Cannot wait. Just a couple more months before I'm a Certified Personal Trainer. Still haven't decided on rehab fitness or dietary tech afterwards. One thing for sure after all this is over;I intend to catch up on my leisure reading which has been in short supply recently.

LTR seems to be an issue. A committed LTR relationship with a sub. A passionate,sincere,fiery,kinky relationship. Aren;t there any subs out there with true passion and heart?! I am also sick of getting msgs from scam artists/freaks who want to move in with me immediately after only one msg. And they're all from the South!!! It's like a mecca for women who want to relocate.

Workouts are good;new gym is not. I miss my hack press and other things. And it's humid as hell.

New tat is finally healing. Already planing on the next session which will consist of 2 small ones and a modification to an old one. I am debating about getting additional chest work done as well.

A sub should not be pushy or full of attitude. Respectful and sincere. Eager to please,but in pleasing know that she is also being cared for.

Communication is key.
The needs of both are the door.
The result of sincere domination and service is the bed both make.

That bed should be both sturdy and comfortable.

Hard to believe I will be 38 soon. Time sure has passed quickly. Physically I don't feel it;I'm still destroying in the gym. Mentally, this past year taught me a lot and took a lot out of me.  For the first time I ever, I approach a birthday feeling not young.

Kind of weird. Growing up is awkward.

BDSM Dating Notes:

No Subs in high school. I'm a perv not a pedophile.

No Subs who don't own cars.

Profiles with no pic or any kind of information.

Subs who are looking for the 'perect' Dom. No such thing exists. Dating is hard enough. Throw in the bdsm component and it gets even harder. I have my list of must haves/non-negotiables and a much bigger list of things I can comporimise on. You don't have to settle,but damn being picky about how and when I got into bdsm is just plain silly!

Subs who are either scarred by the male subhumans in the scene or who read 50 Shades and are curious. At some point you have to stick your neck out and trust. If you're so paranoid and distrustful after a few harsh emails from idiots then perhaps you aren't ready for this. Ugh. 50 Shades. So much damage to the scene.

All the idiot 'Doms' out there who freak out women by sending them really mean and shitty messages. It' makes things that much harder for the rest of us. Forgetting what I wrote above, I do feel empathy for subs.

Subs who ask for additional pics but then don't bother reading your mesage.

If we go out I will not take you to Taco Belle and then expect you to pay for it. I'm much classier than that. Steak and Shake. And I'll pay(joke)

I will not send pics of my junk.

I will not ask for explicit pics;I like a little mystery.

I will not bail you out of jail.

No married women!!!!!!!!!!

Webcam girls!!

Subs who insist on meeting me and then back out at the last moment irritate me.

I will pay for both of us and actually use real money not coupons.

You will never see me drunk,first date or no.

You will never see me smoke.

Subs with no manners suck!

Ah the age thing.

I'm 37. I'm in excellent health,particularly for my age. I have anal eating habits(no fast food,pop,fried foods,etc) Cakes and other high sugary foods upset my stomach. I have to be very careful about eating out as 'unclean' or greasy  or 'other' food upsets my stomach.

I have had a mixed life as far as life experience goes. Buried both parents by the age of 27,had to deal with all the baggage that came with. Was hospitalized due to a back spasm when I was 28 and couldn't walk for 2+ days;a humbling experience.

At what age is their a barrier towards finding someone? I have had wonderful,awesome,fucking great conversations with a 20 year old sub and just ridiculous ones with a 41 year old who was stupid,ignorant and lazy. I would prefer someone a little older. More likely to have things in common. More stuff to talk about. But if I met someone significantly younger than me who made me laugh,worked out like a she devil ,was smart,fun and utterly submissive to my desires then age matters not.

I could care less what anyone thinks. I just want to find a sub. I just want to have those every day experiences and pleasures. I want fire.passion,intensity......thunder!
Age  is not a barrier to me in this.

"You can be the Alpha Male. I'm the Omega Male, the one left standing at the end"

Sigh. Webcam girls. So much silliness sometimes.

Thinking about shaving my head again.....

Maybe I'm in the minority. Maybe I'm not a 'real' Dom or whatever. But I find the behavior of my fellow men involved in Bdsm to be downright subhuman many times. I can't imagine trying to start off a conversation with a woman by addressing her as whore and telling her she doesn't need to see a pic. Or telling a sub that I want to 'ruin her holes'.

It angers me on multiple levels. I find it offensive. I find it brutish and uncivilized and it makes it harder for Doms like me to find a sub to spend time with. Treating a woman like a human is not weak. Yes,I want someone to gag,spank,flog and fuck. Yes,I want to ravish her completely. But I do always keeping in mind that she is a fellow human being and what she is giving/allowing me is a great gift. The ultimate sign of trust in many ways.

I will continue on my path as I firmly believe it is the right one.

And being called Sir is earned. Not demanded or done while beating the piss out of someone til she can't move.

 

Workouts are back to normal. This is a good thing as I loathe not being able to truly kill in the gym.

It's vaguely disturbing how many subs/slaves want to be treated as an object and not a person. I may desire to use my sub however I wish sexually,but I will always do so knowing that she is human being not some creature to use and abuse or beat or burn.

Her submission is both a gift and a responsibility.
Her giving herself to me is an honor and a privilege.
Her desire to please me is a beautiful idea and an idea to appreciate.

Looking forward to posting new pics. Also looking forward to this summer being behind me.

More games.

Nothing like going from making plans for someone to visit to her flaking out and ceasing contact. Are all girls from NY(NC) like this?

I do appreciate anyone who views me and takes time to msg me.   A new friend is better than  nothing.

I think it's rude to NOT read someone's message. I'vegotten messages from gay guys and I still read them-some have been funny.

I will always read a message from someone who has taken the time to write unless it's a repeat person who didn't get the point the first time that I am not intertested.

Just 'cause I'm a perv doesn't mean I don't have manners.

Onto other matters....

Given the limited selection in the dating pool based on certain sexual interests/desires,I think it's a good thing to be fairly open minded about potential subs/doms/other. Anyone who is close to me will get attention. Anyone who shares my fetishes will get my attention. Age only matters in that I need someone who can keep up with me.

It's rare to meet someone that you truly gel with;why be so strict and severe when you're looking? Age is only a number in many cases. Why not take a chance and explore a little?

New car,new temp. job(s), starting certification(finally!)......

Maybe I might meet someone new as well.

So I'm watching some silly movie with Ashton Kutcher and Natalie Portman on mute. Natalie is 'examining' Kutcher on a table while wearing a Doctor's smock and nothing else and it occurs to me how hot that looks and then it occurs to me that a sub wearing that while cuffed and cleave gagged would be really hot and fun to explore.

Another new fetish for me

To all males:I am not a homophobe. I loathe them. Buuuut..........

NO MORE MESSAGES FROM MEN PLEASE!!!!!!!!!

Perhaps I live in the wrong state.....

Highly unfortunate that I had to do what I did today. I cannot accept teasing/games. Even if it wasn't intentional my time is precious. Either you want to learn or not. Don't join a site and respond and spend extensive time chatting/texting/talking and then pull a flake.

You want to play adult games then you will have to play using adult rules. A shame. I genuinely liked her. She was funny as hell. Her issues and her unwillingness to defy/go against her Father likely will kill any chance of us having a fun Summer and our friendship. She was so funny. Such spark.She never understood that it was more than her looks or sex that kept me interested. I really wanted to guide and teach her and enjoy her company and see where things would go between us.

If you don't know what you want then you shouldn't be on a dating site much less a bdsm one.

On to other matters.


Workouts have been fairly raging. The Iron is all I need to get me thru the day. It never fails me,never leaves me,never bores me and never runs from me.No games,no bullshit.

I would like to meet a no bullshit,no games woman who has her head on straight and knows what she wants and has truly embraced her sexuality. Someone who wants to be worshipped,made helpless and know that by her submission she will be taken care of and guided thru and to erotic bliss. Someone who wants to burn stars with me as we join together in our respective roles. When we are mutually spent we will collapse into each other's arms and know that we just split the atom together.

Why make a profile and then take it down the next day?If you're not willing to fuly embrace the lifestyle then you shouldn't be sites like this. Why is it so hard to find an honest,no bullshit sub?

Frustrated. Can't seem to find anyone around me and yet I get viewed and even hit on by women from Texas and California.

Bah. Trust issues are sooo annoying. No games children. Bdsm is ,at heart,about trust.Why all the wasted time and bullshit?

SHE is the only one for me.

Sigh.No more submissive males!!!! Hetrosexual!!!

Intrigued by the thought of punishing and humiliation from women from out of town. Might be right up my alley.

I am hetro. I have ZERO interest in dominating any man. Do not pass go,do not collect 200.

Just because I want to see you bound and gagged for my pleasure doesn't mean I'm not a gentleman

This morning was just what the good doctor ordered.

One opportunity seems to have closed. Perhaps another will take its' place. Online dating is such a meat market.

I wonder how many other male doms feel like I do sometimes. I'm in the mood for absolute,total,complete and utter dominance but in a very sensual,almost languid kind of way. Firm,but not really harsh. Groping,teasing,strict but truly enjoying seeing her cuffed and gagged and awaiting whatever I desire.

'Tis a most intense feeling of pleasure.

Take those off now!!! You know the rules....It is time for you to amuse me
You will get a punishment... you will play FOR me and you can NOT cum....
you must wait till i say, you must beg for my permission, you must work for the privilege and it WON'T be soon....
You fail... you will get the paddle...
Do you understand?

3 Annoyances:

No males!!!! I have ZERO interest in men and even less in dominating one.

Women sending me stuff when they live many miles away. 


Women saying they're into stuff and then backing out. My must haves are just that MUST HAVES. There will never be any compromise on this! I seek an intelligent,mannered, attractive female who will serve each and every one of my sexual needs.  No exemptions!

I do not get the gas mask fetish. But I also believe that each human has a right to express their sexuality as he/she sees fit as long as no animal or child is being hurt.

Got in an excellent workout on a night off from work. As always it's great to hit the iron. Easily the best thing I have ever found for myself. Settled in for kickboxing and some food. No jokers or people talking or screwing around made it even better. I threw the weight around that's for sure.

It occurs to me that I'm somewhat out of place when it comes to bdsm. I love certain aspects of it,curious about others and find other stuff unappealing where many others seem to really like them. I won't budge on what I'm looking for, I don't care if I die alone. I want passionate,sincere servitude exactly how I like it.

 

Can't wait to start school. I really really should've done this years ago. Sometimes things are so obvious, that you don't see them. I think being a trainer and maybe doing so work at a physical therapy office suits me well. Maybe a Master's in History at some point as well.

I'm in one of my severe blouse and cleave gag phases. It's beyond a simple definition of sexual;it's something that combines eros,passion,sensuality,restraint,beauty and domination. I've always had a blouse fetish going back to 2nd grade. The two just go hand in hand to me. I just want to run my hands all over that blouse,every square inch. Look into her eyes,hear her muffled moans/noises just totally physically devour her with my hands and eyes.

My other thing lately has been spanking with some dildo play in both holes. Not sure why. Me and my moods. Feeling very dominant lately,like I want to cuff her hands and feet ,gag her,blindfold her, throw her over my shoulder and take her somewhere and just be completely,utterly in charge and wear the both of us out hard and intensely and passionately.And then she collapses into my arms and I stroke her pretty face and hair.

Will have to be more careful about screening women. So tired of the bullshit and the 'I don't like that" a dozen times. Why bother me then???

UFC 160 is coming soon. And that means the man, Mark Hunt will be fighting and hopefully winning. He's a warrior. Such a great fighter to watch;goes for the KO every time.

I miss Vikings

I will be hanging with my little cousin Fen on Saturday;he's turning 1. Can't wait to watch him grow up. Family has grown more important to me over the last few years.