It was four years ago when I did my first scene with the Mistress. I set it up two weeks ago. It was at her place just me and her. The scene involve flogging, paddling and wartenberg pinwheels while I was on the horse with just my boxer shorts on. After a hour she stop. My body was cold expect my butt. I was shaking a lot, feeling weak.

I was talking a lot, asking questions out loud. Looking around the dungeon lot. I was feeling confuse.

While I asking questions on what was going on with my body to her she did not answer me which I did not like at all. The Mistress did preform after care on me, giving me water putting a blanket over me and hug me while I was on the wooden horse.

Since then I am now under consideration by the mistress for protection. This is only for play not service. We don't play together too much because due to her supervising the play parties and her health. Im now currently looking for play partners to meet my needs.

I went to a demo about Abduction, Kidnap, and Rape Play last Saturday. Most of the demos I have attend there would be a demonstrate. On this on there was no demonstrate just only talking. The Dom was talking about his experiences in this type of play. He had did over three hundred abduction, kidnap and rape plays. The do's and dont's like using weapon's, physical force, withing a script, talking with the "victim" ect. While he was talking about I did not feel comfortable at all. He did expend why would some would ask for this type of play but I still could not get my mind around it at all understand that person at all of or even doing it to the "victim". The demo last over a hour.

So I was in the dungeon and talking to some guest for a while till one of then was talking about the wooden horse. She thought it was too short so I got on it to see about it. I don't remember what she said but I open my self up. It was like I ask to bottom for her with out saying a word. Next thing I know I beg for more. Thuds and pops from the floging and paddling on my butt and bear back.

She even wore her name on my back using a wartenberg wheel, I was so arouse in my jeans I ask if I can take off my jeans but my request when  un answer. I moan so much want to cum so bad. A female friend of my was there and deiced to join in fun. She rub a ice cube on my back while the Dom paddle me. It was a weird feeling.Latter on the owner of the dungeon who I have done some scene before did come by and decided to give a "helping hand". The whole scene last it about two hours. Latter on i'm planing to do my first CBT by my request to dungeon master. Latter on I may be do some service-oriented submission. I'm still unsure about my role in the life style because I have not top a female sub at all. Most of the females in my group are slaves or Dom's.

Sever days ago I went to a demo about needle play. The Domina was from the Augusta Iron Rose Society (AIRS). So latter on several people try it. Most of then try one needle and call it a day. One switch and a sub had ten on there first time. So when the Domina ask me to try it I say ok. I take off my shirt and lay on the table face down on the pillow. I being to take my She wipe my upper back with alcohol the clean off. Then she pinch my skin and insert the first needle. Feeling it going in and out my skin I growl and yell a bit. aftercare the first one I ask for a one. I was just going to try to be two but I just keep going. Three needles where on my back. She run a sick one the needles and ask me did I feel any thing? I answer no. Then she make me feel some thing alright. Poking me on my back and side with the sick. I want the yell out loud but there where some people in the room and I didn't feel comfortable screaming out loud (I scream very loud). I ask for more needles till I start to sake my hands and legs.
I had five needles in my back. The Domina and a woman give me some aftercare by rubbing my back and arms. People keep asking me was I ok and I said yes I am. Of course this was my first scene in public so ask for some soda as well. The Domina told me to “enjoy the high” but im my opinion my mind was still “on the ground” just my arms and legs shaking like crazy. I did get my self together, got off the table and take a walk.