Today, I was thinking whether I could live without this in my life - considering that it would make finding a partner sooo much easier it is a thought that I am sure that we have all considered at some point.
As the frustration of this and other sites rings out from a number of profiles and journals I don't feel that my premise is incorrect but here it is - simply i could not do it. For me this is my life, it is such an ingrained part of me that not to have it hurts.
There is something so special about the relationship between a sub and her dom and I use her as that is what i have experience of, but that relationship cannot be replicated in the same way in vanilla - yes there are strong and hugely successful relationships but that is for others and not for me as for me this is like the tell tale heart just a manifestation that I need this.
So what do I do from here because we have to leave this on a high, I don't want you all slashing wrists in unison - the answer is patience because as my mum says nothing good is ever easy.
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