I know you are out there and I hope to find You so we can begin the dance between a Master and His sub/slave. ...

Someone said to me last night that I could not be a true submissive unless I gave up my vanilla life and dedicated myself full time to being a sub...and yet, so long ago, I was able to be sub to my Dom even when we were not together and so I know it is possible to have both a vanilla and a D/s based relationship and still make it work...then he had the nerve to tell me that the one I am talking to and meeting on Monday was not a true Dominant and I would be better off going to spend time with him so I could see what a real Dom was like...well, I have news for him, the one I am meeting is definitely a Dom and seems so far to be just what I need.....

Monday was a WASTE of my time...I have hard limits for a reason and I can not see why I would be forced to have those limits ignored....that is the fastest way to make me run the other way..trust me

Time to walk away...so tired of the flakes and time wasters...I have met some who are very interested and let me know they want to pursue something more and yet I turn around and they are still looking in spite of words to the contrary. If you want to give me a chance , then let me have that chance..how can I trust you and feel safe with you and let myself go just a little bit more each time if you are always going to be trying to find "something better"? D/s  is based on trust and right now I feel I can not trust anyone...and that is the worst part for me...so with my head held high, I shall walk away a proud and yet un-owned submissive...which is a shame as for the right Master, I would be the perfect submissive...

So time consuming...trying to find the "One"..maybe I need to look for someone a little older..maybe around his mid 50's and close to me so I can see him on a regular basis.I am a good and very loyal submissive to the right Master and will give as much as he asks...

Have been gone for a long time for health reasons and am back hoping I really do find One....

I will communicate with complete honesty my needs, desires, limits, and experiences. I realize that failing to do so will not only prevent my Master/Mistress and I from having the best experience possible, but can also lead to physical and emotional harm. He can not know me if I tell Him nothing of me. I will not manipulate my Master.

Maybe it is just me , but it seems nothing ever changes here on this site. Are there no true Dominants out there any more...??? I have to wonder if I should just close my account and be a submissive without her Dominant for ever...

I may be submissive but the foul language in emails sent to me is simply mind boggling. Does one think that by using such language that I am going to rush to get back to you..I think not!!! Besides...I do not even know you yet..and I probably would care not to....

My heart was still pounding as I hung up the phone, his voice still in my head... I know its something that will probably never happen, and maybe that's what makes it all the more exciting. I began to play back our conversation in my head; nothing really sexual just his voice, but it made my body react in a way that I liked..

I let my hands begin to wander, first teasing my nipples through my black silk teddy making them hard, then moving down my tummy. I closed my eyes and I could hear his laugh as it echoed in my mind. I let my fingers find the bottom of my teddy and I pulled it up slowly, imagining it was his hand. I felt a moan escape my lips as I slipped my hand into my panties I couldn't believe how wet I was, just from the power of his voice..

. I closed my eyes and pictured him lying between my legs , knowing that he was about to to take me over the edge. I ran my finger over my swollen clit and felt my body tremble, my other hand moving under my teddy to my hard nipple. I began to make light circles around my clit, making sure to tease my opening with my middle finger. I moaned again, as I heard his smooth voice in my head telling me he wanted to hear me cum. I quickened the pace with my fingers, changing between rubbing my clit and slipping my middle finger into my pussy and squeezing against it.

My breathing began to quicken and my moans came more often, almost with each breath. I felt the ache deep within my body as I started to lose myself in his voice. I pulled my hand from my pussy and crawled off the bed in search of my toy. I opened my panties drawer and rummaged through then all the while I was rubbing my thighs together, keeping my clit stimulated. After what seemed to be a small eternity I finally found my vibrator and quickly returned to my bed. It was about seven inches long. It was the first toy I've ever owned and I still preferred it to any other I had.

I stepped up on my bed standing in the middle and I started to pull at my panties, sliding them down past my hips down my thighs, revealing my smooth mound. I wiggled my legs and worked my damp panties to my feet, and kicked them off end of my bed. I dropped to my knees and then laid back. I spread my legs as I laid my head back down on my pillows. My hand went under my teddy again and began to play with my nipples again, laying the vibrator on the bed next to me. As I played with my tits I squirmed on the bed.

I slipped my hands up and down up my tummy and to the underside of my tits. I closed my eyes again and pictured his hands on me. My hands moved up to my nipples, still hard from the attention I gave them earlier; I began to roll my nipples between my fingers as I massaged my large tits. My body was covered in tingles I wanted to cum for him so badly. I smiled softly as I slide my hand out of my teddy and to the vibrator that was laying next to me. I've used it so often I can hold it and turn it on with one hand. Soon came the very familiar buzzing, then his voice in my head, "You want this so badly don't you baby?"

My heart skipped a bit and I almost opened my eyes, but I decided against it because I wanted him here with me, even if it was all in my head. I traced the vibrator around my breasts, rolling over my nipples; I was so horny my hips were already squirming against the bed. I could feel my pussy almost dripping, aching for the touch of the vibrator. I continued to trace with the vibrator, across my tummy, then to my smooth swollen mound. I laid it flat against my mound, letting the tip just barely touch my wet lips. His voice echoed through my mind again as I slipped the vibrator between my lips. The vibrator grazed my clit I moaned loudly and grabbed my tit with my free hand. Oh God I wanted him. I wanted him to do this..

I let the vibrator slide up and down the length of my lips, teasing my clit and teasing my opening. I could feel his breath against my thighs and his hands on my body. I opened my legs wide and slipped the vibrator into my wetness and a long and soft moan escaped my lips. I gripped the vibrator tightly with my pussy as I pushed it further in, almost the entire length. Slowly I began to pull it back out,and letting the vibration rub move slowly over my clit. Then back in went the vibrator, I began to quicken the pace, in and out, my free hand roughly squeezing my tits and tweaking my nipples. My moans came almost with each breath.

I began to rock my hips against my hand and vibrator, pumping harder and faster. I could feel my insides throbbing and my orgasm beginning to build as I squeezed tightly around the plastic cock. My entire body was jerking on the bed as if possessed. And all I could hear was his sexy voice as it was toying with me. My breathing became harder and my heart raced. Squeezing against the vibrator with my cunt I pictured his face, leaning in close and then his lips as he gently kissed my clit and then looked up at me from between my legs and whispered..cum... I swear he was there and it was his voice that pushed me over the edge. My moans were with every breath I took, my hand almost a blur, forcing the vibrator to fuck me fast and hard. My body began to tense and I held my breath, as I slipped over the edge....

I was moaning, so close to screaming his name as I worked the plastic vibrating cock in and out of my pussy I didn't want it to end I came one after the other, I had lost count. I could feel the juices trickle down to my ass, I slowed the strokes with my vibrator as my orgasms slowed. With a flick of my index finger, my little vibrator was off and it slide it out of my sopping wet pussy. I sighed heavily and was completely relaxed lying on my bed, my heart beating so hard it felt as if it were in my head. A tear ran down my cheek in joy as I knew I had done this for Him..

 I would like to find a Dominant that lives and or works close by so that we can ,if things go well, pursue something of a more longer term D/s relationship. The right Master will find me loyal and very dedicated to serving Him and serving Him well..I love learning new things and am a very open submissive who will not say no..please say hello and let us see what happens..and BTW...I live in Chino Hills and work in Anaheim off of the 91 and Tustin Avenue

She knelt there, naked, not nude. Nude implied artistry, beauty, while naked is what she was. She knelt there with her rump back on her heels, back straight, head up, eyes cast down to the floor but with two differences between her normal kneel. Her left hand caressed her breasts and right hand between her thighs working her nub furiously and then slowing.

She had been told to wait there in the room facing the door and to keep herself on the edge for however long it took before He arrived. She'd been at it for slightly over an hour. A nice size puddle of her juices lay between her sodden thighs, her right hand fingers slightly pruny.

As she continued her ministrations to her sex, her mind kept flashing on the things her Master had directed her to meditate on: devotion ~ His cock ~ adoration ~ His cock ~ worship ~ His cock ~ love ~ His cock. As her orgasm approached to almost that point of no return, her hands would slow, her breathing would calm, but her mind continued to work.

At some point, she registered that the door to the room had opened and closed. But she didn't move save for her hands. She remained where she was and as her mantra and movements brought her higher, her hips began to rise and fall slightly, her breathing became raspier, her face flushed again. He just simply stood by the door and took it all in. The room's air was laden with the scent of her arousal. He placed His hands on His hips and inhaled deeply taking great satisfaction that the odor was caused through His control. HIS.

His cock twitched as He sensed how very close she was. He was very proud that she hadn't succumbed to her need even after having been left alone all this time.

He silently removed His clothing and quietly walked until He stood before her. Not quite close enough that she could see Him but close enough He could feel her need better. He walked around her carefully examining every inch of her body, every inch of her open to His eyes.

When He had had His fill, He quickly stepped up behind her, grabbed her hair and pulled her, surprised, to her feet. She gasped loudly at His first touch but immediately moved to comply with His pull.

He bent her, He bent her back with His fingers deeply in her hair, back to His hungry mouth, and He kissed her, deeply, passionately, erotically, feeding off of her need. She struggled to maintain her balance and finally simply allowed Him to hold her upright by her hair. She made positively sure that her hands continued their ordered tasks and felt her passion rise even incredibly higher as she submitted to His kiss.

His free hand moved down her body and joined her one between her legs as He continued the kiss. He slid two fingers deep inside of her and felt her almost give into the passion. He smiled into His kiss and withdrew His hand as He knew no human could ever withstand all He was expecting of her. He wanted her to succeed as His pleasure was all she was concerned about.

He broke the kiss, His lips still smiling and Eskimo kissed her nose with a quiet chuckle. Then, just as suddenly as He raised her to her feet, He drove her back to her knees by her hair. Then He spoke the first words she'd heard in over an hour.

"Suck it."

A faint smile played across her lips right before she parted them and pulled His cock's head into her mouth. She knew just how He liked it, but she had been learning other techniques to bring Him release. If He disapproved, she knew He would simply redirect her back to what He most enjoyed. But He loved her thirst for knowledge, her quest to become a better slut, all for Him.

She teased His slit with her tongue as her hands switched. She brought her drenched right hand up to His cock. And, well lubricated by her own sex, she stroked it as she gently suckled the tip. She knew He was close, she had heard Him enter, felt Him circle, experienced the depth of His passion through His lips. If she kept focused on His pleasure, He would enjoy the fruits of His control much earlier than He anticipated. And oh, how she loved to surprise Him.

Her efforts were soon rewarded as she felt Him twitch in her mouth and heard a low groan come from His throat. She let go of the tip and crawled a bit closer to His body. She bent His cock upwards, pointing straight up to His face. Then with her hand between His cock and His body, she began licking and sucking up and down the sensitive underside as her hand mirrored her mouth's movements. From time to time, she would capture the crown and suckle the precum she found there and then go back to her oral ministrations.

When He was twitching with a certain regularity, she brought her left hand up to His sac and began to fondle first one, then the other testicle, then she cupped the entire package and pulled it down away from His body. Not in denial, but in order to take Him higher and higher prior to His release, giving Him the most pleasurable cum she could create.

She then took Him entirely into her mouth, feeling Him throb as He entered her and groan louder the deeper she took Him. She began to hum her song for them as she slid her mouth up and down the entire length of His shaft. Her nose never quite reaching His pubic hair but so very close. She knew how this tantalized Him and how much He would enjoy demonstrating for her just how deep He could get down her throat. She released His scrotum and felt His balls pull quickly and tightly up into His body. When she heard Him gasp she knew it was time.

She quickly moved her hands behind her head and felt both of His grab her head fiercely as He moved even closer to her face and thrust deep down her throat. His mind only focused now on the pleasure her mouth brought. She opened totally to Him feeling Him soaring higher and higher taking her along with Him.

She felt His hands tighten even more strongly on her and she quickly opened her mouth as wide as she could and suck down as much air as the space around His cock would allow. Then He thrust her head deep upon Himself. So deep it cut off her breath. But she had prepared and she was determined. Determined to hold Him there as long as she was able.

And she relaxed.

She relaxed her throat and felt Him slide in just that little bit more. She relaxed her body, not so much she collapsed, but enough that the air in her lungs would last that much longer. And she began her mantra once again: devotion ~ His cock ~ adoration ~ His cock ~ worship ~ His cock ~ love ~ His cock.

He felt her submission as a palpable, living thing. He knew she would remain on His cock however long He wished with very little struggle. But He loved to see the struggle, the ultimate symbol of His control. He waited as she cast her eyes upwards to His knowing this was what He wanted. To see her eyes as the oxygen ran out. To watch them glaze over as she retreated inside herself to maintain her composure as her breath left her little by little.

And then it began, the fear. The fear that became overwhelming. It slowly crept up on her and she felt her eyes begin to widen as it took greater hold. But then His right hand caressed the side of her head as His left kept her in place. And she knew. She knew His love for her. Knew He would never let anything happen to her and she allowed the blackness to begin to cover her consciousness.

At that exact moment He pulled her off of Himself. She felt the air rush back into her lungs as He released her head and she almost collapsed back setting onto her heels at the last moment. She heard as He stood over her, His cock being stroked hard and furiously above her and she felt as the drops of His cum hit her upturned face.

And she came.

Well, once again, I need to make something VERY clear..while I am flattered at the fact that guys from out of state are still sending me emails..I am not, never have been and never will be seeking a Dominant who I will have a strictly on live D/s relationship with. If I wanted taht then I would have remained with my former Master. I need to be able to be with you in person and so please, please, please NO more emals from out of state Dominants.

Seems I may be really limiting my options here but I know what I need and want..and I am not giving up hope. I am flattered at the many replies I am getting but I am not looking for a guy younger than 27 since I have a son who is 21...nor am I looking for anyone over 59. It is just not my thing and while I know there are submissives out there who are not as selective..I know what interests me and so I continue....for one day I know you and I will find each other and the journey will begin...

I need to re-clarify that I am in a vanilla relationship and so if this is an issue for some of you, then I am sorry but I am not going to end my search until I find Him, I still miss HIM but know that he has moved on already and so must I. I will have limited time as hopefully you can understand, but the time that I will have and the time that we are not together will still be Yours and I will provide clarification on that should I need to..

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Nothing can ever compare to the feel of his hands on my flesh
Teasing, taking, proving his ownership
And I am his
My body, my will, my desires
He controls me, my every breath, and want, and need
He demands my surrender and allows no quarter
Nothing can I hide, nor do I dare to
I am open
Only for him
With every release, he pushes me higher
No more, I beg
I cry, plead, whimper.
Just a rest, only a breath
None is given
Again and again
Over and over
And I die
The little death
With his every word
He pierces me
My soul, my flesh, my heart
His mouth captures my tears
Taking each one on his tongue
Returning them to me
And it is not enough
It is never enough
He demands
Is he pleased?
I am broken
Shattered

Because of my work location and work hours, along with my "vanilla" life I am not able to entertain anyone from San Diego or points further. I do prefer and hope to find someone closer to me in Tustin to make things all the more easier....and I promise loyalty and commitment when I find You....