Wishing all of you peace and prosperity in the new year, and that none of us wait until the next Christmas season to remember those who are not as fortunate.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-XhUFj4Stk

Added 2 new pics taken 12/19/11.  They are a little different from the Christmas photos i've posted in previous years.....

Yes, i am still here.  It's not that i was unhappy with my decision, and it's not that i am looking for an intimate relationship.  I guess you could say it's a little like a train wreck.....

I have been pleasantly surprised  at all of the nice e-mail i have received.  Apparently there are a lot of Christian men on Collarme that would like to have a D/s relationship with a Christian woman.  In light of that, i offer some additional information:  when i say i have returned to The Church, i mean The Catholic Church.  The Catholic Church is not a religion of convenience, and individuals do not get to decide which rules are right for them.  This means, among other things,  a life of total (sexual) abstinence outside of sanctified marriage.  My choice meant ending a 5 yr relationship with a man i adore; the most truly dominant man i have ever known, and the only man i have ever loved.  He can never be replaced.  My decision has been bittersweet, to say the least.

I have added some new pictures taken Christmas, 2010, and January, 2011.

                                  The Wild Old Wicked Man

Because I am mad about women

 I am mad about the hills,'

Said that wild old wicked man

Who travels where God wills.

"Not to die on the straw at home.

Those hands to close these eyes,

That is all I ask, my dear,

From the old man in the skies.

Day break and a candle-end.

"Kind are all your words, my dear,

Do not the rest withhold.

Who knows the year, mydear,

when an old man's blood grows cold?'

I have what no young man can have

Because he loves too much.

Words I have that can pierce the heart,

But what can he do but touch?'

Day break and a candle-end

"Go your ways, O go your ways,

I choose another mark,

Girls down on the seashore

Who understand the dark;

Bawdy talk for the fisherman;

A dance for the fisher-lads;

When dark hangs upon the water

They turn down their beds.

Day break and a candle-end.

"A young man in the dark am I,

But a wild old man in the light,

That can make a cat laugh, or

Can touch by mother wit

Things hid in their marrow-bones

From time long passed away,

Hid from all those warty lads

That by their bodies lay.

Day break and a candle-end.

"All men live in suffering,

I know as few can know,

Whether they take the upper road

Or stay content on the low,

Rower bent in his row-boat

Or weaver bent at his loom,

Horseman erect upon horseback

Or child hid in the womb.

Day break and a candle-end.

"That some stream of lightening

From the old man in the skies

Can burn out that suffering

No right-taught man denies.

But a coarse old man am I,

I choose the second-best,

I forget it all awhile

Upon a woman's breast.'

Day break and a candle-end.

~W. B. Yeats

.........a favorite of a wild old wicked man i know.

Wishing you all a Blessed Christmas and Peace in The New Year

2 of my pictures were taken 4/19/09.  The one with black gloves was taken 7/1/09.  The rest (short hair) were taken about 5 years ago.   Please have a current phot of yourself.   Thanks

                      Two Wolves

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about the battle that goes on inside a person.
He said, "My son, the battle is between two wolves inside all of us.

One is Evil.  It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good.  It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:
"Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied,
"The one you feed."