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I'm a female Dom that and is looking for a slave or sub. It can be male or female. I'm kind but yet strong. .. I will only answer E-mails that have photos attached with it or on the profile. Please no photos of your smaller brain as I like to see your soul in your eyes.
I do a lot of public scenes, so get use to be naked in front of others. Come sit at my feet and let me give you what you want. Don't be scared I will hurt you but never harm you.

A little about Me....

I'm a female Dom with over 15 years in the lifestyle and I'm an ordained minister who firmly believes that religion and hot wet sex go hand-in-hand. I tells it like it is, and preaches that a life filled with indulgent sex is a life that’s fun, sanctimonious and worth living. To my critics, my responds is, “What’s the big deal? Our mothers and daughters do it… even the government representatives who want to control how sex is depicted in our culture do it – sometimes in ways their constituents could never imagine.” Now you can see the taped show that run 24 hours of free Kink TV .... Only on

I'm a prolific author of erotic fiction, and a producer/director of reality programs that demystify distyles. My most recent projects include a collection of short stories titled The Erotic Diary of a Beverly Hills Woman (Lulu Press) go to to buy the book, and a DVD series called “The Joy of Sexual Submission” about the BDSM and more. The DVD can be bought on in the store. (adding the Store in a few days)

I also teach S/m open forum at the Lair de Sade in North Hollywood and have been guest speaker at many BDSM events in the Los Angeles area. I love privmal play and know my way around a flogger, whips and so much more.

The Rev Mel is a free live broadcast that is filmed in front of live audience and we take questions from the chat room on during the live show.

We are always looking for informative guest to come on the Rev Mel Show if you wish to be a guest please E-mail us at

I try never to judge anyone for thinking out of the box or living a life that is different then myself. I try to be kind to others and live life with grace and honor. I'm truthful about who I am and where I have been in my life as these lessons have made into the gentle kind woman that I have become. I do try to live a life in true transparency and openness and I have to be true to myself. I live a full rich life full of wonderful experiences that has change the dogma of my thinking. I have learned that I'm not everyone's cup of tea and I don't take that personal as we each grow from our life's lessons and are on different roads.

I'm not a soccer Mom and drive a mini van as I would rather drive in a convertible with my hair flying in the wind and talk about things that people dream of. I can sit in silence in a room but you feel me and wonder who I am from the corner of your eye. Women and men like me because of they somehow feel safe within my energy but most will not understand why. I walk in peace, love and most of all joy but understand the world and why people say and do things.

Chemistry is very importance to me and also a great sense of humor. I like creative men with the love for life and know who he is deep down inside and who can bring out the little boy to play when needed. On a first meeting I would meet in a public place for dinner or coffee and get to know each other. We would learn about each other and see if there is chemistry. Passion in life is importance key to me and the ablity to be kind to others so if your kind and we don't have chemistry we can be friends. So its win, win on both sides. I work at staying positive and being truthful. Please don't mistake my kindness with the not having the ability to make you scream out in pain, as I'm a very strong but loving Dom....



The Rev Mel Show is a live Kink TV show on Rev Mel has interviewed Jay Wiseman, Guy Baldwin, Midori, Nina Hartley and so many other outstanding leaders in the BDSM Community. Watch Rev Mel live on Monday nights at 8 PM PST Only on your place for Live Kink TV...

We are changing the world one Vanilla at a time. I host a Live FREE TV show on and that airs on Monday night at 8 pm pst called The Rev Mel Show. TSRnetwork is the First Free Kink TV broadcasting that airs live and recored shows about all sorts of Kinks and lifestyle.

On the Rev Mel show we talk about adult lifestyles but mostly about BDSM and mix a little humor in the mix. broadcast live TV show about BDSM and interviews with leading BDSM educators such as Guy Baldwin, Jay Wiseman, Midori and so many others. This is archiving the history of our BDSM lifestyle for future generations. We broadcast live and tape each show and make sure that we have this documented for many generations to come. We document this in the form of video and it can be preserved for many years for education and so much more.

Thank you
Rev Mel

We are broadcasting Live again as we have relaunched our shows and moved in to a new space for our Live BROADCASTING OF BDSM TV LIVE ON TSRNETWORK.COM.
I'm Rev Mel and I host a TV show about sex and the lifestyle on Also Founder of BDSM Pride Day a live broadcast on and The TSR People Choice Awards. All Live on Link to Pop-Out Chat Room. Where to watch the show?
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Archives on Vokle or Other sites owned by TSRnetwork… is the Web's first live Network that broadcast free live show about BDSM and the lifestyles. Based in Hollywood, CA, the interactive talk shows combines top movers and shakers in the BDSM community, live interactive chats and a live in-studio audience for a truly one of a kind viewing experience.
We are the Real 50 Shades of Grey.... Shows Produced by M.A.P. Productions and TSRnetwork Studio











 Dominant Female

 Beverly Hills 


 Willing to Relocate

 5' 4"





Actively Seeking:

Submissive female

Sub / Slave Male

A Poly Household

 Lives For:

 Coffee Shops


 Art Galleries


 Fine Dining (Expert)



 Musical Theater

 Renaissance Faires


 Volunteerism (Expert)

 You worshiping my breasts (Expert)

 Disciplining you with a cane (Expert)

 Eye contact with me is not permitted

 Local BDSM Community (Expert)

 You massaging me for hours (Expert)

 Fire Play

 Placing you in masks (Expert)

 Going to munches


 Sensation Play (Expert)

 Plastic Wrap Bondage (Expert)

 Public Play (Expert)

 Role Playing (Expert)

 Sensory Play

 Spanking you (Expert)

 Vibrators (Expert)

 Wax Play



 Comedy Shows (Expert)

 Karaoke (Expert)

 Meditation (Expert)




 Female Sovereignty


 Lifestyle BDSM (Expert)



 Antique Shows

 Bar Hopping


 Fishing (Beginner)

 Flea Markets

 Garage Sales

 Going to the Opera

 Raves (Beginner)


 Violating your rear

 You begging

 Blindfolding you (Expert)

 You worshiping my body

 Tying you up


 Keeping you locked in tamper evident chastity at all times

 You wearing my collar

 Giving you corner time facing the wall


 Feminizing you

 Electrical Play



 G-spot Service

 Disciplining your male parts

 Erotic Hypnosis

 Erotic touch

 You kissing and worshiping my feet


 Gas Masks

 Hair Pulling



 You at the end of my leash

 Massage (Giving)

 Medical fetish play

 Mental Bondage

 Modern Primitivism

 Training you to be completely
obedient to me and only me

 Treating you like an object

 Total control of your orgasms

 Deciding what you wear

 You servicing me with your mouth


 Speech Restrictions

 Dominating you with a strap-on (Expert)

 Theatrical Scenes

 Tickling you while you are bound


 Card Games

 Online Chatrooms

 Science Fiction



 Paranormal Phenomena

 Political Activism

 Cuckolding you





 Housework Service



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12/6/2014 11:06:32 AM
The Rev Mel Show with Guest Miss Tearious all about Sensual Latex
Live Monday night at 8 PM PST on 

We are a talk show with no nudity and we talk about keeping people safe and the community safe. We are not porn and just interview authors and teachers in the life choice.

We are the Real Fifty Shades of Grey Talk Show as we highlight on education, safety and people in the know about this life choice.

The Rev Mel Show Live is an interactive talk show that interviews interesting people who think out of the box.  

 Miss Tearious is recognizable by her vivacious personality and carefree laughter. Not your typical Kinkster! She's a prankster, funster, and a light in a sea of dark goths. She has been in the lifestyle for almost ten years and was a 80's New Waver. It was when she moved to Los Angeles that she started the adventure into this alternative lifestyle.

She is a self-professed "Gateway" to Kinkiness and Latex Fetishist. Her interests lie in helping people explore their fetish in a fun and comfortable way. Miss Tearious has hosted introductory play sessions at club events and private play spaces where she encourages the curious to dabble. "Kinky Fun is nice, so do it twice!" She would raffle a prize but only those participating in the play space would receive a raffle ticket!

She often wears latex in day to day life from just a bow in her hair to a complete costume. She feels that if latex is treated as another type of fabric, more people would be interested in wearing it. As it is, celebrities and pop stars, such as Lady Gaga and Katy Perry, regularly bring Latex to the public.

Miss Tearious produces the quarterly "Locked In..." events which began as Latex Wine Tastings; she plans to expand to additional cities in 2015. Originally focused on Latex Fetishists, the events were all about enjoying latex in an upscale social setting. They have since expanded to include High Fetish, Leather, and High Protocol D/s; though the majority of attendees are still core Latex Fetishists.

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] or click on following links

Pop Up Chatroom,

We are the Real 50 Shades of Grey....





Shows Produced by M.A.P. Productions and TSRnetwork Studio

12/1/2014 12:44:46 PM
The Rev Mel Show Live Monday Dec 1 at 8 PM PST Free Live BDSM Talk show BDSM TV

The Rev Mel Shows Guest will be Entropy other wise known as Entropy156 Monday at 8 PM PST live on Your place for Free live education shows about BDSM.

Emtropy is something of a fixture in the Los Angeles BDSM scene, He got my start in the public play/fetish scene back around 1995 when he wandered into into a club called "Submission" in Orange County, California and met the infamous Master Aryn. He was taken aback by his skills and the level of theatricality with which he applied them...particularly his abilities with a flogger. Like so many of us, he had played in private for years, but until he met Aryn He never knew just how could be. It was there, watching Aryn swing a flogger at Submission that I decided that Entropy was going to do all he could to be one of the best there was at it.

Before long,he was working side by side with this giant of the BDSM scene at West Hollywood's infamous club Sin-a-Matic, where he served as one of the three house dominants for a few years. It was during this time that Entropy honed his craft and technique. During these early years,He experienced my first Cirque Du Soliel show (Alegria) and became obsessed with bringing the feelings he experienced during that show....that grotesque beauty, terror and sense that what you're watching is, somehow, not part of the reality you've always known...and finding a way to apply it to what we were doing on fetish club stages. Also at that time, he was heavily involved in his studies of Kung Fu. At the end of a double sword form he was studying was a flashy salute, the motions of which he realized immediately would look super cool if done with floggers.

Go to: [] or click on following links
Pop Up Chatroom,
We are the Real 50 Shades of Grey....

Shows Produced by M.A.P. Productions and TSRnetwork Studio

12/1/2014 12:42:02 PM

Primal Play with Rev Mel on Dec 6 at 3 PM PST till 6

Come and join us for this amazing class.

Stockroom Hall 2809 1/2 W. Sunset Blvd. Los Angeles, CA 90026   

Primal Play is about touching the erotic and sensual part of who we are. It is flesh on flesh it’s the wild within all of us. The uncivilized part of who we are where nothing exist but the fire of erotic energy. Primal is our foundation of our basic instincts and our animal nature as we embrace our animal nature. Touching, smelling and being creative with our hands, mouth and body it is core of our sexually.

A headspace and mindset and attitude of leaving the body and becoming a nonhuman shift into an animalistic being. It is love making and play at the primal level of our true self.

Primal Play is the release from being a modern human and to be in privative state of mind where we let loose the taboos that are pushed open us. It’s without restraints as a human without shame and to embrace our desirers and back to the basic instincts of our soul. It is expressing passion and sensual energy without restraints in our mind and body and most of all without fear.

This is place where our body and mind fine tunes the most primitive self as we touch that place of letting go and just being in the moment. It is hot and sensual will touch your inner nature of your true self and you learn to a new way to that hidden part of you.

Primal is the raw, animalistic, wild, sexual and uncivilized part of who we are conditioned to be in our daily life. We are taught to ignore, pretend and hide this feeling inside of us and not to share this wild side to the outside world. This exists within all of us and the animal within us is calling us out. Come change the dogma and find your true self as shed the taboo of what others have put on us.

Primal is a consciousness or space as an individual is connected to their animalistic, primal urges and thinking out of the box. It is sexual, wild and hot state of mind and a place where the dance begins.

Open enrollment is now in effect, and just like college, all the best classes fill up fast, so don't get left out in the halls, reserve your space today!

Yummy snacks and refreshments will be served.

9/27/2014 9:47:37 AM

Live on TSRnetwork.come Live Free BDSM TV 

The Rev Mel Show with guest special guest Jay Wiseman Sept 29 at 8 PM PST watch it Live on

Jay Wiseman has over 35 years of experience in BDSM and was one of the early pioneers and builders of the BDSM community in the San Francisco area. He continues to be heavily involved, both in his local area and nationally, as an SM author, educator, mentor, workshop leader, video producer, expert witness, and activist. Noted for being both an exceptionally knowledgeable and highly entertaining presenter, he is very much in demand and has given hundreds of presentations on various aspects of health, relationships, and sexuality in more than 70 cities in the United States and Canada. In 2007, Black Rose presented him with the Vaughn Keith National BDSM Educator Award.

Jay is the author of the frequently recommended book "SM 101: A Realistic Introduction" and the founder of the publishing company that later became Greenery Press. His book, "Jay Wiseman's Erotic Bondage Handbook" is widely hailed as the book that sets the standard of fundamental knowledge for this practice. His instructional videos on rope bondage are excellent resources for both beginners and experienced bondage practitioners. His "The Toybag Guide to Dungeon Emergencies and Supplies" book provides crucial information to both players and dungeon monitors. He is currently working on a number of books and videos.

Jay holds a first-degree black belt in Tae Kwon Do, is a member of Mensa, and lived in San Francisco's Haight-Ashbury district during the Sixties. A former ambulance crewman with years of experience, and recipient of the highest Red Cross commendation for emergency action, Jay now teaches classes in basic and advanced emergency medical care for BDSM clubs and other groups. After receiving his law degree in 2005 and passing the bar exam in 2006, he sometimes works as a part-time law school professor. His areas of special legal interest include providing legal support for alternative communities, teaching bar exam preparation, search and seizure law, and conflict resolution.


3/16/2014 1:40:32 PM

We just launched TSRnetwork Live BDSM TV Broadcasting again. Have a new place for our studio and airing live shows on 

Easy to watch the shows  LIVE on click on this link is the Web's first live Network that broadcast free live show about BDSM and the lifestyles. Based in Hollywood, CA, the interactive talk shows combines top movers and shakers in the BDSM community, live interactive chats and a live in-studio audience for a truly one of a kind viewing experience.!/RevMel

7/29/2013 12:22:50 PM

We just launched an Campaign to get TSRnetwork up and running again. We lost our Studio last year and have been trying hard to bring back the live shows and give you amazing live TV shows on the net. We are a free network and in need of donations to us back on the air-waves. Link to the campaign: [

Let's make a difference in our community and get Free Kink TV back on the air-waves. is a free, live broadcasting network that centers on education and safety. We are the Real 50 Shades of Gray. We believe in Safe, Sane, and Consensual Play and Relationships. We are not your grandmother's TV show; we are so much more.

TSR Network creates live, free, educational TV talk shows for the net. We have broadcast over 3,000 live shows and have saved many lives through our open dialogues. Since its launch in 2009, more than 3 million unique viewers have tuned in. We have been able to answer many questions about this life choice and have educated many on how to play safely.

We lost our studio in Hollywood, CA. in mid-2012 when our building was sold. We put the studio into storage within 15 days of being told that we had to vacate. It took 6 months of construction to build our second floor video village, and we lost it all in 15 days.

Our goal is to rebuild and return to the airwaves as soon as possible. We built a studio with guts and love and the desire to help our community and educate new people coming into the life choice. We are looking forward to building a new studio so that we can bring back our wonderful hosts and get back to broadcasting live, free, and educational shows. Our mission continues to be to delve into the positive aspects of the BDSM life style and to equip our audience and their friends with the tools to understand this path. Honesty, integrity, relationships, negotiation, and trusting your instincts are some of the topics we focus on to equip our audience with the ability to maintain their personal security, while taking fun to a whole new dimension.

We have thousands of tapes of interviews of some of the top national people that help to make our community a safer place. Education and safety is why we do these shows, mixed with lots of humor and as Venus De Mila says, "Lots of Love." One of our goals is to make prior interviews available, while also creating new content and having new discussions. Yes, we may talk about sex and lifestyles, but we also educate. Our shows are done with taste and are loaded with lots of information to keep you safe.

We also produce BDSM Pride Day "BDSM PRIDE DAY is OUR day: a day of unity- a day for BDSM-coming-out – a day of protest against discrimination – a day of celebrations and parties – SM Pride!"
Click on link to watch sample video of our 7 hour Pride Day 2010 broadcast:

When we lost our Hollywood studio, we had just started bringing in enough funds to pay the bills, in order to be self-sufficient. We are, and always will be, a free TV network for our viewers via commercial sponsorships.

The Impact on the World
BDSM has been given a bad rap, because many more people are coming into the life choice and not knowing that they can really hurt someone. Here on, we do talk about safety and give demos on how to not harm anyone. 5O Shades of Grey may have opened up our community to new people, but there is so much learn. We bring you to the table to think before you jump into something that is unknown to you and your partner.

On our shows, our subject matter has included how to clean your toys, how to keep from getting hurt in play, and how to date in the BDSM world. Our interviews have talked about human trafficking; one young lady shared how she survived her ordeal of being kidnapped and held captive for three months. Her important message is to not trust someone just because they say they are a Dom or a Mistress. We have saved lives with our open discussions about this life choice and opened up a continual dialogue on to keep our community safe.
Through our interviews, we bring educators to your living room and give you the ability to call in your questions or post them in the chat room. Jay Wiseman talked about BDSM and the law. Guy Baldwin talked about the mental health aspects of keeping oneself safe. The list is long on who we have interviewed and the important information they have shared. TSR Network offers the first and only programming dedicated to the BDSM life choice and your safety.

The goal of our outreach program is to help young women and men who have been abused in the name of BDSM and to provide them with a safe place to heal until they can take care of themselves. We look forward to providing a hotline with trained volunteers to better assist our community. We believe in Safe, Sane and Consensual relationships based in trust, not abuse.

Other Ways You Can Help
Help get the word out, and make some noise about our Indiegogo campaign.
Share this link with others on the net, and use the Indiegogo share tools.
Volunteer to help out with the live shows when we are up and running.
Donation of clothes and food for our outreach program.

Quote from Rev Mel: "There is not a street in the United States that someone is not being tied to a bed, blindfolded, and spanked. We are not different. We are lawyers, doctors, teachers, and we cross the spectrum of average people looking for a little spark in their lives."

4/30/2013 11:56:44 AM

Over 6000 has viewed my show on 50 Shades of Grey on youtube.

1/3/2013 11:57:45 AM

Over 2000 views on 50 Shades of Grey on my show The Rev Mel Show on youtube..
We are changing the world one vanilla at a time. Live BDSM

12/10/2012 10:50:01 PM

Just finished my show for the night it was about 50 Shades of Grey and how it has affected our BDSM community. Is it a good thing or a bad thing.. here is the link for the show 

12/6/2012 12:09:02 PM

TSRnetwork Android App is now available here

 Now take where ever you go and not miss a show. Live Kink TV on your mobile, I phone app coming soon.

2/27/2012 6:28:36 PM

 The Rev Mel Show Will be talking about Fetish Pride week. Come and join us in the chat room Tonight at 8:00 PM PST Direct Link : Free Kink TV

12/18/2011 5:13:06 PM

Tonight on TSRnetwork is, Is This Normal at 6:30 then 8:30 is Kinky Talk. Here is the link. to watch the shows

 plus join us in the chatroom FREE KINK TV

8/29/2011 12:44:39 PM


Sunday 5PM PST Talk of Heathens ( coming soon)
Sunday 6:30 PM PST Is This Normal with hosts William Masters, Novice and Sin
Sunday 8PM PST Kinky Talk with hosts Darling Nikki, Mistress Isis and Simone
Monday 7PM PST Kink Court with kink Judge Strange(coming Soon)
Monday 8PM PST The Rev Mel Show
Tuesday 7PM Inside Fetish Magazine with host Genesis
Tuesday 8:20 PM PST The Dom Javier Show (starting Late Sept)
Wednesday 7 PM PST Bondage on a Budget with Bondman
Wednesday 8 PM PST Venus De Mila Show
Thursday 8 PM PST Comedy Speakeasy ( at
Launched Pilot of show (on and

If you want to be a guest on any of the shows please send the host an email here on .com or email


Want to be in the live audience please Email us at

We are changing the world one Vanilla at time on

6/5/2011 12:56:29 PM

The Second Annual TSR Awards Show in celebration of BDSM Pride Day 2011.

1. TSR Lifetime Achievement Award

2. TSR Man of the Year

3. TSR Woman of the Year



4. TSR Guest of the Year

5. TSR Chat Room Person of the Year

6. TSR Fetish model of the Year



7. TSR Photographer of Year



8.TSR Bondage Artist of the Year



9. TSR Dungeon of the Year



10. TSR Dungeon Furniture Craftsmanship of the Year



11. TSR Club of the Year

Group or clubs that make a difference in BDSM



12. TSR Event of the Year



13. TSR BDSM Web Site of the Year

TSR cannot be nominated for this award

14. TSR Show Host of the Year on TSR

Rev Mel show can not be nominated for this award


15. TSR Community Service Award

The Community Service Award goes to a person or group, who has given both heart and soul to the greater Leather Community and the BDSM community.

16. TSR Mentor of the Year

17. TSR Toy Maker of the Year

18. TSR BooBooBunny Award

For outstanding kindness in the BDSM community

Who Was Eligible
Any member of the BDSM community is eligible to win awards. We are looking for nominees who have made contributions that have directly affected the BDSM community in a positive way.

TSR awards was voted on by the community and decided by popular poll vote, not by the selection panel.

The awards was presented on air on July 24, 2011 Live on on BDSM Day 2011 for BDSM Pride Day.

If you won last year you still can win this year it's about our community choosing who they feel makes a difference. The staff will choose only one award and that’s the Booboobunny award.

Please nominate your choice by emailing us


2/2/2011 1:36:08 PM

Come and Celebrate African American History Month BDSM on with guests all month long.

We celebrate this month on The Rev Mel Show, The Venus De Mila show and Talk of Heathens. We are proud to highlight the amazing African Americans in BDSM that make a difference in our community.

List of guest in studio and that will be calling in to the show and the list will change as we move closer to the date of this wonderful celebration of African American History Month on

Master Black Zeus
Brian Blaque
Sir Guy
Max Rulz
Tilted Brim
Mistress Tanya
Goddess Sadie
Daddi Ruff
Charmed Blyss

Live shows times:

Talk of Heathens Sunday at 8 PM PST
The Rev Mel Show Monday at 8 PM PST
The Venus De Mila Show Wednesday at PM PST

Again, we are excited about this venture and thank you in advance for everyone that is stepping in coming on the show. If you wish to be on the please contact Mistress Tanya on

We welcome a live audience to the studio at the live broadcasts.
We’re Changing One Vanilla At A Time,

Rev. Mel, Producer/Host
Venus DeMila, Producer/Host
DarlingNikki, Producer/Host
Mistress Tanya, Producer

7/21/2010 3:49:05 PM

BDSM Pride Day Schedule...July 24, 2010 

12:00 Noon-Opening Ceremonies Mistress of Ceremony Rev Mel

12:15-Candle lighting Memorial for who has passed. Mistress Tanya Singing as we remember friends that have passed.

1:00- to 6:00 PM Demos and Speeches BDSM Pride Day Event

1:00 Web cam Kurt Spain who started International BDSM Day July 24 in 2003

1:15  We cam from TX Jezabel

1:30 Web cam Catherine de sade and k

2:000 Live in the studio Ken Marcus

2:15 Live in studio Sophic

2:30 Phone Call in IMP and Mac from Penn

2:45 Live in the studio Mistress Ravensong

3:00 Web cam John Baku from

3:15 Dr Rev Patrick

3:30 Live in the studio Gift

3:45 Live in the studio VenusDeMila

4:00 Live in the studio Mistress Serene

4:15 Live in the studio James

4:30 Live in the studio Lenora Ma'am

4:45 Live in the studio MissPapillion and Rev Mel

5:00 Live in the studioSir Kane

5:15 Web cam Jay Wiseman

5:30 Live in the studio Mistress Cyan

(This List is subject to change as more and more wish to make a speech or demo

6:00 Presenting TSR Peoples choice Awards

6:45 Closing Ceremonies

7:00 End of Show

This is a live Show on to celebrate BDSM Pride Day

7/13/2010 4:20:33 PM
BDSM Pride Day is our day so come and watch the live show on July 24,2010 on Opening ceremonies  start at Noon PST and end with the awards show at 7 PM PST.

Only on TSRnetwork where we are changing the world one vanilla at a time..

7/3/2010 1:19:29 AM

The First TSR People Choice Awards

First TSR people Choice Awards Nominees for TSR Awards Please Vote for your people choice. We wish to thank everyone for sending us your nominations. Good luck to all the nominees as we will be announcing the winners live on on July 24 on during the live 7 hour show to celebrate BDSM Pride Day.

TSR Lifetime Achievement Award

Mistress Cyan
John Baku
Sir Kane
Ernest Greene
Leonora Maam
Nina Hartley
Guy Baldwin
Nancy Ava Miller

TSR Man of the Year

John Cougar
Colin Sir
Master George
Culver City Master
Ken Marus
Sir Kane
Orpheus Black

TSR Woman of the Year

Leonora Maam
Domina Alexandra Snow
Venus DeMila
Mistress Serene
Nina Hartley
Mistress Melissa

TSR Guest of the Year

Ms Shae
Miss Papillion
Simon Blaise
slave kathleen
Lady Lea
Jane Doe
Venus DeMila
Mistress Melissa
Mistress Tanya

TSR Chat Room Person

Lady Lea

Click here to Vote and also to leave a comment, your vote matters! You may only vote once for each category.......

10/29/2009 2:21:53 PM
Coming up on this Monday on the Rev Mel show will be Guy Baldwin and on Nov 9 will be interviewing Midori. Only on at 8 PM PST Monday...

10/27/2009 1:44:37 PM
Wow what can I say,.....

We are now in our new studio and airing 6 live shows a week now starting on Monday.

We are the first Free Live Kink Network on the net that give you the live shows that you like.

Line up for

Monday  The Rev Mel Show  8PM PST
Tuesday   Porno Bobbie  Show 6 PM PST
Tuesday   Talk of Heathens  8 PM PST
Wednesday  Is This Normal 8 PM PST
Thursday   Sex Spaz 5 PM PST
Thursday   Riley Dean Show 8 PM PST is free to join and we put up all the shows as soon as we edit them.. We are adding new shows daily....
We are changing the world one vanilla at a time. 

6/27/2009 9:18:54 PM
Ok I need to find a few subbies that know how to do web sites that have PHP and a subbie that edits would be great too. I have a web site and a show that needs work .. Will spank for pay LOL or Flog or hmmm lets talk ...

3/16/2009 10:38:45 AM
Tonight on the Rev Mel Show will be Jay Wiseman author of SM101. Topic will be The Law and BDSM. We will be taking phone calls and questions from the live audience. Only on The Rev Mel Show airs Live Monday 8 pm pst every weeks with different guest.
Where Adults can be Adults

2/4/2009 5:52:36 PM
Live Dom Auction Feb 7 sponcored by Society of Monarchs and the Lair de Sade


Saturday, February 7th, 2009
6.30pm - 9.00pm.
@ Lair de Sade, North Hollywood.

The Society of Monarchs 
(In association with Lair de Sade)

A Live Dom Auction
& Toy / Gift Silent Auction!

RevMel & (TSR).

Due to unforeseen circumstances, and the narrow minded NING Network, a valuable local resource, RevMel's TalkingSexRadio, is in desperate need of assistance to stay on the air, and operate in 2009. 

The Society of Monarchs, a Brotherhood of Heterosexual Dominant Men, have stepped forward to offer their assistance, and offer the So.Cal community a unique chance to bid on the Dominant of your choice! 

Please consider donating yourself, a toy/item or a service for either the live or silent auction. Remember, that it's YOUR participation in bidding and/or donating that determines the level of success. 

Come to the Insight at Lair de Sade on Saturday, February 7th at 3.30pm, and stay for the auction. Or, come early before the Unfettered Party, and bid on the Dominant of your choice. Most, if not all Monarchs will be available for bidding, with various services offered including: 

  • Play sessions
  • Mentoring
  • Personal 1-on-1 instruction
  • and more!


There's something for everyone (top, switch or bottom) to bid on!

Additionally, there will be a silent auction of donated toys, gifts and services. All of this to benefit our So.Cal based BDSM web forum and broadcast,

The schedule of the day is as follows:
    3:00     Start of Silent Auction
    3:30     Insight
    6:30     Live Auction: Meet the Doms
    7:30     Live Auction: Bidding Begins
    9:00     Start of Unfettered (Play Party)
    10:00   End of Silent Auction

All Dominants will have a full description of their offerings for review beginning at 6.30pm. You will use bid tokens to bid in the live auction. Here is how you can obtain bit tokens:

    • Just for attending either Insight or Unfettered (the play party), you get 100 bid tokens.
    • For each $10 you donate, you get 50 bid tokens.
    • Any non-Monarch Dominant (Male or Female Dominants welcome) who offers a service in the live auction will get 100 bid tokens.
    • For each item you donate to the silent auction, you will receive 50 bid tokens.
    • If it the item you donate to the silent auction has a value of more than $75 , you will receive 100 bid tokens instead of 50 bid tokens.


(Please note that all donations must be arranged at least 48 hours before the auction. 
Please contact "RodSir78 (at)" to arrange a donation.)

All silent auction bidding is cash only, and must be paid for at the auction. 100% of the proceeds go directly to TSR to keep quality kink programming on the air. 

The Lair de Sade is making a special donating to the fundraiser. 

For further information, please email: "RodSir78 (at)".

The Society of Monarchs reserves the right to deny inclusion of any item, person or service offered for auction.



11/10/2008 4:31:22 PM
The Rev Mel Show November 10th at 8 PM PST on

Internet dating, reality and beyond with guests life coach Aranea and dating coach Jonathon A. Not for the timid or the meek as we take this journey and try to answer some hard questions about dating and reality and how to change your life.

Aranea is a CTA certified Life Coach, a member of the International Coach Federation, and the owner of Surrendered Self Life Coaching,, where she specializes in working with clients who live alternative lifestyles, including BDSM and D/s relationships.
Aranea is also a Certified Reiki Master/Teacher and aura healer.

Jonathon A. Online Dating Coach to Single Women After college, Jonathon thought he would live the American dream of finding a great job, getting married, buying a home, starting a family and living happily ever after. That all changed in 2004 when his wife asked for a divorced, his company laid him off and he moved out of his home; not to mention becoming single again at age 40.

To fill this void in his life he began online dating. In fact, he went on a lot dates (he will not tell me how Mostly first dates. All of these dating experiences was preparing Jonathon for a new venture in his life as a dating coach. He has become a "master of the online dating community". In his new book "Are You Date Ready- Online Dating Secrets Revealed", he gives his insight on how men really think in the dating world and the Do's & Don'ts of Online Dating found on his website:

11/8/2008 1:43:41 PM
What a great week and so much is going on. On I have put up lots of videos and photos and what great about its free. I host a TV show there every Monday night at 8 pm pst.
Rev Mel

10/25/2008 1:41:03 PM

Are Female and Male Doms different?

Monday on the Rev Mel Show will tackle this question with two respected Dominants in the BDSM community. Rev Mel's Guests will be Leonora Ma'am and Don Sir as they share their insight on this topic. Join us this Monday and see for yourself if there is really a difference between female and male dominants.

The Rev Mel TV Show airs live every Monday at 8 PM PST on  We invite you watch the show, join us in the chat room and be a part of the show.


 It’s not your Grandmother’s radio or TV its,

The Rev Mel is filmed in front of a live


8/26/2008 12:54:34 PM

Words have many different meanings.


The word Intercourse has many different meanings. The common dictionary definitions are, "a mutual exchange or interchange of ideas” and “sexual relations or a sexual coupling.”  Just about everyone on earth, with the exception of some Nuns, has experienced intercourse as the act of joining two souls… if only for a moment in time. Our grandmothers and grandfathers had intercourse, and while we may not want to imagine the visual, even our mothers and fathers engaged in this sort of activity. searches well over 21 million sites that reference the word intercourse, and the number grows every day.  Take Intercourse, Pennsylvania -- a small unincorporated village in Leacock Township. I only know of this little tidbit because a good friend called Imp is moving there in the fall. What is amazing is that Intercourse is located near the towns of Blue Ball and Paradise in the heart of Amish country. In fact, the film Witness was filmed in Intercourse, so it appears a little bit of Intercourse goes a long way on film. Not far is another city called Mount Joy, which makes me wonder if the Amish have a little bit of kink in them?  


We are all mystified by the word intercourse and what it implies. This most natural act is unspeakable at family dinners and at parties where there are both sexes. Why do people shy away from talking about an act that is so pleasant to so many?   How did such talk become taboo? Thinking back to my days as a virgin, I thought that intercourse would change my world, so it’s no wonder I was the last of all my friends to lose my cherry. Afterwards I thought, “What’s the big deal?” To this day I look at intercourse differently.


I asked a porn star on one of my shows about the last time she made love to someone she really liked. She stopped dead in her tracks and had to think, finally expressing that it had been a long time. As we joked about how long it has been for the both of us, I realized that intercourse has many names. Names like making love, humping the bunny, copulation, bit of skin, a poke in the whiskers, all the way, belly-bump, bonking, intimate, creaming the Twinkie, wanking and, of course, fucking. The word fuck has more than 2,200 synonyms, and intercourse has about the same. I needed to know more, so I typed the word fuck on Google and came up with about 234 million links. Now for an act that we never talk about in mixed company, there are a lot people interested in intercourse.


Most people think the word fuck comes from the acronymic phrase For Unlawful Carnal Knowledge, otherwise know as fornication. But does it? Perhaps it really comes from Fornication Under Consent of the King. Yes… you had to get consent of the king if you wanted to have a baby. Are you confused yet? The word fuck has been recorded in English since the 15th century, and has cognates in other Germanic languages, like fokken in Dutch, which means to thrust.


With more than 2,200 ways to say fuck and intercourse, you would think that mankind and womankind would simply accept that fact that intercourse is natural, and stop making it a dirty act. Let’s face it, we are going to have intercourse till the end of time because it’s enjoyable and it connects us with someone we love for a moment in time. It does not matter what you call it; what matters is how you look at this beautiful act called Intercourse.  As we say on the Rev Mel Show on, keep on fucking.

By Rev Mel
Published in Mag Lost Anarchy

7/30/2008 5:05:17 PM
Lots of great things going on in my life looking for some help with my web site as far as scripting. I know HTML but PHP are still something that I don't understand .. If you're a slave or a submissive that loves to give in the way of service I need your help on my web site ..

Thanks Rev Mel

7/7/2008 11:03:53 AM

North Hollywood, CA – is hosting one of the most fun
and pervy events this July. It's called Kinky Summer, and the event
combines performance art, local leather crafts, and sexy fun in an
all-day party nestled in the San Fernando Valley.

Keeping Kinky Summer sexy will be a belly dancing performance by

Burlesque acts lined up feature Madame Sunset's Hollywood Sex Kittens
and the Myths and Legends dance troupe. Simon Blaise will be present
along with BDSM performers Cirque de Sade. Joining in the action on the
stage will include pervy performers PKL Industries.

"Kinky Summer will be a one-of-a-kind event that merges entertainment
with kinky crafts" said Rev. Mel, the event's producer and founder of "It's also a great opportunity for anyone
interested in the kink lifestyle to celebrate their freedom of speech
and expression."

Vendors are lining up to show off their latest sexy, kinky and fetish
products. Morphine Magazine and Hillary's Vanity are exhibiting. Max
Leather Byrd, Taboo Leather, inTENSe Delights, BunnyFloggers and A and K
Woodcrafts are just a few of the skilled BDSM crafters bringing their
hand-made wares for the kindest cruelty. For the daring, Jeff The Body
Painter will be on hand to provide free body painting.

"Why go to the beach when you can go to Kinky Summer?" joked Rev. Mel.
"It definitely won't be your grandmother's crafts fair."

The fun begins Sunday, July 13th at 11:00 A.M. at Lair De Sade,
Lankershim Blvd.
In North Hollywood. The festivities will continue until
the sun sets around 9:00 P.M. Advance tickets are available online at
for just $10. Tickets at the
door will be $15.

"Where else can you get so much kinky fun for such a low price?" added
Rev. Mel.

For more details about Kinky Summer, whip your browser to

Media and vendor information is available by e-mailing


5/14/2008 2:58:29 PM
I'm going to be on with my co host Tony Bones this evening at 8 PM PST. We are also on on Monday nights Live TV at 8 PM PST... 

It's Not your grandmother's Radio, it's the Rev Mel Show....

5/10/2008 12:23:56 PM

So much has gone on and life is amazing. Been working hard to create my life the way I wish it to be. I do believe that thoughts become things and putting action behind thoughts you can create your life to be on a positive road.


I need to find a submissive or slave that can work with htmls and phps and one that knows how edit films. I’m overloaded with work and wish that each day was 48 hours in stead of 24. But I do believe that hard work will pay off..


So life is good on many levels .. My live TV show is doing great on Talkingsexradio and we are adding more hosts to do more shows.


Rev Mel


2/5/2008 3:16:12 PM

What can I say about last night first live broadcast on TSR_Kink TV on the Rev Mel Show? The night was amazing and I wish to thank all that watched in the chat room. Tony and I are happy with how the show turned out and working to make it even better. We will be airing in the chat room every Monday night at 9 PM PST. Only on


We will not be adding this show to the archives at this moment but will use some of the footage for promos for TSR_Kink TV. Tony and I want to bring you the best show that is possible. This first show was a dry run to see how well the new programs were working. If you saw the show last night we would love your input.  We are working on some of the issues that we feel that can be improved to make your viewing more pleasurable. For the first show we think it went well and can only get better with each time. Hope you all enjoy the shows on TSR_Kink TV that are coming in the near future. As we say on the Rev Mel Show with Tony Bones “keep on fucking, it’s not your grandmother’s TV”.

Thank you,

Rev Mel

2/4/2008 4:24:38 PM

The Rev Mel Show will be live this evening on in the audio and video chat. We have some great guest coming on the show and this will launch the TV part of TSR...

Rev Mel

1/16/2008 11:46:49 PM

Wow, what a weekend I had, just got back from Vegas and had a ball and it's a New Year.  This year we are in store for some great changes on

We are excited about how fast is growing into a 1 community for kink minded folks that believe in the freedom of speech. is building up the membership and we now have over 1100 photos that members have posted to our Photo page. We just added a new chat and whose online feature to social network so can connect with all your friends on We will be keeping the audio and video chat to broadcast our shows live on coming in a few weeks, but now you can see who is online and chat with them right on your page.


The Rev Mel Show will be going to air live on video in a few weeks in the chat room. Plus, if you miss a show you can see again on TSR_Kink TV that is coming soon to We are adding two new shows to the radio part of TSR_Kink Radio and they are SwingerCast and Submission and Coffee in the next few days. More shows are in the works for TV and Radio this year and we are looking for new show ideas and host to make your place kink. will be having a contest on creative names to name the Tabs on social network. So will you be the one re-name all the tabs or just one? We will announce what the prizes will be and have you on The Rev Mel Show by phone or in person if you live in Los Angeles. Plus looking for new host for TSR_Kink Radio and will have a contest on who will be the next new host or hosts. So you see we are planning a lot of new changes to and our members will a part of all the new changes but what does not change is is a your place where you can be your kinky self without losing your freedom. crew went to the AEE Expo and covered the red carpet and got some of your favorite porn stars on tape. Yes, it was porn star after porn star and we got some great photos and video from the event.  Got to meet Andrew Blake and did an interview with him for The Rev Mel Show, plus so many others. The first night met Sunshine Thomas and the guys from Vavoom films. Got the Vavoom owners on camera talking about where they want to take Vavoom Films.  Should be an exciting year for Vavoom and Sunshine Thomas as she makes her last porn film with her contest winner Chris from Pennsylvania, what a lucky guy.


Tony Bones my co-host was there with our crew and we got some great interviews on tape and will be posting them soon with photos. Tony did the first night of interviews at the Adult party at Rum Jungle with host Ron Jeremy.  The second night I interviewed some hot porn stars some that have been in the business for years and a few new up coming porn stars. I got a few hugs and kisses from some of your favorite porn stars both male and female. One of the highlights of the weekend was meeting Harry and Ron from StarWorld that were hosting this event along with Sean Michaels and Ron Jeremy.


We went to the AVN Awards show and AEE to get as many interviews as possible and will be posting the interviews on very soon. The AEE expo was packet to the brim with Porn stars and fans as cameras and video cams roamed the event. Looking forward to going next year and catching it all on camera and to all the won at the AVN Awards congratulation from

11/9/2007 1:18:59 PM

So much is going on in my life that is good. I'm going to be having an event at the Lair de Sade on Sunday Dec 9, 2007 called Kinky Christmas. We will have great kinky vendors and performers and a spanking santa's booth with both male and females Doms. We will be having a raffle of kinky toys and a bake sale. The Spanking Santa's booth, raffle and kinky bake sale will go to AID's Healthcare Foundation.

Kinky Christmas will on Dec 9th at The Lair de Sade
6628 Lankershim Blvd
North Hollywood, CA

Advance tickets are $10.00
At the Door tickets are $15.00
For more infomation or want to be a vendor please go to talkingsexradio..... on the net

9/26/2007 12:59:59 AM

Finding Bliss in Life
Current mood: peaceful

Many new things are going on in my life. Dating a few really nice men and my sites are doing great. I guess hard work does pay off and now my life has changed for the better.  I dream of a house on the beach and now I can see that dream beginning to happen. Its amazing on how thoughts become things and if you put out positive thoughts how you and manifest your life for the better.

Looking over the past few years and my lessons that I learn, I learned that you can love someone so deeply and yet still let them go in your heart. I sleep well now knowing that my heart has healed and my soul is at peace.  Giving back to this world and not taking has been a healing place for me to be.

I look in the mirror and see the real me and see others for what they are. I'm selective on my choices and listen to my inner voice and I have learned to pay attention to my feelings. If it does not feel right then it is not right and you can push yourself to loving someone that you don't respect.  But that will kill the spirit at the end of that long road. Honest and respect and integrity are what I look for in lover or a friend now I have learned my lessons well.

God is in the heavens smiling at me as I know that God has watched over me and helped me grown to be a kinder person. I do believe what you do in life will come back to you if not in this lifetime another. When we are not truthful to yourself or others it pays heavy on our mind body and soul.

I have learned to be quiet and to listen to others round me and be aware of my feelings and thoughts. This years has been a blessing and now with my sites doing well, dating again and being treated like a lady I now understand why things happen. I rejoice in all the happiness that I have worked hard for. Without working for something in life you know the value of things that are given to you. To day I make better choices and only then can I find my bliss in life.

Walk in peace, love, joy and the light... smile it cost you nothing...

8/13/2007 11:24:37 AM
Wow life is good.... I'm seeing some really nice subbies both male and female. I really enjoying life and looking forward to some up coming play dates with some really nice subbies. My show on Talkingsexrado is doing great and we now have sponcers for the show. I'm still eating right and two of my sites are doing really well. I went to the Hollywood bowl on sat night and had a wonderful time then went off to the Lair for some erotic fun. Life is wonderful and I'm so very happy. I do believe what you do in life will come back to you and I'm now receiving so of the nice things that life has to offer. I am truly happy and feel that it will only get better... MY show the Rev Mel on Talkingsexrado is doing great and will taking some wonderful trips and dating some great men and woman and working on a poly family.  Is life not grand I think it is and its getting better and better What about you is your getting better???? LOL kiss kiss to all the wonderful subbies boys and girls out there .... You all have made this Mistress truly happy. Still looking to add more to the mix of my poly family ...  

5/25/2007 11:53:00 AM

Some of you may not know but I also have the Rev Mel Show on Talkingsexradio and heatpartyradio and the Rev Mel Show is going to be on Ksexradio  coming in June.

Does life get any better than this? What a great weekend went to Geffen and saw a wonderful play and then hopped over to the Lair for Female Dom night. It's called Venus and Rev Mel has her groove back. I really enjoy my scene with a new friend that can sure take my primal play. It felt good to back to playing full force.

Last night we recorded our show from the Lair De Sade at one of their play parties. Our guest was Kane the owner of the Lair and many others including Ksex host Baadmaster. The Rev Mel Show is looking forward to joining the Ksex family of kink and porn. Our show last night will be in two parts and please look for the first part at a live play party at the Lair. It's the first time that the Lair De Sade famous BDSM club allowed any audio to be taped at the Lair. The night was exciting and fun as we listened to people getting spanked and flogged in the background.

 This is only the beginning for the Rev Mel Show with Tony Bones as we have more clubs and place to tape our show like strip clubs and other places. Own a club and want the Rev Mel Show to do a show there please E-mail alupo at talkingsexradio
Please tell your friends about The Rev Mel Show with Tony Bones its not your grandmother's radio. It's where real couples, real people talk about real sex and keep on fucking.

5/3/2007 11:21:02 AM

The gift that life brings to oneself is an amazing process as we learn about ourselves. Reflecting back over the year from May 2, 2006 to May 2, 2007 so much of my life has change. The past year completely shook the foundation of my universe and I was forced to look at myself and really open my eyes and my heart and see me for the first time. I have learned to transform hurt and pain into healing and now I travel on this life journey with hope and love.  The past year my emotional base was rocked to the core and I found it essential to move through the pain and let go of who I thought I was.  I became a different person on many levels. Some of the lessons that I learned was not take out anger towards another and nothing will stay the same as each day changes. How extraordinary life can be even when one is pushed into letting go of love ones. I think the turning point of this year when I decided to really look at what I give out to others and to take responsibility for my actions in life.  I have been working on bring out my true colors and they are colors of love, peace and harmony.


I never thought that I would be alone at this age or to not to have someone that I love hold me on the eve of my birthday. On Tuesday night the day before my birthday I shared with friends and my daughter at the LA Social and it was wonderful seeing every one. On my birthday I stay in and was quiet and was at peace. I went off my diet and eat what ever I wish and read and worked on an art project and was at peace. I did not feel sad or at a lost I felt very centered and full of love with in me.


I inspire to have success in my life and have felt closer to my soul knowing that the pain of the past year was a great teacher. It forced me to go inside and see who I was. I am a different person that has learned what my strengths are and I can’t run away from myself. I have face challenges with courage, clarity and fortitude this past year. I struggle with issues of abandonment and victim hood. In end I learned that I no longer had to be a victim to life but that I can inspire to be as I wish and that is strong living woman with so much love to give.  I feel as if I have a rebirth on many levels because I stop blaming others and took good look at what I put out on many levels. I have found my spiritual path once again and consciously came back to myself.  This journey inside can only start when you free yourself of anger and connect with the creative part of who you are.  So moving through the pain into personal transformation and rebirth has been the catalyst for creating a greater place of strength, wisdom and love.


Forgiveness and letting go and surrendering to knowing that I’m not able to control others and I can only control myself . Most what I have learned is the willingness to receive love from others. Pain got my attention this year past year and had placed me on new road of wellness and now I see my authentic and transparent self. I have found happiness within me and peace, love and joy. What a wonderful birthday present to myself and it’s a gift that enhance my life.

5/1/2007 11:05:25 AM

May 2 is my birthday and many things in my life has changed and I have learned many lessons.
Life is a journey and you never know where it will take you. Finding one center is a journey in its self and I am learning many lessons on how to be grateful for my life. I try to see life from only positive eyes and I'm learning more about how to be positive in this thing we call life. I have learned that money does not make you happy but knowing who you are and loving oneself has so much more richness than having things. I don't love myself from an ego point of view but from that gentle place in the soul and from the heart.


I will tell you a story about something that I saw many many years ago. I was driving my car and I turned and looked at the car next to me. In the back seat was this very old woman with very white hair and very pale skin. I looked into her eyes and I saw she had such peace in her eyes when she looked back at me. Her eyes were so blue and so peaceful and I wanted to know what she knew that I did not. I remember her like it was yesterday and it had to about 20 years go when I was young and carefree. My quest in life is to find that peace within myself. She smiled at me only for a moment but from that one glance, it was a true moment in time that I will never forget. How does one find such peace in their eyes like that.  I do believe that she was an angel giving me hope of my future and letting me know things will ok if I just open my eyes and see.

I hope you enjoyed this story and yes I would love to hear some of your stories and who knows you might be my angel and or I might be yours.  Angels come in all different forms and times and places, even on myspace.

Walk in peace, love, joy and the light….

4/2/2007 5:56:07 PM

What a great day, I just got out of the pool and had a great work out. As of today I have lost now 85 pounds and working on losing a few more. Swimming in pool has been helping me lose weight again. I had three months and no weight lost and I did not really cheat because I'm not on a diet I just changed the way I eat and how I looked at myself. 


I have been dating a lot lately and meeting some really nice men. I had a date or what you call a meet and greet on Tuesday night. He was very nice looking with beautiful blue eyes. We had a really nice time and I do believe that we will be friends for a very long time. On Thursday I had two dates one for dinner and one for drinks. They both might be keepers but if I was to pick from my point of view right now it would be the second date that night that I would like to see again. He is taking me to dinner on Sunday night and I'm looking forward to it. He is fun and very passionate and has a great smile. I enjoyed my time with him and he gives wonderful hugs. I'm taking it slow as far as dating to make sure I really know someone before I let them into my life. Both men on Thursday have great careers and do lots of traveling and are elegant and classy. They are both my age and both are very sweet men. It's going to be a toss up on who will win out. Any one wants to take bets on who will win my heart? I will be dating others also to see what is out there but now I know that there are so many quality men out there that work hard and that can be trusted.


So my journey of dating has begun and so far I'm meeting really nice men and some not so great but I'm paying attention to my gut feeling as I should have in the past and did not. I feel so good, health wise and my emotions is very much centered and I'm on a good path of bring to my life the things that I wish. I'm so grateful for the way my life is turning out and the quality of people that are coming on to my path of life. I am truly blessed with so much love and joy and I have found my center. I am at peace with in me and at peace with where I am at in this moment in time. I really do believe that thoughts become things and we can manifest positive experiences into our lives.


My life lessons the past few months have been about how I take responsibility for my thoughts, words and actions that I project to others. I have learned that one must take care in not hurting others or myself. I have dissected my life these past few months and have looked at my actions and I know I can sleep at night with peace knowing I have move on with my life with grace and understanding. Finding self love is worth the pain and hurt on this journey we call life. I have learned to never lie to myself that I'm happy or make believe that everything is ok because I do feel that my weight gain was brought on by not really being happy with the way my life was turning out. Looking back I realized I was not living the life that I wished and I was deeply affected.  Happiness is not more money or having that perfect person in your life it's about knowing yourself and never lying to yourself or others. Its is knowing that you can close your eyes at night knowing that you have cause no harm another and that your actions and thoughts are from a positive place within your soul. It's like the veil has been lifted and I can once again see the light, because when you find yourself from that place of joy and love it's an amazing life in which we can manifest. I manifest now in my life, health, love, joy, peace, wealth and most of all the light. Most of all I am thankful for my life lessons for they are what have brought me this place at this moment in time, a place of love and kindess. 

Walk in peace, love, joy and the light….  

2/22/2007 2:40:21 PM

The red dress, the red dress was kind of a coming out for me on many levels. I was opening up to the me inside of my mind, heart and body. Last Saturday night at the Lair I had worn something that was out of creature for me. Being a woman that dresses only in black, I made a bold statement that I like me again. Red was a color that I would never even consider to wear or even to buy.  But a few weeks ago I bought two red outfits and never really thought that I would really wear them but alas I did grace my body with them both out in public.  I think the statement from wearing the red was that it was closer from my recent past and saying to the world I’m sexy, beautiful and open to life. I would joke round and say that my life was in mourning and black was my color. My life is not in mourning and I’m alive and discovering the sexy lady that lay so dormant for so many years. The red was not only that I had closer and that it was an expression that I want to attract a wonderful sexy, bright, handsome man into my life and that I was ok with me.


So Saturday on many levels was my coming out to me on and to others that I like me again and that I wish to open to myself up to others. As I walked around my club and saw friends in my red dress it was nice on how many noticed that I had on color and as I was told by a friend that a few men were drooling over my red dress. I it felt good to that men were looking and liked what they saw, it was a long time coming. This is not the ego talking but it’s from the core part of whom we are and that we all have the need to feel sexy and wanted. For so many years I was not really a wall flower but did not really flirt or was not open to men flirting with me. My past lover was the one that flirted with everyone as I sat back and watched and was hurting inside. I really don’t that was healthy for me and I know that it took away some aspects of my sexual being and self worth. It made me feel undesirable and unwanted but most of all unloved. He would just say that he was just being himself and he forgot that there was two people in the relationship and never stopped until I felt no self worth sexually.  But that is my past and now I can say that I like me again. Losing weight has helped a lot to feel good about me and having men flirt with me again has been a huge eye opener as to the possibilities of my sexuality or that someone would want me. My last relationship hurt my sexuality greatly and how I looked at me. With hindsight and closer I realized that I’m once again a very sexual being and am enjoying the act of flirting again. A week ago I sent a closer letter to my ex lover and it felt good to let it all go and so in my celebration I wore the red dress to mark a new beginning. I have learned so many lessons about me these last few months and I learned that we as human should never let anyone take your sexuality away from you. Sexuality is a state of mind it’s an expression of the primal core in each and every one of us. The red dress will be remembered in my mind for years to come and what it represented to knowing me again.


Walk in peace, love, joy and the joy and don’t forget to wear a red dress sometimes

1/11/2007 10:40:51 AM

This is my first blog entry for the 2007. Reflecting on 2006 what a year to learn about oneself and change. As most have known that my other haft and I parted ways and it was a hard time for the both of us. From it all I have learned that I wish to cherished and loved. I got use to being along again and recreating my life from a positive place. I have lost 75 pounds since the end of June and have learned to love myself again but not from an ego point of view but from love.

I really don’t know where 2007 is heading but I know that I have to let go of the past and move onto my future and I have to do that from a loving place.  I’m also learning to forgive and that is a huge lesson for me. I forgive my other haft and set him free and all the rage and hurt that goes along with it. I am learning how to just be and breathe.

11/16/2006 5:03:19 PM

Wow, Today I lost all together 60 pounds and feel wonderful and feel an awaking settings in my life. So many good things and people have come in to my life. I had hot heated love making with a very handsome man name Fernando and he recharged the goddess within me. He is a trainer and very elegant and is aware of beast within him. He made me laugh and see that I'm a beautiful woman. He lit the fire within me and sparked a release. He is an amazing man which I might see again or not but it does not matter because it was pure and a wonderful gift.

I am being very careful about who I let into my private life and making sure that the anyone I'm with has class and knows who he is. I made mistakes in the pass and now understand that men from the lower class have nothing in common with me and they will only attract women that belong in a trailer park. Looking at who I am and knowing that I made many mistakes and miss judged myself. I know that I'm better off and I'm free now to love someone of quality and someone that can really love from the heart and never lie or cheat on me again. I look for a man of honor and his ability not to talk from both sides of his mouth and his actions must be from a place of love.

My journey has been long and hard but from it I am finding the light within me and will never make that mistake of lowering myself down to a lower level because I wanted to be loved. The blinders are off and I now know a good man when I see one.  No longer will I be lied to and miss lead down a path of pain and selfish ego. My path is much better now then where I was at. I'm blessed with this hindsight and come to a place of relief and release.

I feel as if I have a new fresh start and know what I want in my life. With doing so well this has giving me so much hope for a bright future. CNN stated that was a site to watch and from their lips to Gods ears. I do know that Thoughts become Things and I will own my house at the ocean and all that I wish for because I know my dreams will come true and I do know that I'm in store for some good karma. I have found so much peace within myself in a gentle way not from ego but from love. I walk with my head up high and know I'm in the right place at the right time and my future is bright.  I do believe what you do in life will come back to you and there is good Karma and bad karma, there is no way of getting around it. I chose to be a gentle soul and be good to others but most of all be good to myself and keep myself safe. To love others but to keep my mind set on a goal of always keeping an open mind and really see the big picture of life. My friends have taught me many lessons on this journey to oneness.

Thank you all for your love and support.
Walk in peace, love, joy and the light.
Rev Mel

11/10/2006 1:10:59 PM

Well another new photo has been added to my profile. I have been losing weight 55 pounds and working on more. Lots of nice changes in my life. My new web site is doing really well and I'm learning about me again. I had a wonderful scene with a very pretty female sub at the Lair a few weeks ago and it was nice getting my Dom cap back on. Meeting a lot of new subbies and getting feet wet again. Life is what you make and thoughts become things .... Becareful what you wish for because you might get it ... Walk in peace, love, joy and the light....

6/14/2006 11:15:29 PM
 ... Life has changed.. This photo was taken on July 13 and its for a new beginning. My last photo I was not smiling and every hair was in place. Today I embark on a new positive road to attract only the posiitive people and things into my life. What you think wll bring it into your life ..Its an beginning .....


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