PART ONE:

I am a fun loving, mature, educated, intellectual professional who finds himself floundering in this mainstream vanilla lifestyle. Time and time again I have come back to this site to read, learn- attempting to placate my submissive yearnings merely by living it vicariously through the ads of others. Today is the day I stop the vicariousness, put fingers to keyboard and dammit, do something about it!!

I chose the clear water picture for my profile because it sort of resembles me now, at the start of my journey, totally clear, transparent- yet the water can be changed: add color, evaporate it, freeze it, cloudy it up, swirl it and change the ripples... how will interacting with you change my water?

In my day to day activities, both at home and at work, I am very much in control, very much the one who takes charge of the situation and handles any problems very decisively. Thus it is a conundrum why I have vacillated so much in actually placing my own ad here. Perhaps it is the old adage "be careful what you wish for"... perhaps it's the trepidation of actually committing myself into giving control over to another... perhaps it's the fact of actually confessing to another the desires that reside deep in my soul that have been repressed for so long... perhaps it's the fact that when you gaze at me with that knowingly wicked look in your eyes and your finger crooked beckoning me to you it makes my mouth dry, body tingle, goosebumps appear, hands tremble- um, wait... no... scratch that last line, that's for another email, I'm getting ahead of myself!!!!!!!!!!!

PART DEUX:

As far back as I can remember in all of my relationships I have been the pleasure giver- not just sexually but in everyday interactions. NOTHING gives me greater joy, satiates me more than knowing and seeing the look of pleasure on my partners face. I could never understand the thought of one getting pleasure if their partner were not satisfied/pleased. More than half of my pleasure is derived from pleasuring you... knowing I have pleased you brings this very hard to describe, warm, intense, deep glowing sense of contentment that fills every fiber of my being. Now don't get me wrong, I am not a doormat type of person who will try to please everyone they encounter, a mouse bending to everyone's will so as not to upset anyone- on the contrary, I have to KNOW you, to TRUST you, to connect mentally with you for this to happen. I know it's a cliche but I truly believe the mind is our largest and most potent sexual organ-period! If I cannot arouse your mind and thoughts (and vice versa!), if we cannot connect and intrigue each other mentally, then all else is moot. (hmmm, moot makes me think of Scotland, which makes me think of wearing a kilt in front of you, which makes me think of underneath it... WAIT, I digress again, sorry!)

PART THREE & LA FIN:

Just a bit more of what you may find out about me should we decide to take this journey together: I have a very, very, VERY overactive imagination and tend to fantasize quite a bit. Just the slightest innuendo can trigger my imagination into overdrive. I am very tactile and have been told that I have great hands, I could spend hours just examining and feeling your index finger alone. Love to kiss and consider myself extremely orally inclined. I have been told that I am easy on the eyes and that I have a very sensual voice especially when it's used in a low whisper. I have been told my eyes are one of my best features amongst other bodily structures! I am not seeking to meet as many Mistress's as I can on here, rather that One with whom I can truly connect. One to finally take my hand and lead me down that oh so damn intriguing path already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!