This one is a rant so be advised !!!!

I am so sick of the wannabe's on here. I mean really are you serious? WTF do you think? That someone is so damn hard up for the privaledge of beating your ass or whatever that you seriously think you should just pop in and have YOUR needs fixed or met, that I should provided not only the place and my time but all the toys, lubes etc as well? While you trot in get your fix and waltz off until the next time you want to be taken care of?  Screw that and screw you if you think I am hard up. I could fill my home 4 times a day 7 days a week if I wanted to waste my time on losers.  I advise your cheap ass to find a pro-domme and count your worthless ass lucky she would even dirty her hands or toys on you.

I will NOT be pushed, conned or anything else into wasting my time on a player. If  he thinks to meet me and instantly have his 'playtime' he is seriously mistaken. I will take my time getting to know someone then if or when I decide to play I will otherwise, flitter off fools.

Ugh, it seems this site is slap full of the players. Where are the real sub/slaves? I do not seek one who only wants to come and get his 'fix'. I want one who wants the whole package. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I am still waiting to find that special one. Why is it so hard to find one who is loyal and true? Those are the main quallities I seek. He doesn't need to be rich or pretty, just dedicated. One who is able to serve me proudly, no matter if it is he and I alone, or if I am hosting a party. He should be able to be by my side proudly. Yet, it seems to be mostly players on this site.

I will not settle, not for just any old sub/slave. I prefer quality over quantity.

My next one will be true blue or he wont be with me.

I wonder what part of my profile makes these people think they can get around me? I refuse to be anyone's ONLINE Domme.  GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

  I seek someone local who can serve me in real-time. How damn hard is that to understand??????????

Well added a few more pics to the profile on here. I keep getting  people from all over to talk/interview. I want someone local. 

I think I need to start a sub/slave training school.

With great sadness in my heart I had to let go of someone I cherished very much. When I took a blood tie, and placed my collar on him, for me it was serious. When I find that time after time, the loyalty cannot be there and the lies continue, I have to ask myself if I can remain in it any longer. The answer was NO, I have had enough.

  Yes, him getting help might help him out some but, can it ever erase the pain? Will it ever return what has been lost? I doubt it. I wonder if one day he will realize what he so thoughtlessly tossed away? He had someone who really cared for and about him. Someone who wanted to keep him until we both grew old.

  To know that one I called friend was willing to betray me for some quick sex with the collared one, well that hurt me to my soul. Where were the protocols? Why were they dis-honored? Did my friendship mean so little it was worth kicking to the curb for a damn blow job? My BDSM must be different. I would never dis-respect another Dominant by such actions. If someone is wearing another's collar then to me they are HANDS-OFF !!! You don't try to sneak around with them.

  People always amaze me, everyday you learn more, some of it good some of it not so good.

  Well, maybe that good old karma will be biting a few asses, one can only hope.

Just sadly ended a 2 1/2 year relationship with one I dearly loved and cared for. Sadly, I found out about his lies and his online two-timing.

 So now I will search for one, who hopefully can at least be open and honest with me.

  Now the search begins.