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It has been a long time since I have added to this journal. I had actually forgotten that I had a nick here. It has been quite some time since I have had a boy of my own and I do miss having one. The ones I have met lately all seem to have a one track mind ... either they get treated in this manner or we are not a match ... where does that one come in? |
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Well ... I always knew that having a slave who was married presented difficulties ... and the fear I have had all along has been realized ... after over 10 years he is no longer there ... where is he ... I have no idea ... his main email bounces ... his private phone line is no longer in existence ... so all you married boys out there who want to play on the side ... think about that one.
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Another holiday season come and almost gone ... no suitable boy in sight ... even this nick gets emails ... which are not pertaining to the journal or email ... it is mostly from boys who want to 'serve' ... since they do not find my other nick in the same area ... then they do not want to serve me ... they want to serve this person who has nothing in the profile that would lead to believing there is some sort of compatibility ... it is sad that many of them are just seeking to use their tongue ...
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Let's see ... service sub ... tell me ... does that mean he wants to do the errands ... or does that mean he wants to lick pussy? ...
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Gosh ... I am soooo tired of boys with an oral fixation ... your tongue is NOT better than my Hitachi ... why would I even consider allowing you to use your tongue on me???
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Once again I met with a boy who wished to pursue a relationship with me ... and once again disappointed. While the boy, online during chat, sounded like he would be pretty good fit ... his personal appearance totally turned me off. I would think that for common courtesy, even in the vanilla world, that meeting someone for the first time you would at least make a try to be presentable ...
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Since my last entry I have chatted with several boys with little results (remember this is only my journal nick) ... very few of you read the full profile before messaging ... did you know that I check to see if my profile has actually been viewed when the first message states clearly 'I have viewed your profile' ... seems to me to be a bit deceptive and lazy on the boy's part like he is just sending out his plea and not viewing it all. I met a boy in the mall the other day ... and he said he was didn't want to pay a prostitute anymore and thought since I was lifestyle I would play for free. His reasoning was that since I was lifestyle, I got my enjoyment out of 'playing' ... he further stated that he wanted me to be available in the early afternoons as he had a family and needed to be discrete and didn't want any attachments. Can anyone tell me why this bothers me? Can anyone explain why if there is no attachment and an hour or so of my time (which I would have to take off from my vanilla job), I feel that I deserve some kind of compensation? To put it more bluntly ... Why do I feel that the boy who offers nothing besides his 'body' for my canvass is looking is not offering enough?
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A boy who I had met with is now moving several states away ... good for him ... he thinks he has found 'her' I wish him well. I do have some questions for this type of relationship. He has met her in person once and apparently corresponded with her in the last few months ... and will be leaving the state forever this week. My questions to you on this type of relationship ... what do they really know about each other? She has opened her home to someone she has met in person only once ... and he has sold, tossed and then packed and shipped what was left of his belongings to her home. Are they jumping to fast? Perhaps it is the 'Motherly' thing in me ... but ... giving up all of that ... and wanting this so bad ... don't you think that at least a few more visits would be in order? After all ... how many of us have done the dinner thing ... the going for a walk ... and yes even 'playing' a few times only to find that it really isn't the right match after all?
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Another day ... another boy disappears ... I see so many boys seeking ... so many emailing ... and so many disappearing when THEIR immediate need to 'worship' rather than establishing some kind of relationship first. Sorry, boys, but I have my Hitachi ... I do not need you ... it is your needs and wants that you are seeking to satisfy ... those who have found their way past that ... are those who are really owned.
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I read something interesting on a boy's journal today ... he said that if the Domme wants a present or money then she is a prostitute. But so many of you wish to only come to my home for your beating and thinking if you are a 'good' boy you would be allowed to worship ... isn't that just telling the Domme that you want a prostitute for free. Where is the relationship in an hour or two and then you pretend you do not know the Domme?
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ok my faithful readers ... today a boy sent the same email to both my boxes ... and on inquiry to a few of my Domme friends he sent the same to them. We all have different wants / needs / desires ... so guess what ... you are off our list as you do not know what you want ... or perhaps it is that you think you can change us to perform for you ...
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So I am still at a loss as to why a boy just sends out blind emails ... is it being lazy? Do they justsend out to any woman who appears?
Last night ... as I have not found a suitable boy on my other nick ... I had to take care of my own needs ... you boys out there should be ashamed ... a Domme doing your work ...
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Well it seems that a few people are reading this journal. Thank you for that ... and comments are welcome as I do wish to understand why some things happen in this lifestyle. A question I have at this time is ... why do subs contact and say XX is all I want or need ... and then they add several things? Do you think that I have not heard it all before? Do you think that I will accept you and then you can change what I desire????
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Here it is the third day ... and still many emails from boys (or men as I have been told) who wish to meet and 'play'. This is my journal nick ... I am only seeking comment on this journal ... I am NOT seeking a boy here there is no profile ... therefore there can be NO compatibility.
Now, another problem I find with people here ... you send an email ... you beg plead to meet meet meet ... but yet you do not have anything on your mind but what can I as a Mistress do for you ... you say you want to serve ... but you want to serve by worship ... you want to have kinky sex ... try to offer a Mistress a car wash ... or perhaps to vaccuum for her ... that is service ... not a request for a free prostitute.
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Well another wannabe on my other nick. People are sending out blind emails and not reading the journal or profile first. Then when I check their profile before I answer ... there is no compatibility. We are all grown ups here ... either you and I have similar tastes / wants / needs / desires or we do not. So take the time to read and skip your journal entry about not getting any answers ... I do not have time to baby sit every submissive that just sends emails to every Domme who signs on.
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Hello everyone,
I already have a profile posted where I am seeking a male submissive ... this is where I am going to keep my journal ..
All who read this comments are welcome ... just send me an email.
I put this up about 10 min ago and already it has been 'hit'.
Do you guys even read what is there? I have an email from a 'gentleman' who asks for a bit more profile ... but he said my height and weight were compatible. Since there is no weight there ... I will have to go with he just missed that part in his rush to be the 'first'.
More to come as I have more thoughts about this lifestyle.
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