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I am under the protection of an intelligent and beautiful woman. She has asked me to chronicle our journey and to tell about myself. Most of this will be done and become obvious through my daily writings. Under no circumstance am I tospeakwith any other woman on this line. Anyone wishing to know anythingfurther than what is written must contact MsCassadee.

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9/13/2011 5:03:34 PM
Mistress has been so sweet to me of late. She indulges me...or perhaps it is that I may meet her needs.

9/12/2011 6:55:02 PM
I told Mistress that I love her. I'm honored to suffer for her.

9/12/2011 4:11:45 PM
I feel possessed. I want to please this woman with every thing I have to give.

9/12/2011 2:41:35 AM
I don't think words can express how I'm feeling.

9/11/2011 5:17:27 PM
....everything a good slave should be...I am her property. I adore her so much.

9/11/2011 5:15:51 PM
Note to self: too soon to fall in love. Too soon to fall in love. Mistress has been a rock for me the past few days. I want to know about her vanilla life. She's always there to talk about my kinks too. We seem to gel on so many levels. She takes away my deepest fears and spoon feeds me what my soul hungers for. I will proudly wear her brand and collar. I long for nothing more than to suck her precious toes and curl up at her feet. I want to be her whore, her sounding board, everything a sub should be to his Mistress. I know that this is long distance, but she lives in my hometown, and I will be there soon. I also am grounded in the fact that we haven't officially met; but Mistress is hypnotic. I don't want to be anywhere else. If she were to give me the chance to serve. I would be everything

9/10/2011 7:01:45 PM
Wow....she fucking rocks. I'm very happy.

9/8/2011 1:27:48 PM
Let's see....I accidently came when Mistress was telling me that I may one day suck her toes. Mistress also told me that she and her lover got a hotel room. Again, I'm jealous and very thrilled. Mistress and I also seem to be connecting on a deeper level. She's quite romantic. I feel very special. Again my hopes are to be everything to her but a sexual partner....or at least one that may penetrate her as I could never please her with my tiny little clit. She is beautiful.

9/7/2011 4:03:48 PM
Mistress sent me a photo of her new shoes. I'm a very lucky boy.

9/6/2011 7:15:28 PM
I'm hers.

8/23/2011 10:15:15 AM
I am ready to start completing more of my tasks. I will start running for Mistress. I hope she will be pleased with me.

8/21/2011 9:10:45 AM
Mistress saw her lover yesterday...I have extreme feelings of jealously. I was kind of hoping that she wouldn't be with anyone else....but on the other hand...this is our dynamic. She told me that she was with him 3 times...I have never been able to perform more than once a day. I am happy that she was satisfied. I am most honored that she has taken away my rights to be with others...or to even masturbate. But as bad as it hurts, I am excited and wish I could have watched her pleasure. Thank you for these gifts, Mistress.

8/20/2011 5:47:48 PM
I've been having some very nice conversations with her lately.

8/19/2011 2:45:53 PM
Mistress is a very busy woman. I try not to get upset when she can not return my texts during her day...I miss chatting with her during her lunch break.

8/17/2011 8:28:35 AM
I hope my Mistress is feeling better.

8/16/2011 4:33:28 PM
Mistress hasn't been feeling well. I hope she feels better. Such naughty thoughts I've been having.

8/15/2011 2:06:33 PM
I have done all that Mistress has asked of me the past few days...with the exception of my running...it has been raining lately...I will correct this soon. I haven't heard from her today. Last night she told me that she is still flirting with a co-worker. She has been very graphic in her desire for him to both me and her co-worker. I feel both jealous and aroused. I hope to further please her. My Mistress has been very sweet to me. She sent me another picture of her this weekend. She is a beautiful woman. I can understand why she would need someone who can satisfy her sexual needs. I am grateful she considers me worthy to one day worship her precious feet...especially after receiving the picture of my little"inchworm." I am also loving finding out more about her other facets.

8/14/2011 6:13:37 AM
I am thinking of my Mistress. I believe I have been a good boy the past few days. I really hope she will be pleased with me....my little clit is so hard for her. My mind and soul are hers.

8/13/2011 4:22:56 AM
What a start to my day. Mistress sent me a lovely photo. She has the prettiest breasts. And oh, Goddess what beautiful feet. I feel so alive again. Mistress has once again reminded me that I am hers. This feeling of confidence in myself is like being high. She instills such a lovely fear in me. But at the same time...a wonderful sense of purpose. I don't really think that another could make me feel this way. I woke up this morning feeling good about who I am as a person. Thank you Mistress.

8/12/2011 6:53:55 PM
Mistress has hopefully been pleased with my performance. I truly wish to please her. I am slowly getting myself in order. I will study my second language and learn my musical instrument. She deserves the best. I hope she will one day allow me the honor of caring for her most holy feet...she has been very kind to me.

8/11/2011 6:23:35 PM
very kind....and sweetly cruel. The photos of her legs and feet only add to the pain. My tiny, little clit throbs. I hope that she is getting fucked hard like she deserves...and soon. She deserves the best.

8/11/2011 6:19:46 PM
I am going crazy. I can't remember the last time I masturbated....no matter how much I beg Mistress will not allow it. Long distance relationships suck....I have only made love once in the past two years...I know I don't deserve it. But I still understand why my denial is necessary. My Mistress is

8/10/2011 7:56:09 PM
Mistress is not pleased with me. I have not been doing something to her standards. I ask her forgiveness.

8/9/2011 2:13:54 PM
Mistress might be angry with me. I hope I haven't done anything to displease her. All of my duties were performed in a timely manner...it us still my pleasure to serve her.

8/8/2011 5:36:27 PM
Mistress was very kind today. She treats me so much better when I have been obedient. I performed my tasks. She was pleased with me.

8/7/2011 7:07:48 AM
Here's the thing: Mistress is so pretty. She is a very bright crayon. I hate stupid women. I find myself drawn into a romantic web. It is true I can not exist as a whole being without submitting to a woman. But I don't want this thing between us to be purely sexual...or just a long distance cyber thing....I want her to take me. I want her to rape my mind and soul. I dream of feelings of love....tender and brutal. I need it. I will not settle for just anyone...but I am trying to hold her and let my Mistress know that this is a good place to start...am excellent dynamic to base a relationship on. I'm not alpha enough to lead this relationship...

8/7/2011 6:54:00 AM
I have not been posting my journal. I have not been sending my wardrobe. I have not been running. I have not been sending my food selection and intake. I have not been sending my pictures if myself. Mistress is correct. I have not been humble. I can only offer my regrets. The proper way to do so is by obedience. I have also neglected self improvement. I should be writing, learning a second language, and an instrument. I want to be a most pleasing slave. Mistress has given me the highest honor of being the only one given the honor of caring and worship of her perfect little feet and toes. She has taken control of much of me. She has helped me understand my place in life...my worth to any woman...especially to her. She gas still been so very sweet and very kind. I do not deserve such a woman. Mistress has catered to my whims and fetishes. I should give her the same respect...a higher respect.

8/7/2011 6:22:32 AM
I did something I didn't want to do. I have displeased my Mistress. I have not been obedient in my required duties. I have not been a good boy. I beg Her forgiveness.

7/16/2011 11:54:30 AM
I am now a registered slave. My number is 206-116-779. I hope to please her well.

7/13/2011 7:55:19 AM
We are dancing around the L word again...much too soon to say it. But I want to tell her how well she moves me How I look forward to hearing her voice in the morning. And in the evening before I try to sleep. She's haunting my dreams. She's a beautiful nightmare She's a daymare. She is buxom and beautiful.

7/13/2011 7:34:49 AM
I want to tell her that I want her to own me...to take me by force. I want her to claim me as her own. I want her to burn her mark in my flesh. I want to serve her. Cater to her every whim. I want her to leave me no choice. I want her to be violent.

7/7/2011 4:39:53 PM
My Mistress sent me a pic of her legs. Yum. She is most kind to me. I hope to be hers I hope that she will continue to teach me and train me for her whims and service. It seems that we may be dancing around the L word. I have never had a woman speak to me the way she does. I hope that I am being good enough for her.

6/30/2011 11:57:06 AM
Mistress has taken yet more control of her property. Her little worm is now to increase physical training in order to be both serve Mistresss' needs and be pleasing to Mistress' senses. Mistress is such an enigmatic and powerful woman who has given much of Mistress' time to train her property. This little worm is grateful to Mistress.

6/29/2011 8:38:16 AM
Mistress was kind enough to send me a video of her rubbing her feet together...it started a fire. She hs the sexiest toe ring, too. She also made me recap my duties so that she knows I am completely clear in our dynamic. Mistress has turned out to be most caring and demanding. I am hoping to be both collared and branded with her mark soon.

6/27/2011 12:50:15 PM
Where Mistress and I now stand: I am not allowed to date or sleep with other women. I am not allowed to masturbate. I am not allowed to smoke. I must spend time each morning in a humble position and remember our dynamic. Whenever possible I must ask permission to eat. I must only eat foods approved by Mistress. Mistress has final approval on my clothing. Mistress has final approval on other grooming...such as style of hair. These are some of the most important things that Mistress now owns. She has been most kind to not allow me to decide things. Mistress is a most beautiful and intelligent woman.

6/24/2011 6:26:02 PM
Mistress is angry with me. I hide nothing from her, and confess everything. Another woman's foot caught my eyes today. She has lavished much attention on me. I showed her a great disrespect. I am sorry, Mistress.

6/23/2011 12:43:23 PM
Mistress has now completely taken over my diet and free time. I must now submit my choice of clothes each day. I made the mistake of getting a haircut today without asking. My hair was already in the style she likes and the cut only tightened it up...but now I must also ask permission for these decisions. She is a powerful woman.

6/21/2011 9:30:32 AM
Mistress seems to be introducing themes of a Gorean nature. I've been given a personal name...Caged Kajirus. Mistress is still taking more control of me daily.

6/19/2011 10:29:44 PM
Mistress and I have been having the most lovely conversations. She has given me the honor of giving me two more daily tasks to serve her. Mistress is such a kind woman to me. I have a burning and overwhelming desire to serve her. It is seeming so very natural and unforced...she seem to be introducing elements of slavery to her. That is a magic word. We spoke of my place at a dinner time on the floor beneath her feet. I still haven't released and my tiny, little clit(I said it, Mistress) is very hard. I asked for permission and again was denied. I feel fortunate to have found her.

6/19/2011 5:45:14 AM
Mistress gave me a most longed for treat last night. She masturbated and let me listen to her. I do love the humiliation aspects of this lifestyle...I crave it as I do air. She was deliciously cruel. As I an forbidden releases, I am still rabid with lust, and the fact that she had two orgasms excites me even more.

6/18/2011 2:20:48 PM
Mistress was kind enough to ssend a photo of herself....wow!

6/18/2011 4:54:01 AM
Mistress and I had such a nice conversation last night. I am more and more wishing to yield my self to her. She is a devious and sweet woman. She is giving me the honor of her masturbating to the thought of me being caged and kneeling before her. She is also still helping me improve my personal life in little but necessary areas. I find myself longing to serve her.

6/17/2011 8:07:16 PM
Mistress is enjoying my journal

6/17/2011 5:09:39 AM
Mistress has ordered me to kneel for two minutes as soon as I get out of bed each morning. I am to center my thoughts on her and improving myself. I am to think of ways that I may please her in my thoughts and actions to become a better boy. Today I will remember to keep my eyes down or to avert them at the sight of any other women who may cause a displacement of my desire. I will remember that she has much control over my life...I. am becoming less me and more hers. I willl remeember to be grateful for the time and attention that she is showing me...Mistress can choose anyone to serve and torment, so I should be grateful.

6/16/2011 8:17:06 PM
Mistress has been very kind to me.

6/15/2011 2:48:05 PM
I think she is upset with me. I have slacked on some of my obligations.

6/13/2011 5:04:34 PM
Mistress is now making day to day choices choices for me. She will be deciding what I will wear.

6/12/2011 4:13:40 AM
Mistress is being very sweet of late. I'm finally able to be totally me whenver I speak with her. The romantic feelings are beginning to develop. I'm glad my sexual inadequacies have already been talked about...she knows what to expect(or not). This life of chastity is what I have forever needed. If we ever move forward I will take pride in being her...whatever she chooses to call me. Whenever she reminds me how small my dicklette is, I always receive some compliment of something she likes about me...it make the pain even sweeter. I so very much would love to be lying at the foot of her bed, sucking each single toe of hers...an hour a piece...a whole day in her bed telling her how beautiful she is, how grateful I am that she is taking control of my life...rather, guiding me. Thank you, Ma'am.

6/9/2011 6:19:02 PM
She was not pleased...I could tell by the tone of her voice. I regret my lack of self-control. Her punishment: free pass to masturbate as much as I want for one week. It is strange...but I now do not wish to do so. I now wish to obey her commands...the denial and frustration is much sweeter than the orgasm...I am sorry Ma'am.

6/9/2011 5:57:12 AM
She isn't happy with me.

6/9/2011 3:25:43 AM
Mistress is going to be most displeased with me today. Our conversations have made me very aroused... I had such delicious fantasies and broke my rule. I am sorry, Ma'am.

6/8/2011 6:28:35 PM
She just texted me and told me she was looking at cages. A boy can dream can't he?

6/8/2011 6:28:07 PM
She just texted me and told me she was looking at cages. A boy can dream can't he?

6/8/2011 4:34:40 AM
I am learning the difference bbetween physical gratification And.....love. She is helping me see that I do have some worth and it will be possible to have some level of true intamacy with a woman one day...it seems clearer now to me that love is about sacrificing ones own desires to help another to find hapiness. It would be selfish of me to expect another to live in a sexually dull and unfufilling relationship-esp if sex is important to her. Sex is a need for some, so I believe I understand how selfish I have been. Her rule is firm and cathartic. I was most insensitive to her last night in our chat... I did not mean to be.

6/7/2011 8:15:26 PM
She told me she was with a lover today...I don't know how to feel Blah!

6/7/2011 11:10:33 AM
I woke up a few minutes ago. I released in my sleep. I had the most erotic visions of my "mistress". As soon as I shook enough sleep off I. Txted her to let her know. I believe she is not pleased. My apoplogies to her.

6/7/2011 7:00:45 AM
I've begged her. Thank god she is stronger than I am. She is an alpha-domme. I'm dreaming of having her beautiful little toes in my mouth..while she recounts her day. The little things...what flavor tea she drank with lunch. It is amazingly beautiful to stare into a woman's eyes knowing she wants every bit of you except for your sexuality. I feel very cherished. I'm beginning to develop some feelings for her that go beyond online play. I find myself attracted to her vanilla life. I'm wondering what it would be like to go to a movie or dinner with her. And know that her attention to me is very romantic and warm. I am beginning to think that her attention may be undivided for great lengths of time, so she may be given her due worship. But I know that soon she will itch...and will need a real man. It is a gift that I would love to give to a woman such as she seems to be. She uses such the sweetest nicknames for me at the most appropriate times. Earlier today I heard the word baby escape her sweet little lips... I feel so giddy.

6/7/2011 4:58:38 AM
At any rate...this feels good.

6/7/2011 4:43:50 AM
Woke up this morning to a most rude message here on cm....wow! Ma'am allows me to browse profiles. I like some of the art i ve found and like to send her her pics from time to time. We found out we have more in common last night...I travel for work, but she lives in my city...this is good. I made it through last night-but don't know how much longer I can hold out...I wish(hint, hint) she would command me to start keeping my eyes ever on the ground...but it is summer and the season of flip-flops and bared feet. Maybe eyes downcast and diverted. She has a most stern and melodic voice. It is knowing and penetrates my core. I have temporarily found my long supressed fantasies and dreams coming true. I have been so tired and fake. But now I am me.

6/6/2011 7:56:00 PM
Such a wonderful discussion with her...she is a good friend so far...a shrink a teacher...part mommy...interrorgator...she knows I'm burning for release. She is refusing. I've been told to not even think about her sexually as it would never be my gift from her. She needs to be pleased by a real man, not me...so I have no problems with this...I was reminded how necessary this is.....and we seem to have some common interests too.

6/6/2011 3:21:42 PM
Mistress just told me she had worn stilettos today...yum! I imagined her wearing them and strap-on.

6/6/2011 6:02:27 AM
Ma'am has reminded me that it looks as if I could never please anyone with my tiny little self. I long for some release...but if pleasure can not be given, pleasure should not be received...I was contacted by someone today who obviously can not read that I am claimed for the time being and may not respond to anyone. Delicious thoughts burn through me..I am hoping that another may please her, because I very may well be caged or never freed from this control I freely given to a most beautiful and intelligent and erotic woman. Thank you, Ma'am for helping me accept what I am.

6/5/2011 12:53:24 PM
Such sweet and violent images. I am begging to release, she refuses. It is a withdrrawl of sorts Her refusal only makes me hornier...she is reminding me that she is in charge of my orgasms...and I will never again release for pleasure. And any for health issues will be most unpleasant...God what a magnificent woman. I like this power she holds over me...the desire and longing for orgasm is better than the orgasm itself.

6/5/2011 4:24:23 AM
Four: mistress thinks I should make a confession. It is something I have always known but is still difficult to talk about. I have a very tiny penis. She was not impressed when I sent her a pic. She believes we will need a custom made cage to keep me chaste...and I believe her I also have very littl stamina. My former and only other mistress (ltr relationship) said the same thing and it is one of the reasons she uncollared me. She said that if she wanted me I should be able to satisfy her...but since I could not, I was of no use to her. I am accepting of the fact that a woman has needs that I can never meet and grateful for the fact that she has chosen to take some of the pressure of performing away from me. Mistress is so physically attractive that desire rages within so much it hurts and and the thought of a lifetime of denial brings such sweet pain. She also occasionally reminds me why and is so sweetly cruel. I do love brutal honesty and humiliation...she knows this and is kind enough to express this often to meet my darkest needs. I am lucky that she considers me worthy enough to grace with presence.

6/4/2011 5:00:11 AM
Three: I made it. I hope this pleased her. She has been kind enough to start taking away other rights and give me things to do to better myself. I fully believe she is more than competent for me to yield to her.

6/3/2011 11:02:23 PM
Two: she left me to dream about being her caged little cuck. We had a nice conversation tonight. About life about the expression of love between a man and a woman. I was left with thoughts of sucking her holy little toes. I wonder if I can make it until tomorrow without my forbidden release.

6/3/2011 9:05:52 PM
Entry one: I met a woman on here a few weeks ago. She has allowed me to express things that have previously fallen on deaf and ignorant ears. She has been very kind to me and has seemingly taken me under her nuturing wings. She thinks it would be a good idea to express some things through journaling, and has told me to be honest about myself and my feelings toward her..... Ok...here we go. Stronger women have always excited me...dominant women Growing up they seemed to sense that I was...un-alpha in some areas and treated me accordingly.

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Llearith
 
 Age: 18
 Los Angeles, California