Him all things tangible that I know. I submit my mind for with this vital piece everything else follows and flows. With my mind geared to serve my body and spirit follows suit.

My mind submits to the knowledge of knowing that first and foremost He is capable of the undertaking of His role in the relationship.  Once I am secure with this factor and know that He can and will instruct, teach, and nourish my mental stimuli. I relax and relinquish control to Master knowing He will grow me into a blossoming flower ever changing and ever growing for the betterment of B/both Master and myself.  I submit to Master allowing Him to guide and instruct vital situations not only in my daily life with Him but also in my interactions with others.  I embrace Master’s instructions for I know that I am a direct reflection of Master.  My goal is to always have a warm affectionate smile on Master’s face whenever He thinks, speaks or visits with me.  This is necessary as it translates the pride in which Master feels on the inside, knowing whether He is near or far, I am ever conducting myself according to His wishes and desires. I do this for both Master and myself as it pleases me to do so.  I am capable of many undertakings as a woman, but as a submissive woman, my thoughts are of what pleases and delights Master and myself.  I think of Master and overjoyed that He has entered my life not so that He can dictate my comings and goings but more that Master brings calm, strength and order to my thoughts.  Master provides the comfort of security of knowing my thoughts and I am no longer alone, in the whole wide world defenseless.  Knowing that Master is there provides me with the strength to concur any obstacle no matter big or small.  As I know Master is forever in my corner cheering me on to succeed in every endeavor that I may want to undertake.  I want Master to know that no matter where He or I may be either together or separate Master is a whisper in my thoughts.

The body follows the mind in everything it is willing to do. Master has control of my body as when I submit to Him, I freely placed ownership into Master’s hands for Him to enjoy the fruits on every orifice of this body.  I serve Master willingly in providing Him with desires untold.  Be it kneeling at Master’s beck and call or greeting Him after a day at work.  My servitude is to ease the daily stresses of the outside world from Master whether out in public or behind closed doors.  I need Master to enjoy everything my body has to offer from an affectionate pet name to zealous sex.  From cooking, cleaning, ironing, grooming, bathing, to enjoying Master’s touch, kiss, smell and more, my hope is to fulfill Master’s desire in every possible fashion and my body happens to be just one platform.

The spirit is hard to expound upon.  I can only say that the connections of both Master and submissive is one that is intertwined deeply on many levels.  I can only say that I have been to the mountain top but once and when i got there He whispered and into my ear, “Jump, I promise to catch you.”  I leaped knowing that Master was as good as His word. He caught me.  My spirit knew without hesitation that if Master said He would, He honored His word.  My spirit sang in knowing Master was and is there every step of the passage and knowing this my spirit is free to be.  No longer feeling alone and claustrophobic but free to breath to be the submissive that I was meant to be.  The song between the Dominant/submissive is a beautiful harmonious melody and when O/one witnesses the balanced dance of T/them there isn’t anything more touching to my spirit.

In conclusion I can only wish for the time where I have a Master that is present for a meaningful long term relationship. One that thinks of me and shares His hopes and dreams for U/us blended with my hopes and ensure that the vision is transferred into O/our reality.  I welcome the day that I am collared and owned, so that I may truly be only for Him to enjoy.

yet another disappointment... it would seem finding One that is honest and open is indeed a challenge. back to the drawing board.  It would seem i am always fantastic but...

really beginning to think that some are hmm, questionable in their intentions.

such is life.... maybe i should redo my profile....

Lonely Flower

The following was once just a mere thought but has morphed into my feelings as of late…

(Enjoy the reading…side note: the Sun is metaphorically the Dominant for the slow, lol)

Does the lonely flower bloom when there is no sun?

Once i was content to be alone, as i learned new things about myself and my submission but no more. The loneliness devours me; it has begun to fill me with a undeniable void. Daily i must remind myself that the Sun will eventually be present. Knowing this helps the insatiable need that is budding inside to submit.

i wonder, how can one bloom if there isn’t a Sun? The Sun is the pivotal force in which all nourishment flows; furthermore, it grows, brightens the hue of the petals, feeds, enforces, cares, protects, inspires, requires dedication/loyalty/honesty/trust/etc. The essential key to T/them is all the above plus timing, understanding, and the ability to maintain humility and respect in all T/their actions. B/both must be in the right time and moment for the chemistry and mind meld to work. The petals of the buds open and the flower blooms only when the Sun is correctly positioned in the flowers life.

Being alone doesn’t always means lonely but as of late my state of loneliness is troubling to my spirit. Though i can tarry for a while longer, i remain hopefully that the Sun is over the next horizon. i will continue to subject myself to loneliness as my way to please and delight the Sun. i know what it’s like to have One love and adore me for the simple complexities of sacrifice…i know why i choose to be alone…

i am alone not by happenstance for i choose this path more to honor my Sun in His absence. So though i may not be in bloom i am creating a special level of giving that i myself didn’t know existed before this journey. Foregoing, my needs for One that has yet to make my acquaintance is truly a sacrifice of my love to submit. (i know this may sound odd to the average, but i am not for the average).

My submission has layers and i welcome those layers to be explored fulfilled by my Sun and His hands alone. Pruned, Bloomed, and picked by the hands of my Everything.

i think of myself as a flower that is alone in a field awaiting, wanting and needing to be picked but only by the right hand, the right taker/protector/lover/owner/daddy/dominate/friend/teacher/mentor/and all the other important names one could give Him.

Bare & Naked 

Hidden amongst all the stereotypical nonsense

Willing to forego all the so called potential mates

As i’m in search of my Real Mate

Seeking to be bare and naked before Him

Him alone will i bare my soul and secrets

Share my hopes thoughts and dreams

Naked for Him to see all my flaws

The woman that protects the little one within

She is weary in need of a reprieve from upholding the guard

Keeping the little girl lost protected has become a chore

When will He appear and save both the little one & the woman

She needs to be bare and naked before Him

Bestowing upon Him all the diamonds & rubies within

Until such a time as she is found she is lost

Needing to be bare and naked before Him…

Just me writing a simple take on friendship... 

Friendship is the essence in which all great love affairs last... along with respect, trust, honesty, humility, etc...in my book.

If there is nothing more to gain but a new friend in this walk that has chosen U/us i will value that as a gain.

Life is short and though W/we seek to find O/our one M/mate it’s nice to have a friend to share things with, toss around ideas or even confide.

Therefore, friendship is key for me. (Would i not have to like You as a person before i submit? Of course; however, bluntly spoken Hell Yes... lol) 

With this outlook i’m neither expecting more or disappointed if there is no connection on either of O/our parts (when chatting & getting to know).. submissives deal with rejection, egotism at its finest, idiots, fakes, flakes and more so excuse me if i decide to not open myself to the foolishness of casual play or casual mind trips... i think that at all costs i must protect the property until owned...

Mental health is essential to being the best submissive i can be.

Please my fellow submissive don’t get caught up into the hype… without first exploring if He is knowledgeable & understanding of Who and What role He undertakes in being the Dominant.

A ranting thought of frustration follows:

Nothing makes me more irate than someone assuming something about me or basing me upon previous experiences.

i know who and what i am, which is submissive not a fool; therefore, i am not confused.  As this is my journal, i will speak freely of an issue i have dealt with recently.  i will do everything within my power to protect this property as one i am not owned and secondly, though i am submissive i have a voice and choice in Whom i provide my submission. Do not assume submission means ignorant or weak; The truth IS submission requires courage and strength. Some do not have a clue as to what true submission or dominance is; furthermore, One cannot lead if first they cannot follow. Example, follow the communication in which she is speaking and understand the importance of leading by example. If as the Dominant, You fail to communicate, how do You expect the other to understand or learn YOU???  Your thoughts are not subliminally communicated, lol.  Especially, in the “getting to know the O/other” stage, communication is the essential key to building a sound foundation.

Seeking knowledgable, compassionate, responsible, calm yet raging, powerful yet weak, fire and ice, understanding, passionate, protector, provider of many things (emotional & physical well-being), dominates, controls, teaches, coordinates, inspires, trains, compliments, disciplines, cherishes, committed, and last but not least seeking His one true submissive little girl/slut/property/slave.  Understands that He is responsible for not only her but Him and all they are to become...

we dissolve into the other... i am He and He is me as W/we are one in the circle of the Yin and Yang....

Longing for His voice, His touch, His commands... need His presence

wanting so badly to provide all that He needs and wants 

wanting nothing more but to provide Him with the pleasure He seeks 

sitting here alone missing Him when i have never met Him...