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i am back in NYC . I had a wonderful time on halloween but now i m growing tired of nyc. I left ca behind but the shadows of what happened stilll linger. i cant stop talking to my ex. i am famous again so so and miss normalcy again. |
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I have been threw hell recently. The world can be very cruel and mean for a beautiful girl. I feel so Used. I am back in the bay area with my Boyfriend who never had the comon courtsey to take our relationship seriously. His fantasy was to get me pregant. He was OBBesed and used me to obtain the fantasy. I aborted his child today and it killed our relationship and what little love we had. I m looking froward to leaving this place and him behind,. I am going to erase him from my memory and move forward . I will never Date a Client Trick or John and have leaarned somethin g very valuable unless I have a man offering me a fairytale life and is willing to show it I will not be ever be in a UNselfish realtionship or to be used so Badly ever again. A man or woman wih respect for themselves offers many things in relationships and he offered and gave me nothing I feel so robbed of my love emotions and time may he burn in HELLLLL I am so tired of psycho obbesed Fans and will hopefully be more wise in choices for a mate..... |
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I am Back In La And Lovving Life,. I finally had sex with a Very Famous XXX star. I am looking for new adventure and Friends ! I have found my sexuality again |
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I hate this world and my life. I feel like I am wondering threw the world all by myself. I miss my slave teriibly and wish that I had not left him. I feel very used in life and I am tired of it all. I moved uin with someone that does not even bother to ask me why I am so sad. I am not able to work and feel like shit that I sacraficed so much for nothing. I am praying to god that I get a call for escorting to do a outcall so I can get a hotel room and leave this situation . I have not been able to do 500 dollars worth of work to day alone. .I feel so helpless and all alone in the world. I hate Snakes and Thieves. WHy can I never see them untill its to late. |
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I oftten wonder how I get myself into a mess however I know its becasue I am so adventureos. I am livving with a complete asshole and its only been week one. I wish that I had the common sense that god gave me but realize that sometimes life is about trial and error. well I goofed up again. I am mesirble and am livving with someone that is using me. I know that he is seeing more then me and I am miserible. He does not fit any of my needs and tries to tell me what to do! I hate DOminat Men with a PAssion! He is a Fat bastard and I hope that one day when I am gone soon he will miss me terribly! I do not put up with MENS SHIT ! I have my own shit that needs to be put up with. If I am not a goddes in a mans world and him my subject I will leave |
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I m in LA . I want to go big and think O Ihave what it takes. I am striving to live but as I party in Hollywood with talented famous and crazy people I realize that I am just as neurotic as them. I want to be famous and not for porn! |
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I am Very puzzeled by life. I offten fell that I try to make the right decision and fail.I helped out a fellow humanbeing today.It was selfish in nature (business deal) where my intentions sincere or selfish.... I hope she feels as good as I do by helping her... I am now Broke but I believe maybe that the god of Karma will smile down on me.I am very happy with my marriage to my slave(he is now collared to me for life.)I know that the relationship isnt perfect.. But I am madly deeply in love.. The Mistress is loved unconditionally by slave and the Slave is loved unconditionally by his Master |
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I have recently been to LA for business. I feel that all those people that said I was ugly or not good enough i proved wrong. I felt so Beautiful while I was filming. I feel very good in life.I wish I had more money, however I know that it does not Bring me Happieness. I am worried about my dental health however I dont have the money to do anything about it.Something will work out in the end!I am about to lose my Front Teeth and I am worried that this will highly impact my Carrer! I need to do something quickly! |
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I have recently gained 10 lbs due to lack of drugs. I am fighting with myself not to go back and use however the excitement is calling me and sex is never fun sober. I feel that my life is at a standstill . I am in NY and I feel so small in this world. I want to feel Life again and I just dont feel it here. I am newly married and finding out that my sub has some Passive aggressive tendices. I am starting to wonder if the world is really the way I percieve it or am I just Missing the Drug and Sex addiction in my LIFE . I feel the only way my life can be fun is with confusion so here it goes I am Going Back to Las Vegas To Party My ASS off! The TS Bar and Swinger Clubs Are ALWAYS BETTER in VEGAS Oh did I mention the HOT Transexuals in VEGAS HERE I COME GIRLS AND BOYS! |
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I am very proud of myself! I am doing everything for myself and getting everything acomplished!I am looking at life with new excitment again.I have even started wrighting my book! I am on my way with my carrer..and nothing and nobody to get in my way! |
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Im so lonely. I am all alone in my room working in New Jersey .I miss my slave terribly bad. I want him back so bad. I hate being all alone in life. |
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I am very SAd today. MY Slave left me again. I am back in my home town and everything seems so Different. I am a new person filled with big city dreams. I want so badly to be happy in life but I sometimes feel that this will never happen. I need to be worshiped by many Slaves in order to fullfill all of this and finding people who are into the same things in this small town is hard. I am all alone which is never good for me. I hope I can make it threw this troubled time. I really did LOVE my slave. I am so sorry that he left. He even Changed his number. Maybe I should Have Listened to Him. Isn't it a Bad thing to have so much control Over Someones LIFE? Maybe if he would have voiced his opinon more this wouldn't have happened. I wish we could have worked things out. I fill that my life has forever been CHANGED by him. I miss him so much. Why do MY domminat Men Cling to ME and My Submissive MEN RUN! Maybe I need to be a Better Mistress. I always love my Subs More Than My Dominats! |
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Ok so I left my sub, Anyone want to feel His Place? I am new to Florida and thinking about making it my new home anyways I will be here for 2 weeks shooting.... I sometimes feel the older I get the more complicated my Life BECOMES.... Someone Please email me I need some entertainment and southern hospitality . I am so bored here in Forida! |
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