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	The desire to submit has been deep within me for years and as times passes the more I've been pushed to fulfill it... My somewhat scattered and un-edited idea of submission as a novice: So far I think submission is needed on 3 basic levels of self-mental, emotional and physical. With relationships in general I think it's healthy for each person to have pretty clear roles as far as who is dominant and who's submissive; I've been in relationships where that hasn't been clear and it caused issues and ultimately separation. I know I'm not always going to agree with my dom, but I know I'd have to trust him in the decisions he makes or actions he takes. Letting myself be vulnerable to him would be a part of being submissive emotionally-I think some level of vulnerability is needed even in friendship since it makes it stronger besides just having shared interests. Physically, being there when he needs me and being open to him sexually (his personal freak) among other things... Basics: -I'm single and with no children -Seeking a caring dom/master -I'm open to making friends -Seeking to be the sole/only sub -Really, I'm not bi at all...

10/30/2011 8:15:52 AM

Reading Castle Realm archives...hoping to get some insight...

10/29/2011 5:58:23 PM

So I've noticed that I'm rather formal in expression (written) in relation to any aspect of BDSM or this lifestyle both in my profile and even message exchanges. In trying to assess why so far I think I do that to detach/separate myself from the all of this as I still have not fully come to terms or accepted that this is what I want. I do want a Dom or Master that I can give myself to and serve, but I can't let go of the internal stigma that seems to go in hand with what I want...It's definitely going to take the efforts of a great man to help me let go of that...we'll see...

1/8/2011 3:52:06 AM

Upon further self-reflection, I've come to the realization that what I really desire and need within this realm is a relationship with an emphasis on discipline (mental) and sadism as far as broad categories go. I've come to terms with the fact I have very little interest in the masochistic aspects of this lifestyle as one could probably glean from my previous journal entry.

This definitely makes my search for my Dom more challenging since a focus on physical pain appears to be the norm of desire here...I'm grateful to many I've spoken with in at all being a part of this self-discovery process...let's see what happens...

9/11/2010 6:30:28 PM

This might be presumptuous, but it seems most everyone on here seeks extremes or things/relationships that seem extreme to me. I find many are focused more on the physical (control almost solely through pain and other acts) than mental. I could go into much more detail of what I seek, but there is some concern that some will attempt to unnaturally "fit" what I'm looking for as an entrance/introduction. I'm considering if I would be better off returning completely to vanilla dating and just hope to luck out in finding someone with "light" bdsm interests and or is naturally dominant in a traditional setting...I'm likely being impatient as it still very early in my time on here, but I've had a fair number of exchanges and I grow weary already in my search. On a positive note, I've spoken with some great people on here, who've been both positive and supportive. I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend :)

9/6/2010 10:29:44 AM

Goodness, what an interesting site this is to say the least...I wouldn't know where to start in describing my impression of the site and this is only day 1. I really appreciate the welcome I've received from a number of members; it's encouraging :)