The Inspection (written 2 years ago)

I have had this rattling around in my head. I am sure this is nothing new to many, but it would be for me if it was to ever happen... This could be for a first time meet and greet or something that happens on a routine surprise inspection.

I get told that I am to meet my Mistress or potential Mistress at a particular Starbucks, at a specific time. I am told to be wearing a slutty girly outfit under my male street cloths. Once we meet we start off with some conversation. She then brings me into the restroom; being that Starbucks does have rather large and private restrooms. This inspection takes place in the span of time as an average user of a restroom would take, so that no one would have any suspicions of the activity at hand. We enter and she closes and locks the door behind her. Then she tells me to remove all my street cloths, quickly! As I remove them she takes them from me and tosses them on the floor out of my reach. Now all I am wearing is some slutty lingerie, my manhood has been stripped and tossed in a pile. I am now almost naked except for the skimpy slutty lingerie. My bare feet are on the cold tile floor because I do not have my heels and I am not allowed to be wearing any of my male cloths. I am very nervous to what she may want of me next. Then she inspects and uses me in a manner she sees fit. I am to do everything she says with no question. Eventually she has me remove the slutty lingerie, now I am completely naked. She has me proned against the wall as she thoroughly inspects and uses me for her needs. She may even have me assume various positions she wants to see me in. She might even photograph me in while conducting these inspections. Then when she is done I am told to dress as I was and then we adjourn to enjoy some coffee and more conversation…

So The Confusion Sets In (written 2 years ago)

This is all relatively new concept for me or is it... I love it but I am also wondering what is wrong with me.

I question myself to why I have slipped into this way of life. It seems sudden, but perhaps not. I look back in memories of me as a child trying on panty hose and loving women in heels. After that period passed it never came across my mind. I would admire the people that did but never thought that I would be on that path. In 2007 I ordered some heels on line. It was hot to wear them but they did not fit, so they went back. Then I was given some stripper heels from someone that I knew under the pretenses that they were for a girl I knew... Well I guess that was sorta true... They were a bit small, but they were good enough to wear. I also came across a g-string I tried and thought it was hot.

In the last few years it has exploded. the desire was strong and the girlfriend of the time seemed approachable so i did. Referencing Rocky Horror it came out. She was down with it and it has been growing ever since.

But I wonder what trigger it to the level it is now... Was it always there or did the traumatic events in my life in 2007 and 2010 accelerate it. I just do not know. I do know that I like it and have strong desires for it. I also think like a girl in the manner I don't think I look good dressed up... and who would want me...

Then my former girlfriend asked me recently if I was trans... and I don't really know. Do I fantasize about being a real woman, yes. Do I sometimes wish I had big beautiful breasts, yes. Do I wish I had a pussy, yes. But am I willing to take it there... not sure. Plus how would my vanilla world think if they ever knew...

So the confusion sets in... whats next? How do I go about life, and do I stay in the closet with this, or do I come out to the world that knew me in a much different way. Time perhaps, time may be the key. But not having many that know this of me limits me as well. Well, some how I need to figure this all out.

Now what an opportunity here for a Mistress that possesses a virgin to men; what could a Mistress do with that on her hands, perhaps an auction? Sell off the sluts assets.

So the Mistress would put this slutty whore up for auction. She would auction each part for use to the highest bidder. Perhaps she would have this at a private party where guests she felt would be appropriate to come and bid on the whore. So she would invite men, women, sissies, Dom’s, Sub’s, couples, CD/TV/TG and as many as she desires to the event.

The idea is to sell my virgin holes to the highest bidders with cocks… My Mistress would determine what the exchange would be for this. Perhaps a fundraiser for her favorite charity, only she knows since she will be the one to decide.

I would like it to start off with just Mistress and me. She would see to it that I am completely clean, dressed up all slutty and ready for use full. When it is time, she puts a hood on me, one that leaves my mouth and chin completely open for performing service. Then she places bondage cuffs of her choice on my ankles and wrists in preparation of what’s to come. Then I am all ready for auction and service. She gives me a beverage of my choice, something to get me loose and less inhibited to what’s about to happen. My Mistress will maintain this as the evening goes to keep the slut inhibited and loose. After all, you want a loose slut ready to do as she is told. Until the party was ready to start I would be kept in a separate room from the guest until everyone is ready.

The guests gather and they settle in. They are all told what the rules will be. Then my Mistress brings me out for all to see. She parades me around so everyone that is interested can see. I would be looking so slutty with 6 inch heels, fishnets, thong and some slutty lingerie top, just enough to cover me up. The hood would shield me for who may be examining me and all I can do is wonder what is next. I can hear them calling me a slut, how nice it is going to be to use me for whatever they want to do to me. Some might even say exactly what they are going to do and others might just hint. I am nervous but my Mistress is there to see that I am properly well used.

The object here is to sell my two holes to those who have cocks. My mistress starts the bidding for my ass. The bidding goes on and on until it reaches its maximum bid. The winning bidder collects their receipt for their prize. Then she auctions my mouth. This to reaches a maximum bid and the winner is given their receipt for their prize. The holes have been sold…

Once the auction is completed then the winners are welcome to claim their prize. This could go in many ways since it could be 2 separate bidders or one that have won the right to deflower me.

I am bound, and the bidders are now allowed to do whatever they won. A decision is made on whom goes first and who is second; then the party will start. Now being that I am straight I may have reluctance to just dive in and take it. The use of restraints and force may be needed to for fill the bidders uses of the holes. I will be told to pleasure the winning bidders in any manner negotiated or be forced to submit my slutty parts for their use until they are deflowered. Once the bidders have used their purchase then the slut will become the party slut for all to enjoy; after all, I am now no longer a virgin and I have become worthless.

Now being that I am now the party slut and when one of the guests needs servicing I am then told to service them as negotiated by my Mistress. Women would have me perform cunnilingus on them even if they were all wet and full of cum. I would be responsible for cleaning them up if desired and my Mistress directs me to do such. If someone desire pleasure of my tongue, then I must do such until I am told to stop. I am also forced to service anyone my Mistress tells me to serve… May be they just fucked their sub and need their cock cleaned. May be they just want to be sucked off or perhaps they just want to fuck me in my holes. Or they need someone’s hide to work off some stress... I am their muse and I must do as I am told or I will be forced and punished.

I am not allowed to cum because I tend to lose momentum to the mood and if I do then I will be made to clean it all up orally. I will then be forced to continue with whatever is demanded of me. If I have to be restrained and forcefully used, then that’s what happens. My slutty ass belongs to my Mistress and she will determine when I am done. I will be used as long as I am needed. Of course my Mistress will monitor my use since we do not want to break the toy, just use it well and put it away beaten, tortured and very, very wet.

Once I have been used by all that came to the party and to their satisfaction I am either allowed to be placed somewhere in the room to be on display as a well-used slut and I can be recalled for any last minute needs as long as Mistress approves this.

Of course when it is all done then I am allowed to take the hood of and clean up my dirty body and then be cared for by my Mistress or whomever she designates…