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**READ ALL BEFORE MESSAGING! JOURNALS TO!**
** Those who are not reading my profile and finding out all the info they can about me before they open the EMail and message me with a stupid question that would/could have been answered had they simply read the entire profile including entries are immediately ignored and or deleted. **
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Okay I am not really sure what all to put here and after spending a couple hours looking at other people's profiles I suppose it would be safer to just narrow down the search for everyone including myself. I am interested in learning more..and hopefully finding out more in R/L. I want to explore what comes naturally to me and I desperately want to explore my submissive side as well. I am a divorcee, with two children. My children come first always, so to the Right Master if he can accept that, then things should work out nicely and i should be able to learn openly and completely. As for a submissive Female..I'm sorry ladies but I look for submissive females only once in a blue moon though I am attracted to other females it's not as strong of a pull. So, needless to say, the other female has to click almost perfectly. *smiles* What limited knowledge I have is gained through another online source for the last 4 years. And as I have said its very limited. I still seem to push myself to learn more and well this is new for me coming here. I am all but ready to give up cause every attempt thus far to really learn from a Master has ended in one road block, canyon, or brick wall after another. So please only those who are serious in helping to guide my journey in discovery of who and what I am, need bother to speak with me. I am not here for games or mind fucks. I'm here for serious learning and intellectual conversations. Thank you in advance to those of you who know the true meaning of submission and it's gift as well as the meaning behind the collar. Collars should not be worn with velcro but with lock and key.
P.S. Please read my entire profile including journal entries before messaging me if I did NOT message you first! Otherwise your message gets deleted and not responded to.
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well, here I go...not sure what to even type here anymore. Its been so long since I last did an entry. Things in RL have gone in the opposite directions i had been hoping for. And I seem to have lost even the one person here who i felt such a strong connection with. Guess I know where I stand..the same place i always have...in the exact same place I started. Oh well...It'll eventually move again just no telling when. And as far as my searching...I've stopped searching, not going to bother wasting my time or their's at this point. Cause why should I give a piece of myself to someone who doesn't or obviously doesn't feel the same way or will not give in return? And no, this does not mean them subbing for me. This is in meaning of simple emotions, trust, respect, and just manners and decency in general. Again, I'm not wasting my time on those wanting a "play" date, or a hook up, or a quickie or someone who isn't willing to work with the issues that prevent me from making any quick jump the gun decisions. If you cant accept that it may possibly be months of emails, phone calls, IMs, cam etc...before It is even remotely plausible to entertain the idea of a visit..then don't waste your time or mine. I have children I have to consider, before I can consider my own needs or wants. And as for the why's of my search not going further..well those particular know the why's..cause what's the point right? anyways, yeah, I'm rambling now and again..what's the point? no one really reads these anyways right? *shrugs* for those who happened to stumble across my profile and actually read this. Sorry..I wish you the best though.
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Just an update on my surgery, I have been released from my doctor to return to work. And I am doing quite well. Surgery was a success!!! This being said, it is yet again time for me to move, my computer is dead and well until I am working again to repair it there is no reason for a connection at my new home. So if you ARE in fact reading my journal entries then please understand that if you email me and I do not respond immediately that I will respond as soon as I am near a computer with a connection that I am able to respond to such emails. Thank you in advance and thank you again for all the well wishes and prayers from those who did keep me in their thoughts and gave encouragement during my recovery. You were very beneficial to my speedy recovery both physically and mental.
MUCH LOVE!!!! |
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I received this this morning from a complete stranger. They in turn had received it as a chain message and thought to pass it on to me. I truly believe EVERY female..,and male in the reverse, should be thinking like this when searching for their perfect Master, Slave, Dom or Sub.
A man asked a woman he was pursuing the question:
'What kind of man are you looking for?'
She sat quietly for a moment before looking at him in his eyes & asked, 'Do you really want to know?'
Reluctantly, he said, 'Yes.
She began to explain, 'As a woman in this day & age, I am in a position to ask a man what can you do for me that I can't do for myself?
I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man...
or woman for that matter.
I am in the position to ask, 'What can you bring to the table?'
The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.
She quickly corrected his thought & stated, 'I am not referring to money. I need something more.
I need a man who is striving for excellence in every aspect of life.
He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, & asked her to explain.
She said, 'I need someone who is striving for excellence mentally because I need conversation & mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man.
I need someone who is striving for excellence spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.
I need a man who is striving for excellence financially because I don't need a financial burden.
I need someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded.
I need someone who has integrity in dealing with relationships. Lies and game-playing are not my idea of a strong man.
I need a man who is family-oriented. One who can be the leader, priest and provider to the lives entrusted to him by God.
I need someone whom I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him.
I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of himself. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy.
And by the way, I am not looking for him...He will find me. He will recognize himself in me. He may not be able to explain the connection, but he will always be drawn to me. God made woman to be a help-mate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself.
When she finished her speech, she looked at him.
He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, 'You are asking a lot.
She replied, I'm worth a lot. |
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So week two is now out of the way. I have done some cleaning of the "friend" list as i have not heard or spoken to many that had found their way there. Please do not be upset if you find that you are one of those that was removed. I have no issue in still talking to you, it just it takes more to be there than one conversation.
Previous journal entry update...things are going as to be expected in my recovery. There is days i wake up and completely forget that I even had to go through any of that only to get a sharp wake up call about an hour later. *laughs*
How does all of this affect my search you may ask? well it definitely slows things down as many Dominants don't want to even consider me and others look at it as a way to exploit it and figure I am weak. Sadly both would be wrong in that assumption. So the few that I have remained in touch with and communicate with on a fairly regular basis have become who i consider friends and because of that I cherish their wisdom and their knowledge greatly. I thank them for their support and their care. *big hugs*
To the ones who may still be looking or who may be interested, and for anyone who comes across my profile please please please!!! read before messaging. I hate to be ugly and i hate to be mean but i will most definitely be so if i realize that it is clear that you didn't read.
Thanks for all the thoughts and warm wishes.
Till next time! be good or be good at it :P
best wishes everyone, ~Moonglow |
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So my back surgery was successful yesterday morning. I was released to come home this morning and I am suppose to be bed rest and yet I'm here. So just to let everyone know do not get discouraged if I do not respond to messages asap. It is likely because I am having to take it easy. But rest assured that I will respond to them as soon as I am able. Until then, well wishes everyone.
~Moonglow |
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Today has been a roller coaster of emotions and thoughts. I find that I am questioning my determination and if its not my determination its the path that I have chose to take that I find myself questioning. My R/L is very hectic currently and makes things even more difficult for me in this aspect. The finding time and or accepting minds, to meet on a whim due to having two kids and trying to find a babysitter when its limited. The chances are rare and often last minute. *sighs* My mind seems to be all over the place. I never thought I'd be back in this place again. This mental state of confusion, lost, uncertainty, when normally i am very certain, clear headed, and no what i want, when where and how often. No one has ever told me this is the place of a sub, but yet when ever i try to go down this route this seems to be where i end up. I am finding many reasons to smile but yet at the same time disappointments as well. I know this is life but i wouldn't expect these things to be on the scale that they are... |
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Alright so yes, I am getting a lot of responses and that is great! I love talking to everyone. But I will go ahead and put here now to answer a few common questions I am seeing in my emails. No I am not taken by anyone as of yet. Yes there is a few I am seriously contemplating at least meeting in R/L. Will I be a 24/7 or a bedroom? that is yet to be discovered. There is many things that have to be set in place for either to take place.
I need a dominant male who is clear on who they are and their role..but who is also clear and accepting of who and what I am. Please do not expect a switch to be 100% a sub. It just sets up for disappointment. Yes a switch is versatile and can flip from relationship to relationship or within a particular relationship. But I prefer to have my dominance in place in certain aspects of my life, and more than happy and NEED to be able to submit to the stronger dominant male. I am not a slave..i will not be a doormat. I want my thoughts, concerns, and voice to be heard. I want whatever it is that is bothering me talked about and worked out. I don't want to feel that I am being pressured or forced into something that I may not want. So please keep in mind those who are submissives, switches, and or slaves. We are human to.
BTW, those who are not reading my profile and finding out all the info they can about me before they open the Email and message me with a dumb question that would/could have been answered by simply reading..are immediately ignored and deleted.
*smiles warmly to everyone*
Have a great and wonderful day, week, weekend, whatever it may be for you when you read this.
~Moonglow |
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So I sit here and ponder..Am I really ready for all of this? Do I take a deep breath and just leap? Do I keep my breathing calm and neutral and take things in baby steps?
Things have already become pretty intense and pretty deep with a few people in correspondence. And I find myself nearly terrified that I am contemplating this. But in the same respect I find myself exhilarated and excited at the prospects.
I find myself in an even worse predicament of craving this knowledge I have yet to achieve or reach and it nearly chokes me. The constant having to question every single thing i think, feel, say, or do is nearly nerve racking. And I thank greatly to those few that have been able to get me to pause and take a deep breath and refocus. It has been such a great help already.
So let me go ahead and make a few more things clearer than it was in my initial profile. Submissive males at this time and up to this point have never done anything for me sexually..it hasn't appealed to me. Sorry guys, no offense really. I do not mind being their Dominant and I can easily take the role if need be, but in the end it will not be as satisfying for me as it is for them. Because I am denying a part of who I am.
Submissive females, yes, this is a turn on for me and only the truly submissive females need to even begin a conversation with me. Unless this female is a Dominant and only wishes to share their experiences with me and maybe also help me to understand some aspects that I may not have full understanding of.
Dominant Males, Okay, here's the thing, if you are older than 45 as much as i think it is sweet and potentially wonderful that you wish to help me. I have issue with looking past the fact that you would be old enough to be my father, grandfather and in some cases even remind me of my elementary school bus driver. I cant get past that and I am sorry. Now, in the opposite respect, If you are younger than 25, please stop and think and really question yourself if you are truly a Dominant Male and that you know all that you need to know to actually further my search, I currently have two younger males than 25 that I am speaking to and that is fine..but this is for future purposes.
All other Dominant Males in between those age ranges, Again, all I ask is that you truly stop and question yourself before proceeding to speak with me. Liars, cheaters, those who aren't truly certain, need not apply here. I don't want to start the journey as a submissive only to have to switch to my Dominant side simply because that defeats the purpose of me being here. Also, if you are contacting me in hopes that I am going to meet up with you tomorrow, or even the coming weekend, you would be wrong. Much has to be said and much has to be gone over before I will even contemplate it. So if you are that eager to meet me, then I ask you to stop and think to yourself.." Do I need to meet her now? why do I need to meet her now? Is it my head that is talking or is it my cock's head that is talking?" Okay after you have asked yourself this..and you realize that its your testosterone or hormones or down right horn dog needs that is speaking, apply the breaks with a quickness. I am not here for a hook up, I am not here for a one night stand, I am not here to be your fuck toy and to be left wondering what happens next. I am here to learn from a true Master/Dominant Male. He needs to have experience in this life style, and needs to know what he wants from this kind of relationship and have the capacity to teach, be firm, but gentle, patient, but also know just when to push. I will state here what i have stated for nearly 4 years in the other online avenue..
A Master, a true Master, will first be able to control themselves, and will control themselves, before they attempt or begin to control the life of another.
With that said, if you find that you have a temper issue or that you lose your temper quickly, or you are pushy to the point of annoying and it angers you when the submissive doesn't respond to this in the way you think he/she should..then you need to back up a couple of steps and rethink your own Dominance and your own formation in this lifestyle before contacting me.
Now, if you find that you meet these requirements or think that you meet them, then by all means send me a message. We'll talk. Do not get offended if I do not speak much to start with, or that it takes me a little while to fully respond or respond at all. I am a single mother with two children and a very hectic day to day life currently. I will respond to your message as soon as I am able to find the down time and the quiet time to answer. Please do not send me your messenger information and say "lets talk" ok, that is the most boring one liner I have ever come across. Please tell me a little about yourself and maybe ask a few questions for me to answer. I find that is the best way to start conversation.
Thank you in advance.
~Moonglow |
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I am overwhelmed by the depth of the conversations i have already had with a few that have contacted me. This seems to be a promising avenue for me and i look forward to this journey no matter how scary it is to kinda feel like the little fish in the BIG pond with the BIG fishes lol. Even though i seem to be physically exhausted currently I seem to be mentally excited over the prospect of learning more about myself and about the life style in general. I look forward to many more conversations down the road. I just pray that I don't run into too many creepy people, fakes, or liars. That is one thing i do not tolerate in any form once so ever. Be warned I am a scorpio, we do not take betrayal in any form lightly. *smiles sweetly fluttering her eyelashes* ok so anyways, now that that is out of the way. Just to give another tidbit on what kind of person i am. When i write in journals, i tend to write by how i am feeling, and sometimes those feelings may come out in a poetry form. Hell i may even post a few past poems that i have written just to share them. If this interests you at all by all means send me a message. My time is limited due to being a single mother with two young boys. Relocation in any form is possible but it also depends on just how far the relocation would be. So i left that option unchecked due to that fact alone. I do not want to narrow the search field too small simply because i feel that there is still so much to learn from someone else even if you are building a friendship and they are on the otherside of the world... a lot can be learned from a "friend" in that manner. Ok now i feel like I am rambling..maybe i should stop while i am ahead tonight and leave it at that... *smiles and waves good night*
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| Age: 23 |
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