I will not even respond to anybody who does not respect my wishes, read all of my profile and journal and then send an appropriate message.

When I first visited this site, it didn't take very long to realize the great many frauds and pretenders, lurking in the shadows! I know better!!!! And, we all know that people don't change. We either have the courage to become our true selves or, in defeat, we suffer an existence of tremendous frustration. I am sure there are many who understand how hard it is to suffer through such frustration. Please, don't bother putting on an act, trying to fool me. Be yourself, at all costs.

Now, tell me, how can there be anything sadder than figuring out ways to lie to ourselves?

I am not here to provide counsel or comfort to those who lack the courage to face themselves and be honest. I might understand how difficult it can be, but If I can do it, so can you! I no longer accept this type of behavior. To be blunt, don't try to tell me what you think I need to be told, because you want a quickie.

I am a warm and compassionate woman. I have also entered into a stage in my life where I have no problem telling you that I am, in many ways, quite nasty. I've become, as I have evolved, a VERY dominant woman. Yes, I have had help and I will be forever grateful for that help. Thank you, Master David/DarkerEquinox!

With family, jobs and life, in general, my husband and I were kind of "stuck". Not as in a rut, but we had stopped growing. It took an exceptional, highly experienced and understanding Master to help me figure myself out, find some real direction.

My "husband" has become my slave. Willingly and because he has the courage to do so. I admire such a level of courage. I do not think people in this lifestyle realize the tremendous courage that is required of a submissive, especially a husband, or loved one, who has had to work through a great many personal issues. But, it has to do with two people, who are right for this kind of situation, coming together. It is NOT about forcing anybody into a role that is not right for them. Though I will admit that there are times when I like to amuse myself, at the expense of others! Can you blame me?

My/our lifestyle is going to revolve around my becoming/being a more complete and DOMinant woman. me. It also feels so very right for both of us.

I know that all of this is very liberating. It has allowed me to experience, feel, and enjoy, far greater intensities and higher levels of pleasure than I might have ever known!

I have found that, as part of the intensity that I enjoy, I love sensations and feelings that have amazing results and rewards: pain, erotic excesses and more. I am not submissive in any sense, but I do enjoy pain! It arouses me! It does not give me any sense of needing to submit, it simply enhances my eroticism and the level of my needs. It does mean, also, that I understand how the erotic and the painful can feed off of one another.

Because of a fine Mentor -I think that is the right term - I have found myself in an excellent relationship with my submissive husband. We have always had a good life together, have always done things together and spent a lot of time being vanilla His submission deepens. I can do with him as I please. It has never just been about my being in charge, or about him being obedient. We've always worked on helping the other to just be ourselves. Now, I control his sexuality and his appearance. His gender, though male, might be suspect to a casual observer. But, I love this.

I am very bisexual. Actually, I do not want to choose between who provides me with the pleasure that I desire. And, I find that I enjoy both, if you can also be good comapny.

I love both men and women, as long as they are submissive and want nothing more than to please me. That is pretty simple, isn't it?

Over almost three years I have, with the help of my Mentor, turned my husband into a very feminized being. I found direction and a deeper purpose and stopped fumbling around. While he is still male, while I still love his cock and how it feels, I also love keeping him caged and unable to enjoy release or pleasure beyond serving me and my own needs. I now allow him to be free and sexual with me just two days each year. And, yes, I do look forward to those two days! And, we both talk so much about how the process continues and how we keep evolving. Out of one phase and into the next. I can even see the time when, perhaps not always caged, my husband is also my "female" assistant in the training of another.

My goal, for my husband, was to create a "woman" who lives to please, thinking and reacting as a female. Actually, this is not just my goal - it is ours! That makes all of the difference. "He" now can often become highly immersed in being female, knowing and caring only to serve me, obey me and do this as a female. A cuck does not even begin to describe him, that would belittle what he has become. It seems to me that most cucks are nothing more than scared voyeurs. And, let me make it clear to all that my motivation, and his, does not center around any love of humiliation, degradation or anything close to that. We have been blessed to find each other and further blessed to have been able to take our relationship and the pleasures and fulfillment we share far more deeply than other men and women. We have each become what is right for the other. Nobody is superior or inferior, better or worse. Nobody is taken advantage of. I know that there are few couples with the very high level of honesty and sharing that we enjoy, that many D/s couples, no matter their preference, also enjoy.

For the conventional and vanilla couple, even if a relationship lasts, intimacy is, for them, the end of things. For us, it was only the beginning and we see no end in sight.

I am here to find a totally submissive female, couple or male. A female is going to be trained to please me, to add to my husband's arousal and to serve me in any way I wish. This might include general service or more. The female will do all that I ask, the male will add to the subjugation and degradation of my husband and will, if he measures up, be expected to pleasure me when the mood strikes. And, be warned that I can also find immense pleasure in stringing a slave up and putting a cane, flogger, switch or whip to good use. I would enjoy having a second feminized male to serve me, without question or reservation, available on very short notice, perhaps even being a sometime in-house "guest", now and then, for a few days. For the immediate future, I want to clearly state that I am not offering any level of 24x7, unless you are a submissive female who can captivate me and capture my interest and desire. Otherwise, regarding full time or live-in, do not ask about it. But, you will not get beyond the first step if I don't feel as if you want to be completely known. Seriously, you can not have any secrets from me. No matter what they might be! I will have none from you. The entire thing is built on a foundation of trust. My children are around the age of 30 and I have no interest in anybody near that age. I think 40 would be a good minimum for anything long term and with purpose. I will consider, for occasional play only, somebody under 40 who will still be able to accept my total control at all times and be chaste always.

I have a great many fetishes. From intense and painful bondage to restrictive latex, leather and corsets. Embarassignly high heels - well, you get the idea! Enemas. Piercings. So much more!

I would, very much, like to hear from an exceptionally brave "male" who could be turned into my loving, unquestioning and totally subservient "girl"friend. I don't want to have your cock chopped off, I just want this role to arouse you so that, dressed in something very kinky, you can also fuck my brains out, as my husband looks on and wishes I would remove his cage. That does not mean that you will not be caged, also, however, as you are transformed, humiliated, disciplined and more! And, we will do all that we can to give you a true female shape.

Please, only contact me if you have a photo - even if only one that you can send by email. For many years, I was so careful - and, I understand! I will not violate your trust.

We are located, most of the time, in New York. North of The City! We can travel. We also spend a great deal of time in Vermont. Can host if you come across as sincere. I can also send my slave/husband to drive you. No matter where you are located, if you can host, you should contact me!

I am looking for those who want to be taken deeply into this lifestyle. That means discomfort, pain, leather, latex, exhibitionsism(though carefully), general service and total obedience.

The photo I have posted is of myself, but it is a few years old. 22 years ago, to be exact! DEAL WITH IT! I am not a fool! I am not a beautiful woman, but I can honestly say that I am cute, even attractive, at least I was. Now, I exhibit character and charm, control and compassion, more than anything else!. The subsequent picture is from about 18 months ago. Again, deal with it. Also, though I love the compliments, the tattoo was a temporary one - expensive, but quite temporary!

I should mention that my husband is available to ask questions that male subjects, or their significant other, might have about this type of life. Write to me and you can have his email address.

I do not know what more to say, but I am sure I have left something out. Just ask!

I will NOT chat with anybody that I do not know. And, I will not chat, on this site. Chat will be either at outlook or yahoo. My choice. So, just do not ask. And, if you aren't going to write to me, then why would you want to "admire" me or anything else like that?

For God's sake! Take a little bit of time to formulate a message that tells me a good amount about you! You never know, I just might be interested! I will know if you have not read my guidlines for contact, but I bet you will wonder why I have ignored you.