I live in NYC, I’ve discovered S&M online about 6 years ago, ever since I learned about this fascinating life style it took my breath away and I have no idea why, as days months and years go by my desire to S&M is growing stronger and stronger, obviously I'm very shy about it so I've never discussed this with anyone I know in real life and this is killing me I'm forced to block out my real desires, I'm dieing to find a another persons (I would prefer Doms or Switches but slaves are also ok) to talk and communicate, to finally get it out in the open, one who will understand my needs and know where I'm coming from, and perhaps maybe get involved with some real experience.