Pain for me is some thing I want and need.

It isnt a punishment, its more than that.

I have a love and hate relationship with it, where each time I want to go further and deeper into it.

And when not having it, it does not make you feel whole or myself.

Pain isnt just pain, it is more than pain and depending on your mind frame, who your with and what is used many sensations can come from it which can be amazing.

Throbbing, stingy, thuddy, burning, shivering, sensitivity etc, its all good :-D.

Writing this, so makes me want to find the Sadist for me lol.