The hands of Justice are in the works Daddy.... Soon you will be able to rest... Your family misses You...

Happy Birthday BEAR... Today is Your 49th Birthday... Unfortunately Your Tragic Murder took You away from those who love You so much... There has been so many tears ...... Miss Rose's, Mary's, Eric's and mine... Your family has thought about You a million times .... We all Love You So Much... Our lives have changed... we take one day at a time... Knowing that You're Just A Old BEAR Lurking In The Shadows is a comforting thought knowing that in death You're still with us... In Our Hearts... In Our Minds... In Our Souls...

I Love You Daddy... Always and Forever.... Your butterfly... Your One And Only babygirl

So much has changed in life since the evening of January 31st, when i received the shocking call from Miss Rose that Bear had been Brutally Murdered... Nothing prepares you for a call like that...

Over the past months there had been negotiations for my return... unfortunately Bear felt he had a task to complete before this could happen... He was on the way to end a relationship that in the end Took His Life... Part of the Never Ending Circle is missing... but Miss Rose has brought me in as Her slave now... It was what He wanted... His family back together again.... i am Home...

In Love and Leather.. Now and Forever Bear's babygirl... Miss Rose's Forever.

Taking it slow

Getting to know You

It seems so right

It seems so real

Letting down my guard

Starting to feel

New Chapter In Life...

Life is not about

Waiting for the Storm to pass

It's about learning to

Dance In The Rain

“The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”     ―     Bob Marley

the morning started early...

there is a soft rain falling

the temperature is crisp...

i just want to snuggle nekkid back under my blanket...

and enjoy the day....

but such is life....

it's time again for work.....

have a beautiful rainy day....

not  even rainy weather could damper  our kinky camping trip. I enjoyed  the food and friendship, but nothing compared to the steamy shower with a hot girl, i have a new thought of tree hugging while being given a hand spanking,  mmmm but nothing compared to the Intense scene and kiss of  his whip. he gave the gift that kept giving as I went to sleep the rain pounding down on the cabin... Now I'm ready for spring and the next camping trip!!!

The truck followed her Ford Escape into the Wal-Mart parking lot, she was unaware... her focus was getting in and out of Wal-Mart as quickly as possible. There is a party this evening... there were only a few things she needed to pick up... Of course there were no parking spots close... kaycee sighed as she parked, swinging her feet out of the vehicle. His truck blocked her... His window was rolled down.... she could not see His eyes.... her reflection mirrored in His sunglasses. Rushing kaycee tried to make her way into the store.... His door opened... The man who stepped out of the truck over powered her size, He blocked her way.... His voice deep and familiar when He spoke..... Get in the car babygirl... No questions asked.... Do not make a scene... kaycee looked around to see if anyone was watching.... people were everywhere.... should she scream? should she try to run? He pulled down His glasses... blue eyes met her green ones... Don't even think it kaycee.... His massive hand wrapped around her upper arm... guiding her to the truck... He buckled her seat belt... then looked her door....before He made is way back to the drivers seat.... He drove to the back of the store.... stopping the truck... He reached into the glove compartment, taking the out the black cloth... kaycee's noticed something familiar there... her red stain gown and panties were stuffed in tightly... oh God He had been in her house...No kaycee cried out... what are You doing???.. how did You get in my house?? Hush girl... I will not harm You any more than you wish to be harmed.... He tied the blindfold tightly in place.... In silence they drove... for what seemed eternity.. The truck stopped... He came to her side of the truck... helping kaycee out.... she could hear and feel the gravel under her feet.... it was hot... He held her hand His other hand around her waist.... she felt the temperature change... as she stepped up... Where am I? Please tell me.... Who's here? Why are You doing this to me? No one spoke... The only sound was the blaring music... One hand at a time... cuffs were placed on her wrist....she struggled, He was having none of her nonsense... picking her up... carrying her across the room..... kaycee screamed.... Stop... Put me Down.... Please... i want to go home... i am begging... He only chuckled... kaycee felt her feet touch the ground.... His body pressed against her back.. she felt the cross in front of her... please she begged... tell what's going on.... i have done nothing to deserve this.... HUSH GIRL.... you know this is what you want... i read your story about wanting to be abducted... i am fulfilling your fantasy.... One hand at a time... He raised her arm... she heard the click as He secured her hands above her hands... His hand ran down her full breast.... squeezing tightly.... CLICK... what was that.... kaycee felt the cold steel cutting away at her shorts... first the back... then the front... oh God please... please... what are You doing.... He did not respond... just moved forward with His task.... Then her tank top... He started at the bottom... the tip of the knife touching kaycee's skin... the sound of the cloth ripping echoed in the quietness of the room... her breast were bare... her sex exposed.... He pushed His hardened cock against her ass... when this is over kaycee i will take your tight ass as mine... The knife cut against her tanned flesh... ripping it... the blood dripping... He bent... His tongue flicked against her skin... drinking her blood... she heard Him moan hotly as he tasted her... i want You kaycee... i will have You kaycee... before the nyte is over... You will be mine... but but Sir... i do not know You... who are You... why are You doing this.... TELL ME... PLEASE... i am begging... He laughed again... I am the One you dream of kaycee... I am the One who haunts Your dreams... i am the One who touches You when You sleep...I am the One who fulfills You.. body and soul... He changed the toy.. picking up His flogger... slow... fluid.... His strokes relaxed her... but it was only momentarily.... He picked up the speed... Hard... Heavy.. Thuds... kaycee arched.... moaning... she stomped her feet... He just laughed... He had watched her play this was the way she tolerated the pain... He swung harder... The music in the background blared... kaycee tried to dance to the beat... but He just kept hitting harder.... first she laughed... so girl you think this is funny... she could not control the laughter... no no... He stopped... His hand ran over the red whelps.. fingers traced over the open wounds... Changing toys... He picked up His whip... stepping back... He viewed His target... the whip cracked in the air.. kaycee cried out... she did not realize the whip had not connected with her flesh... then there was connection... The whip opened her flesh... again and again... her knees buckled... but kaycee pulled herself back up... pressing against the cross.... i Hate You she cried.... Stop.... Please STOP.. You're hurting me... i swear i will kill You when i am free she screamed... There was no response... The whip cracked over and over... Finally the tears flowed... kaycee released... all the stress...Oh God Oh God she cried... Then there was silence... she hugged the cross...her knees buckled... The beautiful colors flowed around her... Pinks... Blues.. Then Hot Red... Then the Black.. as she floated to another place... kaycee was happy.. was this heaven... had she died... This was the most beautiful place.... she never wanted to leave... Again His body pressed against her... kaycee was unaware that He had unsnapped the cuffs... His arms in circled her...lifting her like a feather... wrapping her in a blanket... Holding her body next to His... He carried her to a dark room...laying her on the bed... she could feel the coolness of the air conditioner...kaycee's lashes fluttered... open... His body was naked against hers... His cock was hard... as He pushed into the creamy wetness of her pussy... kaycee reacted... thrusting against Him... Make Love To me she begged... Oh yes sweet girl... yes... Together... the Oneness.... They came... He held her in His arms... Who are You, kaycee questioned.... I am your Dream kaycee.... In a cold sweat she sits up in her empty bed... Was this just a dream... or a dream come true... kaycee slid from the damp sheets of her bed... making her way to the shower... the cold stream beat against her hot flesh... Sleep was over... but the memory lingered on... Still she did not know who haunted her dreams...

                       The Mask

As she walks into the room

she can see the room is crowded...

Familiar faces, friends as well as strangers.... kaycee looks the same to all of them... not much change, with the exception of new hair color and style

Small talk is exchanged along with hugs with the occasional grope...

Nothing seems different to anyone else...

The mask she wears covers kaycee It protects her from the outside world Keeping people at arms length...

Across the room He stands... kaycee does not see Him But His eyes watch her every move... He knows her secrets... He sees her soul His stare goes inside her heart...

Before she turns she can feel His eyes upon her her body shivers...

Is it a Stranger... or Someone familiar?

Does she dare turn to find out?

kaycee decides to be safe... she walks away... without a word...

Safety is just beyond the door... As she reaches for the door knob a large hand covers her

Why do you run kaycee... He ask.. What are you afraid of babygirl? He lifts the mask... His eyes meeting hers...

You... You know me... You touch me...

even in my dreams...

You are my Fahntom...

You are my dreams... Good and Bad...

she pushes past Him...

Escaping into the darkness..

Safe... For The Moment...

Until They Meet Again....

The phone rang.

His voice was raspy and strained.

I need you to come to me now kaycee.

There was no questions of why... Just that her presence was needed immediately.

kaycee picked up her phone and purse.

Locking and pulling the door close behind her.

kaycee told her co-workers she had to leave...

There were questioning looks... it was the middle of the day. This was not like kaycee... especially without explaination.... she clocked out... opened her car door feeling the heat of the day hitting her as she slid in.

The drive was long... but the not knowing why she was summonded made the drive even longer....

Parking the car... she rushed to His door.... she knocked lightly... Hearing His deep voice grant her entrance....

At the door she slipped out of clothes... stepping into the heels that were available upon her arrival and to meet His protocol....

He was sitting at His desk... No words were spoken... kaycee kneeled at his feet... presenting herself the way He liked....His hands ran through her hair... wrapping His fingers in the strands... kaycee tilted her head back.... looking up into His eyes... Smiling down at her... kaycee you're such a good girl.... Thank you for coming without questioning... your loyality is very commendable....

there was never a reason to question Sir she replied....

Go to the bed girl... lay across it... I will be there shortly... without hesitation... kaycee rose from His feet... going to His bed... laying face down... she could hear His movement in the house.... His steps entered the room.... she could feel His eyes taking in every inch of her body....

He fastened the collar around her throat... she could hear snap of the leash... He pulled... in fluid movement kaycee rose up.... following a few steps behind....

Opening the front door He stepped out.... kaycee gulped... it was broad daylight... and He was leading her outside.... He went to the passenager side door.... opening it for her...

kaycee we are going on a road trip.... yes Daddy....

The neighbor mowing his lawn... ran over his roses bushs... distracted by her nakedness....

He moved to the drivers side door... cranking the truck... putting it into gear... The journey began.... Down the Houston freeways.... 18 wheelers honking... parents covering their childrens eyes... oh God ... what if she was arrested for public ludeness.... what would she do.... she had a high profile job.... not a word did she utter... the only sound for miles was the Country Music on the radio....

Come closer kaycee... Daddy wants to play with you while He drives... she scooted closer... opening her legs wide giving Him full access.. as He teased her cunt... please Daddy may i rub Your cock... yes babygirl... do anything you want.... feeling it harden under her touch... she could contain herself no longer... unzipping His pants... she began slurping and sucking... pumping His cock with her tiny hand.... kaycee's ass was now raised in the air... giving the truckers a view of her round ass... and her pink smooth cunt.... but she didn't care... she was serving the man she loves....

His groans deepen... His hand pushed her head down to the base of His cock.... shooting gush after gush of Hot Steamy Cum down her throat... she didnt miss a drop.... Holding the last of it in her mouth... kaycee looked up... with pleading eyes... swallow girl... with pleasure she drank His gift...

He pulled her close as she rested her naked body against His...

It was well after dark when they crossed the state line...

He stopped at a beautiful Southern Bed and Breakfast...nestled under the old magnolia trees...

He pulled her leash... as He stepped out of the truck....

a naked female answered the door... Good Evening Sir... we have been expecting You... Your room is ready...

Upstairs the bedroom flickered with candle light.... the bed was turned back.....

He picked her up... placing her on the bed.... orchid, your loyality and dedication have earned you a weekend of Pleasure and Pain.... Tonyte I Will Make Love To you... Tomorrow I will use your body in ways to Pleasure Me...

Their Love Making Was Breath Taking... kaycee snuggled close to Him... Together they fell into peaceful sleep...

In the corner was the cross with a variety of toys ready for His pleasure in the morning....

• Every day is an opportunity to create value through the application of my own efforts.
• I am eager to meet the challenges because I know they lead to true value.
• Anytime, any place, in any situation, I can choose to be happy and it will make me much more effective at everything I do.
• I know that no one is free of limitations. Everyone who accomplishes anything does so in spite of limitations. And so do I.
• The world around me is overflowing with abundance, and through my disciplined efforts I am able to partake of that abundance in whatever form I choose.

There is so very much that life has taught you. Now is when you can make good and valuable use of the lessons.

All the things you’ve done and experienced have given you great, practical, meaningful wisdom. Now you can live and act more wisely, and more effectively, than ever before.

Life has taught you well, yet it can often be frightening and uncomfortable to apply those lessons. Because if you truly pay heed to what life has taught, you’ll be compelled to move beyond what is comfortable and familiar.

Life has taught you that sticking with what doesn’t work just because it’s what you know, doesn’t work. Life has taught you that avoiding all risk ends up being the riskiest thing you can do.

It’s easy to make excuses and to avoid effort, but life has taught you that kind of approach doesn’t ever end very well. And life has taught you that when you do accept the risk, and take action, and live with integrity, there’s no limit to the great things you can accomplish.

Have the courage and the faith to step forward and live the way life has taught you. You know from experience what can make life great, so take the opportunity, right now, to put those valuable life lessons to good and meaningful use.

— Ralph Marston

Respect the woman, desire the slut and cherish the little girl. Then You have the mind, the body and the soul."

A mediocre Master orders, a good Master teaches, an excellent Master explains, But A True Master Inspires" A sub should have the strength to say "NO". Slaves must have the strength NOT to say "NO". Which one are you???? Master loves calling me his slave but I am submissive and have the ability and brains to think on my own.

Reposted With Permission

Take my hand

Capture my heart

i kneel at Your feet

The way is should be

The way it has always been

Master and slave

my eyes meet Yours

there are no doubts

theres no turning back

The Power

The Control

All belong to You...

Given freely

my soul belongs to You now...

Yours!

Today is Charmed!

Bondage... is the ties of the mind that bind...

Not the rope....

As you probally have guessed... i'm not a bondage bunny.... whip me, beat me, make me cry... then You will take my mind....

Confidant, Brave and Strong...

The willingness to surrender and give....

Kneeling because she yearns to....

submitting because it is her nature....

Love she offers forever more....
To the One who can capture her heart, mind, and soul.
This is the slave...
This is me...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!

Live Beyond It

Rest Your Mind

Calm Your Heart

Love Again

i spent a Relaxing weekend camping with Kinky Friends... Despite the rain... we had a Wonderful Time...

The Food Was AMAZING... The Friendship PRICELESS...

i am looking forward to the next trip to the woods!

why can't anyone accept the words i'm sorry

why can't people say i forgive you...

the pain in my heart is tearing at my chest

it does not go away....

it is something i have come to live with

wishing that i could just sleep it all away...

but the morning comes....

another day... more pain...

i wish it would all just go away...

Its a beautiful October Morning!

And It's Friday!

Doesnt Get Any Better Than This!

Have A Great Weekend!

she was sitting on the porch naked, drinking her morning coffee, watching the sun peeping across the fog filled pasture...

it's always a peaceful time for her...

she loved living in the country.. listening the call of the dove early in the morning...

This morning was no different than many mornings before...

Up the dirt road she could hear the sound of a car... then saw the dust... it was unusual to have traffic on this road, much less at this time of the morning...

she watched as the vehicle turned into her drive... the bump bump as it crossed the cattle guard....

the thought Who could this be... this early in the morning... seeing it was the Sherriff's car... kaycee stood.... she reached to the nearby rocker to retrieve a robe.. if you could call it that... the sheerness did little to cover her nakeness.... her bare feet did not make a sound as she moved across the porch....

He met her half way up the walk.... pulling His pistol from the holster... kaycee... you're under arrest... Grabbing her, He twisted her around... kaycee heard the handcuffs as they pulled from the case... then the snap... the tightening around her tiny wrist...

Wait... Wait... she protested.... what have i done?  You cannot arrest me for no reason.... what do You think i have done.... Wait a minute i have rights.... You can't do this .... Snatching her by the red locks he pulled her head back...growling in her ear... you have no rights slut... I have just taken them from you....

her pleads went to sobs.. tears burning her eyes... but but i did not do anything.. please tell me whats going on...

He guided her up the steps of the porch... both my her hair, one hand resting in the center of the cuffs....

He pulled open the screen door.... shoving her through.... she stumbled going up the stairs.... into the Master bedroom... to her unmade bed....

He pushed her forward, hard... she stumbled falling face down onto the down mattress.... she felt His massive hands as He gathered the sheer material that covered her... Ripping it from her body.... He groans as He say her laying there... naked.... helpless..... please she begged... i do not know what this is all about... please stop... please let me call my Daddy..... not this time kaycee.... you know your crimes... and you must be dealt with ....

But what are my crimes she pleaded.... i don't know what i have done....

you're a slut kaycee.... that's your crime... and i was sent here to make sure you understand that....

He holstered his weapon...

she heard the zipper of his pants.... the dropping of his gun belt to the floor.... what she did not realize was he had removed His night stick...until she felt it rub across her bare ass.... then the tap tap tap.. lightly at first... then with a more steady rythem... the soft white flesh quickly turned pink, then red... whelps rising..... Then it was the sting of His hand.... connecting with her bare bottom... followed by hard body punches....

At first kaycee struggled... fighting... her feet were still free... so she tried kicking violently.... but found no matter how hard she fought... this was her punishment for some unpardonable sin... though not sure what.....

Then using the night stick He inserted it in her.... pumping it back and forth... oh god kaycee whispered.... the pain had suddenly changed to lustful pleasure... she did not understand how being violated felt so good... even when He was beating her.... oh god she pleaded... more... give me more....

He laughed... see kaycee you are a slut..... the crime fits you.... so tell me what you are kaycee....

she pushed back against the hard rod... moaning as her cum soaked it... i'm a slut Sir.... an hot, horny nasty slut.....and i want more... God give me more...

Again He laughed.... pulling out the night stick... she moaned lifting up... trying to follow.... He pushed against her... His cock right on the edge of her parted petals....

You want more little girl... is that what you're telling me....

yes yes... she answered breathlessly... please....

Ahhh such a good lil slut.... beg harder.....

Please Please Sir.... i want more.....

More what kaycee... He whispered... just loud enough she could hear....

You're teasing me Sir.... i want Your cock.... please....

i am begging...

He pushed in her hard... deep... making her moan... Don't you dare cum until I tell you to girl... not one single drop...

Harder deeper He fucked her.... her cunt squeezing around Him... milking His thick ard cock.. pulling it deeper inside..... her moans filled the room... along with the fragrance of her sex.....

He watched as His cock slide in and out of her... loving how her pussy was swollen from His use....

He started breathing deeper.... He was groaning... low... deep... like a wild animal ready to attack....

In a growl he commanded... Cum You Fucking Slut... Cum NOW...  the gates of her sex opened.... squirting... unable to stop... The orgasm went on for what seemed like forever.... before He finally pulled out of her....

Rolling her over... He grabbed her by the hair again.... pulling her up.... to His cock... clean Me you nasty whore..... her eyes lifted as she opened her mouth... her tongue twrilling around His now spent shaft.... making sure she didn't miss a drop...

He smiled.... damn it kaycee... how many times do i have to tell you to not sit on that front porch of a morning naked drinking your coffee.....  yes Daddy... i know... Dont let it happen again do you understand me?  Yes Daddy... but they both knew in the morning kaycee would be there naked, drinking coffee.... watching the sunrise..

He unlocked the cuffs... pulling her to His chest... God girl what am I going to do with you?

i don't know Daddy... You know i love surpises....

He shook His head as he dressed ... knowing there was true crime in this world....

her only crime... was she was His... heart and soul...

i attended an interesting munch yesterday..

it made me question so much about myself...

i am more than a toy...

i want more from a relationship..

The past couple of days have been busy... a little stressful... i am so glad to be home this evening... able to home... enjoying my new bed.... i think tonyte i will go to bed early... if only there was a Daddy to snuggle up close to....

It was a quiet weekend...

It's Wednesday morning...

i am struggling to get out the door on time....

The days... The weeks so busy...

i sit in anticipation for the weekend....

i need like minded friends....something that the vanilla world just does not satisfy in life these days...

i am counting down the hours until i am in Houston again...

i have spent so much time asking

         WHY?

Why was i sent away?

Why did they fall out of love with me?

Why i was not worthy to be a slave?

Why above all was i left behind as i watch others move on?

Starting new relationships... Collars given....as i waited... wishing... hoping someone would see me...

Today i do not ask Why?

Life is what it is... i do not have control over today... tomorrow... or the distant future....

i have learned to look in the mirror and like what i see...

But more so i have looked into my heart and soul to find the goodness, and love i have to offer not only someone else... but the goodness and love i feel for myself....

i do not pretend that i am something or someone that im not

my days rollercoaster at times... but thats just part of lifes path....

i am me... and its a good person to be... i am not perfect... the only One who was ever perfect died for my sins on a cross... i no where compare.. and yes i am a Christian... i think if more people were honest with themselves and were themselves they would find Life Is Good... There is no need to lie or pretend ... what does that get you in the long run... Nothing! 

Today my spirts are up... i am happy... i am blessed with wonderful friends... and a lifestyle i love...

Happy Just Being kaycee!

The star on my shoulder is coming along nicely.

Saturday nyte i was played to the point of flying lightly...

then He cut me again...etching over the scar from last week....

He told me i was a good girl... how Proud He is of me that i take the pain without resistance or complaint...

Yes there are tears... tears of pain... but mainly tears of release and freedom....

i have come such a long long way in the past couple of years...if nothing else i am proud of the strides i have made to become the woman.. the slave... the babygirl i am today... in time there will be a Master who finds me to fit in the missing piece of my heart...

Last week He held me in His arms...

He touched my body ... my soul

His eyes looked into mine... reading my heart...

There He saw the tenderness of a slave...the yearning to kneel to serve... to please....

Quietly He asked... are You ready ?

yes.. oh... yes....

Tenderly He opened her lips...rubbing the softness of her petals...

she heard the snap... a sound she would come to know often in this scene....

then the sudden push as the needle penetrated.. from one side of her pussy lip to another...

sharp... intent... pleasure and pain all at once...

the first one was preperation for a flight to a land of pleasant dreams... pretty colors.... happy feelings...

there was a total of 12... when He was done...

Then the touch became tender... it was not His hands... but those of a woman she loves so much.... rubbing up and down the open tender pussy lips... pressing against the needle from time to time... she could hear Them both moan... as her body reacted... she could feel her juices ooze from inside...ohhhh what pleasure....

she was allowed time to enjoy all of the sensations before... One by One... He pulled the needles out.... the blood trickling down her lips...

Together They embraced her... holding her... kissing her... Together they had completed her...

There will be more... He has promised... He is a Man of His Word....

Now she waits in eager anticipation....

Tonyte she will share those feelings again...

the scars on her left shoulder are faint... almost unseen by the eyes of others....

to her they are clearly visable... hideous...

put on her in a moment of anger... she was left on the table to pretty much fend for herself after he cut her...

but she loved him... for years she wore the scars in shame..

he had told her that she was an embarassement the evening he cut her... this was branded into her brain...

last nyte she lay on the bed... her negotiations were clear... understood.... this Dom knew what she wanted.. what she needed... He knew there were would be tears... His hands rubbed over her left shoulder... over the markings he had drawn on her... her choice of design... are you ready kaycee? her words quivered.... more than ready Sir she whispered... His hands steady and skilled... the scapel etched... kaycee was still.. she had to be... even though the pain was so intent... what seemed a lifetime was only minutes... Finshied He whispered in her ear... the tears unleased... still on the bed... she cried out It's Over... I am Free.... Free of the past... He has no ownership over me any more.. His marks do not bind me....

The soft hands of her best friend applied pressure over the fresh cut...

kaycee is guided to the mirror in the restroom.... she turned... on her shoulder is a scar she will be proud of... a Star.. A Shooting Star... Upward.... Onward.... she has destoryed the devil... the evil spirit that held her hostage...

she is Free....

this is such an exciting weekend...

i can hardly wait to spend time with my best friends...

there will be exciting hot play.... time in the pool... good food... and especially friendship....

See Ya Monday....

she is unsure how she got here... or even where she was....

all she knew was she was running in the darkness of a forest...

the trees were dense... over lapping so there was no sunlight at all... it was almost like the dead of nyte....

briars were wrapping around her ankles... tearing at the flesh... she was unaware as the blood trickled down her legs and feet... she was to busy trying to get away.... from what she did not know... she just knew she had to run... hard, fast... far far away.... her heart beat hard against her chest... was it due to the running or the pain? or maybe both.... tears streamed down her face...

her breaths came in gasp now...

ahead she saw a light... was this the way out... she pushed harder... running faster....

this was an enterance to a beautiful field... flowers.... birds singing cheerfully, the sun softly kissing the clouds.... the breath taking view made her stop in her tracks... ahead was a narrow path....

resting a moment... the journey was calling her to move forward....

From above like the voice of God she heard His voice...

walk kaycee.... do not run... there is so much for you to see and enjoy... take your time lil one.... what you seek is out there.... do not be afraid to embrace the walk as you go... taking in the beauty life has to offer you...

she walked... slowly enjoying each step of the way...

BL.. Sir... this is my thoughts after Your recent letter... Your encouragement means so much to me... Thank You...

kaycee

she is unsure how she got here... or even where she was....

all she knew was she was running in the darkness of a forest...

the trees were dense... over lapping so there was no sunlight at all... it was almost like the dead of nyte....

briars were wrapping around her ankles... tearing at the flesh... she was unaware as the blood trickled down her legs and feet... she was to busy trying to get away.... from what she did not know... she just knew she had to run... hard, fast... far far away.... her heart beat hard against her chest... was it due to the running or the pain? or maybe both.... tears streamed down her face...

her breaths came in gasp now...

ahead she saw a light... was this the way out... she pushed harder... running faster....

this was an enterance to a beautiful field... flowers.... birds singing cheerfully, the sun softly kissing the clouds.... the breath taking view made her stop in her tracks... ahead was a narrow path....

resting a moment... the journey was calling her to move forward....

From above like the voice of God she heard His voice...

walk kaycee.... do not run... there is so much for you to see and enjoy... take your time lil one.... what you seek is out there.... do not be afraid to embrace the walk as you go... taking in the beauty life has to offer you...

BL.. Sir... this is my thoughts after Your recent letter... Your encouragement means so much to me... Thank You...

kaycee

The week was stressful...

So much happening with family dynamics and work....

i was so tired by Friday... but i was able to take the day to relax... a much needed long weekend....

i spent the weekend with wonderful friends that i have made over the course of the last 2 1/2 years.... those who enjoy my company for me... and have been able to not look at me for the sins of my past... i am so grateful.... i am finding it easier to relax and be myself.... i honestly feel worthy of their company and friendship....

This morning i woke up naked next to a very very sexy lady.. brought her, her morning coffee... then snuggled in bed for hours watching Kink on Net-flex (which if you have not seen by all means take the time to watch both series),

Tomorrow is another week.. due to the changes i for see  much less stress in the work place....

Life is Good!

Life is so short...

We tend to forget the important things

I'm sorry I hurt You... Forgive me please?

A hug and kiss can make you feel better...

Saying I Love You...

There was a death in my family this evening...

It made me think!

i spent an Amazing weekend at a great party Saturday nyte.... then i joined the best friends ever for a pool party... yummy food... and great conversation...

i am exhausted... need to catch up my sleep now...

i am already preparing for another great weekend.

It never ceases to amaze me when being contacted by people who do not have a clue about this lifestyle... who want to cheat and lie on/to their spouses... who haven't a clue about honor or intergity...

Most don't know the difference between a paddle and a flogger... much less how to use them... don't have a toy to play with or the skills needed....

i am so frustrated.. guess i need to realize this is Collarme and any fool can create a profile and fill it with fantasies.

i continue my search for Real.. Experienced... Sadistic... but above all Honest Master/Daddy to fulfill me as a slave and babygirl! Is it possible that someone like that is out there... or will i continue walking this path alone....

FRUSTRATED!

Anticipating An Amazing Weekend!

This evening i am lonely...

what am i doing wrong?

i have waited patiently...

i want so desperately to give my all...

Are You there?

Do You exist?

Are You looking for me?

i am always trying to find ways to make me a better person... i found this ...

Respect yourself enough to

Walk away from anything

That no longer Serves You,

Grows You, or makes You

        HAPPY!

Sounds a little dominate... but i think it goes for a submissive as well....

This lifestyle is about serving, growing and most of all being Happy...

When its no longer fun... its time to quit!

last nyte i dreamed of my past...

it was bitter sweet.....

i do not know what trigged me to even reach this far back in my life... to a chapter that has been closed for a long long time... it made me sad.... it made me remember.... it made me cry....

Don't know if i mentioned or not that i played Saturday nyte with fire floggers... unfortunately the play was a little more intent that than i first realized and my back i has some pretty nasty burns...

Today i sub dropped... wasn't to bad.. just a little down...

sure tomorrow will be a better day....

Still missing the Person that completes me... not sure if He exist or not.... i really doubt it....

It's Monday yet again...

What does the week have in store for me?

Such a mystery...

In the mean time i will focus on just how wonderful i felt this morning... as my feet touched the floor the bruise and cuts on my body ached....

Ok had to wipe the sleep from my eyes and think...

oooooh Yes... what beatiful pain... and i am still getting to enjoy it...

Before any conclusions are drawn... No there's No One New in my life... Just a Fabulous Party with a Sadistic Dom that knew how to bring out the masochist in me...

i do want to find the One that completes me... in every way... sometimes i wonder if there is such a person in store for my future...

But until then... i am enjoy the opportunity to experience each and every moment of this lifestyle i live and love

This fabulous weekend is coming to a close...

i woke up again this morning... this time it was a little harder to get out of bed.... my body aches.. but in oh such a good good way....

Last nyte i attended the Hottest Party in Houston... oooohhh god... to start there was some warm up with the violet wand... then fire floggers.... ummmm yes... but the evening was Topped Off with a Sadist Dom beating me... there were floggers, single tails, but the best of all was the rough body play.... god i loved every minute of it... got home at 4 AM.... sweet sleep... dreams of pleasure and pain!..

so yes this morning i was just a little bit slow moving around this morning....

Went to MAsT-Houston for lunch and a meeting... good topics of interest discussed... with like minded friends....

Tomorrow is Monday... its going to be a long long week...

Friday was only the beginning of a Fabulous weekend.... i left work early for Houston... arriving before the 5 pm traffic started... the evening was shared with friendship, fine wine, good food... this lasted until the early hours of the morning... did i mention we shared fine wine.... omfg....

i was able to sleep in this morning... first time in a long time... to wake up cuddled next to someone warm.... slipping out of bed   making the morning coffee.... serving it barefooted.... then sharing a warm morning shower together.... laffing, talking, then Saturday was off to a start... went to a meeting.... meeting up with more great friends that were so glad to see me... it had been a while.... afterwards we headed over to the Chocolate Bar on Alabama.... did you know that today is National Chocolate Day... Yum Yum.... ate the best ice chocolate ice cream ever.....

i just showered again.... to spiffy up for the Hottest Party in Houston.... i am so excited.... Hoping to get played by a Sadist Mother Fucker that can bring blood and leave bruise... taking me on a happy flight to heaven... oh a girl could be so lucky....

Time to dress... giggles... the out fit is so fucking hot... i can hardly wait!

my heart is heavy

so much to offer

so much to give...

the thud of the flogger

the sting of the whip

bruises, abrasison

blood that drips...

more Please Sir...

again i will beg...

for my heart is heavy

so much to offer

so much to give...

take it all Master...

it's the gift that i give

Is any of this real anymore?

Is there anyone out there that's real?

i question....

Again i grasp for the brass ring....

But it's not there...

It is a good 2 hour journey...

her thoughts focused... preparing for the arrival

the offering of her submissiion....

Once at the door she knocks softly....

His voice deep... Come in girl...

she turns the handle...

entering... she stands for a brief moment...

the room is dark with the exception of a candle by his chair..

she looks down...

then begins undressing... slowly for His pleasure

Deep, dark eyes take in her movements... her body...

He never speaks... just watches...

all that is left are the black heels...

she kneels... folding her clothes... placing them on the old leather stool beside the door....

In a soft whisper she ask... please may i approach...

He smiles... He does not speak.. with His fingers He motions her to Him...

the sound of her heels can be heard on the old wooden floor..

before Him she kneels gracefully

placing her hands in the small of her back...

she bends at the waist... kissing one foot then the other...

His hand grabs her blonde hair... wrapping it...

He draws her to His cock...

her tiny mouth opens... her tongue flicks against the tip...

then takes in His thick throbbing cock....

slurps can be heard in the quietness....

His moans fill the room....

He pushes her head up and down...

she gags...

The moans become more frequent...louder...

Abruptly He yanks her head up...

Hands still in her hair...He guides her to His king size bed...

pushing her over the edge.. 

He thrust hard... deep....  taking His pleasure

she begs for her release...but is denied...

Over and Over He works inside the moist pleasure that belongs to Only Him....

her whimpers... His moans...

He whispers in her ear... Cum for Me!

her release comes in gushes...

His cock shooting Hot Long Streams of Cum inside of her....

Together T/they take their pleasure...

He releases her

Pulls her close to Him... Smiling...

Lifts her into His bed... He pulls her close...

Rest little one... Daddy's here....

she snuggles close...

The aroma of their sex lingers in the room

The ceiling fan makes a swrilling sound

as she falls asleep in His arms...

Its been a long week...

she's finally home!

her emerald eyes sparkle

the lights of the farris wheel reflect against her as it turns around and around

her smile soft and sensual

the height no comparison for her soul touching the heavens...

the sound of the music hypnotic

He watches her in amazement....

Knowing that this is not the excitement of a carinval....

but.... the freedom she now experiences....

the freedom of a slave...

one that has so much to offer... to give....

her mind and soul pure...

once the farris wheel stops....

she will find what she seeks...

standing there...as she steps off.....

He will be the light in her eyes...

He will make her go around and around....

He is will be the One...

The One who holds her body.. mind and soul...

He will be.....

You.....

As my thoughts have dwelled on the loss of my friends life...

my memory returns to a question.... if You died... how would you want to die...

i use to know the answer...

This evening my heart is heavy with the sad news of loss of a friend... someone who was always tender... kind and thoughtful....

to make my heart even heavier another friend just lost her grandbaby...

i do not understand... but it is not my place to question....

i will send prayers for peace and understanding

Funny how 2 little scars can make a difference in how i looked at myself.... they were "his" the reminder the collar was gone... but yet there was still this slight mark of "ownership".  Sound silly... well yes i suppose so... but this was the final reminder....

Well no longer.... last evening i was Branded with a Shooting Star... the rays are not on the top like a falling star... but under the star pushing it higher... that is where i am going.. higher expectations.... higher hopes...

The star will need a little follow up to be sure that it scars...

One of my dearest Friends has agreed to a Cleansing Ceremony....

It has taken a long time.... i held on tight to the past... now i realize there is noting to hold too... Nor would i want to....

My Star is Shooting... Higher... Brighter....

Welcome to my Happiness... my Freedom...

kaycee

Minor Set Back... i have been trying to get my tattoo covered up... i have been from Houston back to College Station talking to artist... i thought for sure this afternoon i would have my dream art... but hey... what's another day.... tomorrow i have an appointment at 3pm for my new art..... i am so excited.

i'm sad... if it would do any good to sulk and pout... throw a temper tantrum... i would.... lol...

The weekend is over... oh but what a wonderful weekend it was!

True friendship was enjoyed.... with a little kink along the way....

Lunch with wine... then....

Went to the Broadway Musical Menopause today with 4 lifestyle ladies... ohhh jesus what a HOOT!  i would try to explain it to you... but i would sit here laughing... and you still wouldn't understand.... although... one of the scenes was about sex toys... viberator.. and possibly an egg... i was in tears laughing... when the lady next to me... a total stranger said ohhhh honey i have a whole closet of those.... but thats a secret between you and i.... lord god... i didnt have a clue who this woman was... which made it all the more funny...

After the play it was dinner and wine... did i mention i enjoyed the wine.... smiles....

What an Amazing Day! 

Tomorrow is Monday.... The start of another week....

New journeys...and More Fun!

Minor set back... i didnt get the revisions to my tattoo....

Have some different ideas as to what i want to do...

Possibility that i want to do a total coverup...

i picked what i wanted last nyte....but time was an issue....

Going back today to see if we can get it drawn....and the art done...

im excited!!!!

Last nyte was amazing.. someone very special to me... gave me a gift that i had wanted and needed a long time...

Today we are going to a broadway musical.... then out to eat at a nice resturant here in Houston....i can hardly wait! 

This new outlook and new kaycee is really working!!!!

i am making changes to me....

i have already gone back to my orginal hair color... a sunshine blonde with highlights... Good Bye Red Head... it was never me... and i wore it far to long!

This weekend is the beginning of modifications to my body....

Under my tattoo is the word "babygirl" Saturday that will be covered up.... not sure what i will choose... but it will be unique to me....

The next weekend i am attending a party.. at some point the 3 ugly ugly scars on my shoulder will be removed along with a cleansing ceremony...

i am also taking out the nipple and clit piercings....

i am very excited about these changes in my life....

Positive moves into a new realm of my journey....

New pictures will soon replace the ones on my profile to reflect the New and Improved!

RESURECTION!!! the True kaycee is back...

Please tell me why i should Trust any one... ever again...

People i have put my ultiimate trust in have betrayed me over and over... so why even try...

Why think someone would Protect me....what a Joke!

i am beginning to think this is lifestyle isn't all its suppose to be....People are not honest.... not real....

i am re-thinking this....

maybe its time to put this all to rest....

Here Cums Peter Cotton Tail...

HAPPY EASTER!!!

This song so describes my life..

It is one of my favorites

                A Thousand Years

                 Christina Perri

Heart beats fast

Colors and Promises

How to be brave

How can i love when i'm afraid

To fall

But watching You stand alone,

All of my doubt

Suddenly goes away somehow

One Step Closer

i have died every day

Waiting for You!

Darlin Don't Be Afraid

i have Loved You For A Thousand Years!

i'll Love You for a

Thousand More!

Time Stands Still!

beauty is all she is

i will be brave

i will not let anything

Take away

What's standing in front of me

Every breath,

Every hour has come to this

One Step Closer

i have died every day

Waiting for You!

Darlin Don't Be Afraid!

i have loved You for a

Thousand Years

i'll lLove You for a

Thousand More

And all along i believed

i would find You

Time has brought

Your heart to me

i have Loved You for a

Thousand Years

i'll Love You for a

Thousand More!

Tell me...

Tell me You think of me....

Tell me that i am more than a memory

Tell me You feel my touch... You smell my fragrance...

Tell me You have not forgotten me...

Tell me You wish i was Yours....

Tell me You love me....

Tell me You always will..

Tell me You want me....

Tell me i am Your babygirl....

Tell me what i need to hear....

Tell me....

His mouth covered hers...

slowly He moved down..

sucking one breast... then the other...

covering her belly with butterfly kisses...

Finally reaching her smooth sex...

His breath warm against her...

His tongue probing in an out

she arches up... moaning hottly

she whispers.... tell me how i taste...

He moaned ... and whispered....

You taste like.................

As He nuzzled her pussy

she came hard...

He held me in His arms..

Strong... Secure... Confident...

my body melted next to His

W/we were O/one...

O/our Souls Are United

Master and slave...

Yesterday is the past...

All that matters is today...tomorrow...

Forever...

The evening had been Magical...

she had been instructed to wear His favorite outfit

He took her to her to their favorite Italian resturant in the heart of down town...

she was not allowed to order... He knew exactly what she would eat..

the wine had made her a bit light headed... she giggled at this silly feeling....

He just shook His head and chuckled as He watched her... His dark eyes taking in every inch of her..

His... He knew this... There was no doubt... Everything about her belonged to Him...not just His mark that sparkled around her throat...

It was new... a gift.... something for Valentines

He had also surprised her with a bouquet of orchids... her favorites... a mixture of pink and purple..

During the ride home His fingers had toyed with her... teasing her warm wet pussy...

His cock was rock hard... she rubbed it through His strained jeans...

Both were breathless...needing... wanting each other...

It was a mad rush to get into the house....to the bedroom

The room flickered with candle light...

He moved to the bed... undressing

she stood for a moment in the door watching Him..

He turned... babygirl are You going to stand there all nyte...

she smiled ... slowly her hand rubbed up and down her body...

then sliped out of the black dress... letting it fall to the floor...

she moved to the bed... climbing on top of Him..

Feeling His cock push deep into her sweet moistness

she whispered...

Fuck me Daddy...

Fuck me hard...

As they made love she whispered in His ear...

Happy Valentines...

i love You so much...

The snow where she lays is scarlet

her body is limp

through her white gown an arrow pierces her heart

Though still alive...barely....

she hears the footsteps....

His big hands lift her to His chest...

she hears the words... oh babygirl... what have I done to You....

her emerald eyes open... a tear drop trickles down her cheek...

He licks it away.... Oh God babygirl... please don't go... I am sorry....

He pulls the arrow from her chest... the blood gushes covering His hands....

she gasp....

His mouth covers hers.... kissing her... trying to breath the life back into her....

but there is no hope.....

another tear trickles down her cheek...

her voice faint.... she whispers...

i love You Daddy... i will always love You...

she sees her reflection in His blue eyes... one last time....

Tell me You love me before i go...

Tell me...

He pulls her to body to His... feeling it grow cold...

Happy Valentines Day.... my heart is still empty....

Tell me You think of me...

Tell me You need me....

Tell me You want me....

Tell me You miss me....

Tell me You will never leave me...

Tell me that You remember me....

Tell me that You love me....

It's all i want to hear...

The sun breaks through the dark clouds

she looks up... watching the clouds part

the light radiates on her naked body

softly she smiles... knowing today will

be a Beautiful Day...

i told my best friend that You called me gold...

she said she agrees... that i am priceless...

but instead of being replaced with copper, it is more like an aluminum can you salvage from the side of the road... then re-cycle....there have been that many replacements over the course of a couple of years...

i had to laff.... maybe she is right!!!!

i know the Real Master... the Real Daddy is out there... The One that is Right for me!

shyly she hides in the darkness

squated tightly in the corner

her head is hung, she can be heard softly crying

used... abused... thrown away....

she feels there is nothing left to give... to offer

mocked scorned by those she loved and trusted...

replaced....

He hears her crys... searching in the darkness...

His light spots her...

Quietly He moves towards her... careful not to frighten this fragile creature more than she already is...

His voice deep low... calls to her....

"girl" you are safe... take my hand

she pushes closer to the wall...

Again He speaks... "girl" you are safe... take my hand

she reaches up... her knees tremble...

He can see she is naked... cold.... scared....

His dark eyes survey her.. inch by inch...

Why do you hide "girl" ?

Because there is no more use for me Sir, i was cast aside... i have been replaced....no One wants me... my days are over...

Sadly He shakes His head, still watching her....

He pulls her close... lifting her chin...

His dark eyes searching hers...

No, "girl" you still have so much to offer... so much to give.... and the "one" who abandoned you was a Fool.... for he choose copper over gold...

i am gold Sir, she ask...

Always girl... always...

Know that i am here now... you are safe...

Until you are stronger "girl" I am your Strength...

I am your Protecter

I will polish the gold... you will Shine again...

Dedicated to Master Michael... for all You have shown me... all You have given me.... Thank You for being my friend and my Procter...

In such a good place...

Under the cold blue water

Struggling to reach the top

fighting for her every breath

helpless... hopeless....

The icy cold water turns warm as she surrenders to the current

Emerald eyes fixed...

her heart as cold as the water

her breathing stops

yet her mind vividly alert...

every memory as current as if she is living them over again...

Just as she is surrendering to the end...

A large hand grasp her....

Every day cannot be an up and happy day...

Today is that day...

Lots of deep thoughts...

Wondering why...

Why not...

Is there really any one out there for me...

Is it time for me to say just FUCK IT

and walk away?

Tonyte i am sad.. i am lonely..

A fallen angel.... from the heavens dropped...

her wings broken... as broken as her heart...

Tear drops cling to the lashes of emerald green eyes

she emerges to the pits of Hell Fire...

At the feet of Satan himself....

she looks up... asking "but why am i here?"

It is a test... He growls... a test of honor, truth, submission...

Over the years she stumbles... she falls.... but her will is not broken... her heart is alway pure and true....

One day Satan can take it no longer... He cannot break the will of this slave....

From her throat He tears away the collar that identifies her as the property of HELL...

GO... He demands....

From the pits of Hell she emerges...

The phoneix she has always been....

From the darkness... There is light...

her gift more precious than ever before...

Time is to her advantage...

For she is a slave...

No where near perfect

But stronger..... with so much to give...

Please understand if You are reading my profile and journal... i love to recieve messages.... but please DO NOT ASSUME that You can speak to me in a DISRESPECTFUL MANNER.... and i will like it.... You give Respect... You will recieve Respect.... if Not You Will Get Back As Good As You Get!  This is not being less submissive... It is Strength and Self Respect...

The silence echo's

The snow falls softly around her

she waits patiently

kneeled...naked.. open...

her green eyes search the forest

snowflakes catching on her lashes

Is He there... silently watching?

softly she shivers....

Then she hears the crunch of ice and snow

her eyes move from the black boots...to His blue eyes...

He smiles....

He came for her...

Taking her in His arms... He pulls her cold body close to His...

His voice low and deep.....

Daddy came for you babygirl....

It's time to go home...

Calm... Content.... Relaxed... Happy.....

What an Amazing Feeling!

i am His slut

i am His whore

His babygirl thats for sure!

He makes me smile

He makes me cry

His touch i crave

Quivering at the bite of His whip

Shivering in anticipation

Calm at the sound of His voice..

The touch of His hand...

Taking me to heaven

Then being brought back to earth

In His arms... safe... like i have never been before

Trust is given

Trust is returned

Control and Power

i offer to You

Take it... i give it....

i surrender my all.... my body, my mind, my heart and my soul...

It is YOURS....

Do You Want It?

At Your feet i kneel..

arms extended... palms offered up.... eyes lowered offering her ultimate gift... her submission... a slave....

All for You...

A Master.... His slave....

A Daddy..... His babygirl

He kisses my lips

He whispers my name...

Promise made...

No longer the same...

It's different...

It's real...

my heart He will not kill...

At His feet i kneel

Forever my heart He will steal..

Total Power Exchange i will give

i surrender Master...

For Once In my Life i Have Found What's Real!

He leans down... His mouth covering hers...

she melts against Him....

she can feel His heart beating next to hers...

Together their tongues dance the dance of love

softly she moans into the kiss

This is a kiss that will linger in her mind forever...

This has been an Amazing Day....2012 is going to be special for me.... made possible by Positive Friends that surround me....

Each and Every Day brings Health, Happiness, and Hope into my life....

And just think... the year has just begun!

i spent an Amazing Weekend with a Beautiful Couple...

Thank You So Much For Making Me Feel Welcome

Allowing me down time to rest and just be me...

What Wonderful Friends....

               New Years Resolution 2012

 Healthy Heart Mind and Soul

2012 will Belong to kaycee

and all the good that life has to offer....

Here's To The Positive!

In the shower the hot water pellets against her flesh...

she leans her head back... enjoying the warmth ... feeling it soak her red curls....

Taking the wash cloth... she soaks it.... adding the fragrant soap.... slowly cleaning her curvy body...

when she gets to her smooth pussy... she opens her legs wide... rubbing slowly.... she drops the cloth.... letting her fingers play with her clit... then probing into her freshly fucked wet cunt..... she moans hottly... seductively as she plays with herself....

she knew He would be joining her in the shower... but she was unaware He was standing at the shower door watching her... He opens the shower door just as she starts to cum...

Well little girl seems you started the shower without Me.

her words stumble... caught... knowing playing with herself is against the rules...her words stumble..

mmmmm Daddy.... i was just washing my pussy....

His laff was low and deep... is that what you call it babygirl.... looks more like you were finger fucking yourself... and cumming without permission.... now tell Me again... what were you doing?

hmmm... ahhhh.. i was playing with my pussy... i mean.. ahhh Your pussy Daddy... and i got carried away....

I see that... He replied.... now what should I do about it?

she looks down... i guess You should spank me Daddy....

No you would like that to much babygirl....I think I want to make You ache to cum...

Turn girl...grab the shower bar....

she obeys... uncertain of what is about to happen...

He parts her ass cheeks with one hand.... with the other He rubs the head of His cock against her dark hole.. He smiles as He hears her whimper...

Daddy, please this is going to hurt... please ...

Yes little girl it will hurt for a moment.. and guess what... when it starts to feel good... you can't cum...

No No Daddy... i will need to cum... You know Your cock in my ass always makes my pussy gush....

Well little girl... not this time....

He pushes in.... slowly.... stopping..listening to her whimpers... He knows she is crying.... He can hear the gentle sobs... uncertain if her crys are the pain of His huge thick cock working its way inside her tight hole... or if she is ashamed of her behavior....

He pushes deeper... developing a rythem.... she pushs back against Him.... He knows now she is just being a greedy whore.... enjoying His cock... hoping He will decide to let her cum...

He grabs her tits... using them as leverage.... He leans His head to her shoulder... biting down... knowing this pain will take her over the edge..... her scream echos in the tight quarters of the shower...

It is hard to tell who is pushing.. shoving harder....

Fuck me BITCH.. He Demands....

Please Daddy Please Daddy... Please... i need to cum Daddy... i need it so bad....

mmmmm... He moans... to bad... naughty girls don't get what they want now do they...

One hand moves to her slick wet cunt... He finds her clit...rolling it as He fucks her... knowing this drives her fucking wild... He pulls it out...  twisting it hard.... she gasp... her body fighting what comes natural... knowing she is being punished.... knowing the next punishment would be far worse than this one.... fuck you she moans....

He laffs... oh babygirl.. No... FUCK YOU BITCH.... His hard cock pulls almost out of her ass... Then rams in as Hard and Deep as He can push it.... she screams.....

Again He pulls to the edge... shoving back in

He feels her tender body tremble... knowing this is pain not pleasure.... she trys to fight Him... cursing....

little girl... you will not get what you want this time... go give it up....

her teardrops mix with the hot water that catches on her eye lashes....

He pulls her ass close... as He feels His edge is near.... He leans back... growling loudly.... as He dumps rope after rope of steaming hot cum into her ass... One last thrust... One last groan....

He pulls out... turning her... He pulls her to His chest... next time remember the rules...

Now bathe me...

she stirs.. whimpering as she sleeps...

He pulls her closer... shh'ing her fears... scaring away the bad dream she was having....

Daddy's here He whispers...

she snuggles closer... her naked breast pressing to His chest... opening her eyes... she smiles seeing that He had been watching her while she slept....

Good morning babygirl... Daddy loves you... did you sleep well....

she smiles softly... Good morning Daddy... i love You too.. i had a dream that the bad man was after me again....

No baby.. there is no bad guy.... it was just a dream....

she snuggles closer.... whispering seductively...

Fuck me Daddy.....

He moans.... His errection immediate.... Throbbing....

He covers her...

Taking what's His....

He slowly pushes His thick hard cock into her moist cunt...

she tightens around Him... squeezing... milking....

He moans deep and low...she whimpers

His thrust harder.... deeper.... 

in a seductive whisper she begs.... please Daddy... please... i need to cum so bad....

No No babygirl... not yet....

she fights her urges.... 

her fragrant musk fills the air....

He enhales her scent.... 

her nails rake against His chest.....

OH GOD she begs... please Daddy... please.... God i am so wet ..... 

His body stiffens.... Now He growls... Now.... cum with Daddy..... 

her body releases... gush after gush of hot sweet cum....

Together they melt together.... 

He holds her close.... she feels His heart beat.... 

He smiles... time to get up babygirl.... start the shower... Daddy will be there in just a minute...

she starts to the shower... He smacks her on the ass as she passes.....

Turning looking over her shoulder... giggling.... 

Starting the shower... waiting for it to warm....

she steps in... humming softly.... 

Dancing happily...

Singing... it's Almost Christmas... it's Almost Christmas... and Santa Clause is Cumming To Town....

Counting The Days...

A tea set is neatly displayed on the quilt she has spread on her bedroom floor... her little gown flows as she dances around from baby doll to baby doll filling their tea cups with pretend tea.... if You watch closely You catch a glimps of her bare bottom... and her smooth little girl sex... her happiness radiates the room...

He stands there watching her...His presence undetected...When He clears His throat... she jumps....

What are You doing out of bed little girl... aren't you suppose to be in naked and in bed instead of having a tea party with your friends?

yes, yes Daddy she replies... i'm sorry....

No little one... you know you are suppose to be in bed waiting when Daddy comes home... Take off your gown... and lay across the bed... I will be there in a minute...

Obediently she lifts her gown over her head... letting it flow to a silky pool on floor.... 

His eyes roam over her body, not of a child, but a that of a woman... full breast... the curve of her waist... the round ass... her legs are parted revealing the pouty pussy lips... He feels His cock throb as He takes in her beauty...  

 The wind howls outside the bedroom window

There is only a flicker from the candle that lights the room

A chill fills the air even though a fire burns in a nearby fireplace

There on the plush fur rug she kneels

Waiting quietly... her eyes lowered....

her reverance does not go un-noted as He stands in the doorway...

her body shivers softly....

He makes His way... standing before her....

she does not lift her eyes.... His presense had been known to her for some time....

He whispers her name... Deep.... Low....

His power over her obvious...

"babygirl, Daddy's Home!

It's bedtime...

He lifts her gently to the cool sheets...

Undressing... He takes her....

His hard throbbing organ pressing into the warm moist folds of her womanhood..

her body lifts... her moans soft... her frangance fills the room...

A deep groan... as He Releases....

He pulls out... drawing her close to Him...

Sweet Dreams babygirl... Daddy loves You..

Together they drift into peaceful sleep...

Dreams of only each other...

The warm water surrounds her

Peace fills her as the water washes over her body, mind, and soul...

Slowly she starts to sink...

Into the water He reaches....

His strong hand brings her back to the surface...

His lips cover hers as He breathes life back into her body...

In her ear He whispers.... No babygirl.... the water is your peace.... not your end....

Wake up... you have so much to give... so much to offer...

This is Not The End... It is the beginning....

she opens her soft green eyes... looking into His warm loving blue ones..

she knows she is safe...

she knows where she belongs....

He lifts her into His arms, cradling her body close to His...

she can feel His heart beat against His cheek...

Take me home she whispers....

Yes, babygirl.... your new home where you belong...

she has the peace and the love she finally deserves...

What a beautiful day.....

The sun is shining....

and so is my soul

Just got home from Christmas Shopping...

Now if i just had my own lil subbie elves to wrap everything and put it under the Christmas tree...

my tree this year is beautiful....

Now if Santa will just bring me whats on my Christmas list.... i have only asked for one thing... and i have been a good girl all year....

His strong thumb wiped away the tear..

Looking down, He offers His hand

she looks at Him.... then takes it....

He guides her to her feet....

she follows closely behind Him...

Stopping... where are we going she asked...

Home babygirl... where You belong....

she follows... her heart soaring....

the tear drops long forgotten...

The words echoing in her mind...

Home babygirl... where You belong...

It's snowing harder now...

The ground is already thick with the white powder.

There deep in the forest she is kneeled...

her naked body quivering

Snowflakes catch in her golden hair...

she is silent... just as the forest.....

A tear drop freezes on her cheek

The crunch of footsteps in the snow alerts the forest animals that have stood watch over her...

she hears the steps as well... but does not move....

Before her He stops....she does not lift her eyes... she focuses on the black boots just inches before her...

He bends down... taking her chin in His hands...

Lift your eyes little one, He commands....

Tear filled green eyes lift to the deep blue of His.....

Another tear drop trickles down her cheek....

Why are You here little one? He ask....

i am lost.... she replied....

OMG!  WHAT AN AMAZING WEEKEND!

i am just sorry it had to end....

If You missed attending FFF Houston... You did miss an OutStanding Opportunity! There were presenters from all over the US... there were vendors with any and everything imaginable.... Not One...But Two... Yes Two... HOT Play Parties.... With everything from Whips, Floggers, Hand Spankings, Needles, Rope and Violet Wands....

i was so very honored to bottom all 3 days...fir a Wonderful Dom from North Carolina....

 Friday evening was Medical Play... ok i have played with needles before.... but i had a total of 4 14g needles in my breast.... i wore them for about 5 hours before we took them out... LOL... my Wicked Best Friend soaked them in alcohol before taking them out..then made sure it was a slow painful process....God i loved it....

Saturday was a very intent scene... one i had never done before.... saline infusion in the labia.... OMFG.... talking about an Unbelievable Rush and Sensation... this was it....i was asked how big a needle i wanted shoved in the lips of my sweet pussy.... LOL... i told the presenter... The Bigger The Better.... Sweet Jesus... the needle was an 18g.... mmmmmm.... my sweet pussy lips were so puffy.. every time i walked all i could feel was myself cumming from the sensation of the touch....

The Real Magic Is Believing In Yourself...

             Some Lesson's Learned

There's some things I regret

Some words I wish had gone unsaid,

Some starts,

That had better endings,

Some bad things I've been through

Damage I cannot undo,

Some things,

I wish I could do all all over again,

But it don't matter,

Life gets that much harder,

It makes You that much stronger,

Oh, some pages turned,

Some bridges burned,

But there were lessons learned.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,

Every day I wonder how I get through the night,
Every change life has thrown me,

I'm thankful for every break in my heart,

I'm grateful for every time,

Some pages turned,

Some bridges burned,

But there were some lessons learned.

There are some mistakes I have made,

Some chances I threw away,

Some roads,

I never should have taken,

Some signs I didn't see,

Hearts I hurt needlessly,

Some wounds,

That I had one more chance to mend,

But it don't make no difference,

The past can't be rewritten,

You get the life you're given,

Oh, some pages turned,

Some bridges burned,

But there were some lessons learned,

And all the things that break you,

All the things that make you strong,

You can't change the past,

'Cause it's Gone!

And nothing's gotta go

Because they're gone

Lessons learned.

Oh, some pages turned,

Some bridges burned,

But there were some lessons learned,

Lessons Learned!

i had the most spectacular weekend....

i went to a party... honestly thinking i would not get the opportunity to play with one Dom...

but as luck would have it i was played by Four Amazing Doms.... One of which was a Beautiful FemDom.... oh my God.. she did not hit like a girl in any sense of the imagination... i loved it...

i was called dirty names... which made me dripping wet...

my bottom, back and legs have the prettiest cuts, scrapes, bruises...

i am so proud of each and every one...

the flight right now is soooo high...

i know the drop will definately SUCK...

i hope i have the opportunity to play with these Amazingly Talented Doms again soon!

In the quietness.. i hear Your voice...

i feel Your touch....

i crave to surrender.... to kneel.....

To offer You my all....

A quiet peace over comes my body and soul

Tear drops fill my eyes as i look into Yours...

Your fingers wipe them away...

Your eyes search my soul...
Your body takes mine...

The SNAP

Quivering... Surrender.. Release...

Then i awaken...

It was only a dream...

It was not real...

i am still alone...

You have still moved on...

i cry... softly into my pillow

A full moon shines through the leaves of the lush forrest,

There she kneels in the soft fallen leaves...

In the quietness... her hushed crys can be heard..

Tears of sadness...

Tears of regret....

Waiting... alone....

her heart she holds in her hands

Wondering if there is anyone out there that will ever want her again....

she lifts it up to the brightness of the moon

Offering it up in Total Surrender...

she whispers her offering up....

Will You take this gift....

So pure and true...

The fullness of the moon shines down on this maiden

With so much to give.

They say if You capture a butterfly

Whisper it a Wish and Set It Free

It will take Your wish straight to the Spirits

And Your Wish will come true!

Capture me...

Take me...
Don't break me...

my spirit is free...

i am right where i yearn to be....

No longer vunerable..

Strong and alive...

More confident each day...

my head held high....

a butterfly as it flutters...

soaring high in the sky...

capture my heart...

capture my soul...

Forever my love You can hold...

You can make me Yours

Take me ....

Don't break me...

The crimson of her lips begs for the touch of Yours

her creamy flesh yearns for the kiss of Your whip

her knees tremble, waiting for Your command to kneel

her heart aches for the Love only You can give..

Search no more Master,

For it is my heart, my soul i give,

my words cry out sadness...

but be not confused....

i am whole... i am complete...

it was me who completed me

for You see... You abandoned me....

i stuggled with fear

i cried out the tears

You promised over and over You would not leave

But be not deceived...

Your babygirl now i will never be....

You moved on in life... Whether fake or real....

my heart again You will never kill...

i raise my head in pride

i am no longer the woman i use to be...

Your dagger i pulled from my heart...

Only the scare is left to see...

Never again will i kneel at Your feet..

No longer will i beg for the touch that once completed me...

Your babygirl now i will never be...

my heart is closed...

my heart is hard....

for its me who now completes me...

Just for a moment i believed...

In that moment my heart stood still...

i asked myself... what's wrong with me?

i looked in the mirror... i saw emptiness...

just a shadow of who i use to be...

my heart pulled against my chest

alone, filled with emptiness...

no longer the little girl i use to be...

walls up high

guarded heart...

Just for a moment i believe...

In that moment my heart stood still..

No longer do i believe

my heart never beats....

Just a shadow of who i use to be.

My babygirl radiated on her wedding day I was delighted to see the look of love in her eyes. Life is good.

Wedding Bells are ringing today....

my baby is getting married.....

this is a gloriously happy day....

i will watch my babygirl start a beautiful new life

my little girls will have a Loving Dad...

Today is Beautiful

i am blessed...

i was so close to You this evening...

it took everything i had not to call

to tell You i was just around the corner...

to tell You i was almost home...

i reached for the phone... it burned in my hand

tears spilled down my cheeks as i remembered

You no longer want me... You threw me away...

my breath caught in my throat...

i wiped the tear away... and said FUCK YOU...

You're the One Loosing Out...
Cause i was the best thing that ever happened to You!

To bad You can't touch me...

i kept driving!

i grow so tired of liars.... fakes....

i wonder if i should become a FemDom...

i wonder if having a submissive would be better than being a slave...

i have been patient....

i am flying so high... i dread the drop...

The marks are so beautiful...

Life is so good....

i went to a wonderful party in Houston last nyte....

As i sat with old friends.... over and over i was told how healthy, and happy i look now.... i was told that i had grown in the past 2 yrs... and how it was time for me to move on... how it's time to find that Special Sadistic Master/Daddy to complete me.... i totally agree.... i am ready to move on.... to kneel... to serve....

i played with an Amazing Master.... i have gorgeous marks, and cuts... Thank You Sir for taking me to Heaven!

A strong person knows how to keep their life in order. Even with tears in their eyes, they manage to say i'm ok with a smile.

So many times i question my strength... who i am... where i belong.... i have shed more than my share of the tears... today when a friend sent this to me, i thougth a moment, and realized what has cut so deep... hurt so bad.... has not made me weak or fragile... it has only molded me into a better person... for that special person.

kaycee

All i want to steal is Your heart...

In return i will give You my soul...

i hear so many say on collarme that the subs are fakes, fonies, con artist... but there are just as many so called dom/masters that are just as big of wannabe's.... i do not understand when it is says clearly on my profile that i am not willing to relocate that that's just what it means.... oh yeah... and it does not mean that i will relocated you here to me either.....

i am very real... i want nothing from You other than to find the One True Master... that wants me... that i can kneel for...  All i ask for is someone to be Honest... and Sincere...i have references that can confirm i am who i say and what i say i am!

There seems to be those also that are rumor spreaders... trouble makers... those that thrive on someones hurt... their pain.... i do not understand what you stand to gain.... i am a person... i do have feelings.... and yes they hurt....my kindness is often taken for weakness... make no mistake....my pain... my hurt... my emptiness has made me stronger... maybe it will take a little longer for someone to enter my heart... but rest assured... when that right person does come alone... i have so much to offer.... so much to give..... i keep telling myself take your time kaycee.... its not always easy....

Please... if you have anything negative to say to me... just don't bother.... why waste both of our time.

Look down kaycee... don't make eye contact

Look away kaycee...do not stare....

Walk away kaycee... don't get to close...

Turn off your emotions kaycee.... they don't matter anyway....

Harden your heart kaycee.... its the only way to move on...

Hold your tongue kaycee... do not lash out in pain or frustration... it is not becoming a slave....

Do not love kaycee... for there is no love in return....

STOP...

is this how i must live my life?

is there nothing for me .....

is there no one for me.....

am i stuck in a time warp of hopelessness...

Look up kaycee... make eye contact...

Smile your smile kaycee... let your eyes light up and shine..

Open your heart kaycee... you have so much to give....

Speak your mind and feelings kaycee.... they are the truth... even though sometimes hard and calloused....

Take a breath kaycee... walk the walk kaycee

Never look back kaycee... only forward ...

You are Free kaycee... to be who You want to be...

So.. most importantly be kaycee....

For she is a treasure to be had...

If i cannot inspire others... i will encourage myself...

i am truly worth it...

Today i reached for the phone to call...

i reached again ...

The reality is there was No One There To Call...

i stand in a world surrounded by people...

Yet i am all alone...

i hate the darkness...

i grasp for the light, but it always just out of reach...

i am slowly growing acustom to being alone....

Slowly slipping into the darkness...

she teeters on the edge...

Slipping quietly away... unnoticed... forgotten... never missed...

Oh but You are there... even as she drifts away....

she holds You in her heart forever

Your image burned into her memory....

she will not forget....

her tiny hand reaches up for You...

there is nothing there... just empty air...

she closes her eyes....

whispers Your name....

From light there is darkness

From darkness there is light

A Total Eclipse between the Sun and the Moon

Star Struck Love Everlasting...

The Knight is a wolf... a man

He is her Master... her Protector... her Forever

The maiden a hawk... a woman... His slave....

she is forever tethered to Him...

her love never faulters or fails...

Divided between the Sun and the Moon...

Someday the two will meet....

Joining Them Together

In the love that is meant to be....

Are You my Knight... my Master... my Protector...

Is there an eclipse in my future...

Turn me from a hawk to a Your maiden...

Your slave... Kneeled at Your Feet Forever...

i surrender my All...

To WebMaster60/Master Michael... You have inspired me... Thank You for Your help this morning as i prepared for my Memorial Day celebration.... Thank You For Serving Our Country so that i can be Free!

For hundreds of years the Men and Women of America have fought, served, and laid down their lives for Our Country in the name of Freedom.

i called a friend (You Sir) who served His Country in the United States Army seeking insite of a Soldier. He told me that a Soldier is selfless... He puts the needs of His Country before His Own... He is willing to lay down His life, for what He believes... His Country... His Freedom... The Freedom of Americans like You and i. A Soldier serves a Duty... Bigger than Himself. A Soldier is committed... It's all about Duty, Honor, God, and Country... As i listened a chill came over me, realizing how blessed i am to live in the United States of America.

A few weeks ago we laid to rest a 33 year old Franklin Texas Soldier, who attended school with my children. He knew the meaning of Selflessness, A Duty Bigger than Itself.. He was committed to Our Country.. He died in the name of Duty, Honor, God and Country... He died for Freedom.

Today, on foreign grounds Our Soldiers stand watch, bearing arms to fight when the need is called, willing to scarfice Life and Limb for what They Believe... Here in the United States Soldiers are prepared to keep us Safe.. To answer the Call Of Duty... At any moment of the day or night..

To The Army, The Navy,The Marines, The Airforce, The National Guard, The Coast Guard, To the Women Of World War II who stepped up to serve Our Country... You are NOT FORGOTTEN....This Memorial Is For You!!!!!

So, i leave You with this, God Bless America... and God Bless You!

Master Michael and All Of You Here Who Have Served... Thank You... i am so Honored that You have provided my Freedom in the Country i Love and Call Home...

Master Michael, You hold my Heart in so many ways!

This is One of them!

kaycee

           A Little Bit Stronger

              Sara Evans

Woke up late today, and I still feel the sting of the pain...

But I brushed my teeth anyway....

I got dressed through the mess, and put a smile on my face...

I got a little bit stronger....

Riding in the car to work and Im trying to ignore the hurt...

So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you...

I listened to it for a minute, but I changed it....

Im getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger....

And Im done hoping we could work it out....

Im done with how it feels, spinning my wheels....

Letting You drag my heart around....

And oh I'm done thinking You could ever change...