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MzAmanda

I don't want to hurt you unless I have to....

I am a sweet and loving Mistress as long as you earn the right to be treated as such. If you are looking for torture please move to the next profile. I can punish as needed and will do so without qualms, but I am not going to beat you bloody just because it's something you want.

Maybe we should talk if you think you fill the role I am seeking to fill.
11/13/2009 6:06:23 PM
I have had quite a few conversations with quite a few submissives and some Dominants, about my previous entry.  I'm still in the thought process here but I am figuring out some things that will change for me and how I deal with potential submissives.

I have the right, and will continue to, demand what it is *I* need.  Until I get what I need I am afraid nobody is going to get what they need.  I wonder when the tables turned and it became about what the submissive wanted first.  I am not sure that I am the only one that has experienced this.  I am also not sure I am the only one that is going to be changing it.  Be ready boys. :)
11/7/2009 5:26:03 AM
I admit to being a little confused about something.  Yes, even we who are on top get confused at times.  My confusion lies in the relationship between a male submissive and his Domme.  I read so many journal entries about the intense love a male Dom has for his submissive/slave.  I read in return the absolute devotion a female submissive/slave has for her Dom.  I rarely read of that same intensity between a Domme and her male submissive.  Now, that being said, do I seek love?  No I do not.  I do, however, seek that devotion, that feeling of "when am I going to see her again".  Is that something that doesn't exist with Domme's and their submissives?  This is just a curiousity that has me wondering.
10/30/2009 4:24:22 AM

I plan to have many more days like yesterday.  The first time using my sweet submissive was quite entertaining.  I really enjoyed his complete and utter surrender to whatever I wanted to do to him.  Learning about his limits, or at least beginning to learn them, is quite the experience.  The look on his face when he came too early was priceless.  But he needn't have been too repentent as I fed him his mistake for his transgression.  I'm pretty sure he will begin to work harder on holding back in the future.  I suppose when my hand touched him he had no control....is that such a bad thing? 

scott, you know how much you have pleased me.  Continue to do so, pet.

10/21/2009 3:50:06 AM
I had two wonderful meetings with a fantastic submissive in the past couple of days.  Anyone who believes that a true connection can't happen here needs to be more positive and open up their minds and selves to possibilities that they didn't allow in the past.  There is such a wonderful feeling to having your sub stand there while you touch whatever part of their body that you wish and they can't do a damn thing about it. 

scott, you know who you are and I want to thank you for being yourself, so I can be myself.
10/13/2009 4:55:32 PM
Good evening and I can see it's been a decent amount of time since I've been here.  Well, perhaps I should say since I wrote here.  I have had some interesting experiences in here and have taken some of that interest outside of here.  I am finding that many that come here to play have no idea what real life is, and either it pales in comparison to their fantasies or it is so staggering that they just can't deal with it.

I met someone offline and I thought we had a great time, and then he disappeared.  I imagine he is petrified as I do know his home and where he lives, but I'm not the kind of person that is going to just show up and claim him.  I imagine he might fear that a little, but I refuse to even begin to pursue someone that isn't interested, it's not part of my character.

Folks, think long and hard about what you think you want.  Even those of us on the side of Dominance have feelings and the rejection is no different when you just disappear and act like "we" never happened.  Try hard not to allow the fantasies of what is happening on here jade what is real and doable.  Don't imagine that something is more than it is, and don't think that a particular "act" is always as amazing as it looks online.

I am sure I rambled a bit here, but I know those that understand it will find the meaning in it.
5/24/2009 5:25:09 AM

Good morning to all,
I have learned something in the very short time that I have spent on CM this morning.  I do not seek a slave.  I have encountered two people who have self-identified as male slaves.  I have asked both what they bring to the table in terms of what makes them who they are.  I was told that they are what I want them to be.  I have even pushed a little and still not received the response I was sure I was going to receive.  Perhaps the preconceived notion on my part that they did have other interests was wrong. 

Now I am sure there are Dominant women out there who desire a slave whose only interest in life is to see to her every need.  I am not one of them.  I seek someone with a life, someone vital, who may be a professional in their daily life and wishes to be kept by a Dominant woman.  I want someone who is passionate about their family, their friends, the people that pass through their day.  I want someone with interests outside of this realm, someone who loves themselves and realizes they in fact DO have something to bring to the table.  I seek substance, character, intelligence.  I have encountered a lot of that on here, I know it's there.  A slave I do not want.

**edited to add**
it appears I've offended some very nice men that I was speaking to.  Many thought I was talking about them, I'd like to believe that I wasn't really talking about anyone in particular, rather the experience of some people that I was talking to.  I hope any of that makes sense.  In either case, I apologize for offending those that identify as slave.  It wasn't the label I was having trouble with, it was the idea that they thought that in order to be a good slave they had to do nothing more than serve their Mistress.  Any Mistress who values the submissive at her feet would wish them to be someone that has wants, desires, needs, opinions and an intellect to communicate all of that.  In the end what she does with those qualities is her choice, but having them allows the submissive to bring something else besides themselves to the table.

5/23/2009 6:12:36 AM
I get many messages from people wanting to know what I am looking for.  I frequently take pause at that question because while on the surface it appears simple, it is really very complicated.  I don't like listing a laundry list of wants or kinky desires.  I believe entirely that the relationship forms between two people and they determine what it is they will do in the relationship.  Make no mistake, I  will demand what I wish, it's not about negotiations.  But understanding what makes one tick is by far better for any BDSM relationship and lends to the success of it.  You will not find me listing my physical desires, that is just not my style. The submissive that kneels before me will know intimately what I desire, what he needs to do to stay in my good graces, and how he needs to do it.  Advertising all of that is for beginners. 
MadisonJ
 
 Age: 25
 San Diego, California