(05/20/2013)

I'm not looking for a million things, just that one perfect thing... love.
(Scarlett Johansson - D&G Commercial)


Warning: This is a very long profile text, if you're not gonna ready it and just send me an email saying things I already said I'm not looking for, please, don't even bother.


Second, I'm looking for something real, and If you're here looking for an online relationship, or just fantasize, that's great for you, but please... PLEASE!!! Be honest and don't try to fool the others pretending to be someone or that you're looking for something you're not.
If you gonna ask for my YM, and disappear in a couple of weeks/months, or intend to stay in an endless online relationship, don't even bother to waste your or my time, okay?
And if you ARE looking for something serious, but after some chat you realize I'm not who you're looking for, at least be HONEST and tell me that, don't simply go away. It will be less painfull to hear that you're not interested, than wait online for you and never knowing if you ever will be online again or not.


And... here we go...


I was born a girl, well, at least, that's what my mind always told me. But, being raised in a very traditional and strict family, where anything "uncommon" (like homosexualism, etc) is considered bizarre, unacceptable and reason for gossip for the whole family, I had to hide that side of me, the real me, and learned how to pretend to be a masculine man.

Time has passed, I had a very lonely teenage, not too many friends, no girlfriends, my pleasure was to stay at home, doing my things.
I lost my virginity very late, I always LOVED girls, but not like the other boys, I always admired them but because I wanted to be like them, a bit hard to explain... anyway, I was too scared to have my first time with a man and didn't had much approach with girls, that's because I never knew how to be "hunter", the strong man looking and chasing the beautiful lady. Usually was at some corner, flerting with the girls I found attractive, like if I was waiting for them to approach me, LOL. My first girlfriend, she had to took the initiative and come talk to me, hehehe.

Anyway, at my early twenties that situation became unbearable, my life started to seem meaningless, I wasn't excited about my college, internship and even less about the life I would have in the future.

I started to see a psychologist, and she soon confirmed what I always knew.
GID (Gender Identity Disorder).
That was when I decided (finally) to accept the real me and start to try to live it, but it was always very hard, I never had the courage to tell anyone and was very afraid of my family... so I hold it and started to live in my thoughts, I got some lingerie and every time I was alone at home, I had a GREAT time wearing it and "living" as a woman. A few years ago, I moved and living alone, was finally able to stay much more time this way, the way I meant to be, bought some ligeries, female clothes, make up, a wig...

I'm not a TGirl/Gurl/TS, or wherever you would like to call YET, I haven't started my transition YET and that's all my fault. Since I decided to become the real me, I always thought that the right man would like to find me the way I am now, like "crude diamond", and then make me the way HE wants, make the woman he always dreamed, the "perfect" woman for him. Hair, facial and body details, etc. (don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I'm looking for someone to finance me, okay, I'm not talking about money here).
But unfortunately, men are lazy (sorry, hehehe), they don't want to way for the cake to bake, they don't want to choose the flavor, the cover and how it's going to be, they just want it ready to eat ¬¬"...
So I was waiting for this "right man", before starting my transition, HUGE mistake, I know... now I know.

I'm getting ready to start it now, looking for a good psychiatrist, so will have a good recomendation about what hormones to take and all that stuff, right now, since March of this year, I'm taking some contraceptive (by myself), almost has no effects I know, but at least has some minor effects and keeps me happy wondering how it's going to be when starting the real HRT. :D

A few months ago, I quit my job and I'm expending my days at home, dressed as a woman, acting like a woman, and doing the house chores... OMG it feels SO good, each day is like living in paradise!!!
I wake up, get my make up done, prepare the coffee, then go clean the house, do the laundry etc. Its just PERFECT!!!

That's what I was born to be, a traditional, old fashioned housewife, and that's what I WANT to be. Unfortunately, we are not living in the 50's anymore, being a housewife is not that common these days, and I know I'm not living in a fairy tale, so it's practically impossible for me to live like this. But if I can't be a traditional housewife, at least I would like to be a wife.

So I'm here, still looking for "that man", my Prince Charming, he doesn't has to be in a white horse and shining armor (hehehe), but I'm looking for a traditional man, an Alpha Male, who believes in the old days traditions, where the woman where suposed to be the "submissive" wife, and the man the "dominant" husband, the head of the house, the one in control, who takes care of the important things and let the house chores and "family stuff" to his wife. A man who really believes in the old fashion style of life, like in the 50's, where man was the strong sex, the important one, and woman the fragile one, the naive, and were supposed to follow" her man.

I dream about being that girl, that wife, the one who takes care of everything to make her husband happy, who worries about letting everything ready for her man to get at home and find a warm and comfortable home to rest and relax after a long day at work, the "perfect wife", who will always put his needs in front, will not mind to do anything to make him happy, will always support her husband and always be at his side, and of course, will always be available to help him "relax", you know, a traditional wife and a lady in front of others and a "naughty girl" with her husband, inside the bedroom ;), just to show him how much she loves him and that he chose the right woman to be his wife.

Well... Like I said, it will be very unlike for me to live that, but, my first goal is to become the REAL ME, a woman with a female body and appearance, and like I said, if not possible to be an old fashioned wife, at least a wife I would like to become.

I'm a very friendly person, love to laugh, chat, cuddle and stay together, it's so nice to spend time even if only cuddling doing nothing, with the person you love. It's fun to go out sometimes for a romantic dinner, or theatre, but most of the time, I'm much of an indoor person, love to be at home, cooking, watching a good movie... (Gee I'm really a kind of a traditional old fashioned suburban wife... LOL).

Bottom line, I'm looking for a "common" relationship, a meaningful relationship, with love, passion, that the other person will like me, protect me and treat me as any man should treat his woman, just like in the old days, where women were always on the passenger seat of the car, was worried about learning new recipes to please her man, and rarely go out of the house without her man.

Mmm... I think I already said (wrote), too much, LOL... "basically" that's me, and like I said, I'm very friendly, so be very welcome to send me emails on
thatsmynewlife at gmail com

Thank you SO MUCH for reading my entire profile, and please, be welcome :D Don't try to call me on chat, I'm usually online here through my phone, so it will not work.