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May your ends always be beginnings...

and your beginnings...ends.





I wonder if I have too much of a romanticized view of relationships. I see love come to others with such ease yet never see its availability for myself. I see so much darkness in profiles. Some for the purposes of business. Others, the after effect of their painful searching. To the latter i say keep the faith. You are the future light of someones life.



I have much more written in my FetLife profile (oddball68) for any curious. Best wishes to you.
9/24/2015 7:37:50 PM
Lost a sibling today. In the end, we all die alone.

12/22/15
Finally heard last week what took her out after several months waiting. Accidental overdose. Take care with your meds people. If you need to, keep a log so you don't accidentally take too much.
1/31/2013 8:50:48 PM

Falling in love is the easy part. Finding someone who wants to catch you when you do isn't.

 

The search for one's companion on the path seems so easy for some and so jinxed for others. I wonder why that is? Lack of clarity? Direction? Focus? Confidence? Heart? Intelligence? Attractiveness? I guess if I knew all the answers I wouldn't need to be on here. Ah well, now if i could just find one like Minnie Driver's character in Grosse Pointe Blank. I'd say Minnie Driver herself but that'll never happen.

9/24/2012 4:24:28 PM

Eyes In The Dark

                               by OddBall  (9/24/12)

 

 

A lifelong search in the darkest of night                                                                Glimpses of beauty seen in other's delight.

 The love in their eyes, it's aura divine                                                                    Finding their one, together they shine.

 Inspiration taken for the continued plight                                                                Knowing that somewhere is the end of night.

 From the dark, a hand is reached                                                                          Open at last, the trust is not breached.

 Leading my way out of the dark                                                                             Finally this time without a mark.

 In her eyes, such depth and shine                                                                         Hoping her gaze stays firmly upon mine.

 An offered heart, though dusty and battered                                                            Hoping this time to someone it mattered.

 The love in Her eyes, it's aura divine                                                                      Finding my one, together we shine.

 
8/18/2012 5:13:10 PM

I went to the OK-Munch (orlando kink) today. Met some nice people and will definitely attend future ones. 

8/11/2012 3:23:16 AM

Some things to raise spirits if any are feeling low. The first I posted on here many years ago.

 

One Flaw in Women 

By the time the Lord made woman, he was into his sixth day of working overtime. 

An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" 

And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely 
washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to 
run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, 
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart-and she 
will do everything with only two hands." 
The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's 
just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow 
to finish." 
"But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that 
is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 
18 hour days." 
The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord." 

"She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea 
what she can endure or accomplish." 
"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel. 
The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason 
and negotiate." 
The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, 
it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too 
much into this one." 
"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!" 
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked. 
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her 
pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride." 
The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman 
is truly amazing." 
And she is! 

Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, 
but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They 
sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are 
nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They 
don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They 
go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. 
They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their 
friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. 
Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, 
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug 
and a kiss can heal a broken heart. 
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail 
you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the 
world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. 
They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say 
and everything to give. 

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN ITS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH. 


I wish i could claim to be the thoughtful author of that piece but alas, no.

 

Your Life

 

This is Your Life. Do what you love, and do it often.

If you don't like something, change it.

If you don't like your job, quit.

If you don't have enough time, stop watching tv.

If you are looking for the love of your life, stop. They will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love.

Stop over analyzing, life is simple.

All emotions are beautiful.

When you eat, appreciate every last bite.

Open your mind, arms and heart to new things and people, we are united in our differences.

Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them.

Travel often, getting lost will help you find yourself.

Some opportunities only come once, seize them.

Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them so go out and start creating.

Life is short. Live your dream and share your passion.

 

That was another piece I found. I'll add the pic of it to my profile.

 

 

When we successfully take the long way, 
we realize we would not have changed one single thing about the way we went, 
even if it took us much longer than expected. 
We realize there is a reason for everything and we appreciate all we have learned. 
Eventually, we even understand that we didn't take the long way, 
but rather we took the only path we could.
                                                                  __Roland Sands
11/6/2005 10:54:07 PM
Went to 'Kink in the Capital' at the Crucible.  I had a good time meeting people and sitting through the classes.  The play party was a bit packed for a while but was fun never the less. I'll definitely go to more functions there.
8/7/2005 6:44:26 PM
I've never kept a journal so knowing quite what to say in one eludes me.  They seem to be a place to vent frustrations or engage in self promotion knowing full well it is to be read by the public at large.

On that note, I will copy the text of a question i received and the answer given.  While it can be considered self promotion it hopefully will give those of you reading an insight into me.



"what type of woman are u interested in?"

 

A short simple question though the answer, to fully explore it, could fill a volume. I've been thru the blind infatuations. Where one's hopes or fantasies obscure reality. It does a disservice to oneself and the object of one's desire. The hopeless romantic is just that, hopeless, if they do not keep their feet planted in reality while their hearts soar in the clouds. Having said that I am romantic I believe. I search for the one who fits. Yin to Yang. While a perfect match is the ideal it is unlikely for nothing is perfect. It is the imperfections that can bring a smile. They make one human and can, in their own way, make one perfect.

Many get fixated on body parts, legs, butt, breasts, etc. They are just pieces of the whole. One should be after all of her. Thus it is the whole I try to look at and look for. Is she caring or harsh? Is she open or distant? Trustworthy or deceitful? It is these basics, her heart and soul, which form the foundation. It can be strong and support all the trials and tribulations life and love can bring or it can be weak and fail.

Now there does need to be a physical attraction as well. It is part of the whole. You must love heart, mind, body and soul. I've seen women i consider pretty or beautiful with all body types. It's how they dress and carry themselves, the sparkle in their eyes. Does she light up any room she enters? Do i get lost in her smile or gazing deep into her eyes? Does the passion in her kiss set me on fire or take my breath away?

Basically, that simple question contains many more questions within it. When they all are answered satisfactory then the 'one' has been found. The readers digest version would be: Attractive, Caring, Intelligent, Witty, Trustworthy, Understanding, and Loveable. To me, the basics of what everyone should look for.

I'm likely to ramble on or talk in circles at this point so i'll end this stream of consciousness.