Trust is not only in the Ds relationship, but in all relationships. To build a good foundation with trust and with loyalty. But most of all to define what the relationship is and how you want it to be. Remember how to spell assume? When you assume, you make an ass out of U and me. So never assume that the other person knows what you are talking about.

While I do miss the lifestyle, I miss my family even more, I am getting ready to move into a small moter home, and there is only room for just me. I am going to go back to my home town to be close to my daughter and grandkids. I will be keeping in touch with everyone here, to see what developes in the relationship. I have learned that living alone is different from being lonely. In this big city, its very hard to make friends, everyone is so busy no time for relationships. At least going home to my small town, I will have my family and some of my old friends. I miss them. Time for my walkabout to change direction and head home.

This is the reason I don't take local subs. The tell me they will come over and serve me, but the whole while wanting to know what I will do for them. More intrested in the "play" then in service. So I give them a chance. MY first mistake, lol, then they don't show up. They come back begging for another chance... MY second mistake.. they don't show up. If you want to be in this lifestyle.. that is why its called a li style.. how you live your life. If you don't show up, not even call to say your going to be late, just leave a person hanging waiting all day for you. YOUR not in the lifestyle. Your not even acting like a person. Even vanilla people call to cancel, rescedule, or show up. I have had more trouble with subs, slaves so they call themselves, but they can't even fallow threw. GET WITH IT PEOPLE!!!!

Today I realized how much I miss this lifestyle. Talking to the on line subs that are real has been so good for me. It has restored my faith in the lifestyle. I may just pick it up again and how knows. I talked to some real subs cam to cam, the Ds relationship is so satifing, just to sit and talk with a sub is such a thrill to me. Made me feel so good. Thank you wonderful subs. I may not be your Mistress, but just chatting about the lifestyle and other things has been so nice. I feel renewed.

I am a trans too... I am a female transitioning from frumpy old house wife, fat mistress, married/with children, to what I really want to be.  I left my husband, and family, gave it all up, I went homeless, with the help of a sub, we made it to another place in our lives. Now she has moved on to her dream, of being the woman she wants to be and so am I. Losing weight, changing my looks, dressing different, doing my nails, working at my business. All things that are new and different to me. Dealing with hormone changes, and dealing with my body changing as I lose the weight. I have lost 60 pounds and wow what a differance, I am going to be losing more. I know what its like to change. So I am a trans too. Maybe not from one sex to another, but from one life to another. I never thought in my wildest dreams that I would end up working on line as a web cam girl. Not at my age and weight. But I did it and it has changed me for ever. I am amazed at the responce I am getting from the men. wow.

I remember the first munch I went to. Not knowing much about the lifestyle, and very open minded, I went to a munch at a friends house that was a Mistress, she said come and be my guest. I will never forget that feeling I had the first time a sub came up to me and he knelt before me, bowed his head, raised his hand as to give me a gift, but it was empty and said "how may I serve you?" My heart started to pound, I felt flushed, and a rush go threw my body. I was so taken by this feeling. I didn't know what to do or say, But I did know, I wanted more. So the cravings began.

I was listing to Leann Rimes, song commitment, I think it is very fitting to the D's relationship. It could also by a duet between the Mistress and the slave.

Mystress

What I am looking for is a love that is forever

Someone who can capture my soul in a heart beat and stay for all times.

What I am praying for, is a match made in heaven

Somone who will worship my body and still put his/her heart on the line.

Slave

Commitment

Someone who will go the distance,

I need somebody with staying power

who'll make me go weak in the knees

Commitment

and everthing that goes with it

I need honor, and love in my life from somebody

who is playing for keeps

Mystress

What I'm searching for is a man/woman who will stand by me

Who will walk through the fire,and be my flame in the night

I won't settle for, less than what I deserve

A friend and a lover who'll love me for the rest of my life

Slave, choris again

Mystress,

Yeah I've had promises broken, Three words left unspoken

They just left me achin' for more

But I'll fight temptation, I won't be impatient

There's one thing that's worth waitin' for.

the Commitment of that Slave that will make my life complete. Are you that one?

Ok I did it again, I was a fool. I let two male subs talk me into giving them another chance. NO SHOW again. Excuses, omfg. These guys are so lame. So any one talking to  hopefulslv4U, don't bother with him. He will talk to you make you think they are so intrested, and then at the last min. cancel the meeting with you. Whimps Whimps, I am so tired of them. If you want to be a sub, get off your butt and do something. But CM is full of the players. You have to sift threw alot of rocks before you find that chunck of gold. I am getting nothing but rocks these days.

When it comes to friends, age, and sex is not an issue for me.  So as long as we get along and have fun, its good.

Had a change of plans, I found out that working for a Retired Mistress is not a good idea. I am no submissive and don't like being treated like one. So looks like I will stick with my Life Coaching for now. Maybe there is someone out there that wants to learn and grow as well. I hope to find her. Always looking for friends, its kinda lonely these days, tried to go back to a vanillia life, but could not do it. I lov the lifestyle, and don't feel I should have to hide it, as soon as I tell the vanilla people about my lifestyle, I get dumped. Some friends eh? Not like I am asking them to join. Just wanna be me. Can't do that in the vanillia world.

Just wanted some to know that I am away visiting my new job. lol. I will be moving in with a very nice retired Mistress and becoming her care giver. Paid.. not a submissive. However if I find the right sub/slave, I mite get to have her come live with me here at my new job and help me. So If your intrested in being my sub, think about that as well.  I will post a messege when I return.

I saw this and it is so good, thanks Midoridesires201

In the light of the fact our nation now owes $17 Trillion dollars and counting... The government, today, announced that it's changing its emblem from a BALD EAGLE to a CONDOM because it more accurately reflects the government's political stance. A condom allows for inflation, halts production, destroys the next generation, protects a bunch of dicks, and gives you a false sense of security while you're being screwed. It just doesn't get more accurate than that!

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8/3/2011 6:26:11 PM:

A random thought