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Me- A part of me wants to say that I've been "lifestyle" my whole life, but that's just not reality, at one point I was a kid that thought things were "pretty", but I had no idea really what those things meant. It was not really till high school that I started playing around with sadomasochism, and the adult me can look back and say that the reality of that was more teen hormones raging. Still, I did not really understand what I had already started trying to look for. The subconscious is a mystery after all. It was not till around 17 that I had a more solid grasp on what I wanted, but the ability to properly explain that, the courage to face my own demons, and of course the lack of appropriate partners kinda left things in a pseudo kinkless equilibrium until I was about 20. Even then, it took another two years before I had the will and desire to do a complete life overhaul in an attempt to have a life which I saw in my mind was possible and fulfilling. That's when I met my current Master. Yes. I am in a relationship, but I am also poly, so that works. :) Master and I have been together now for about 4.5 years. We have crazy busy lives, but lots of fun too. I'm currently in college pursuing a Bachelors degree in Nursing. Life for the most part is pretty normal. We host a fantastic party once a month for the local community, anyone local should message me about that.?


Why I'm here- ?I've been taking a break from being active for a long time, but I'm finally feeling I'm in a good place to work on opening up again to make new friends, maybe more. That said... I HAVE NO INTEREST IN YOUR COCK.... I have an interest in people, I abhor men who have such low self esteem that they feel the need to plaster their cock on the front page of their profiles. I get why one might have a cock shot in other photos, but main page? Really? Anyway, I am upfront about being horrid when it comes to responding to messages. Don't take it personally. Its not. I'm a full time student, a full time slave, and have a life of my very own... lol


Yeah... and the interests... :)

I've lived most of my life with the notion that solid female relationships just don't happen for me, so most of my experience is with men. I'd like someday to meet a woman who could bring out those kinds of butterflies, I just have not yet. I am definitely a sub, but really its about the person I'm around. Some people just don't bring that part out of me, instead they get my in control, handle the situation self. I suppose I'd have to say that insofar as more detailed interests... read the "list" over there on the other part of my profile... I've gone through it in a pretty detailed way. I'm not new. I've done somethings that would probably strike terror in people, but I've still not done it all. I love experiencing life in all of its facets, though pain is still a soft spot of mine... GOOD PAIN... lol.


I think for now this just about wraps it up, I'm sure I'll think of something else later, but if you have questions please feel free to ask. I may not respond right away but so long as you are not a total DOUCHE BAG you will get some kind of response. The only exceptions to that are if you send one word/ sentence messages or some kind of B.S. like that. ?

p.s. to those who are regulars here, yes, I know this site has a lot of bullshitters... lol.. I know there are quality people here, as I've already found quite a few.

5/4/2009 8:48:22 PM
Well, changes come, and they come fast. I've never done a journal on here, never really saw the point, but the compulsion has finally come.

It shocks me sometimes how things can always go the way you need them to, but never in the way you expect them to get there. I sit back and go over the past few months of exploring in earnest this lifestyle I've always been drawn to and realize how I've learned all sorts of new things about myself I never thought of before.. Until I made this journey, I never thought I'd want to be committed to the point of being a slave, I certainly would never have thought I'd relocate just so I could live as such. I really had no idea of how far into my core  my submissive nature ran.
The only distinction you'll ever see me make between man and beast is the glorious path of self discovery. I pray, and hope, and will build my life on this one thing as a human you can always count on, growth. I, as well as all those I know, are on their own journeys. Sometimes journeys cross paths impacting both parties, sometimes they just run parallel.  I feel I was blessed to find the people in my life now. How they've helped mold me I can never properly describe, and I don't think I'd really want to if given proper vocabulary.
People... live your lives, enjoy existence.. you only get once chance you know of for certian. Don't run around trying to live up to some false image of who others think you are. Live up to the image of who you really are, and strive to be the image you want to be. Have the courage to face your own demons... Whether we are Dominant, submissive, or even vanilla... across the board we are human.
SweetVaBabyGirl
 
 Age: 28
 Anthon, Iowa