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| ***Please note, I am a real woman. I am thoughtful and emotional and deeply invested in being here not only for fun but because I want to learn and grow as the divine and beautiful person I am. I am so much more than my body, more than a "big juicy ass" and nice set of tits. And I'm certainly more than a fetish dispenser. If you want to get to know me, please remember this and be prepared to talk about more than just kink.***
What I'm Looking For: Recently my wants have begun to change. Ideally, I am looking for a life partner, a kinky partner in crime. Most days this feels like looking for a specific needle in a stack of needles so I am also open to finding a regular play partner, someone with compatible kinks with whom I can build trust and explore some of my darker fantasies. If you're going to apply for the job, please read my profile first (yes...all of it). If you want bonus points, read my journals as well. You'll learn a lot about my kink journey and what I like. Please have time to devote to regular play. And please be an overall responsible, decent person.
About Me: I am a seeker, always trying to learn more about myself, to find meaning, and to discover new truths. Often I don't know what I'm seeking until it finds me. Those are magical moments. This sexual journey is merely a new path for this seeker to explore. And, as I wander this earth I do my very best to lead with my heart, with love, compassion and a belief in the good of humanity.
If you have read my profile before, you know that I expressed an interest in being a submissive. After a few months of play and reflection I realize that is no longer of interest. I am 100% a bottom. I want and need to give up control of my body and mind to a trusted partner during sexual play but I have no desire to give up control of any other aspect of my life. I also know more about the type of top I desire. I want someone who is able to balance a strong authoritative presence with a level of attention and care that makes me feel like I'm in the safest place in the world while I'm at my most physically, emotionally and mentally vulnerable. I want a top who understands the importance of aftercare and shares a desire to connect with, embrace and comfort each other after a scene; someone who understands that BDSM and D/s play is not just about the physical act of sex.
While I deeply need and desire to be a bottom, I recognize that there is something incredibly beautiful, special and intimate about being trusted by a partner to take control of their body and bring them pleasure. Periodically I would love the opportunity to experience this deep level of trust and dominate a man; explore him, tease him, keep him on edge until he can't take it anymore, and bring him soul shattering release.
Obviously I'm interested in the sexual aspects is BDSM (I LOVE bondage play) and D/s relationships but I'm also incredibly drawn to the emotional and mental aspects as well. My life is complicated in ways I never planned and I would be lying if I said I didn't get caught up in my own drama and complexity. I also struggle with trusting others yet crave intimacy and trust in a deeply intense way. I am a bit obsessed with the possibility of truly and completely letting go in a scene and perhaps meeting someone who can help me tear down some of the seemingly impenetrable walls I've built around myself. I deeply desire engaging with a partner in such a way that we create a safe place for each other to experience our bodies, explore our desires and process and feel all of the raw emotion that comes up. I want to hold space together so we can have fun, learn, and grow. And if I'm being honest, I'm looking for some soul shattering orgasms of my own; the kind of orgasms where the entire world melts away, where there are no thoughts, no worries, no insecurities, no demands, no to-do's. There's only sensation and the beautiful sounds of passion.
PLEASE NOTE: I am not looking for instant hookups or one night stands.
Also, I am a big, beautiful woman. Like just about every person on the planet I have my own insecurities but mostly I love my body. I love how it carries me through this world and allows me to experience this life. I love how it moves and feels and how much pleasure it allows me to experience. I am seeking a partner who also loves my body, who looks at me like I'm his favorite meal, who can't wait to get his hands ALL over me! I am not interested in being someone's dirty little secret, someone my partner adores in private but refuses to take out in public. If you can't be all in, I'm not interested. I simply refuse to settle for less than I deserve.
So, if you're still reading I'm thinking you might want to know a bit more about me. I'm 38 and single. I am addicted to yoga and recently got my certification to teach. I love reading, swimming, walking my dog, meditating and spending time with my friends and family.
I'd love to chat so if anything I've written appeals to you, by all means send me a message.
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