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| I'm always torn between the old cliche concerning pictures vs words and my own understanding of the power inherent in the written word; but fuck it, I'll just give you the dark of it.
I consider myself scholarly, if not a scholar, though I think I may be closing in on that title (the master's thesis thing is threatening to unmake me). History, Philosophy, Religion, Literature, Science; I love them all. I love ideas, the many-fold acts of creation, learning, and experience, about ourselves and the world around us. I also love teaching others, expanding mutual understanding. I think any process that involves education goes both ways. A closed mind is a stagnant mind.
I'm a socialist libertarian zen daoist hermetic philosopher libertine. Feel free to ask.
I love music, be it metal, classical, techno/industrial, or something that mixes any or all of those; though I have a special love for old school metal ala Dragonforce, and the symphonic European stuff such as Nightwish. I've been listening to a lot of deadMau5 lately also. I still need to learn to play the bloody piano at some point, its a goal. If there's something with a decent beat playing I have trouble not moving with it, even if just the tap of a foot or sway of my head. Which is called entrainment, if you were curious.
I'm some kind of poly. I've been conflicted for some time over that fact, as it's brought me trouble in the past. I simply don't comprehend people who think love is finite. So yeah, gotta be careful there I guess, but it's who I am. I guess the best way to think of it is as potential, rather than necessity. To me it is the capacity to care deeply for more than one person. That doesn't mean you have to go out of your way looking for it though. It may never happen. I can also be a bit possessive.
I'm still working through exactly what I am, kink-wise. Dom seemed the most basic fit, but I'm also a sadist, and there might be a few more things floating around in there as well. I find receiving pain to be meditative, but derive no pleasure from it. I have no interest in any form of bottoming however, I've come to figure that out. I'm a big believer in exploring (and exploiting ;p) all five senses in play. I also have some beliefs regarding sacred sexuality, largely from my studies of Tantra (which I'm terribly out of practice on, I miss it).
Ice is fun. Icy-hot is funner.
Currently I'm mostly looking for friends, preferably of the smart, funny, irredeemably perverted variety, who won't be offended by my warped sense of humor or other terrible, terrible flaws. I must confess to being a huge nerd, and a gamer. Don't hold it against me.
I am somewhat on the market again though. I'm hoping to find someone who identifies as submissive and masochistic, who is intelligent, and has a bit of experience and patience. I don't know if I'm up for a serious relationship yet, but I need someone who can help me relax into being myself, as I've spent years bottling my various needs up. I know what I need and want, and am pretty open about it socially (see the fetish list). However actually letting that out has gotten difficult.
The last few years have been rough as my largely vanilla LTR of almost seven years has been slowly imploding. I'm taking steps to deal with and extricate from it, but am not financially independent yet, due to how school's been going and some other factors. I figure it's going to be about summer or so of 2014 before I manage that. I expect I will be teaching high school or something in a year or so, unless a miracle happens and the novel I'm working on gets me a multi-book contract or something. *laughs*
Hmm, sorry for the wall of text. I don't actually talk about myself that much in person unless you ask, honest. I am guilty of a tendency to ramble though, as you might have guessed.
I totally didn't just copy/paste my FL profile. ;p
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