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Inspired by conversation with a young boy who seeks 24/7 inescapable forced slavery...
But don't you see... that comes naturally for any skilled Seductress... women like myself, we get soooooo much further under your skin cuz you kneel down and beg us to enchant you... and when we do - once we've effectively infiltrated your deepest darkest most secret core and given you just a taste - no a wiff of the life you've always fantasized about securely nestled in a life you can actually exist in you realize just how hopelessly and eternally trapped you are... because one can escape prisons of chains and locks, but not ones of utter surrender and adoration. to know you can leave anytime but choosing every day, every hour, every minute to endure her will just to raise slightly the corners of her lips or dampen her panties... mmmm that's the shit right there.
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will be in Phoenix March 8 - 11, message me if you'd like to see me while I'm there. |
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I have come to consider that there are at least three very distinct "stages" of denial that a sub experiences. Need, Ache, and Frustration. In the past I've mistakenly used them interchangeably. I have had the opportunity over the years to observe closely the subtle differences in each very unique stage. I am enjoying the levels of denial coupled with the different levels of tease.
I have to say I like the word "need", although I wonder if it ever truly applies. One boy told me that there is a certain physical "need" that undeniably exists, but can be denied through resolve exercised on a highly mental/spiritual level. I guess this is where the "anything" (as in "I'll do anything"), would come into play. I mean if you really "NEED" something, especially on a cellular level then I imagine that you would do anything to satisfy that need. Especially if being manipulated by a skilled wickedly playful force.
Now ache -- hmmm I really like the concept of ache. The word itself conjures up some mighty yummy feelings inside me. I like the thought of a boy carrying around a pair of overly sensitive full balls. I giggle when I think of him sitting down more carefully with each subsequent day. To watch him get up and move around is comedy, especially immediately following a teasing session. I get all tingly when he tells me "I thought you'd like to know I'm REALLY feeling it today."
And then there's frustration. I think this one is the most volatile. It can go from funny and sexy to damn right fucking nuts in less time than it takes to unlock the darned thang. I must admit though my sadistic side seems to REALLY enjoy this part. I LOVE fucking with people. Making em all fidgety and nervous. Staring at them until they avert their eyes. But I dislike a generally frustrated person, kinda fucked up huh?
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"The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want." - Ben Stein
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"All it takes is one bad day to reduce the sanest man alive to LUNACY!" - The Joker
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The heat always makes me feel extra predatory... excessive heat warning
dealt with by hitting the river. Good to be back in the Southwest! West
side - best side! *winks*
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"I might not be the most beautiful, nor do I have the perfect body. I might not be your first choice, but I am a GREAT choice. I do not pretend to be someone else because I am too good at being ME. I might not be proud of some of the things I've done, but I am proud of who I am today. Take me as I am or watch me as I go." - Unknown
(LOVE this quote!)
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I read a quote by one of my favorite authors today that has me rather perplexed...
"The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person." - Chuck Palahniuk
I wonder if there isn't some truth to this, and if so how does anyone ever apply that knowledge? Do you go forward not allowing yourself to love the one you really want because according to Chuck, they could never possibly feel the same about you? Do you settle and give your love to someone besides the one you truly desire because maybe they may actually love you back? Do you just decide "fuck love" cuz it doesn't matter anyway you're never going to know the bliss of your love returning your affections?
Seriously, with all that in mind an archipelago looks better and better. Who has time and energy for all the posturing and positioning? When did we begin trying to harness and control our hearts -I thought they were suppose to run wild and hot?
Thanks Mr. Palahniuk for today's inner struggle, my Wednesday may have been entirely too serene without a lil angst.
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Has just exited one hellva roller coaster with one REALLY fucked up and confused "boy".
I hope he finds what he seeks, but I'm doubtful since he obviously doesn't know what that is...
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I had a great night with a gorgeous man inna beautiful spot... life is good.
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Last week I woke to a sweet achy subbie on the floor next to my bed... that was nice.
I'm looking for a boy who might enjoy doing that somewhat regularly.
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We are only limited by ourselves.
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Life can be so tough at times. And then there are times when things just work... when the fit is so natural and comforting. And yet still you can find yourself questioning and doubting everything...
I have chosen to not get hung up on the stuff I can't solve right this moment and just breathe. Relish and treasure those moments of perfection and hold their memory dear and use it to carry myself onto the next series of moments.
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Fun fact of the day - according to a certain immature deluded lil wannabe boy - having more than one person attracted to you and enjoying it makes you skanky....
SERIOUSLY? And you guys wonder why all of us "real" Dommes are guarded?
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Do you ever feel like you're sleep walking through your life? I sure do today.
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Is it possible? Is it ME? Am I simply just asking too much?
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And again I spent the majority of the evening chatting with someone that seemed to have a ton of potential for being the boy I seek only to have him suddenly log out and stop responding to messages. What *is* that? It's becoming a pandemic.
Thankfully I had a hunk of sexy boymeat to distract myself with.
But seriously folks, what *is* that about? Do you really not have anything better to do than to waste my time, cuz lord knows I do!
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I have this CRAZY thing for interrupting the sleep of my boy. I don't really know what it is...
It can be as innocent as calling them and waking them so mine is the first voice they hear and as cruel as waking them every hour - just cuz I can. However, my absolute favorite is to wake them by using them... be it wrapping my hand or lips around their cock teasing them til they start to stir and then stopping until they start drifting off again only to repeat - oooooor even better to set my pussy on their sleeping face.
I wish I was a Succubus.
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It's so easy to write all the right words, and seemingly much more difficult to act them out. I think I'd be head over heals if I ever met someone whose words matched their actions.
If you're out there, won't you find me?
And until you do, I'll be over here wasting time with all these pretty things.
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Where are all the genuine people? The people who don't tell you what they think you wanna hear, but somehow manage to tell you EXACTLY what you need to hear - the truth.
As much as I want an ongoing in person thing... as open and ready as I am... I'm also not willing to settle. And for all of you out there who meet my criteria and are trying to get my attention - keep trying and you can thank all your flakey brothers for my caution.
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And since I'm STILL waiting I'm having to be creative in coming up with ways to distract myself...
stuff like trying to build doggie carseats outta milk crates, throw pillows, and some of those cheap velcro cuffs with the clippy thing that attaches to things and in this case their collar.
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Have I mentioned how much I HATE waiting?
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I'm very happy tonight. I'm glad I didn't give up.
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I don't know how much of today really happened at this point...
last night I got about 4 hours sleep... that was 21 hours ago. Tonight I'll be lucky to get 3 hours...
Now, thoroughly exhausted I understand a little more the philosophy of
having to suffer your art. I'm more accustom to *you* suffering my art
but I digress.
And STILL many if not most of you were still coming at me with your dicks. Even though I was very articulate about my situation and priorities, you still copped attitude when I didn't put all that aside to tease your throbber.
In case you weren't clear... that's not submission. There were however a couple bright spots in my day... bring me more! (you know who you are)
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I think it's the stress of finals and the deadlines that come with coupled with the fact that because so much of my time is having to be spent on homework that my house isn't in the shape I like to keep it AND the fact that I coulda avoided much of this if I hadn't wasted so much of my time onna boy who has proven himself most undeserving and totally unappreciative that has had my journal looking like it belongs to Negative Nancy.
I have to say that most recently I've met some rather promising potentials, we'll see if one of them is "man enough to be my boy".
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Maybe it's time again to abandon the search and see what finds me... but I swear to God... I'll chew through my own wrists if I wind up inna nother decade plus primarily vanilla thang.
I've recently had my heart yanked from my chest and left on the grimey streets of London... when will I ever learn?
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How the hell does someone send you a chastity device to lock him in and then drop slowly off the face of the earth until one day his profile no longer exists?
He has your ID here, yahoo, your phone number AND address, dontcha think he coulda at least told you to "go fuck yourself"?
Oh well, neeeeeeext.
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What is it about these young boys that I find so irresistible... so savory? With the end of each experience I say "not doing that again, all future boys need be AT LEAST 30", and then some YOUNG, cute, eager, hard body comes along tripping my trigger line and as I scurry out to the web to find what I've ensnared and it's 9 outta 10 times a young fresh morsel under age 30. What is a Domme to do? Cut it loose - even knowing how delicious it's gonna taste? Not this Domme - I'm gonna drain it slloooooooowly... and really make these young boys consider if they're man enough to be my boy.
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" So let me get this straight - Larry King
is getting his 8th Divorce, Elizabeth Taylor is possibly getting
Married for a 9th time, Jesse James and Tiger Woods are screwing
EVERYTHING, yet the idea of same Sex Marriage is what is going to
destroy the institution of Marriage??? REALLY???" - Uknown
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Pearls and Swine... pearls and swine.
But damn some of those swine are so well spoken and pretty.
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Sometimes I get soooo overwhelmed with messages that I let some with great potential slip through the cracks unintentionally...
If you look at my profile and think, "I could be all that for her." or "I HAVE to serve her", and send me a message that goes unanswered - please send another... you could be the one.
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The Song of the Day:
"Busted" - Matchbox 20
I forget when words were only words
She knows the party makes me nervous
In this stage we can't get hurt
Don't try to understand me
We're too cool to be alone
But, not too crazy to get busted
I found out one life ain't enough
I need another soul to feed on
I'm the flame I can't get burnt
I'm wholly understated
I found silence in this space
An on and off again attraction
I need such amazing grace
Heaven sweep me away
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Clever text lifted from Unknown on FB:
Help fight supernatural thinking and the oppression of women, just by dressing immodestly!
"Many women who do not dress modestly ... lead young men astray,
corrupt their chastity and spread adultery in society, which
(consequently) increases earthquakes," Hojatoleslam Kazem Sedighi was
quoted as saying by Iranian media. Sedighi is Tehran's acting Friday
prayer leader.
I have a modest proposal.
Sedighi claims
that not dressing modestly causes earthquakes. If so, we should be able
to test this claim scientifically. You all remember the homeopathy
overdose?
Time for a Boobqauke.
On Monday, April 26th, I
will wear the most cleavage-showing shirt I own. Yes, the one usually
reserved for a night on the town. I encourage other female skeptics to
join me and embrace the supposed supernatural power of their breasts.
Or short shorts, if that's your preferred form of immodesty. With the
power of our scandalous bodies combined, we should surely produce an
earthquake. If not, I'm sure Sedighi can come up with a rational
explanation for why the ground didn't rumble. And if we really get
through to him, maybe it'll be one involving plate tectonics.
So,
who's with me? I may be a D cup, but that will probably only produce a
slight tremor on its own. If you'll be joining me on twitter, use the
tag #boobquake!
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I don't think the event is
completely contrary to feminist ideals. I'm asking women to wear their
most "immodest" outfit that they already would wear, but to coordinate
it all on the same day for the sake of the experiment. Heck, just
showing an ankle would be considered immodest by some people. I don't
want to force people out of their comfort zones, because I believe
women have the right to choose how they want to dress. Please don't
pressure women to participate if they don't want to. If men ogle,
that's the fault of the men, not me for dressing how I like. If I want
to a show a little cleavage or joke about my boobs, that's my
prerogative.
I also hate the ideal of "big boobs are always
better!" The cleavage joke was just a result of me personally having
cleavage, and that being my choice of immodesty. And I thought
"boobquake" just sounded funny. Really, it's not supposed to be serious
activism that is going to revolutionize women's rights, but just a bit
of fun juvenile humor. I'm a firm believer that when someone says
something so stupid and hateful, serious discourse isn't going to
accomplish anything - sometimes light-hearted mockery is worthwhile.
And
to the scientists who are concerned with my methods - don't worry, I
fully plan on doing some statistics after the event. I know many
earthquakes happen on a daily basis, so we're looking to see if
Boobquake significantly increases the number or severity of
earthquakes. Or if an earthquake strikes West Lafayette, IN and only
kills me, that may be good evidence of God's wrath as well (I'm not too
concerned). And yes, I know I need a larger sample size to make this
good science. Maybe I'll include Mardi gras in my calculations.
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I am so fucking hot... I can barely stand myself. I swear there have been times when I realllllly wished I had my own cock so I could turn around and give it to myself... And it's not my creamy ass or my pretty feet or my stunning smile and sparkling eyes, but rather my dark and twisty mind.
You should be so lucky as to get a glimpse.
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Watch out Utah I'm coming through. I'll be in St George tomorrow and SLC area Sat - Mon. Any footboys want to take me shopping for some new pumps? *winks*
Seriously though if you'd like to meet for coffee, message me.
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I really shouldn't sleep and chat... new rule at least a cup of tea before I post anything.
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For me it's not about having perfection presented to me, it's about creating it. It must be the artist in me. And selection isn't about perfection nor permanency but rather about instinct and intuition.
It's not about the ready made perfect boy, it's about growing together and becoming my perfect boy. I have waited this long, I can and will wait much longer.
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"Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness." - Bertrand Russell
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I need a good ass licking. And massage. And I need to fuck someone's head up. Ooooh and to hear some clicking locks or whimpering.
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Song of the Day:
"Follow Me" - Uncle Kracker
You don't know how you met me
You don't know why, you cant turn around and say good-bye
All you know is when im with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singing....
Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me
And I worry 'bout the ring you wear
Cause as long as no one knows
That nobody can care
Your fellin guilty
And I'm well aware
But you don't look ashamed
And baby I'm not scared
Im singin...
Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me
Solo
Won't give you money
I can't give you the sky
It better off if you don't ask why
I'm not the reason that you go stranded
We'll be alright if you don't ask me to stay
Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me
You don't know how you met me
You don't know why, you cant turn around and say good-bye
All you know is when im with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singing....
Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me
Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me
Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me
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How can people post things like:
"willing to relocate to you if you'll have me" or "I'll follow any orders anyone gives me"
seriously folks... who finds that sorta thing attractive?
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Today's "Love Horoscope"
Control
or perceived control is going to take a role in your romantic affairs
today, Virgo. When you feel your control is being jeopardized, you have
a tendency to fly off the handle, so think before you act today. If you
are attached, you aren't too interested in following somebody elses
lead today, but this will pass in time. You will be able to use your
charm and be yourself without being overly confident or aggressive
today. Single? You won't settle much for fleeting excitement or the odd
small thrill. This period is about laying the groundwork for the big
win down the road and settling down with someone very special to you.
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First off I want to say thank you to everyone who read my last entry and felt compelled to take a few minutes out of their busy schedule and send me a message of encouragement. It's meant a lot actually.
That being said, I feel I need to clarify one a thing or two. First off let me be sure to express I'm not "lonely" or sad about my situation. It's a situation of my own choosing. If ever I decided I no longer wanted to be alone, I could snag a boy or man or two and viola. However to me, I'm at a place in my life where I'd rather be alone than with the "wrong" somebody. I don't want A boy - I want MY boy. Any of you who've ever met "the one", know exactly what I'm talking about.... the one that feels like they were created just for you. Like they were literally plucked from your dreams. And as if meeting "the one" wasn't challenging enough, life circumstances/experiences have shown me time and time again not everything that shines is gold. So I have certain standards, and maybe they are a too high? For most... but not my boy. The one I seek will gleefully accept any and every hurdle and eagerly look for more, because he wants me to know just how thankful he is to have opportunity to prove himself and his devotion to me.
A lot of really nice gentlemen have approached me in shock and awe that I haven't found A (they usually never get it right and call it what it is MY boy) boy. How my profile and therefore I am basically everything they (are therefore all subbies dontcha know) could ever hope for in a Domme. And how sad it is that they can't serve me based on _______. Again, I'm not lonely... I have my pick of handfuls of boys to waste my spare time with. But I'm tired of squandering it on something that means absolutely nothing. I'm tired of settling. I'm tired of taking the one with the most in common. I'm finished being the "other woman" or the something not vanilla on the side. I want MY boy, and god damnit I deserve that!
(PS - for the record, I'm not sad, angry, bitter, jaded, disenchanted, depressed, or anything besides courageous and honest.)
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Why is it that even on a site like this, I still feel so alone? Like, I've tried very diligently to make my profile work for me, by being as clear and honest about who/what I am and who I seek - but still almost 5 years on here I have yet to meet the boy that would be mine. Completely mine. I am really beginning to doubt if the one I seek is out there...
I'm not trying to come across as whiny, it's just looking for something can become rather frustrating.
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I'll be in the greater Salt Lake City area 4/24 - 4/25 (I think those are the dates) if anyone would like to know...
Maybe I'll do some shoe/boot shopping then.
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I've decided, I REALLLLY wanna go shoe shopping, I need some new pumps... black, red, hot pink... oh what kinda devastation those will wreck.
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Oh yeah, and I really can't wait to find him, cuz MAN, could I use a cup of tea and an ass licking right now!
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So very recently, I've met some seemingly promising subs here... surprising? Don't get too far ahead of yourself... I know it's easy to do, heck I've found myself racing towards cuffs, collar, and MCD shopping, but so far not one has provided me with the kind of follow up conversation I've come to expect from a boy who is ready to surrender himself to me. And complete surrender is what I seek, now I don't expect it inside Day 1, however if you're practically begging for it on Day 1, hearing something from you on Day 2 seems reasonable.
I'm trying to remain realistic in the whole process and not become jaded or defeated, because I'm still kinda hoping one of these boys will turn out to be *MY* boy.
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Don't you just love it when you think of someone or something and poof there they are... I do and it happens somewhat frequently for me.
For example WAY too early this morning I inexplicably wake up, so I come into my office to check out the net and send a boy a random message about wishing I could sneak into his room and wake him by sitting down on his face. Not long afterwards he pops on and says he woke up at almost exactly the time I sent that message. MMMMMMMM I fucking LOVE that!
Good morning boy! I want me some of that... anyone ready to lay prey to this Succubus?
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Been a lil busy helping create a new virtual community for the fetish friendly...
BUUUUT, tonight I had to get out and the boy and I took My mom out to the 90s (a local gay club) for their weekly drag show. It was so fucking HOOOOOOOOT. And mom seemed to enjoy it too.
If you all ask reallllly nice like I'll tell ya where to read more. *winks*
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I was thinking while in the shower this afternoon... I REALLY like flowers. I mean I ADORE them... and with so many of you out there claiming to adore Me, why is it that My home is completely flowerless at the moment?
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I find that I am often asked what I am "into", even though I spout off at every given (and some taken) turn. I also find that I am also told, "I don't much care for that orgasm denial thing, so I don't think We'll match up very well." or "It would appear that You are a bit of a Sadist, and I am not into pain... maybe I am not Your girl/boy?". I personally find these assumptions to be rather premature and ill-informed.
As a Domme I have the privilge of accumulating people/things to serve My needs completely... I have yet to find that embodied in ONE person. And I don't expect to.
That being said, I AM a bit of a Sadist and DO enjoy hurting masochists, but I don't employ pain in EVERY D/s relationship I have... it doesn't work the same for Everyone. I enjoy being skilled in MANY areas, and being able to read you and your reactions to gauge what works best in the individual relationship.
I personally get off on the power and control aspect and see pain/humiliation/bondage/etc.., as avenues to reach the destination of complete surrender to Me. I don't seek a bloodied, bruised, and broken body, but rather an examined, broken, and remolded psyche.
"What" am I looking for? Hell, I don't bloody well know, but I do firmly believe: I'll know it when I find it.
Does that make any sense to You?
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Merry Christmas All...
My gift to You... be wary of fakes. They DO exist and they are everywhere. And I don't mean your garden variety still-not-sure-who-they-are-wannabes and hurry-and-tease-me-so-I-can-fuck my-spouse-players, but those who set out to intentionally deceive You by misrepresenting themselves.
I interestingly enough just read a profile of a "femsub" who's recently collared and "saving money" to join her owners, from Queen Creek, AZ, funny thing is, I bought the same photo set and own a license to use it, and do so for a web tease in My member's area. Weird.
If in fact I am a cynical jaded Woman, and am wrong, I apologize. AND, have an offer for some work.
Merry Christmas and be smart. Or better yet, how bout if We All just be REAL?
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Just did the ole purge thingie... got rid of lots of wasted time and space...
SOOO if you sent Me a sincere message and haven't heard back from Me don't take it personally... just message Me again.
Ciao
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Sometimes when I read or see something I REALLY like, the best I can come up with is "Wow". It's kinda like I am so enthralled by the object (the image/piece) of My awe that I can't form anything else besides "wow" or sometimes "yum".
It's usually a compliment of the highest form. It's kinda funny, I once messaged Someone with a one word PM... "yum". When She kinda asked for an explanation, this sprung to mind, "I think if 4 letter words are really "bad", then 3 letter ones must be super good!"
*shrugs*
Just more random rhetoric...
MWK
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The funniest thing... I don't really like canned vegetables... but I can NOT stand canned meat. And I fucking HATE canned emails. I really enjoy reading when Someone is moved to take the time to write something to ME. However, I think "form letter" contacts are inexcusable.
I am famous for My introductory "one liners" or even one worders (often "yum"), but each person I contact I am interested in seeing how they reply. AND each message I send is typed fresh... no heat lamps here.
Seriously though, I think the distinction comes from the fact that I am OBVIOUSLY, blatantly just testing the waters... dipping My toe in. I am not sending out the exact same DETAILED "heartfelt" soul baring letter of interest. Just a "hey how are ya?".
I want to meet new People. (BTW, the coffee SUCKED, but the conversation was good, and the car even better. *wonders: how many strokes DOES it take to wear off permanent ink?*) I wanna meet cool new People I have things in common with. I am a dynamic Individual and I wanna surround Myself with dynamic People who really get Me. Not someone who'll be totally happy just getting anything.
So here's My public service announcement... My good deed of the week... IF you are truly moved by Someone's profile... enough to take the few seconds required to pull up your "hey ya want a "no limits" houseboy?" letter2aD.doc and take a deep breath. If you have to fire something off so you don't lose your nerve, apologize in advance and let Them know you plan on reading Their words and responding with some relevant topics and/or questions. Make comments about something specific in their profile/journal and yes even pics for you visually distracted viewers. And use THEIR name, or whatever moniker They've chosen, even if it's not... it FEELS more personal that way.
These small and timely actions will go a long way towards accomplishing gaining the attention of Whom you wish.
Good Luck... and Happy Hunting.
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It's interesting how Fall affects Me. It makes Me feel all domestic. I wanna cook, clean, bake, do crafts, write, create... It makes Me feel so warm and cozy.
It also seems to be in that first part of Fall when I initially turn inward and start nesting (if You will), that I move into a fairly introspective place. The past two years especially, I have become aware of a period of gathering and shedding that I go through. Gathering that which is important/meaningful to Me... bringing it in close and attending to it. And a shedding period in which I discard what is no longer of value or good for Me... moving forward without its burden. Unencumbered.
Interestingly enough, the past two Falls I have been -here- online. Maybe this Fall I'll get it right.
Last year moving outa My Fall "shed"... I met My #1 boy... hb. He's been a blessing, a rock, a dear friend and I cherish him. This year I like to think I've met another boy that could (with lots of time and trying) move into such a cherished slot as My hb. And to think I've been literally tripping over him for a couple of years now. Just goes to show Ya, that which You seek... is probably right under Your nose.
This Fall I will become more actively involved in My local BDSM community while continuing to be a driving Force in the online one, meet and make new Friends while maintaining and nurturing the loyal Friends I've been blessed with, a FINALLY once and for all... breaking an especially disgusting and pathetic cycle.
Those of You interested in this "growth spurt" please do continue to linger...
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I am beginning to really dislike the phrase "I know it's about what She wants, my wants are unimportant."
I mean ok yes of course inna D/s relationship if one's wants are directly converse to their One's wants... then the big "O" or Dom/me should ALWAYS win.
Buuuuuut, with that being said, does it truly mean that your wants (as a sub/slave) are totally "unimportant"?
I think not. I think that inna relationship it's important that both Parties wants/needs satisfy and compliment each Other's. To feel a sense of balance One should give and the Other take.
As a Dominant, I of COURSE require My sub to give Me what I want. As a Person, I long for him/her to enjoy giving it to Me. I want their pleasure to originate from being the one to provide Me with MY pleasure.
Too much to ask?
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I post onna few sites, including My own... one of My favorite thingies to write are just a bunch of words assembled to convey a message.
Here's My latest...
"Locked Words aka Undeniable Truth"
Kneeling...
Everything
Evaporates save
Pleasing his
Mistress.
Enduring it all
Knowing this
Existence
Pulses with
Truth.
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What is it about this lifestyle that makes everything sooooo intense?
Why is it that We can't just be?
Why must EVERYTHING be about fight or flight?
These are some questions that plague My thoughts. I don't like questions like these... they seem so cynical and resigned. I like to consider Myself rather open and receptive, not calloused and jaded.
It's often a conscious effort not to let past experiences become the benchmark for new ones. It's not easy, and it's not nature to remain open and yes even vulnerable once burned.
I don't view it as weakness that a Person remains open and vulnerable... hoping and falling for Another... I think it takes GREAT strength to just close your eyes and step forward.
I appluad those of Us who walk forward, no matter how cautiously.
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So I thought I had it all figured out. I thought the one I wanted didn't want Me, and so I thought if I stopped looking I'd find what I was seeking.
Funny thing is, that which I want DOES want Me, maybe more than comfortable with, and that which I found wasn't what I seek.
Guess I am beginning to see tigers don't have spots, no matter how much they cry about it.
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I love Ani... "Anticipate"
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