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My journey is my own, thankfully my husband has been by my side.
I am a strong and dynamic woman, I am told I have presence. I have even been told that I can be intimidating.
To say that I wanted to submit, wanted to give all control to someone and wanted to serve them and make them happy was one of the most difficult things that I have done. It was only possible by understanding the why and for my husband to understand the why. How it frees my mind of things and allows me to just feel. This has opened up our world and we have fallen in love again and have a closer connection than ever.
My biggest challenge has been to be able to say what I want, to talk about feelings and fantasies. BDSM has allowed better communication in our whole world. One of our best moments was being able to say lets talk about how I feel about...
It is also wonderful to see my husbands confidence and command grow as a Dom. And him know and accept that he is everything I need and can give me untold pleasure. And to make most of his fantasies come true. For me to accept that one of his greatest pleasures is to see me lose myself in pleasure without boundaries (but with bonds). Second to that is our refound cuddling and touching that can be lost as marriages become routine.
What I like
Being controlled
Being revered and feeling beautiful and wanted
Rope, rope, rope rope
Collars
Build up and suspense
Wax, ice and (hopefully) electricity - violet wand on the way
Chairs
Tables
Sensual and impact play
Anal play
Continuous orgasms, multiple orgasms, full body.
Learning about my body and what it is capable of
Connecting with like minded people who we can talk, listen and learn.
Quiet Confidence, people who have pride and take care of themselves
Stretching limits safely
What I would like to try
Visiting a clubdungeon
Sybian horse!!!
Being displayed for my Doms pleasure
Predicament
Operant Conditioning
Having a Domme control. Under my Doms instruction
A private, sound proof space with beams and lots of places to tie
St Andrews Cross
Watching others
All of my husbands new fantasies (which turn into mine anyway)
What I am not into
Being disrespected
Big Egos
Where is is all superficial
People who put themselves down
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