Profile super short form-

If you want perfect body, no brain and totally pliable, keep moving, if you want natural beauty and effort to please, a wicked mind that will challenge you, and something worth conquering, but not so easy to catch keep reading. (no that doesn't mean I'm fat)

No:

One word or one sentence emails- seriously I'd send you more even as a rejection!

Submissives

Females

Couples

Polygamy

Blood

Scat

Animals

Kids

Ts/Tv/Tg

Woman haters

Religious, lifestyle or political extremists or activists

Drunks, gambling addictions

Disrespect

Cussing at me if you don't know me. I might be a cumslut, but I'm not yours.

Manupulation

Put Downs

Cyber

Chat

Over 48 or under 27

Buddies, online or otherwise

No pics from me unless I'm interested

I don't usually like the facial features of black and Indian (from india) or Vietnam, I do make exceptions and it's nothing to do with skin, I won't have a partner I'm not attracted to, nor do I want one who isn't attracted to me, all or nothing. Less will be rejected completely

Obesity

Extreme deformities or micro penises (Size doesn't matter much, but enough to finish the job you started is a must, sorry, it's true)

Don't write if you didn't read the rest of my profile

Hookups

Short term

I almost never date a man shorter than 5'10, again exceptions have been made, it's rare but possible.

Absolutely no compromises on my health, safety or NEEDS, not the wants but actual needs.

Please do not contact me if you don't have a picture of your face- not from twenty feet away with sunglasses and a hat on, not one of those photoshopped things that make good wall art but that doesn't look like you actually look, not your penis, not your arm muscles, not your belly button even if you love your abs, not you and your dog playing in the yard where you're turned almost completely away from the camera, not a letter assuring me that you find yourself attractive, just your face. Seriously guys, I'm not here for games or to flirt with married men. I send mine openly when I'm interested, have the same courtesy or move on.

Only If-

You like

smokers

cats

women who know their mind and body well

women who know their limits and how to use a safeword when you reach one

You must be READY to do this, obviously we will talk and get to know eachother, but not here to be cyberfriends, it's a dating site, fl is more fun for social networking-you should try it, chances should be taken within reason and good common sense

tattoos and piercings on me (they aren't going to disappear)

Someone who will actually make you the center of their world, not just a bonus

A WIDE range of kink including all three of my holes

Still interested, OK, now read the rest and let me know. I will surprise you more than you'd ever guess based on my blunt and somewhat frustrated words

Be openminded, not just willing to call it that to get what you want. If you are the right one I will give you everything you want and more. If not we're wasting eachother's time.

I do not give a fig what you do for a living or how much you make, don't try to entice me with money, it won't work, I either like YOU or I don't. I will not give you my address to send it to. I do not have a website, a pay pal account, a messenger account, a bank account to give you routing numbers to, I am fifty miles from a money gram/western union and I like it that way just fine.

Allow me to clarify something about how I feel about this whole courtship process.

IRL, you go out to a bar (or wherever) you meet a girl who happens to be interesting and pretty (easier online because you can simplify the process in a number of ways) you talk all night and it's wonderful and you go back to your place and the next thing you know, poof vanilla relationship, or at least a bunch of nudity after a couple of hours of chat. A couple hours, think about it and tell me you see where I'm coming from when I say, this is better. 

In Fantasy, it's more like, see pretty girl, take pretty girl and keep her, but magically get lucky enough that you have all those things in common that you would have spent all night establishing in a bar to make sure the minimums and what you Need were all there in the personality. But poof it's kinky D/s, at least that's the idea and frankly it's also the system we used to use.

Am I seriously the only one who sees that this is the simple solution to all that.

Here you can read enough to know whether it matters that I'm pretty, and talk to me and see if the big issues are compatible, like political ideas and thoughts on children. You can see a dozen or more pics that I will send if I like you. You can see if our kinks match and if the sex would be... well as close to a guarantee of being worth it as anyone has ever had the luxury of knowing beforehand in all of human history. We can talk all night or all week before nudity happens, and negotiate... if you don't know what part of a D/s relationship that is, then please talk to one of the many wonderful, friendly and experienced folks here or anywhere really, we're probably not compatible, but they can help your education and point you at people who might be better suited and more on a level with you. I wish you luck and much enjoyment.

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But, really...

Where are you?

I know you're out there because I was designed and built for nothing but your personal satisfaction and pleasure. I know you're there because it's why I exist at all, and I know you're looking for me because without me your life lacks it's greatest treasure and all you know you should recieve.

Also...

If you feel I am too dominant and topping you from the bottom, a couple of things here, first we're not together, second this is not me the sub and you the Dom in private as people it's a summary designed to weed out people who are simply seeking something so different from what I want or would submit to that it wouldn't be consent to even go there. Third and last, I can say with absolute assurance that the established, respected, experienced and reasonable Doms I've known don't have any trouble with me at all. Want to know why? Try earning someone's respect sometime.

Being sexually submissive, being naturally inclined toward submission and having a subordinate beta personality are NOT the same thing. I don't have to submit, and am quite used to being 'in charge' in life. I need to submit to a man. A king's queen is his property as much as any peasnat girl in his country, but she should be worth far more or he's just a bad king. No bad kings need apply. Get the metaphor or get moving.

Another one bites the dust.

If you're not actually looking for the girl described in this profile, or not ready, or not able to have what you want, please stop wasting my time.

I can't change the circumstance I'm in without becoming completely unavailable, so yes, it's one or the other, you want me or not, I will not be able to date you and do random meetings, as long as I am here I am available to consider this type of relationship, but I also don't have a car or a phone or a cam and I'm not even close to being in a town or city. Yes I can change that anytime, take a job etc, at which point I am no longer going to have a profile here or an interest because I will be too busy to have the only kind of relationship I'm interested in at all. I do not want less, or maybe or sometimes. Why would I order pizza and call it 'close enough' if I wanted key lime pie?

What part of 24/7 live in TPE and available, willing and ready are so hard to understand?

No I'm not stupid, yes we have to figure out whether there is physical and personality attraction, if our limits and wants match up well and see if there's a spark to light it all up when it comes together. But that's not going to take six months. I'm not here to cyber with you.

There is yes and there is no, and there is being a reasonable human being and discussing what would happen if one tuns into the other rapidly. But seriously people, grow up and learn to read. If this does not sound like the right profile or girl for you, cool, I hope you get everything you want and more than you dreamed, just don't waste my time. Time's all I've got as long as I hold out for this search instead of going back to vanilla life, so it's precious to me.

On a happier note, heres a thought to ponder from a girl who likes being spanked:

I am in a mood tonight. If I were sitting with Him (You?) this evening I would probably wander off. Very likely I'd go to the kitchen and be gone longer than expected. I'd return wearing a very short skirt, with an apple in one hand and one of the foot long wooden rulers in my other. I'm not always in a mood to play this sort of game, but tonight something particular inspired an old fantasy I had once about a substitute teacher I had in highschool. Of course when one is underage, wanting to tempt older men is wrong, and I feel that no one has ever really made me atone for the error of thinking that I had. I could have hurt someone. Schoolgirl confessions aren't my daily norm, but this one is a particular favorite. Honestly, the details are flexible and fun to imagine... but the punchline is... Stripes. ((GRIN))

The Importance of Metaphor-

I don't discount what I need, but it sure doesn't hurt that approval is high on the list. I believe the best subs are alot like sharks, created to very effectively fill one necessary niche better than anyone else around. Sharks are made to be hunters; the longer they live the better they are at it and the easier it is for them. They do not stop growing and never stop moving forward. Their body, instincts and senses are all top of the line and fine tuned to perform and succeed. In captivity they are a pleasure to look at, they move well and are not without spirit, curiosity and personality. And there is only one creature on earth with enough balls to seek them, hunt them or ever have a chance at capturing them. Man.

Yeah I know, not your momma's metaphor. But hey, take it one step further... no matter how you feel about them, taking one on (sub or shark) is a risk vs reward issue.

Also, neither sharks nor subs do well in environments not designed for them.

(I wrote this to someone, but liked it so much I felt it needed to be here. I believe we should all strive to be more honest and more accurate, and it never hurts to put in the extra effort to have sense, appeal and individuality.)

Other thoughts on things-

Dear Doms, yes I need to know what you look like before we go anywhere with this idea, I have no interest in even talking with Doms who do not appeal to me enough to have a shot. I am ready for this, you need to be as well. Being a shithead and attempting to turn things around on me will get you reported and blocked and I won't waste more time caring what you think.

I am not a masochist per se, I think that's the wrong way of putting it, I don't like all pain or all types of pain, and not all the time. I am an extreme sensation slut. I love feathers and backrubs as much as having my pussy whipped with a belt, and both make me wet. I'm a Thuddy if you know the term, it means I prefer a paddle or flogger to a whip or crop. More spread and usually harder hits, rather than a light flick that stings in the extreme.

Yes I would consider eventually becoming a slave for the right person. But first at least one of you would have to be serious and have read and understood my profile. I am disheartended and sad over the responses I've gotten. Manipulation will not work on me. Insults, bullying, telling me what I want to hear until I'm interested and thenn informing me that rather than treating me as a fellow human being and as we discussed I am to conform to an ultimatum the second I walk through your door does not work on me. What I have to offer is more than most of you believe is possible and I can see why you have become jaded. I am human and have my flaws, yes you have to BUILD trust with me, no I won't be letting you lock a collar on me our first week, or even cuff me in a way I cannot escape, I am not the only one who has to earn the right to be a part of this.

Maybe I should tell you why I'm not just another girl in the faceless crowd. You can have the things that anyone or most would reasonably expect from a submissive female. I do cook, and clean and sew. I sing. I am easy on the eyes, alternative but lovely, and will seek to adorn myself in ways that appeal to you in particular just as I will seek to do small things just to make you happy and go the extra mile rather than merely doing as told. I give great head and it is one of my favorite things to do. Yes I do anal, in fact I live for the opportunity to finally be able to submit to someone completley and have my ass trained and used just for their pleasure. Most subs can give you that, I kneel as well as any. I have a mind of my own and use it fearlessly. And yes, I am the sort of sub who will indeed tell you to get your head out of your ass if you actually deserve or need to hear it. I know you are human too and fallible. Strength and courage are not made of force and violence (though sex can be great fun that way) they are made of will, honor, integrity, intention.

I am not a perfect 10, who is? But I'm 8s and 9s on every single level, willing to work to improve and correct myself, seeking someone who desires to be the force behind such positive change and in so doing to build and gain a treasure worth more than anything any sub or slave here or anywhere has to offer. I am truly unique and amazing. I have done and can do things many people will never even dream of. If you are not strong enough I will only slip from your grasp and it will hurt us both in non consensual ways.

PLEASE BE REAL, BE SERIOUS, BE READY & ABLE when you approach me. I am offering the right man the world of his dreams on a silver platter, I expect the offer to be treated as it deserves.

If you truly seek a beautiful, brilliant, funny, sweet, willing, well traveled, well read, entertaining girl to kneel for you, bend for you and maybe even be broken by you without losing herself and all that she has to offer as a person in her own right, if you wish a sub who you can push to tears and begging for mercy only to later find her smiling, whispering of her love and thanking you for knowing not to stop... then maybe we should talk.

If you think that sex and D/s are supposed to be seperate, we will not be compatible. If you think that any female in her 30s isn't focused on her body you are mistaken, and I'd rather give my years of sexual peak to their best use than waste them on those who are too spiritual to know the flesh has needs. I do expect li fe to be complex, rounded, multifaceted and rich, I have hobbies, interests, skills, I know how to conduct myself in almost any environment and I fit in surprisingly well vanilla or otherwise, in the mud, on the street, or at a gala even where even you do not know which fork to use, I am an expert at people in ways that will shock and surprise you for years to come and in many odd circumstances. Still, be practical with me, I have needs that are of the mind, the flesh, the spirit and more, and there is a time and place in life for each. Obviously the sexual side of my submission will never be more important to me than it is now and I wish for this to be well taken in hand and thouroughly used as well, but I do not lack other content. Think of it as though you were again a teenage boy and try to remember how easily you got hard and how distracting thoughts of sex were for you, they made you blush and feel awkward, they made you distractable and yearning. Now multiply that exponentially and please have some sense about how I would be best used. There will never be a better time to use this drive to train me and to help me expunge the unpleasant behaviors that are in need of correction. It will never be easier than now to teach me to squirt, or cum on command, or have completely anal orgasms, or to enjoy something for your sake that didn't previously turn me on.

About me-

This is less easy. I think I'll tell you the bad stuff up front.

The usual dealbreakers:

I own a large, indoor only black cat who thinks everyone is his best friend and I would sooner kick a baby across a field than I would give him up. He is my loyal companion, my source of comfort, he is a rescue who I bottle fed as a kitten and carried in my pockets when he was small. I smoke cigarettes and this is not negotiable in any way. I do not do hard drugs, animals, scat, blood, scarring or anything that requires first aid or hospitilization afterward. I am not a slave or an animal. I might consider a family with the right person, but would prefer to adopt and foster for moral reasons and mildly for vanity, but I'm not at all opposed to induced lactation (yes you can do this without pregnancy... did I mention I'm smart and I do great research?) I only drink socially or when mourning. No vodka ever, it makes me mean and then sick. I really HATE MMORPGS, I hate football too but at least if you're only watching TV I don't need to worry about getting told off for bumping your elbow twice in sixteen hours, and if you're a football fan that works well with the fact that I'm a blowjob fan and a cuddling fan. I'm a total wimp about cold or wet weather and being sick. I am a complete bitch first thing in the morning unless one of the three following things has happened before you try and talk to me; orgasm, coffee&cigarette, or something cute made me smile and go all warm and fuzzy inside like I need to drink Nair (yes a picture of a puppy would probably work... ONCE). Also, I will never watch a war movie with you. I don't like dramas much and I don't find it entertaining to watch people be awful to eachother on a large scale or a personal one. Give me action, comedy, scifi, discovery channel, anything but war. Oddly this rarely applies to cartoons or complete fantasy where the fighters aren't human, not sure why but LOTR, sure, good series, Apocalypse Now, I walked out in minutes. I also walk out if animals are being hurt, it gives me nightmares.

Yes, I realize that I've been nebulous about saying exactly what kind of kink and D/s I want in the relationship, that's because it's mostly negotiable as long as it's what we both want and no one gets bored, damaged or arrested. My kink interests are myriad. I'm heavily into giving oral, heavily into recieving anal, thuddy pain (spanking, flogging, belts, clamps), and my nature is such that I usually spend most of my time focused on my partner anyway, naturally submissive I guess. I want the person I'm with to be happy. I'm not always into being someone's little girl, I'm not really a small, but I love Daddy types because of the understanding they have of the attention seeking and approval seeking behaviors. I do not know how to drive, I don't have a license because I have never needed one, I've never even pumped a gallon of gas. Weird but true.

Hard limits are needles, broken bones, until we are well aquainted broken skin is a no (accidents happen, I'm not talking about a scratch from your fingernail, I mean if you want me to consent to something like knife play that could involve actual cutting I'd be very wary though if it made you very happy and we'd gotten to that level of trust I would agree to try it with you anyway) I don't do scat play, though enemas are different. However, I do have a hard limit about letting people watch me use the bathroom. I will explore that limit if necessary, it's not something I seek at all. Also chastity, vanilla life, humilliation (requires a LOT of trust with me), face slapping is a particular trigger of mine, I loathe it and have zero desire to fix this, it is not a form of affection, it is a form of hate and abuse. Any other part of my body is fine to hit, not my face. (I prefer to avoid hands and feet as well, but I won't hit you back if you tap those) This limit is absolute, hit my face and you have lost every bit of trust we ever built and you need to get your hands off me and step back several feet immediately.

Yes, I have baggage, I do what I can to heal from it, it's an active process, leave it behind when it's no longer important. I'm not perfect. I like to think I'm worth it though. For the right man I would be priceless beyond measure, even for the wrong one I have much to give, but I don't want the wrong one. I NEED the right one, or someone very like Him.

Why tell you all the bad stuff?

Well the good stuff is easy and plentiful. You'll get that anyway.

My Experience Level-

I am naturally submissive, this means I prefer not to lead but rather to find someone I admire and follow. It doesn't mean I can't take charge. It means I know who I am and chose to live in my own skin rather than trying to be what I am not in my heart.

My Knowledge of BDSM, Sex, Alternative Lifestyles, Human Sociology and Psychology and many other things that relate is VAST. My studies have been a part of my life for fifteen almost sixteen years, literally half my life and when it comes to safety, history, theory and philosophy and the mental comprehension end I am not perfect but I am far better educated than most people I meet often even including those who are old guard or who have been in the lifestile for my entire life or longer. I do not know it all, but the depth of my knowledge will not be an issue.

My physical experience is much more limited. I have had non-sex doms that I worked with to help me de-stress and learn about some (many) types of pain among other things. I have had many kinky lovers and bfs (some few gfs before I decided I'm simply not bi enough to count it as important) ranging across the spectrum. I have tried the other side of the whip and training, and while my technical execution, attention to detail and ability to perform are without question, there is nothing there I desire or seek, it does nothing to fulfill me or even turn me on to make others bend to my will. I have pointedly not had every experience I want as a sub and have saved many of my firsts because I knew that my intent was to someday seek true ownership and my submission is more special and valuable for having those things to give as well. I do know what I want and there is no question I know enough about it to be completely unwavering in my self knowledge of what I will and won't give. My hard limits are only even vaguely bendable upon negotiation after trust is complete and then only if it is necessary for you, I do not need to explore those limits because I know where they are and have no desire to break them or be with someone who wanted those things primarily enough for this to be an issue.

About Him (You)

Regardless of which you are, you must know the difference between a Dom and a Master. If you are uncertain look the word Master up in a dictionary. A year of experience or a whole lot of curiosity does not give you mastery over anything my dear.

I need your strength.

I love men's hands, they built our world. The power of your own hands is real, what you can hold yourself is real power. The rest is in the mind. Don't get me wrong Brains count. Smart is sexy, and I need someone way above average.

I need you to clearly know the differences between manipulation, persuasion, coercion and force, and the proper applications of each. *

I appreciate men who have a strong sense of themselves, a willingness to bend and work with others rather than stubborn rigidity, usually I enjoy people who are a bit spiritual, not because of the quirks of whatever the belief, but because it seems to give them a certain sense of solidity and peace. Humor is wonderful and I prefer mine twisted and dirty like my sex. (OK not literally dirty sex, dirt is abbrasive in unfun ways, you know what I mean LOL) I also need you to love music, life with no music is sad.

Obviously we have to appeal to one another physically, and do feel free to ask for pics once I've replied to you. I have them and I don't find very many people are disappointed by what they see.

I need more structure and guidance in my life than I can provide. I am willing to be humble enough to say that I have made wrong choices and ended up in a bad place. I am not to proud to admit I am powerless and I need help. I also feel the need to clarify that I am not a doormat or a whore. I am seeking something real. As I said, I cannot insist this last forever, but I'd prefer to be with someone who wants that and is also looking for it.

I want someone who is seeking a 24/7 live in sub. Someone who trusts their own judgement enough to want someone essentially right now and to know that they can ascertain the truth well enough to know that I am real. I will not ask you for money. What I ask is that you let me finish the profile, read all of it and then make your decision about it. I know how awful people are and I have no other way to prove myself, so it only works for someone who is serious and capable of completely trusting themself to make a call like this on a dating site. If this sounds bad or wrong to you, that is fine. I wish you well. I am however hoping there is someone out there who understands what I mean when I say that my nightmare can be someones dream come true and can be used to build something beautiful. I am stuck with nowhere to go and my situation is unpleasant, willing to take a chance like this to see if it works. For you, the right you, truly saving a beautiful woman who is utterly powerless and unable to rescue herself would be a dream come true. And this one has beauty, brains, humor and skills.

(Ok, technically I don't have another place to go atm, this does not mean I am incapable of or unwilling to get a normal job and do the vanilla thing, however, I am not a burger flipper and when I work I am as committed to what I do as I would be to serving you, it's not like I'd quit easily just for my own wants, if I'm doing that, I will do it. Doing this is a choice as all things always are. But until I chose to let this search go, the choice I have here kinda sucks.)

The right Sir would understand that life tends to waffle back and forth and some of the unbelievable stories can be had if you take the right chance at the right time.

If the rest of you want to send me nasty notes telling me I'm a bad person then go right ahead, that makes you a bully and a jerk, not a Dom, not superior, just a jerk.

If I were to find the right Dom for me, this is what the letter I would give to him when he came to get me would say-

Thank You Sir,

I am grateful for the opportunity you are giving me to be more than I can be alone. I am not perfect, I will fail sometimes, I will disappoint you sometimes, I will upset you sometimes, I can be rude, abbrasive, crude, mean, defensive and afraid. I'm only human and female, and my life has had very little guidance but my own whims because none has yet been strong enough to take it from me, and I fight hard when weakness is shown. I can also be willing to learn, willing to sacrifice those things which make me unhappy (one of which will always be doing those things that you do not approve of), I can offer everything that I am, and ask that you never forget that I do require a firm hand. I am afraid of success because it has taught me that getting too much of what matters to me intimidates most people. There will be times when I do something stupid or self destructive (usually obviously this is not anything extreme, it's just bad behavior). The things which are harmful to me should be taken away and only if ever used by a stronger and steadier hand than mine. If I cry in self pity it does nothing, but I will still do it because I do not truly know better even if I can see the logic. If I cry because you would have me cry, to please you, or to probe some part of me you wish to see, or in sorrow and apology and absolution... then that is exactly what I mean, why I should belong to you and why it is you and not I who should weild such powerful tools. In the end I can hope that what I offer is worth what I recieve and that what I give is needed and appreciated. Everything else is details and I will never truly fail you when it counts if you do not allow it. I am capable, I am willing, I am here of my own free will and at my own request. Be patient with me, but not lax. Be firm with me but not hurtful. Be clear with me so I understand what you want and need. Please be the Man I need and always try with everything you have to give me what I deserve, your strength is my shelter, your approval is my sunlight in dark places, your happiness and success, integrity and love will be the things that shape my world when I come to you this way. I need to trust you and believe in you and I will be everything you ask or need or desire and so much more.

Yours

* in case you don't know but wanted to

You manipulate a body to a state of heigtened arousal through stimulation. You persuade a reluctant newbie to try something they are curious about. You coerce an answer from a reluctant girl. You force someone to push their limits if they are open to it. You do Not, manipulate a fragile ego into accepting your terms in spite of reluctance, persuade someone to go further than is safe for them, coerce an act that is truly unwanted unless you have a reason that is beyond reproach, like to help heal psychological trauma after discussing the intent and consent to do so, and you do not force anything at all ever unless it is either purely fun and consensual games or utterly a matter of vital importance like sa and death. LOL, stay with me here, this was an important point about how people can say exactly the same word and have very different ideas of what it means. This is what I mean and what I would argue is correct. If you don't agree we probably don't think enough alike to be much use to eachother.