Submission has so many faces and means plenty of different things from person to person. The logical look at submission in simple terms is yielding to another’s will and authority. By surrendering to such power it not only takes trust but the ability to release control over one’s life in various forms without doubt or insecurity. It is the task of the Dominant to create a protective environment to cultivate such vulnerability and raw energy.
My thoughts on submission are very eager and starved. There are those that give themselves physically for the pure satisfaction of release and surrender. They desire the simple fulfillment of letting go, just to snag the reins and control the world with tenacity once they have refreshed their vim. A few desire more than just the release of power for gratification. They crave for the yielding of power that they have acquired from aspects in their life. These few have a grounding of motivation and only insist on someone utilizing it once handed the key to the kingdom, so to speak.
I cannot begin to tell you when I had started showing signs of being submissive. I have been naturally submissive all my life and even have been accused of making myself a target for abuse when I was just a child. What I can tell you is on what I desire from my submission thus far. I of course would love someone to challenge me, but a man cannot challenge a creature that is much greater than he. In order to have a challenge you need something of considerably more command than your own mind. I require someone with confidence and knowledge of not only the world and the mind, but of himself and his own passions. I desire someone that is willing to cultivate a relationship of structure, affection and dignity.
Freedom to feel the shackles lifted! Stretching my wings and being admired by someone loving and in control. I have been the caretaker of many people and have always been the person expected to be the strong one for most situations in my life with potency. I have wanted to kneel and hand my blade into trusted hands for much longer than I realized. I have wanted to relinquish my defenses to someone I could trust, adore and to be seen for who I am. It is my desire to have a haven to be able to follow instead of lead and to listen instead of order. It is my grandest dream to be seen as the determined, vivacious woman, but loved by the one who has taken the sword from me. I am a knight who can fight my own battles but would much prefer obedience and honor over being a ruler and puppeteer.
I had spoken not too long ago to someone of deep importance to me how devotion was a language of the soul. Devotion is what binds such relationships between a submissive and their dominant. It is almost impossible to feel dedicated to someone who is completely foreign to you. It speaks to me and beyond flesh, we are kindred minds somewhere. Such is a rarity for me that I become intrigued and aspire that belonging and affection.
My submission wasn't brought on by some kinky videos or over exposure to abuse; it was something deeper than that. It is the desire to love someone with every fiber of my body. There is something much more passionate about being able to let go of the rules and give someone everything of me. When there are no rules in place by oneself, one is open to hold their object of affection’s opinions and authority with trust and dedication. My pleasure to serve is an enthusiastic tribute of my affections with the openness you have granted me to release my own chains and devote myself to you, my loving Dominant. |